Psychological problems

I am having some problems at the moment and have been trying to repertorise things, but it is very difficult for yourself, as is often mentioned on this forum. I have been trying to get an appointment with a homeopath, but until then I would value any thoughts from readers.

One note, before I write my history: I have used homeopathy successfully in the past. However, I have been unable to succesfully find a cure for chronic eczema/psoriasis. As a result I try to steer clear of any of the great 'unsurpressors' as aggravations have historically been unbearable.

Background:
I am 34 year old single, gay man, working for the church (Christian).
I am an only child.
Father: diabetic, hig BP, high cholesterol (his Father died with Alzheimers)
Mother: historically very healthy, recently diagnosed with Cirrhosis (her father died with Parkinsons)

5' 8', stocky build, light brown hair, very hairy body, some moles

I am generally a hot person

Fear of spiders
Love thunderstorms
I have masturbated daily from a very early age.
Hurt by criticism
Friends consider me to be entertaining and sociable

History:
Eczema, Asthma, Depression, Psoriasis, Psoriatic arthritis, Herpes, developed in that order

Current Problem:
Sense of despair/horror/hurry, wanting to cry
This comes about as a result of specific thoughts/patterns of behaviour
When I am stressed I play music very loudly to calm down or go 'cruising' for sex. During such activity it is as if all the stress and worry in my life is suspended. I realise that the looking for sexual encounters is less to do with sex and more to do with not wanting to feel alone.
However, I am careful never to get talking with any of the guys. Because, if I do, and they are at all nice to me, I become obsessed with them, thinking about them all the time, fantasising about what a wonderful life we could have together. When they do not call I become histerical (and at worse have suicidal thoughts) and feel abandoned. My rational mind knows this is ridiculous.

The psychological symptoms are accompanied by a weight on the chest or fluttering feeling in the chest.

When I look back over periods of depression I can link them to the break up/failure of relationships.

In therapy I have talked alot about bad relationship with my father, a sense I sometimes have of being 'special' (at worst superior), and my feelings of loneliness as a child. i am currently trying to restart therapy.

The very first time I felt the sensations that I now describe as depression was when I was a child staying away from home. I was about 8 and staying with relatives. I remember crying in bed histerically feeling homesick and alone.

Modality:
The symptoms are worse in the late afternoon and early evening.
I tend to feel better when I have had some alcohol but try not to drink too much because I can see that I could easily move into addictive behaviour.
I love to read/study/learn and find that study can relieve the symptoms.
All symptoms worse before thunderstorm but relieved when the storm breaks
I usually feel better for exercise (gym 4 times a week) if my motivation is not stifled by depression

Food:
I love cooking, eating and drinking with friends.
I am allergic to coffee and lamb (but I love both of them).
I hate anchovies.
Often thirsty and prefer very cold drinks

Sleep:
I sleep better if I go to bed about 10, but rarely get the chance to.
I do dream (but rarely remember them)
Last night I dreamed there was a dead body in the cellar of my house.

I have come up with: Platina, but I love children
Lil-t, but I love coffee
Thuja (partly because I think I am constitutionally Phosphorous)
Arg-n

I would be interested in hearing any thoughts on the above.

Many thanks.