houswife and mother/Depression

hello i would appreciate if a doctor will respond to me.

I am a 24 year-old housewife and i have a 17 month old boy. Ever since he was born i believe i have had post-partum depression which when untreated and now i feel terrible and need desperate help. here are my symptoms

I get impatient, irritable and even angry with my baby when he doesn't sleep or do other things i want him to do. I raise my voice at him sometimes which makes the matters worse.

I have thoughts of hurting my baby too, however i have never done it. but i do get very angry sometimes and it's not getting any better as he's getting older

I am not able to give him the love and attention i should give him, and sometimes become very indifferent to him, and say things like 'leave me alone' to him. However, deep down inside i know i love my baby.

sometimes i feel very helpless and feel that i have absolutely no control over matters especially when it comes to my baby, and it makes me very worried and stressed out.

i feel very weak and tired all the time and sometimes don't wanna come out of bed.

i have absolutely no interest in doing house chores, and they seem like a burden to me.

my baby seems like a burden to me.

there have been times when i have seriously considered suicide.

i feel hopelessness

sometimes when things get way out of control, i cry like a baby.

my memory is becoming poorer and poorer

I am not able to concentrate and focus very well either

i have headaches sometimes, but not that much.

i obsess about matters that really shouldn't bother me at all. like i am obsessed with my sister-in-law (my husband's brother's wife) who lives thousands of miles away from me and has nothing to do with my life, yet i feel jealous of her, and feel that i am in competition with her when it comes to the attention and affection of my parents in-law. so i think ill of her for no good reason all the time. i have met her only once in my life, and we didn't really hit it off that well, but that didn't bother me that much before, but now she's on my mind all the time, and i am thinking, i wonder what she's plotting against me now. i don't want to be worried about these petty things.

then i get very obsessed with religious discussion boards. whenever i post a message on any board, i think about it all day and obsess about whether or not somebody has replied or not.

i am obsessed with facebook, and i ignore my child when i am on the internet, and when he cries or does other things for my attention, i get get very impatient and angry with him.

i have lost touch with almost all of my friends, and miss them terribly

i don't feel like going outside and making new friends. i just don't like the idea of leaving the house period, cuz i am always feeling so tired and not up for it.

i feel very lonely sometimes, and wish that somebody was by my side to help me.

these symptoms get worse in the evening when my husband comes home.

i am not able to communicate very well what i am going through to my husband, and he thinks that there's nothing wrong with me, and i am just a lazy person and i need to snap out of this. he is offering absolutely no help, instead he gets upset with me when my symptoms are at there peak, which makes matter 10 times worse

these symptoms worsen a few days before my period.

i would say that i have been suffering silently and one day i might explode.

i did some research on homeopathy medicines on my own and found four remedies that i think perfectly address my symptoms. but don't know which one to take or if i can take all of them, and how much to take and how often. those remedies are

Natrum Muriaticum
Sepia
Ignatia
Pulsatilla

so if any homeopaths are reading this post can you please tell me judging by my symptoms which one or ones i should take and in what potency and dosage?

i will appreciate all the help i can get.

thanks