Anger outbursts

Thank you for your reply. I didn't see this reply until now. I recently discovered that Sepia is a perfect fit for me and took 30c Sepia today to see what would happen. I already seem to be having an aggravation from it. So much back pain especially lower back and headache and sooo tired and just don't want to do anything! I was thinking of seeing what this one dose does over the week. This seems to be my constitution remedy based on the description. I wish I understood more about dosing though.

Would you recommend Nux vom in this mix somewhere? I see that Sepia is 'complementary' to nux vom? What does that mean exactly??

Thanks!
Jen

hi peace4you,
pl.send replies to the questions below to enable me to work out the appropriate remedy for you.

1.name: Jen

2.age 34

3.sex female

4 .profession - was pursuing a career in health care / doctor before becoming severely ill... wanted to interact personally with patients to help. Now a stay at home mom was totally unable to do much of anything from 1997 until 2004 or so.

5. Finally 80% recovered...very long term antibiotics/antimicrobials IV and oral plus alternative methods/herbal/supplements and mind work for late stage Lyme Disease (spirochetal disease). Remaining symptoms are:
-mild/moderate depression
-mild/moderate anxiety
-anger outbursts especially during period
-back pain, joint pains, headaches sometimes severe
-fatigue
-hypoglycemia (from childhood)
-difficulty concentrating, focusing on tasks

5a how do you cope with the disease i.e. what the disease forces you to do?
Forces me to rest when I don't want to. I don't like to rest. I always want to keep busy and move. Muscle pain forces me to rest. All pain is better temporarily with hot baths/compresses and rest.

6.any medicine taken or not.
Recently took Sepia and then Sulphur. Just started some Grapefruit Seed Extract today. Have been off of antibiotics for many months but other psych meds for only a few months and just stopped continuous birth control pills (progesterone.. no periods).

7.do you ever think about your disease or not? if yes what is the thought process.
I get angry when my symptoms bother me. I sometimes get sad inside if they keep me from interacting with my daughter or taking care of the house. I don't often think about my disease, but I'm often thinking about how to help my husband and daughter get well.

8.write about your nature in general.
Difficult to say. I tend to be inside my head. Considered intelligent, not extremely interested in friends but friendly and helpful. Love books, learning about various topics including science, religion and politics and art.

9. any change in moods during the sickness pl.explain.
At worst I became very depressed and anxious and was on medication and once was hospitalized. No longer taking any medication (for months) and seem to be doing ok now.

10.what makes you angry and what do you do during the period anger stays with you.
I get very impatient and frustrated. Seeing my daughter struggle with things that 'should' be easy upset me but instead of crying I get angry. I get angry over all of life stressors when I have my period. I try to keep it to myself but it comes out anyway with me being irritable.

11.any repentence after getting angry. if yes how much time after getting angry you feel repentent.
I feel repentant immediately. I get angry at myself for lack of control. I wonder if I need to go back on medication or rather I fear getting insane.

12.liking for music?
Yes, although I don't listen to it very often. I like calm acoustic music that is relaxing. I like to play musical instruments.

13.your appetite, thirst and sleep. pl. explain in brief.
Lately my appetite cannot be satisfied no matter what I eat. Always want to eat. Now I'm fat when I've never been before except while pregnant. I'm often thirsty but don't drink that much. My sleep tends to be light and very broken up. Often on high alert when I wake up.

14. speak about your bowel movement.if constipated since when.if any history of piles or bleeding or pain during or after stool.
Until very recently, stool has been soft and at times diarrhea... stopped eating gluten and dairy which made me feel better overall, but stool didn't change. After Sepia and Sulphur, stool is now very firm and small movements. No pain or bleeding. Always been very regular.

Now when I eat any gluten, I get severe cramping/diarrhea and very fatigued and sick, gone in a few hours though. Celiac disease is possible but I won't go back on diet to get tested. Not worth it.

15. how your body reacts to heat, cold or weather change?
I like warm, dry weather. Hot, humid weather I feel like I can't breathe (asthmatic). I get cold very easily especially my hands and feet. Feel horrible in very cold weather but like cool air to breathe. Love warm dry weather like spring or early fall.

I have hay fever, allergies that trigger asthma symptoms.

16 your liking for sweets or saltish.
Definitely salt all of my life. SALT on everything.

17.menstrual history (in case of females)
Very painful and heavy from puberty. Developed endometriosis and scarring internally... damaged fallopian tube. Most of the pain is cramping/labor-like into my lower back. Was taking continuous birth control pills until just recently. Was bleeding constantly during the month until pills. Not sure what it will be like now after being on the pills for about a year.

18.any other information or symptom which you feel is relevent and connected with the main disease may be mentioned.

Really not sure.. just trying to heal whole self... mind and body. Releasing past hurts and building up self esteem. Feel like I don't know what to do now that I'm almost healthy and able to do things... was totally disabled for so long... mostly in bed. Now I'm an adult with a daughter who is recovering from lyme-induced autism. Feel overwhelmed trying to do what is best for her at times... homeopathy on my own plus she is taking antibiotics which I don't like. Trying to do what's best but sometimes just want to give up but can't of course.

19. whether pregnant or not

20. problems, if any, during previous pragnancy

21. any relationship problem that you feel is/was weighing heavily on your mind

22. any angery or bitter feelings towards any relation (name the relationship with the preson who you feel is the source of discomfort.)

23. incase of problems of children, mothers please write what was your mental state during the period of pregnancy

24. was the delivery:

ø c- section

ø forceps

ø pre-mature or otherwise

25. please write about your negative emotions, if any, as they will help in the selection of the correct hoeopathic remedy for you

19. whether pregnant or not
Not now.

20. problems, if any, during previous pragnancy
Very bad pelvic pain near last trimester, chiropractic had to keep adjusting so I could walk. Early labor at 25 weeks but suppressed with shot of alcohol. Dehydration and lack of rest thought to be the cause.

21. any relationship problem that you feel is/was weighing heavily on your mind

Husband is very stressed about money and isn't very affectionate.

22. any angery or bitter feelings towards any relation (name the relationship with the preson who you feel is the source of discomfort.)

I have discomfort toward an abusive brother but he is no longer in my life. Removed toxic relationship.

23. incase of problems of children, mothers please write what was your mental state during the period of pregnancy

I was very anxious due to poor living environment and lack of security for upcoming baby. After birth became severely mentally ill with postpartum depression and severe anxiety. Very disabled from it. Unable to take care of the baby, eat or drink without medication.

24. was the delivery:
Totally natural, drug free birth although had to get IV saline due to dehydration and baby high pulse rate. 30+ hour very painful labor due to baby facing opposite direction.

25. please write about your negative emotions, if any, as they will help in the selection of the correct hoeopathic remedy for you

Already wrote some on this. Overwhelmed, feel like I'm worthless... don't know what to do with myself. Still feel anger that I lost so much of my life to disease, some blame on the doctors who missed the diagnosis. Worried about finances (medical bills, etc) and feel powerless to help due to having to take care of daughter, feel a LOT of guilt over daughter being unwell due to Lyme contracted from me in utero, husband contracted Lyme from me sexually. Guilt and helplessness a lot of times. I feel embarrassed that I feel that way and angry at myself.

Thanks.

Yes to ALL of those questions! Thanks!

I can't seem to find the remedy. I'm in the US so the company via this site can't export it. I looked online at other sites but no luck so far. Any ideas on where I could order this remedy?

Thanks!!

I found the remedy and took it as you instructed.

I developed upper respiratory symptoms / cold and then a huge increase in anxiety and panic attacks. I've had this before but with medication and time was able to stop medication for the last few months but still general anxiety.

I'm trying to avoid any meds for the anxiety this time... physical symptoms of anxiety are unbearable. Please help if you can.

Rssaini,

Thanks for the reply. This anxiety is quite unbearable and I can't sleep. I'm trying to care for my 3 year old daughter. I will try to deal with it.

Jen

Became suicidal so had to use drug to get some sleep but seemed to improve until depression hit harder and I became very suicidal. I got very close to killing myself but went into the hospital instead to prevent it. Am now on antidepressant, small amount of sedative temporarily and sleep med. I feel like a failure but the choice was medicate or kill myself. Please advise if possible.

Jen

Depression and anxiety in the past, hospitalized once in the past for depression/anxiety. Each time able to recover and go off meds for a while.

The anger with my daughter has improved a little... seems that what I'm going through is making me unable to handle her behavior which sometimes can be very loud, erratic and bizarre due to high functioning autism.

Right now overwhelming fear that I will never be 'normal' again. Still feel like I want to end my life as it feels too hard or like endless torture. I'm continuing as before with trying to divert my mind until the meds improve the symptoms I guess. I also feel like a failure because I wanted to be able to do all this without meds and that adds to the hopelessness. But I was really going to kill myself.

Thanks,
Jen

I had an abusive childhood... always afraid but as I've gotten older, I've examined it and have dealt with it to the extent that it can be and finally by removing a toxic family member from my life and have done talk therapy. One abuser died before I could confront him.

I believe depression and anxiety state comes from early childhood and comes and goes now in adulthood. Not sure why and what triggers it today. Right now loss of family comfort due to removing toxic people is a stressor with holidays approaching and being isolated geographically from family now.

I hope I answered your questions. Thanks.

My father (now dead) was an alcoholic and would become depressed... forced me to sit in his lap in the pitch black listening to music while he drank and wept and smoked. I had to be very still otherwise I would anger him. All I remember with him is inappropriate touching at night. I used to be very scared at night of him coming into my room. I remember nothing violent. I used to pray to God to take me to him (aka end my life..I was a very religious spiritual child. I prayed to God very often.)

My oldest brother seduced me by gaining trust and friendship with inappropriate touching. Nothing ever violent but eventually used me for his pleasure via fondling and lying on me. I stayed away after that because I felt like something was wrong with things... it wasn't innocent anymore. I was betrayed by the brother I thought loved me. I was 8.

He tortured me mentally years afterward and made me feel disgusting in his presence. A couple of years later when he was being especially cruel, I broke down and told my Mother what he had done. She yelled at me.

My Mother was heartless (still is) and was verbally and mentally abusive. I often stood between her and my two younger brothers to deflect her temper. I remember hiding with them from both of my parents during one of their fights. She hated me and called me names like fat (I was actually thin) and slut (I was such a good girl it was crazy... straight A's at school too.) I wasn't allowed to go out except for school and later work. My freedom came when I went to college but I was still a good girl and studied and worked hard because I wanted a good life.

Last year while in therapy (and on antidepressants) I finally felt like I could work on the current stressors in my life which is my oldest brother. He has four children and I feel they are suffering from him. I have no proof just instinct. I felt the need to warn my other brothers who are parents just by telling them what he did to me... to keep it in mind with their own children. I could not live with myself without at least letting them know so they could protect their children.

In this process, my husband, daughter and I stopped attending family functions that included my oldest brother and his family. I sent correspondence to my brother explaining that i felt that his children were at risk and that I could not be in his presence anymore. The rest of my siblings have been supportive and see me at other times. But, I am forced to be left out of most family functions. I feel that this is the best for my psyche... before this arrangement, everytime I saw my oldest brother... for days I would feel broken and scared for his children and so angry.

I don't think I mentioned before but when I had my daughter 3 1/2 years ago I developed very severe post partum depression and anxiety. A naturopath told me that there is no 'depression', it's just that i'm scared to bring a daughter into a world that I think is horrible. I don't think the world is horrible (at least consciously). I do want to be the best mother... different from my Mom and I'm doing it already. I tell my daughter I love her and she says it to me too.

I hope that wasn't too much and that it helps.

1.father

I have sadness toward my father as he was ill in mind and body with alcoholism and obviously very wounded himself. I no longer saw him after age 16 by my own choice.

2.mother.

Estranged from her although we are in contact. I do still have anger toward her for 'choosing' my brother over me. I feel she is a toxic person... self immersed, I can't tell her anything close to my heart. I feel that it is sad that I don't have a mother.


3.brother.
I have fear toward my brother not really for me but for his children. I'm unsure if my fear is valid or not. I feel deep sadness that I cannot see his adorable children anymore by my own choice because I feel that he is just such a sick person inside. I can feel it when around him.


- Against whom out of the three you have intense emotions as on date.
rssaini.

Are you asking me to whom do I have the most intense emotion? I guess it would be my brother because it affects my life significantly in a negative way because I can't see the rest of the family very often or easily because he is around. I also feel slightly wronged that my family still accepts him although I did not expect or expect them to push him out of their lives. This has just made my life very lonely and sad I think?

Hi! peace4you,
Also please write about your latest status of health.
rssaini.---

Very high stress and anxiety, hopeless, fearful that I will not regain my strength of mind that I had before. I am ill from anxiety: nausea, heart pounding, weakness, reflux, panic, hopelessness, feel so ill. Feel angry that I am allowing my mental state to make me ill but am meditating and taking minimal meds to try to cope until I heal somehow.

Thank you.