Desperate -Please take my case and help - desperate

*Keloids on the head face and chest - all blood is stagnant and infected (staph aureus)!
*Asthma which is worse on lying down, in the evening and morning and from irritants like perfume and cigarrette. Chest almost feels like burning.
*muscles throughout back and neck are extremely tight and I believe this is what is causing me to see purple stripes or blotches of colour(blue and orange mainly),
seen just outside the vision. This tightness causes muscles to crack when I sit up or bend forward.

The mind:
*Negative thoughts that come like I'm hearing them in my head - I'm not in love with my partner or she will leave me (abandonment) main ones.
*Irritation over small things, especially when I want to say something and keep it to myself for fear of argument and the anxiety (heart palpitations, heat inupper part of body) that follows - in this regard I am spineless.
*Sometimes I feel terrified, desperate and lonely - noone can help me or understand.
*If someone tells me something, somehow it becomes about how it will affect me - a bit selfish really.
*I feel compelled to do the wrong things and then feel guilty over them - and this leads to feeling of 'im no good.'
*Such as masturbate with others on the phone or web (even tho im with partner).
*I think about sex all the time and the more masturbation this leads to - the better - its like a crazed mania that i get on seeing, hearing or imagining something sexual.
*the keloids on my body and the rest of the acne have made me feel desperate and like i will never be cured. I can't show myself to the rest of the world - i'm different.
*Sometimes head feels empty and i think i can hear voices or like im entering another world - I feel like im about to go crazy - terrified of the idea/prospect. - Sometimes this feeling is associated with a rising feeling of anxiety that jolts the body into a state of panic - kind of like as if your taking a drug and it is lifting you and taking you away and then your brain realizes and gets scared - sending adrenalin through the body to cope. In fact this happened when I took marijuana a few times and it felt like i was having a psychotic episode and all the latter was amplified - there was extreme anxiety with rapid heart rate when this happened.
*Sometimes the heart (even without the aforementioned) feels like it makes a beat with extra force and sends more blood - like its coming out of the chest due to lack of oxygen - this normally happens while sitting (muscles tight?).

I crave milk and sweets. I feel tired all the time and really poor concentration and I am overweight with blood glucose problems.
Thats it.


I have been so desperate that I have tried remedies on myself just to hit it (ive tried silica, sulphur, staph, and thuja). Sulphur (200c)was the only one that started clearing the skin (only the normal pimples, not the keloids) but i got worried because at the same time my asthma got worse and I thought the disease was moving inwards. This happened within two week ofthe remedy and thats when i administered a different one.