Noone cares????

28 view later and plenty of responses to people with MINOR conditions, I have decided to repost in the hope that someone may actually offer some help.

However, to add to my case are a few things.....

I feel there is two sides to me. the sexual side has uncontrollabilty towards anything sexual. After I come out of this state....i am faced with guilt and shame....until the next time...
Things seem to go aroound in circles in my head and sometimes i feel overwhelmed.
I feel like i am going mad!

original post:
Keloids on the head face and chest - all blood is stagnant and infected (staph aureus)!
*Asthma which is worse on lying down, in the evening and morning and from irritants like perfume and cigarrette. Chest almost feels like burning.
*muscles throughout back and neck are extremely tight and I believe this is what is causing me to see purple stripes or blotches of colour(blue and orange mainly),
seen just outside the vision. This tightness causes muscles to crack when I sit up or bend forward.

The mind:
*Negative thoughts that come like I'm hearing them in my head - I'm not in love with my partner or she will leave me (abandonment) main ones.
*Irritation over small things, especially when I want to say something and keep it to myself for fear of argument and the anxiety (heart palpitations, heat inupper part of body) that follows - in this regard I am spineless.
*Sometimes I feel terrified, desperate and lonely - noone can help me or understand.
*If someone tells me something, somehow it becomes about how it will affect me - a bit selfish really.
*I feel compelled to do the wrong things and then feel guilty over them - and this leads to feeling of 'im no good.'
*Such as masturbate with others on the phone or web (even tho im with partner).
*I think about sex all the time and the more masturbation this leads to - the better - its like a crazed mania that i get on seeing, hearing or imagining something sexual.
*the keloids on my body and the rest of the acne have made me feel desperate and like i will never be cured. I can't show myself to the rest of the world - i'm different.
*Sometimes head feels empty and i think i can hear voices or like im entering another world - I feel like im about to go crazy - terrified of the idea/prospect. - Sometimes this feeling is associated with a rising feeling of anxiety that jolts the body into a state of panic - kind of like as if your taking a drug and it is lifting you and taking you away and then your brain realizes and gets scared - sending adrenalin through the body to cope. In fact this happened when I took marijuana a few times and it felt like i was having a psychotic episode and all the latter was amplified - there was extreme anxiety with rapid heart rate when this happened.
*Sometimes the heart (even without the aforementioned) feels like it makes a beat with extra force and sends more blood - like its coming out of the chest due to lack of oxygen - this normally happens while sitting (muscles tight?).

I crave milk and sweets. I feel tired all the time and really poor concentration and I am overweight with blood glucose problems.
Thats it.