Dr. Showrav - fear of taking remedies (fear of loosing control)

or a list of what remedies have a fear of loosing control with violent heart pounding and fainting would be very helpful

thanks

dr showrav maybe?
[message edited by starface on Mon, 16 Jan 2012 02:49:34 GMT]

Some other symtpoms if helpful

If I fall asleep throughout the day. I wake up in bad state. Sometimes heart pounding, with everything feeling so heavy. Either tense, paralyzed or numb (cannot tell the difference between those expressions)

My hands, upper arms, chest


I also have sometimes Restless leg syndrome at night when I go to bed. Before falling asleep

Used to have external haemorrhoids in the past, which would come after passing stool, external ones. Which were caused by having milk in diet. But lachesis seems to have cured the haemorrhoids.
[message edited by starface on Mon, 16 Jan 2012 05:45:10 GMT]

I have taken a lot of remedies in the past. I found platina being most helpful. Despite homeopath who somewhat helped me at times liked to point out that it was just placebo or whatever.

I wish my case to be taken on by someone else. Maybe you dr showrav?

I used to self prescribe a lot from my restlessness. Which meant when I took a remedy. around 5 to 10 days after the dose I got bored and restless so I needed a different remedy always. But platina made this restlessness go away. I have taken last dose of it, a 10M on the 10 of novemeber 2011.

This is quite a record and achivement for me to have been able to stay without taking a remedy for so long. It been more than 2 months now.

So I of course disagree with his view that platina was not helpful in my case. Lots of other widespread improvements. With my BDD also and self esteem improvement. But maybe those changes are not good enough and perfect yet

Still have social anxiety. But it is better.

So any suggestion on what I should do?
[message edited by starface on Mon, 16 Jan 2012 05:05:39 GMT]

Thanks for response

No self prescribing anymore. Last remedy I took as stated was 10M of platina on 10th november 2011. This was quite a bad experience, very unpleasant strong aggravation but it did provide some improvements after aggravation passed.

No medicine taken since 10th of novemeber, so 2 months and 7 days.


list of remedies taken

-calcarea carb
-alumina
-lycopodium
-ambra grisea
-pulsatilla
-natrum muriaticum
-lachesis
-medorrhinum
-silicea
-ignatia
-phosphorus
-anacardium
-androctonus (scorpio)
-anthropleura xantogrammica
-staphysgaria
-argentum nit
-aurum
-palladium
-platina

only remedy that really gave benefit was platina.



My problems are:

- Social anxiety. Do not work or study therefore.

- Body dysmorphia. This means that I stress about my appearance and worry about perceived flaws on my appearance, but this can switch from time to time, meaning that on some days I will have this problem on other days I can feel really attractive looking. I am complemented on my appearance often.

- depression about life.

- Work, or studying seems like a prison, great resistance. A limitation, restriction.


- I cause problems by wanting lots of attention always, can be disobedient and dramatic. homeopaths cannot deal with me so they always decide to leave me alone usually.

- I desire company but at the same time I am averse to it.

- I always stay up late into the night. 3 or 4am. Unable to go to bed earlier. Have to sleep with open window otherwise headache in the morning.

- grey cloudy weather aggravates me. Possibly causes a claustrophobic response in me. I like open blue sunny sky.

- I have fear at night, of ghosts, monsters etc. Am kind of stressed at nights.

- If I fall asleep throughout the day. I wake up in bad state. Sometimes heart pounding, with everything feeling so heavy. Either tense, paralyzed or numb (cannot tell the difference between those expressions)

My hands, upper arms, chest


-I also have sometimes Restless leg syndrome at night when I go to bed. Before falling asleep

-Used to have external haemorrhoids in the past, which would come after passing stool, external ones. Which were caused by having milk in diet. But lachesis seems to have cured the haemorrhoids.


- looking attractive is very important to me. before taking platina I had bad body dysmorphia. Getting very stressed by perceived flaws on my face that made me pick on my face with my fingers and caused my skin to look worse on a few spots. I was destructive. But no more.

- I cannot tolerate being contradicted, critizised, disliked, rejected.. all those things make me very angry or fearful. It depends. Sometimes I get so angry that I feel like I could kill the offending person.

- In terms of my social anxiety. I have strong anxiety and feel humiliated, embarassed very quick. Uncertain, not much self confidence.

- I am disobedient and it is very hard for me to follow someones advice. But I will force myself. Wish to get better.

If more info is required let me know


In terms of food desires.

I like ice cream, lasagne, pizza, mexican food. Favourite things I like to eat. And chocolate.


Great Aversion to salt.

And as I mentioned I often have a fear of loosing control when I have to take something that could cause me to feel unpleasant, like drugs, remedies, stimulants.

Then I get this fear I have, fear of loosing control which is
fainting, panic, heart pounding, rapid violent racing heart, and want to run to keep panic down when in panic mode.

very nasty, especially the fainting

When I took staphysgaria about 3 months ago, it caused a problem on my genital. Now there is a fish like bad smell close to tip of penis. With slight inflation, elevation around the tip of penis which has a pink like color. I was told that this is an infection. Also skin of penis became very dry and looks wrinkled. My penis not good looking anymore at all.

And I wish to say the need for attention is a big problem for me. It causes problems when I deal with people. To the end result that they all decide to leave me.

If I may share my dreams if they prove helpful.

As of recently they are often about getting attacked, fights, murder with having to avoid detectives to not be put in prison. Along those lines. Sometimes of my past, high school, old friends

In brief a dream of today that I can remember was...

I had to pick up a package for celebrity megan fox. But there was another guy with the same intention which caused confusion.

Then I was in my house with this person and afraid that he might pysichally want to harm me for some reason (he seemed like a bad guy). So I tried to sneak out of the house without he noticing me.

Then what happened next was he saw me and we had a fight. There were sharp tools used like knifes and saws in the fight

After this fight later in the dream I was with my mother somewhere outside and this person I just had the fight with earlier came up to my mother and kissed her. And that is when I killed him by stabbing him into the neck.


Sorry if this caused unpleasantness. This was the First time I dreamed about killing someone vividly.

- I used to have very high sexual desire, with lots of masturbation and some self seeking. With inapropriate sexual feelings. But this got improved since platina

- I wash all dishes I take quickly with water always. And never eat if someone touched my plate or food. I Am picky in this regard.

-My right upper eye lid is twitching today. This hasnt happened in a long time. Last time it happened when I took phosphorus many months ago. There my eye lid was twitching every few moments.

If you have no precise idea of what to prescribe we may maybe try tarantula? Or stick with platina? But please milder potency. No 10M ever again which was last potency I took. Caused lots of aggravation which was very unpleasant.