seeking help

Hello everyone,

Insight and help would be greatly appreciated.

23 year old male. Avg. height and lean build. Blonde hair blue eyes.

Major traumas:
-Lost sibbling to cncer (guilt-not being there, anger, wanting to do something about it)
-Break up w/ close relationship (betrayal, sadness, anger)
-Surgery on shoulder
-concussion when young
- bad burn on hand when young
-possible bad reaction to meningitis vaccine around puberty

Mind:
-Dwell on past a lot - what should have done. Miss the people from the past. Having trouble letting go of people, even peopl that have wronged me but I still care about
-Can be jealous and suspicious- have been overly jealous in past
-Sadness and lack of motivation in the morning-
-cannot do any work/ concentrate esp in morning an afternoon
-Procrastination
-Feeling of being slow/weak/ dumb/ things over my head
-Busy mind at night and feel better at night- can be almost delirious at night
- Like to drive fast and exercise fast while listening to music
-Detached from friends/ no real desire to hang out anymore
-Bossy and argumentive w/ parents
-Exercise for enjoyment but also for image- its important for me to be in better than avg, shape
- Total lack of confidence w/ oppo sex and in general. Would love a nice relationship but I feel too unwell and not myself to have one.
-Highly sexual by nature but its almost as if this has been turned off- just no physical/ emotional response to the oppo sex.
-desire to listen to music all day...music can make me feel better and make me feel better by helping me to cry
-Prefer to be alone
-desire to exercise w/ music
-anxiety- social anxiety feeling of spaced out cannot find words and feeling locked up- cant dance, no rhythm, awkwardness
-memory is weak, even w/ spelling of words
- Desire to go into natural medicine w/ vengence
-Strong dislike of allopathic medicine

Physical:
-Cold extremities - turning purple and red in cold. Hot shower turns feet very red
-Extremities red when hanging down, normal color if elevated
-Tend to be cold, sometimes when anxious can get almost like a hot flash
-Tremulous- extremities. Even tongue shakes when protruded. Shakiness increases greatly when anxious- presentations are awful and after exercise.
Twitchiness of face/nose when nervous and speaking to someone 1-1.
Very low sex drive- weak erections/ tend toward premature emissions
-Stiffness in hips and back
-Pain in between shoulder blades
-Sometimes pain on bottoms of feet
(weak wrists- esp left - pain in lft. wrist)
-digestion is not great so follow a strict diet
-Lips are always chapped and I do get a crack right down the center (nat-m/sepia)
-Symptoms are always changing. (One day hip pain/ one day gone)

Likes/ aversions:
-Love the beach/ ocean and the summer- health is much better in summer
-Love laying out in the sun during summer
-Love music
-Love to exercise
-Love bbq meats, chocolate, icecream, soups
-Dislike tobacco, smoke
-dislike olives



I have seen a homeopath for the past two years and unfortunately haven't gotten very far. He used all water/liquid remedies mostly in LM's and some 200c. In the past we thought we had some very well selected remedies and for some reason nothing has moved.

My homeopath acknowledged a miasmic block- thought sycotic.

Remedies that have been tried that seemed to fit well:

Silicea
Sepia
Lycopodium
Nat- M
Medorrhinum
Carb- V
Causticum
Staphysagria

I appreciate the help ahead of time, this forum is great.
[message edited by homeohelpmike on Thu, 26 Jan 2012 17:12:37 GMT]
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