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So no danger of taking numerous similimum doses?
I took a couple of 30cs and 200cs over the last 2 week.If this my similimum really I dont have to worry of any implications or problems correct?
As of now of course I dont feel anything new. Not like the other remedies in the past like with the tarantula as of recently where I felt some new anger etc.
... THe low potencies are strange. Firstly nothing for my ego and I dont expect it to happen. From above 1M I only felt a change in my ego.
the low potencies aggravate me, my paralyzing weakness + sexual desire & a bit of the bad feelings in my stomach. But I noticed I am just unable to get glued to the mirror again. No compulsion. This has gone. I can be unhappy about my appearance but not to the same degree where I cannot continue life.
So when I took 1m and 10M I never felt an aggravation on my phsichal ailments like I do now, or with the bad feelings in stomach. The aggravation was different on higher potencies. It felt emotionally like my defenseses got lifted and therefore more vulnerable for few days, where I avoided people and felt emotional hurt coming up.
So I guess I am going to keep with the low potencies for awhile which my homeopath suggested aswell. In case it strenghtens my vital force that is good. I suspect the 10M gave me the feelings of everything seeming so dead because my vitality was low and the 10M therefore was incorrect?
I notice more emotional stability that is as far as the low potencies go and not the swings but no change in ego or outlook on life.
My dreams are the same. Of nuclear destruction threats. Of celebrities being at my workplace. And today there was someone at my workplace (in the dream) who had the charlatan face of platina that I saw once on a website under a description of platina.
It gives me strange feelings seeing such person. It feels like the devil in disguise to me or something like that.
Oh and I dreamed of being a bird I think. Birds flying above the ocean. Well I had many long dreams
starface on 2012-04-07
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Why would you take that much without waiting? That is a LOT to take in that short of a time...why don't you wait to see what happens first?
allicando last decade
Summer is gone. I always like this time of the year the most, when the heat goes down. And I am just feeling better and more motivated at this time of the year. Self help, spirituality starts interesting me more.
But I dont know how to transcend the ego when everything I do even spiritually just is fuel for my ego. My ego slips in at the backdoor always disguised.
My response is to be judgmental often. Then in such situation I get to feel that I am being the small close minded person right now which I dont want to be so I become the opposite of judgemental and start feeling good by knowing I am this enlightened person now. Well I know I acted in the best way basically. So I feel good.
But this is all a joke and still small because the ego is behind it. And I dont want this. I want to genuinely be something better not small. But I seem to be unable to accomplish this.
I guess the first step is to stop with the NEED I feel to be this something else and so on.
I always understand most things, know what I have to do, but just the 'doing part' I never seem to be able to do. Something holding me back.
But I dont know how to transcend the ego when everything I do even spiritually just is fuel for my ego. My ego slips in at the backdoor always disguised.
My response is to be judgmental often. Then in such situation I get to feel that I am being the small close minded person right now which I dont want to be so I become the opposite of judgemental and start feeling good by knowing I am this enlightened person now. Well I know I acted in the best way basically. So I feel good.
But this is all a joke and still small because the ego is behind it. And I dont want this. I want to genuinely be something better not small. But I seem to be unable to accomplish this.
I guess the first step is to stop with the NEED I feel to be this something else and so on.
I always understand most things, know what I have to do, but just the 'doing part' I never seem to be able to do. Something holding me back.
starface last decade
I waited in between.
I took 3 consecutive 30c doses and than waited.. good response in emotional stability, with the high/low swings and the fears at night. Even got a bit of passion back for something I liked to do in the past. So I bought me this thing again. But next 2 days on the weekend on days I dont work I felt depressed again, so I took a 200c and took 2 more of those on the next 2 consecutive days.
I cannot feel depressed or compulsive to the same degree prior to taking a 10m of platina. With the depression there is always still space and a lightness noticable in the background. It just feels annoying and uneccessary at the moment when I am feeling depressed.
Today it is a mix between depressed but feeling the blanket of security in stomach from the doses. This always happens. Although much less noticeable compared to the higher *potency * doses.
Anyway I have a good feeling this my similimum. Just those good feelings in stomach would be enough to convince me of it. But there is a lot more.
Well I am going to stay with the low potencies for awhile longer. They should improve my vitality so i can later take the higher potencies??
I also always prove remedies quickly. By the second dose I should of feel something new, but I dont with the platinum.
homeopathy really great, once the correct remedy found.
[message edited by starface on Sat, 07 Apr 2012 03:36:17 BST]
I took 3 consecutive 30c doses and than waited.. good response in emotional stability, with the high/low swings and the fears at night. Even got a bit of passion back for something I liked to do in the past. So I bought me this thing again. But next 2 days on the weekend on days I dont work I felt depressed again, so I took a 200c and took 2 more of those on the next 2 consecutive days.
I cannot feel depressed or compulsive to the same degree prior to taking a 10m of platina. With the depression there is always still space and a lightness noticable in the background. It just feels annoying and uneccessary at the moment when I am feeling depressed.
Today it is a mix between depressed but feeling the blanket of security in stomach from the doses. This always happens. Although much less noticeable compared to the higher *potency * doses.
Anyway I have a good feeling this my similimum. Just those good feelings in stomach would be enough to convince me of it. But there is a lot more.
Well I am going to stay with the low potencies for awhile longer. They should improve my vitality so i can later take the higher potencies??
I also always prove remedies quickly. By the second dose I should of feel something new, but I dont with the platinum.
homeopathy really great, once the correct remedy found.
[message edited by starface on Sat, 07 Apr 2012 03:36:17 BST]
starface last decade
yesterday I sold something online and a guy came to pick it up at my place. First time I did that. He gave me his facebook and after I saw the guy how he looks, his wife, his friends etc I totally regreted doing this and thought how I am gona be able to do this... I feel anxious and totally stressed usually when someone I CONSIDER important talks to me. Pressure, expectation, high anxiety and just feel unable to do it.
But it went fine. I would totally tank it without ever taking platina, no, I would not even let it come to that, I would cancel the trade and come up with an excuse because I would be unable to deal with this.
But it went fine. I would totally tank it without ever taking platina, no, I would not even let it come to that, I would cancel the trade and come up with an excuse because I would be unable to deal with this.
starface last decade
Actually this is a perfect example of placebo. This happens alot when a patient has a lot of (unfounded) faith in something. They even begin to interpret their disease symptoms as healthy ones, so desperate is their desire to get well.
As such, as people watch what happens here, it should provide a valuable lesson in what should NOT happen when you get proper homoeopathic treatment with the correct remedy.
There is a difference between palliation and placebo. Palliation can actually make the symptoms go away for awhile (or at least some of them). This is a real remedy effect.
Placebo on the other hand only ever produces general emotional relief. It is the same relief patients get when being finally told the name of their disease by a doctor. Since any patient can moderate their mental and emotional symptoms to a small degree through an act of will(called 'positive thinking' nowdays) such patients will often mistake placebo for the general improvement that comes at the beginning of homoeopathic treatment.
Placebo never affects those things that cannot be touched by willpower - dreams, subconscious behaviour, physical symptoms etc. Pain however is very susceptible to willpower and is not always a good indicator.
One of the best ways to tell it is placebo in my experience, is to carefully watch the amount of time and energy the person continues to talk about the things that are supposedly better. You will see so much focus and energy on them, so much conversation about it, so many strategies in place to control or moderate them, that it becomes clear the problem is unabated. There is a strong level of denial, as the patient tries very hard to convince you how much better they are.
Anyone who has worked in a clinical situation and has prescribed the actual simillimum knows the difference. A patient who has had their simillimum simply stops worrying about it. All the energy goes out of the problem, it fades away almost as if it never existed. Very often you have to remind them about it - they will say things like 'Oh did I say that?' or 'I had forgotten about that' 'Did I really say that to you?'. If you do get them to go over the issue again, they will often seem bored by it, or confused as to how it should be said. Many of the keywords and phrases that appeared repeatedly before are just missing. They will often give a more factual account, with no real emotional attachment to it.
This is the true power of the simillimum. It goes beyond anything any other therapy is capable of. It is unmistakable when it happens.
As such, as people watch what happens here, it should provide a valuable lesson in what should NOT happen when you get proper homoeopathic treatment with the correct remedy.
There is a difference between palliation and placebo. Palliation can actually make the symptoms go away for awhile (or at least some of them). This is a real remedy effect.
Placebo on the other hand only ever produces general emotional relief. It is the same relief patients get when being finally told the name of their disease by a doctor. Since any patient can moderate their mental and emotional symptoms to a small degree through an act of will(called 'positive thinking' nowdays) such patients will often mistake placebo for the general improvement that comes at the beginning of homoeopathic treatment.
Placebo never affects those things that cannot be touched by willpower - dreams, subconscious behaviour, physical symptoms etc. Pain however is very susceptible to willpower and is not always a good indicator.
One of the best ways to tell it is placebo in my experience, is to carefully watch the amount of time and energy the person continues to talk about the things that are supposedly better. You will see so much focus and energy on them, so much conversation about it, so many strategies in place to control or moderate them, that it becomes clear the problem is unabated. There is a strong level of denial, as the patient tries very hard to convince you how much better they are.
Anyone who has worked in a clinical situation and has prescribed the actual simillimum knows the difference. A patient who has had their simillimum simply stops worrying about it. All the energy goes out of the problem, it fades away almost as if it never existed. Very often you have to remind them about it - they will say things like 'Oh did I say that?' or 'I had forgotten about that' 'Did I really say that to you?'. If you do get them to go over the issue again, they will often seem bored by it, or confused as to how it should be said. Many of the keywords and phrases that appeared repeatedly before are just missing. They will often give a more factual account, with no real emotional attachment to it.
This is the true power of the simillimum. It goes beyond anything any other therapy is capable of. It is unmistakable when it happens.
♡ brisbanehomoeopath last decade
Hmmm interesting. I know that only problems I want to talk about are the ones that are bothering me currently. I don't really care to talk about things that USED to bother me, so I do wonder why you (starface) seem to continue posting so much about how wonderful you are doing. It does seem odd.
allicando last decade
Well well. I am not feeling that great. Havent I said I am feeling depressed today. And that I need frequent dosing with those low potencies??
I also mentioned that nothing for my ego??
... when I took the 10m and 4 months later started feeling the low feelings again I felt like I completely forgot about them, how bad it used to be.
I am posting a lot because mentally I am not feeling that great. Symptom wise it is good. Reactions less. Anxiety less.
But no cure and dont expect it from the low potencies.
Placebo lasts a week max with me. I had placebo on all remedies but after a week I needed/wanted a different remedy. The remedy I took wasnt enough. I am not addicted to self prescribing since the 10M dose of platinum.
This is no placebo. Because I am not that positive when I am alone at home.
but ok maybe I am wrong. I just want to know the truth and nothing else always. If platina not my remedy, great. Than I can look forward to something even better, but I doubt it exists
I also mentioned that nothing for my ego??
... when I took the 10m and 4 months later started feeling the low feelings again I felt like I completely forgot about them, how bad it used to be.
I am posting a lot because mentally I am not feeling that great. Symptom wise it is good. Reactions less. Anxiety less.
But no cure and dont expect it from the low potencies.
Placebo lasts a week max with me. I had placebo on all remedies but after a week I needed/wanted a different remedy. The remedy I took wasnt enough. I am not addicted to self prescribing since the 10M dose of platinum.
This is no placebo. Because I am not that positive when I am alone at home.
but ok maybe I am wrong. I just want to know the truth and nothing else always. If platina not my remedy, great. Than I can look forward to something even better, but I doubt it exists
starface last decade
Isnt the right potency required also???
platina in high potency was always quite a deep experience for me.
in low potencies it just doesnt affect me deeply
platina in high potency was always quite a deep experience for me.
in low potencies it just doesnt affect me deeply
starface last decade
ok, again I will say it. Why platina important to me. It is for the feeling I can have and peace if I know I am it. Otherwise when the thoughts come that I am not platinum I start feeling out of control and not seeing myself anywhere. I dont have a feel for myself. YOu know how those horrible feelings are when you feel out of control for something? It is like that. So thinking I am platinum makes me in control sure. It feels great. On high potencies it did not matter anymore at all though. Being 'special' had no charge behind it. And while I was taking a 1M or 10M and posted I never talked about being 'special' which probably noone noticed. It did not matter.
in my dream there was whitney houston tonight at my workplace working or as a resident living there. And what this could mean is that I feel like I am around important people always I believe.
The other person who had this charlatan looking face at work was a platina woman. And the problem with that was that she felt like a devil in disguise. Such people bring up my defences because you have to defend against them. They could attack me. And the only defence I know of is to keep a high head up. To do the right thing, the correct thing, be unemotional, not show you care about any human relationships, be a bit haughty maybe but never to much, all this to not leave a chance for a vulnerability that I could get attacked for.
... I dont know why I dreamed specifically about whitney houston. I never followed her. A few weeks when she died I just watched an old interview of her and when I watch celebrities I know how they feel. I am watching them sit in their chair, talk to the host and can see how they feel good by feeling special and having all the admiration from their fans. Everyone admiring them. It is a nice feeling and one I can identify with. One that makes me feel secure and good. But to me it feels like I lost this feeling. This is what brought on my BDD and why I believe platina at least took the compulsion out of it. And you dont see me talk much about my appearance anymore I belive??
I was picking on my face before the platina. Self destructive. I dont believe an ounce that I am willing myself to cure in regard to my BDD. Impossible. It was my deepest problem. My appearance was everything. It is what brought me the admiration and feel good. There is no possiblity. I am not strong enough for that. Because there is no life past my appearance.
BDD is ok, the obsessive, compulisve aspect out of it. I dont have my stare in the mirror sessions anylonger for months. But still it isnt cured. Although very liveable at the moment. I cannot say that my BDD is hindering me in life. Or that a flaw on my face is like a road block that needs to be solved now before I can live a life or be happy. This has gone
[message edited by starface on Sat, 07 Apr 2012 05:51:39 BST]
in my dream there was whitney houston tonight at my workplace working or as a resident living there. And what this could mean is that I feel like I am around important people always I believe.
The other person who had this charlatan looking face at work was a platina woman. And the problem with that was that she felt like a devil in disguise. Such people bring up my defences because you have to defend against them. They could attack me. And the only defence I know of is to keep a high head up. To do the right thing, the correct thing, be unemotional, not show you care about any human relationships, be a bit haughty maybe but never to much, all this to not leave a chance for a vulnerability that I could get attacked for.
... I dont know why I dreamed specifically about whitney houston. I never followed her. A few weeks when she died I just watched an old interview of her and when I watch celebrities I know how they feel. I am watching them sit in their chair, talk to the host and can see how they feel good by feeling special and having all the admiration from their fans. Everyone admiring them. It is a nice feeling and one I can identify with. One that makes me feel secure and good. But to me it feels like I lost this feeling. This is what brought on my BDD and why I believe platina at least took the compulsion out of it. And you dont see me talk much about my appearance anymore I belive??
I was picking on my face before the platina. Self destructive. I dont believe an ounce that I am willing myself to cure in regard to my BDD. Impossible. It was my deepest problem. My appearance was everything. It is what brought me the admiration and feel good. There is no possiblity. I am not strong enough for that. Because there is no life past my appearance.
BDD is ok, the obsessive, compulisve aspect out of it. I dont have my stare in the mirror sessions anylonger for months. But still it isnt cured. Although very liveable at the moment. I cannot say that my BDD is hindering me in life. Or that a flaw on my face is like a road block that needs to be solved now before I can live a life or be happy. This has gone
[message edited by starface on Sat, 07 Apr 2012 05:51:39 BST]
starface last decade
Above in last post (3rd paragraph) I described that I need to defend and what I do. And so with that it feels painful being like that. Alone. Not having social contact. I know I would like friends, and have a nice social life. This is how I feel when I am at home (that I want those things but I dont see how it can happen), when I am in the situations I dont feel that way. Just think of distancing myself and protecting myself most often.
This causes emotionally some grief or dissapointment, it brings on special feelings at times. To be able to imagine why. Think of a person who cannot be himself around people, who cannot show the good of himself. So he feels like being in an emotionally grieving state where he feels special. You derive an ego out of this.
I cannot explain it better. And not sure if it makes sense to someone else.
grieving is a part of me. For not being able to be myself. Show my greatness? So you grief and feel special... makes sense? Special because you feel more than other by having to deal with such things. The emotional depth? For those things happening to you?
But this kind of low? Realistically speaking I am not more. Only reason I say such reasonable things is to not get attacked. To not be left alone and labelled arrogant or whatever. I actually never get told I am arrogant in person. Never. Because I am not like that. I am the distanced quiet one often, the correct one. The one who helps others, but not at home much because it is never appreciated. I am like that at work. But get the haughty side when/if my work critizised. But than again in my mind I am telling myself that I should not be like that. And take a step back to respond better.
I can often be pretty nice, a sucker and do what other people would want from me despite me wanting something else... just so that people arent angry with me, dislike me so that I am feeling alone.
In case this means platinum not possible to be like that.
Often when I do something I dont feel is right, when I feel someone is using me at work I can feel this 'grieving' and emotionality 'special' feelings aswell. Maybe it comes from the dissapointment when I notice the person is using me and not actually appreciating my help and therefore not treating me nicely, but using me, taking advantage of me. This is how I feel. The world with lots of bad people who are so careless, inconsiderate etc
[message edited by starface on Sat, 07 Apr 2012 06:46:35 BST]
This causes emotionally some grief or dissapointment, it brings on special feelings at times. To be able to imagine why. Think of a person who cannot be himself around people, who cannot show the good of himself. So he feels like being in an emotionally grieving state where he feels special. You derive an ego out of this.
I cannot explain it better. And not sure if it makes sense to someone else.
grieving is a part of me. For not being able to be myself. Show my greatness? So you grief and feel special... makes sense? Special because you feel more than other by having to deal with such things. The emotional depth? For those things happening to you?
But this kind of low? Realistically speaking I am not more. Only reason I say such reasonable things is to not get attacked. To not be left alone and labelled arrogant or whatever. I actually never get told I am arrogant in person. Never. Because I am not like that. I am the distanced quiet one often, the correct one. The one who helps others, but not at home much because it is never appreciated. I am like that at work. But get the haughty side when/if my work critizised. But than again in my mind I am telling myself that I should not be like that. And take a step back to respond better.
I can often be pretty nice, a sucker and do what other people would want from me despite me wanting something else... just so that people arent angry with me, dislike me so that I am feeling alone.
In case this means platinum not possible to be like that.
Often when I do something I dont feel is right, when I feel someone is using me at work I can feel this 'grieving' and emotionality 'special' feelings aswell. Maybe it comes from the dissapointment when I notice the person is using me and not actually appreciating my help and therefore not treating me nicely, but using me, taking advantage of me. This is how I feel. The world with lots of bad people who are so careless, inconsiderate etc
[message edited by starface on Sat, 07 Apr 2012 06:46:35 BST]
starface last decade
This is no placebo. You cannot win against me. Noone can. And this is no proving. If you think so you are on the loosing side again. It is just my low feelings not being here. Not feeling those humiliating low feelings while my ego still in tact from not having been touched by those low potencies I have taken.
Why is it that I am always so right about everything.
But I do feel like I am aggravating a bit. ALthough it feels good.
Later in the day I have to pick up my brother. He is coming home for 2 weeks and this is going to be difficult. Last time he was here he acted to much like a prince so that it started really going on my nerves. I am ready this time for him though. Not going to put up with any of his demands this time and wishes. Ah see here is the haughtiness from me on one side. And on the other I feel this sympathy and emotional weakness. Something telling me, my consciousness that I must not be like that. I start thinking of how this makes the other person feel emotionally when I am like that (haught?). This makes the ego and responsibility come into the equation of me feeling like things are bigger than me. But this is just ego again I believe. Why else would I feel like things are bigger than me. This statement in itself must mean that I think high of myself, and now even higher by having to be responsible and not hurt my brother. I just cannot do it. It brings up emotional uncomfortability in me when someone feels hurt.
Ok this is all confusing. Can someone analyze this?? Ok thanks
I probably posted to much.
It is the same thing as this.. I could never hurt david because for some strange reason I felt like he will feel like I do when people are against me. But now that I realized he can stand on his own 2 feets and defend himself it is ok. I am really emotionally weak often. My consciousness. And being unable to bear when someone feels emotionally hurt or dissapointed, or alone, or unlikeable is the reason. But if I am attacked I dont have any sensitivity than. Than I just feel offended.
Why is it that I am always so right about everything.
But I do feel like I am aggravating a bit. ALthough it feels good.
Later in the day I have to pick up my brother. He is coming home for 2 weeks and this is going to be difficult. Last time he was here he acted to much like a prince so that it started really going on my nerves. I am ready this time for him though. Not going to put up with any of his demands this time and wishes. Ah see here is the haughtiness from me on one side. And on the other I feel this sympathy and emotional weakness. Something telling me, my consciousness that I must not be like that. I start thinking of how this makes the other person feel emotionally when I am like that (haught?). This makes the ego and responsibility come into the equation of me feeling like things are bigger than me. But this is just ego again I believe. Why else would I feel like things are bigger than me. This statement in itself must mean that I think high of myself, and now even higher by having to be responsible and not hurt my brother. I just cannot do it. It brings up emotional uncomfortability in me when someone feels hurt.
Ok this is all confusing. Can someone analyze this?? Ok thanks
I probably posted to much.
It is the same thing as this.. I could never hurt david because for some strange reason I felt like he will feel like I do when people are against me. But now that I realized he can stand on his own 2 feets and defend himself it is ok. I am really emotionally weak often. My consciousness. And being unable to bear when someone feels emotionally hurt or dissapointed, or alone, or unlikeable is the reason. But if I am attacked I dont have any sensitivity than. Than I just feel offended.
starface last decade
Again, my point is proved here. Observe how much energy went into defending the remedy and the reaction.5 posts - 4 of them quite long and full of the same keywords and repeated phrases you always see. This person is in an extreme state of suffering.
You can see it quite clearly. The disease is actually stronger here than ever. The most important parts of the case (Ego, Being attacked, Being special, Victimized etc) have become extremely prominent now. I imagine his homoeopath would find this enhancement of his disease useful.
What is also interesting, is despite knowing (from me) what the typical reaction to a real simillimum would be, he is obsessively compelled to continue expressing his disease, rather than lying and covering it up. This shows an admirable sense of honesty, AND it shows the power of his disease that will not be silenced.
The reason you need an objective outside party to manage a case, is exactly to avoid this kind of situation. Nobody can do this themselves, it is impossible. When we are sick we are full of self-delusion, and no-one can see clearly when like that. His lesson, if he ever learns it, will be this. Without learning that lesson he will wander lost like this forever.
It is a strange thing to see someone so determined to use homoeopathy, but also so determined to reject every aspect of homoeopathy that would actually help them, including anyone who actually knows how to use homoeopathy. It is bizarre.
[message edited by brisbanehomoeopath on Sat, 07 Apr 2012 22:09:09 BST]
You can see it quite clearly. The disease is actually stronger here than ever. The most important parts of the case (Ego, Being attacked, Being special, Victimized etc) have become extremely prominent now. I imagine his homoeopath would find this enhancement of his disease useful.
What is also interesting, is despite knowing (from me) what the typical reaction to a real simillimum would be, he is obsessively compelled to continue expressing his disease, rather than lying and covering it up. This shows an admirable sense of honesty, AND it shows the power of his disease that will not be silenced.
The reason you need an objective outside party to manage a case, is exactly to avoid this kind of situation. Nobody can do this themselves, it is impossible. When we are sick we are full of self-delusion, and no-one can see clearly when like that. His lesson, if he ever learns it, will be this. Without learning that lesson he will wander lost like this forever.
It is a strange thing to see someone so determined to use homoeopathy, but also so determined to reject every aspect of homoeopathy that would actually help them, including anyone who actually knows how to use homoeopathy. It is bizarre.
[message edited by brisbanehomoeopath on Sat, 07 Apr 2012 22:09:09 BST]
♡ brisbanehomoeopath last decade
He does have a homeopath now
who is a dean of a school- so I
assume she is working with him and
is that outside party managing his
case. So steps forward are being made.
who is a dean of a school- so I
assume she is working with him and
is that outside party managing his
case. So steps forward are being made.
♡ simone717 last decade
No he has rejected her advice, and is self-prescribing Platina again, in different potencies. He has gone backwards not forwards.
♡ brisbanehomoeopath last decade
ok- confusing bc he says he keeps writing
to his homeopath and just got an
answer a few days ago. Too bad.
to his homeopath and just got an
answer a few days ago. Too bad.
♡ simone717 last decade
no, i am not suffering. This is a forum and obviously not everything can be seen. I am happy that the suffering from the BDD has gone. And the low feelings.
I know I am defending platina maybe. Like I said if I dont take a high potency being special, being platina matters. Otherwise it doesnt. Maybe the remedy isnt so right after all either that or my disease is quite strong. Because after awhile it does matter to me again. Depends on how high the potency was.
Yes I am honest about my disease of course and why would I not? What does it matter fooling some people on here in believing me I am platina when in fact I am not? This would so depress me. This is my problem. I will never try to appear something I am not. I have to know I am 'it' to be able to function, to feel confident, to feel good etc.
I feel guilt and low or small (whichever one it is) pretty quick. So me conciously lieing about or trying to fool people about how much more or better I am than I really am never going to happen.
....
I have taken quite a few doses of platina all in all by now. I figure I should of get some side effects by now if it werent the correct remedy. All that happened was the '3rd eye opening' or whatever it can be called from the 10M dose. Otherwise I have not one negative thing to report. Just good things.
Anyway I am slightly uncertain now. From a whole I am 3 quarters still certain but a quarter of uncertainty now about platina based on those replies I got again. Whenever there is doubt and uncertainty I have to consider it. I cannot just dismiss it and say others are wrong. Maybe I am sometimes to open minded. I dont know.
Anyway I was in the city yesterday to pick up my brother at night. I am kind of a city guy. And the city and seeing people, girls on the street usually makes me very overemotional. Wanting to be with the people but at the same time not able to.
So reaction was Much less. Much more stable. But I know not cured obviously. But I am quite happy with it. I just noticed the slight overemotionality. But than the emotions did not overwhelm me but stayed quite stable. THis is how the improvement as of right now is. It is good. But obviously not good enough. The end result is that I am able to be with the people. This would be cure. So I am not sure whether this is how cure happens. Whether I am on the right track. That first my emotional response will get less and less and after a while maybe I will start socializing? Or whether this happens all at once quickly on real similimum.
I got a dream today where I was praised, told good things for having done something good at a party. How I shot a soccer ball so high in the air. I got it from my old school friends, girls. i dont know it just feels so good when you get praised. Best feeling? The same as the feeling when people admire you, your appearance, your personality
I know I am defending platina maybe. Like I said if I dont take a high potency being special, being platina matters. Otherwise it doesnt. Maybe the remedy isnt so right after all either that or my disease is quite strong. Because after awhile it does matter to me again. Depends on how high the potency was.
Yes I am honest about my disease of course and why would I not? What does it matter fooling some people on here in believing me I am platina when in fact I am not? This would so depress me. This is my problem. I will never try to appear something I am not. I have to know I am 'it' to be able to function, to feel confident, to feel good etc.
I feel guilt and low or small (whichever one it is) pretty quick. So me conciously lieing about or trying to fool people about how much more or better I am than I really am never going to happen.
....
I have taken quite a few doses of platina all in all by now. I figure I should of get some side effects by now if it werent the correct remedy. All that happened was the '3rd eye opening' or whatever it can be called from the 10M dose. Otherwise I have not one negative thing to report. Just good things.
Anyway I am slightly uncertain now. From a whole I am 3 quarters still certain but a quarter of uncertainty now about platina based on those replies I got again. Whenever there is doubt and uncertainty I have to consider it. I cannot just dismiss it and say others are wrong. Maybe I am sometimes to open minded. I dont know.
Anyway I was in the city yesterday to pick up my brother at night. I am kind of a city guy. And the city and seeing people, girls on the street usually makes me very overemotional. Wanting to be with the people but at the same time not able to.
So reaction was Much less. Much more stable. But I know not cured obviously. But I am quite happy with it. I just noticed the slight overemotionality. But than the emotions did not overwhelm me but stayed quite stable. THis is how the improvement as of right now is. It is good. But obviously not good enough. The end result is that I am able to be with the people. This would be cure. So I am not sure whether this is how cure happens. Whether I am on the right track. That first my emotional response will get less and less and after a while maybe I will start socializing? Or whether this happens all at once quickly on real similimum.
I got a dream today where I was praised, told good things for having done something good at a party. How I shot a soccer ball so high in the air. I got it from my old school friends, girls. i dont know it just feels so good when you get praised. Best feeling? The same as the feeling when people admire you, your appearance, your personality
starface last decade
well I gave the mercury a chance, believed it could be my remedy. On the second day at work I felt lighter and better. Which made me positive. But by the end of the day it didnt hold any longer. And I was reacting with feelings of humiliation way to often and on the next day aswell so that I even had to live work.... I was regressing from the platina improvements at that time. SO that I as is normal wanted to take platina to get this quickly fixed. Since platina helped me with that in the past and made it possible that I could start working and seeing a homeopath in person.
So and right now work managable again. I told my homeopath the result of mercury. How hard work was becoming for last 2 weeks while I was regressing and just felt that I could not do any longer without taking platina again in a low potency.
So the paranoia at night went away. I can sleep again in my own room without light.
At work I am again how I used to be.
That is all good. But I want more right now. Not just be in a state where it is all managable. I want socializing to be fun for me again and that I am talkactive at work etc.
Homeopath is ok with me taking platina and says that I know best what I need. I know myself the most, that I seem pretty sure about platina so that it is a good idea to continue it in low potencies.
So and right now work managable again. I told my homeopath the result of mercury. How hard work was becoming for last 2 weeks while I was regressing and just felt that I could not do any longer without taking platina again in a low potency.
So the paranoia at night went away. I can sleep again in my own room without light.
At work I am again how I used to be.
That is all good. But I want more right now. Not just be in a state where it is all managable. I want socializing to be fun for me again and that I am talkactive at work etc.
Homeopath is ok with me taking platina and says that I know best what I need. I know myself the most, that I seem pretty sure about platina so that it is a good idea to continue it in low potencies.
starface last decade
Dude, you would start to forget about your problems more quickly than is happening with you. It seems like you have been talking about the same things for a year. I hate to break it to you, but you need to break up with Platina, it is not doing you any favors. You would not be agonizing about the fact that you want to have relationships, it would just become a natural extension of your life to connect with others. You are living totally in your head, and that is not living at all.
allicando last decade
the 3 long posts yesterday were not so much defense as was me being in my state where I just have to talk about myself.
to allicando
I know all that. But do you know how long it takes from a chronic problem like mine to start socializing after one takes the simillimum? Do you? I have no problem with letting go of this remedy. If I get one concrete fact that it is not mine I wont take it ever again and will not want to hear anything about this remedy again.
Not doing me any favors? isnt correct. I would not work and still have BDD and many more things
[message edited by starface on Sun, 08 Apr 2012 00:46:56 BST]
to allicando
I know all that. But do you know how long it takes from a chronic problem like mine to start socializing after one takes the simillimum? Do you? I have no problem with letting go of this remedy. If I get one concrete fact that it is not mine I wont take it ever again and will not want to hear anything about this remedy again.
Not doing me any favors? isnt correct. I would not work and still have BDD and many more things
[message edited by starface on Sun, 08 Apr 2012 00:46:56 BST]
starface last decade
I know how long it should take, and you are nowhere near where you should be if you had taken the simillimum. How many simillimum reactions have you seen, that makes you such an expert Starface? Anywhere near the hundreds I have?
Your homoeopath said you know what is best and you should choose your own remedy? Omg that is such a lie! Wow. I take back what I said about your honesty. It is hilarious that you think anyone would believe that. Or sad perhaps that you are so out of touch with reality.
I would love to have a chat to your homoeopath. I imagine you are seeing Kathy Thomas or Julie Andrews, so I might pop an email their way to ask her about this very unconventional form of treatment (letting the patient do it themselves). I am sure we will have an interesting conversation about that.
Your homoeopath said you know what is best and you should choose your own remedy? Omg that is such a lie! Wow. I take back what I said about your honesty. It is hilarious that you think anyone would believe that. Or sad perhaps that you are so out of touch with reality.
I would love to have a chat to your homoeopath. I imagine you are seeing Kathy Thomas or Julie Andrews, so I might pop an email their way to ask her about this very unconventional form of treatment (letting the patient do it themselves). I am sure we will have an interesting conversation about that.
♡ brisbanehomoeopath last decade
Well something is not right here,
bc he said he went to one homeopath-
julie Andrews. and then he says
that a 'homeopath' said he was
'too difficult' and kept his money
for the 3months of treatment.
so obviously starface you did not go
see 2 homeopaths-in the time you
saw julie andrews. julie Andrews
prescribed you the merc.
You are not telling the whole story
at all.
bc he said he went to one homeopath-
julie Andrews. and then he says
that a 'homeopath' said he was
'too difficult' and kept his money
for the 3months of treatment.
so obviously starface you did not go
see 2 homeopaths-in the time you
saw julie andrews. julie Andrews
prescribed you the merc.
You are not telling the whole story
at all.
♡ simone717 last decade
I think he was talking about a previous homoeopath when he said that. I know the stories can be confusing. I don't believe it is the current one that said that. Of course the current one didn't say he could self-treat either, so who knows what the truth is.
The fact is, if anyone had had their simillimum, and was truly healing, they would not be on this forum talking about their symptoms all day and night. They would go live their life and forget all about it. Sure people can chat about all sorts of stuff here, get into debates or swap information, but the only people that come on here to constantly talk about their symptoms are the sick ones.
As Allicando has said, and this mirrors some things I said awhile ago, you need to let go of your attachment to being this remedy. It is becoming a very serious health problem for you. I have only seen this kind of attachment once before, and that is someone else who posts on this forum. It is getting in the way of your healing and your life generally.
The fact is, if anyone had had their simillimum, and was truly healing, they would not be on this forum talking about their symptoms all day and night. They would go live their life and forget all about it. Sure people can chat about all sorts of stuff here, get into debates or swap information, but the only people that come on here to constantly talk about their symptoms are the sick ones.
As Allicando has said, and this mirrors some things I said awhile ago, you need to let go of your attachment to being this remedy. It is becoming a very serious health problem for you. I have only seen this kind of attachment once before, and that is someone else who posts on this forum. It is getting in the way of your healing and your life generally.
♡ brisbanehomoeopath last decade
well well. I dont like being called dishonest. So I will paste her email so that it clears up any misunderstanding in case I did not explain properly what she said to me. I hope this is not inapropriate of me. Will delete it later.
Yes Mati H fuller was an old homeopath of mine. Which is the one who took my money. I dont know what is confusing about that... Since I mentioned when I said that, that she is an old homeopath I did online treatment with before I came on this forum after she left me alone.
Julie andrews is the first homeopath I saw in person a few weeks ago. Ok.
her last email to me: (her approach is different from yours)
Hi ****,
I am sorry for not replying earlier. I have had a little time off to spend time with some family who are here from England.
Sorry to hear that you dont think the Mercury is helping you. You know yourself better than anyone else can, and you seem very clear that Platina is your remedy, so I suppose the best thing for you to do is to stick to that. I do think the 10M was obviously too high a potency for you and as you say in later email, you did not have a problem with the 30c.
Maybe it would be a good idea to stay with the low potency (30c) for a while, see what happens and then if you get no more result from the 30c, you could move up to a 200c.
You have 2 options with the 30c to take a dose from time to time (eg 1 dose every 3 days) or just take it as you feel you need.
Let me know how you get on.
You dont owe me any more money thank you for asking.
I hope you have a peaceful Easter.
Kind regards,
Julie
****
I understand all you are saying about platina and me. I am just wondering whether the potency is to low because it does nothing for my ego or whether it truly than is not my remedy, ok?
I read a case by george vithoulukas a while ago about a platina case where he said 'give her platina... in about a year she will be able to make social contact' So right now I am a bit confused about whether I am on the right track and this is how it works. That I can expect in a few months to make solid social contact or years or not. When I took high potency of platina my problems did not matter.
So it is all a bit confusing.
....
I have a question about a remedy. Lac leo. In the past when I read about it. 3 things stood out from it to me. But I am not sure how it would clear any underlieing issues, special feelings etc?
What exactly do those 3 things mean:
-sensitive to the truth
- winning by moral ground arguments or something like that was the symptom
- feeling indignation or low or inferior quickly when someone talks to them, or questions them or something like that.
All 3 things I can somewhat identify with.
Specifically the last one. When allicando, simone, david came on this thread again and tell me I am wrong. Or that I should let this remedy go. It made me angry and I felt of course like people are making me look bad, as if I am an idiot. + anger why me? why do they all have to attack me and make me appear like an idiot. Why does this not happen to somebody else, but me?
... although than I rationalize with the self help knowledge I know of. That this is just my reaction probably and not necessarily how I am appearing to people. And if I respond differently than I wont end up looking bad
I dont ever dream about cats though
Yes Mati H fuller was an old homeopath of mine. Which is the one who took my money. I dont know what is confusing about that... Since I mentioned when I said that, that she is an old homeopath I did online treatment with before I came on this forum after she left me alone.
Julie andrews is the first homeopath I saw in person a few weeks ago. Ok.
her last email to me: (her approach is different from yours)
Hi ****,
I am sorry for not replying earlier. I have had a little time off to spend time with some family who are here from England.
Sorry to hear that you dont think the Mercury is helping you. You know yourself better than anyone else can, and you seem very clear that Platina is your remedy, so I suppose the best thing for you to do is to stick to that. I do think the 10M was obviously too high a potency for you and as you say in later email, you did not have a problem with the 30c.
Maybe it would be a good idea to stay with the low potency (30c) for a while, see what happens and then if you get no more result from the 30c, you could move up to a 200c.
You have 2 options with the 30c to take a dose from time to time (eg 1 dose every 3 days) or just take it as you feel you need.
Let me know how you get on.
You dont owe me any more money thank you for asking.
I hope you have a peaceful Easter.
Kind regards,
Julie
****
I understand all you are saying about platina and me. I am just wondering whether the potency is to low because it does nothing for my ego or whether it truly than is not my remedy, ok?
I read a case by george vithoulukas a while ago about a platina case where he said 'give her platina... in about a year she will be able to make social contact' So right now I am a bit confused about whether I am on the right track and this is how it works. That I can expect in a few months to make solid social contact or years or not. When I took high potency of platina my problems did not matter.
So it is all a bit confusing.
....
I have a question about a remedy. Lac leo. In the past when I read about it. 3 things stood out from it to me. But I am not sure how it would clear any underlieing issues, special feelings etc?
What exactly do those 3 things mean:
-sensitive to the truth
- winning by moral ground arguments or something like that was the symptom
- feeling indignation or low or inferior quickly when someone talks to them, or questions them or something like that.
All 3 things I can somewhat identify with.
Specifically the last one. When allicando, simone, david came on this thread again and tell me I am wrong. Or that I should let this remedy go. It made me angry and I felt of course like people are making me look bad, as if I am an idiot. + anger why me? why do they all have to attack me and make me appear like an idiot. Why does this not happen to somebody else, but me?
... although than I rationalize with the self help knowledge I know of. That this is just my reaction probably and not necessarily how I am appearing to people. And if I respond differently than I wont end up looking bad
I dont ever dream about cats though
starface last decade
some help and guidance on what to do. You all confused me now a bit and have no idea any longer.
I just hope I am not a fool for believing you all everything. In my experience noone ever wants any good for me, noone ever wants me to succeed. To get better. Everyone likes to hold me back, and keep me below them.
This is what inferior people do. They try to hold back the other person when they notice that other person is becoming better than them.... Something similar I do whith my younger brother when it comes to him having friends who are girls. Well I dont do it, because I have a problem living with myself if I am this low. But the tendency to do this is their.
I just hope I am not a fool for believing you all everything. In my experience noone ever wants any good for me, noone ever wants me to succeed. To get better. Everyone likes to hold me back, and keep me below them.
This is what inferior people do. They try to hold back the other person when they notice that other person is becoming better than them.... Something similar I do whith my younger brother when it comes to him having friends who are girls. Well I dont do it, because I have a problem living with myself if I am this low. But the tendency to do this is their.
starface last decade
one more thing.
If I am wrong about platina being my remedy I never talk to my homeopath again. I feel to embarrassed after suggesting to her with CERTAINTY that I might be that remedy. This is to low. To embarrassing. I cannot face her again.
If I am wrong about platina being my remedy I never talk to my homeopath again. I feel to embarrassed after suggesting to her with CERTAINTY that I might be that remedy. This is to low. To embarrassing. I cannot face her again.
starface last decade
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