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  starface on 2012-04-30
This is just a forum. Assume posts are not from medical professionals.
Here is the text on palladium I found on the internet:

The Essential Features

Palladium patients characteristically suffer from tremendous emotional insecurity with very strong emotions that cannot be expressed. Thus in this way a blockade is created, a deep inner conflict, which needs constant support on the part of those around and especially those with whom they are intimately connected. All this is coupled with a tremendous unexpressed egoism.



They have a constant belief that they are worth more than the others think about them. No matter how much praise they may get, it is never enough. They have an insatiable hunger for flattery, not only for praise but really for flattery. It is impressive how much they crave it and how little they openly admit this and ask for it.

When sitting in the company of many people, if nobody pays attention to them for some time, they have a strong sense that they are being neglected. On the contrary if they feel that they are appreciated they keep very alive and excitable during their contact with the others, and they spend so much emotional energy that when they go back home and are alone again they feel exhausted.

Actually this feeling for the need for support and the good opinion of others follows them all the time

This can become a source of real everyday suffering. You can praise these patients to the skies and make them very happy; they thrive on praise, even if what you say about them is an outright lie or an exaggerated statement. They need to be loved and admired to a pathological degree. The opinion of others is so important that their balance and equanimity depends on it.

If they do not have such treatment they feel that their pride has been wounded, they feel that they are ignored and neglected, they may even have delusions of being neglected.

If somebody should criticize them even slightly, instead of praising them, they go to pieces. They are tremendously insulted, their inner pride is shattered, and their paranoia about it can go as far as having real delusions that everybody wants to insult them.

This remedy is similar to Platina insofar as they have an exaggerated sense of greatness, which will never be openly admitted. This is why we see delusions of growing larger or taller than they actually are. Here, however, there is a difference from Platina, who feels taller than others.

There is haughtiness, but this exaggerated sense of self importance stays inside, unexpressed, it is a feeling that is not confessed in any way, and this is different from Platina who tends to declare to everyone and in many different ways how important and great she is.

The Palladium patient exhibits no open confrontation with others. On the contrary he avoids it like the plague, and will not show his inner, almost subconscious self-importance to outsiders. These individuals tend to be rather quiet and timid with a strong lack of self-confidence, and may pass unnoticed in a social gathering, but still they want praise and flattery.

A Palladium child will do well at school if praised every day by the parents and teachers, but will do very badly if he is criticized at all. If the parents are not aware of what they must do, the child enters a state of total inadequacy, becoming lazy and uninterested in making any effort.

Children with a less than average intelligence believe that they are very good and intelligent, even when the marks they get at school are mediocre, or worse. It is this state of false greatness that prepares them to feel wounded at the least provocation.

This general idea of being “bigger” or “greater” than they really are, which is felt internally but is not expressed to the outside world, eventually leads the organism to produce huge tumors, especially on the sexual organs and more especially the ovaries. These are the affected areas that produce disease according to the idea symbolized by the medicine.

Here it must be said that in order to recognize or to discover the symbolic ideas expressed by the medicines one should be very careful, as such a task requires a lot of experience, and a mind that is at once analytical and synthetic, in order to take the facts, analyze them and then synthesize them into a coherent idea.
 
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starface last decade
Wow that's a good idea, go back to a remedy that didn't cure you the first time you took it. Such a clever idea.

Who cares what you do. This whole thing is grotesque and ridiculous.

It is funny though that you think you are an idiot for thinking when you are Platina, when the real idiocy is in thinking you are a homoeopath.

So take everything, take all the medicines one at a time, all at once, who cares. It is just the same boring monologue that will go on forever.
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brisbanehomoeopath last decade
Arent you supposed to get aggravated before cured so on the palladium there is aggravation but on platina I just feel better the moment I take it? Maybe I should have waited on the palladium longer when I aggravated and than cure would come, no??

And I cannot even take a 10m of platina.

At home I started expressing my ego as of recently?Is this good than.
 
starface last decade
Alright, I see how things are. Not going to get anything but critizism still. At least someone finally agrees to something with me. And I will remember this for next time. THis was the last time I listened to people and let myself change my mind when I am certain of something.


Theres something I dont understand quite clearly. Palladium is supposed to be complimentary to platinum. Yet it is the one remedy I must not take because it aggravates just about as bad as it gets my disease mentally. And even have gotten the more advanced symptom of 'objects appearing smaller when returning home'. If it is supposed to be complimentary why does it not benefit me. I am assuming what this means though is that you only take palladium once the platina state is cured. No more ego and stuff.


... There was another platinum symptom at work today... This 1 older woman who I think is platinum herself at work had her family over (son and a friend). I dont know if she is platinum really, all I know is she is image conscious and feels the need to mention to everyone she meets on the 1st minute of how she was married to a millionaire, a model, a tennis player, travelled the world and never had to clean or do anything in her lifetime.

... so when I was outside her room and saw her son standing there.. I projected my own feelings most liekly. Well since this woman seems image conscious to me I felt her pain for how her son is like. Nothing special. He was standing there with a depressed look. And in my mind I thought she must be feeling very ashamed of her family and doesnt want me to see her family since it would cause her pain.

And strangely enough half a minute later I went into her room and she mentioned nothing of her son being just here for the first time since I work there. And I could not ask her about it either. I feel like this would be terribly uncomfortable for her and hurt her. I dont like seeing people feeling uncomfortable.

This just showed me how difficult it is socializing and avoiding pain for me since I expect people get offended or feel hurt as quickly as I do for all kinds of small things.


I most likely projected this since the woman is very image conscious, as I said she likes to tell everyone what a good life she used to have and how she had everything before the black people in africa killed her daughter and this made her mentally unstable apparently. I bet its all a lie based on what I know about her and platina. (She is even on some medications). If she really is platina (I dont know for certain, but definately a possibility). Since those people apparently lie about their life... I would never stoop so low. Could not look at myself or sleep at night. I am happy when I broke something at work today that Iimmediately went and told my mother the manager. The easy thing and what I used to do in the past would be to just turn a blind eye and say it wasnt me because my sick father would critizise for a while and the anger I always felt from it was very strong. Since when he does something wrong its completely fine but if someone else than he wont stop until you attack him back.

I feel like who cares if I have to give money for this pointless material thing I broke, as long as I just have to dish out some money and not listen to critizism its all fine. Its not worth feeling bad about myself over hiding that I broke something and loosing sleep over it which I would if I acted in such low disgraceful way - covering up a mistake.

I am certainly enjoying the freedom of being away from the sick people and dealing with people who are nice, polite and rational. At work even my mother cannot go off and has to act mannered. Having money in your own pocket = not needing to put up with sick peoples critic any longer. It is a bit of freedom in itself
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starface last decade
I saw this video by coincidence because it was on a news site.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M46sQ_oboZc&feature=relmf...


What is this. Platina daughter & mother? I cannot imagine anything else. WHo walks around like a doll, to go shopping and so on. THis is highly eccentric. And her mother must be quite 'unbalanced' just like the daughter is.


at 20 seconds into the video she STARES just like I do often when the anxiety gets to my head. Although when I am staring I consider it to be much worse looking. This happens when the anxiety gets to my head and the muscles constrict on top of the head.

If I were a girl and walked around like that I could not feel relaxed. I would feel like a joke, that I cannot be taken seriously and that I am going to get attacked/laughed at by everyone.


SO I am thinking whether I just have this great vulnerability to attack, or I am not as delusioned as those people. Or that I am much more on the low feeling side about myself? Since I feel like everyon can see through me. I certainly would feel great anxiety and pressure on the TV and wonder how she pulled it off even after staring their before the inteview started which must mean she felt nervous. I would of tank it if I were in her position. When I feel I am nervous than it just gets worse and worse from that moment on with me. cannot recover

I dont know.

Maybe I am palladium or even to high to be walking around special looking. But I dont really feel high ever. It is just protection I would call it.

Ah I dont know. I certainly cannot see myself being this delusioned.

I am thinking someone walking around like that can just be one of the 'special' remedies so platina most likely. And her mother looks like this haughty devil anyway. Who could get off the moment someone offends her.

A bit strange and wrong that this girl and her mother have even gotten an interview on the tv show. On one hand the moderators say it doesnt seem normal and scary how she is dressed and that the mother allows it even, yet on the other hand they are bringing her onto the tv and feeding her attention. Just validating her reality that if she acts and dresses like that she will be on tv and noticed and so on.

I guess this girl is still 'functioning' then compared to me. Or acting out her disease does not bring on the pathology so strongly or what do I know. Maybe I am all wrong
 
starface last decade
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What does this mean? and why is palladium always 'slighted'... I am always slighted.

'Palladium is very similar to Platinum; in many respects it may be distinguished by lacking the haughtiness of Platinum and having a tendency to be continually 'slighted.''
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starface last decade
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I could agree a quarter of with this article below about platina but not the rest. Disgust contempt and the thing of how it was mentioned how they are like in company... that they dont know you in company and wont speak to you unless they have to.... See this sounds much more accurate and normal than those other things that are always Platina described as. I dont feel high ever, or that other people are inferior to me. Not true. They have no worth to me at times but still I dont feel good or high or think they are inferior.

At work for example I dont greet the girls of around my age ever but if they greet me I will greet them back with a smile or in a rather anxious inhibited way (depends on how I am feeling). Otherwise stay quiet. And I noticed how all those girls are acting anxious and uncertain around me to my surprise. They stopped greeting me now too just like I never will greet them first. But again this is out of protection. It has nothing to do with feeling high. I am afraid of having contact. Of having to talk to not humiliate myself. Since socializing is not something I am to confident about anylonger and will naturally avoid it as much as possible. So I will only speak when spoken to most of the time. Anyway those girls have stopped greeting me now too and this feels very bad to me. As if they are some haughty b*tches. I really thought this. But once I saw that they are anxious and uncertain around me when I look at them while they walk past me I realized they are just uncertain and afraid around me so maybe it is my fault why they are not greeting me, and not because they are some haught b*tches. Because I might have given out the impression that I couldnt care less about them. But still this is a bit funny. How can they not see that I am actually afraid and shy maybe and this is the reason why I dont greet them and give the impression as if I dont care about anyone- out of protection because I dont feel confident. Just strange that people dont see my inner state which I always fear everyone knows, and can see.

In my mind I am afraid I am being seen as the low idiot who has a social anxiety problem and doesnt speak because or socialize because of that. So I feel like I am being looked down upon by everyone. inferior. Yet those girls act anxious and uncertain around me.

This is just strange. I dont know how I am seen by those people any longer.

THE ARTICLE

Platina: For the Pompous Ass in 'You'
Platina or Platinum is a homeopathic remedy. One of precious metals, and in homeopathy there are several, gold, silver, palladium, copper, diamond etc. Platinum is more precious than gold or silver. Platinum is a symbol of prestige, and it is the second highest ranking in awards, even above gold, silver, and bronze, but below diamond. I have never prescribed platina, but it's a great remedy to talk about.


Platina types are haughty and highly intelligent by nature. He imagines that he is of a high born family and that his friends and relatives are of a low origin, he frowns upon them and becomes arrogant and haughty. He walks about with a stiff erect conceited gait.

The mental state of a platina patient is one of CONCEIT, and NARCISSISM. They are the pompous asses of society, they believe they are better than everyone on all levels of existence, even the soul level. They feel everyone is their inferior, and develop a disgust and contempt for everything in existence, even their own children. Infact they have been known to harbour an impulse to KILL their children or partners. That's how deep the contempt feels for them.

Because everyone is inferior to them, they perceive those about them as stupid, boring and a complete waste of their time. They are irritable, anxious and serious about matters that aren't really that serious. Any disturbance in their pride will bring about their symptoms. Platina's may be friendly to you but around the company of others they pretend as if they do not know you. They only speak to you if they have to. They are incredibly moody people.

Due to the irritating nature of the common man, life is mundane for them and they develop a distaste for life itself. In their overwhelming boredom they can turn to the sexual sphere and this can drive them to excessive masterbation to escape having to deal with the indolence of human society. Platina is a remedy for nymphomania, and an impulse towards unnatural sex. He may love perversity or a liking toward animals or sodomy.

They are sensitive but do not get offended easily, after all why should they care what the average neanderthal thinks of them? They are sensitive to any marks against their pride or station in life. Anything that may reflect they are not of a higher class.

So how might being a pompous ASS reflect itself in the human body? We could see a lot of numbness, and coldness due to their apathy and cold nature. Violent cramping pains, and a great deal of imbalance in the sexual organs. We would see a high sex drive with ravenous hunger, and exhaustion of the nervous system.
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starface last decade
Perhaps you would like to rewrite our materia medica based on your extensive clinical experience then?

Who cares if you agree with it? You wouldn't know what is correct or relevant anyway. You are ignorant about homoeopathy - we certainly don't need people like you offering opinions on clinical pictures of our medicines.

However I notice something very interesting about this quote you decided to copy here. The person HAS NEVER PRESCRIBED PLATINA. So they know maybe as much as you do, which is basically nothing. This person has just guessed at what Platina might be like - just like you do with every remedy. So I can see why you are trolling through articles written by other ignorant people. Not that you could tell the difference between what is good materia medica and what is bad. NOBODY who has not seen a patient needing a remedy can possibly write with any confidence about how those people present in real life. And frankly you would want to see a number of such cases before trying to sound like some kind of expert.

Sounds like yet another armchair homoeopath trying to sound like a real one to me. Just like you.
 
brisbanehomoeopath last decade
If I am platina in fact.. than she was right about some things and the knowledge of how they are in company is right and actually sounds more like me because all these talk about how they feel entitled to everything. High, everyone will wait on them, everyone will listen to them is not how I am like. This seems exaggerated. Sure on forums I act maybe a bit more demanding and to work I get late but I dont feel anything from that. In no way that I am queen, high, or now feel so worthy. No. Theres always fear around with me and bad feelings. So maybe different platinums exist, the polarities


But it is true, on days when the remedy stops working. When I notice my anxiety is here. The feeling of I wont be able to do what I am supposed to do. Ie go into a residents room. Can I handle it? On those days also when I at times feel more comfortable I get the ego. And get to feel tired of people. And that they are worhtless. But still this doesnt feel more than a protective mechanism and I do not get to feel good about myself or any STABLE good feelings. In a moment I can feel bad about myself.

I guess to me platina is portrayed like this great person and when you read about their profile you might get the impression about how good they must be feeling. But I dont feek good. I would agree more if in the materia medica or somewhere was written that platina feels bad, inferior often, afraid to be humiliated.

If I am this remedy even.


I dreamed about a lion at work today and that I have gotten a haircut and had hair maybe like a lion aswell.

SO when you have such new dreams is this clear sign of proving and able to throw remedy away?
 
starface last decade
You are asking questions like a homeopathy student.
Except you are not putting in the work and doing
the required reading and studying. If you want
to know about it , do the legwork and then ask
intelligent questions. You know better.

What you should be reasearching is NPD disorder
and what homeopaths have cured that disorder
and who will treat you online for it, or even ask
your own homeopath if she has had cases of it.

You have something similar to NPD and the common
sense thing to do is find someone who has dealt
with it with good results.

If you were really physically ill I hope you would
have sense enough to find a dr. who had fixed
the particular illness many times- that would be
the BEST option. You would not be fooling around
with med books quoting, well so and so thinks
blah blah blah, but they never had a patient.

Use your brain here, this is just stupid.
 
simone717 last decade
You are calling me stupid and saying that I am asking unintelligent questions?... Please dont make me angry and just leave.. Can I make one thread without having a post of yours on it, please. And you were just wrong aswell

The reason for my last posts and questions is a feeling of a bit of unjust here. Based on how I am treated. How I am made to be the egoistic one and whose all making is his own fault.

I doubt a platina state is being born around healthy parents. As david like to say out of his head how he thinks my parents are pretty normal people, yet I have been writing on here how my brother moved out because he had a conflict with my father, how my mother and me tried to move out for months and even police came once to our home because my father had his crazy episodes. If he gets that impression from treating Platina children in clinic with seeing their parents. I can bet those parents just behaved normally as my mother does at work (around other people). Its either that or not all platinums are the same. Or I am not platinum even.

I am also feeling unjust based on how I am made to be an egoistic person. Not even my parents think of me as arrogant but as someone who always under values himself. Never in life was I told before ever that I am arrogant. My egoisem is hidden. And I am always friendly to people. Its like this. At work I saw a resident who looks like poor old woman with a poor face. I feel contemptous of her in my HEAD. And just have bad thoughts and feel like distancing myself from her. Yet when she asks me something or speaks to me I answer her with a smile. Because I think all the disease goes when I am talking with people. Its just not on my mind. I am just like that when I am alone, not socializing. Or when someone attacks me.

There were 2 things at work again today which might of show my high ego to the outside but on the inside totally different.

1. My mother was giving me instructions for something while I was doing something in front of people and I could not for the life of me look at her and listen for more than a second. Anger came up and the need to protect myself. I cannot listen to her for instructions. Its a vulnerable situation if I do that. Feel so bad, small, low worthless. SO I was looking away, turning around to continue my work while she kept talking. And the workers than jokingly said listen to your mother. And I turned around again to listen since it was embarrassing to me, but than I had to turn around again a second later to protect myself.

2. After work I had to fill out a first aid form. I did so and when I was finished the thought of picking up the pen and paper to bring it to the office was again a vulnerable situation as above to me. Danger. So I probably maybe appeared like a king to people... once i finished I put the pen down stood up and left the building. With the paper and pen left on the big dining table in the middle of the lounge for my mother to collect and to take to the office.

Might look haughty as hell but its not on purpose. Not willingly. Its my form of protection against attack and dont know why I am treated badly for it.

I also have this that everyone who says any critic to me immediately looks like a devil to me. And I know that I from all can be the greatest devil of all if I decide to, since all people who have an inferiority complex have the potential to be devils but I am almost never like that. I dont use egoizem at the expense of others. To put others down, that is bad to me. Unless someone attacks me. Then they deserve it and only have themselves to blame. I have the decency to know when I am unreasonable and deserved the critizism and when not, when it is totally unjust.

Anyway I got to see what the underlining 'driver' for my BDD and social anxiety is. Both have it and I am pretty sure it fits platina.

Just strange that I have some palladium symptoms aswell.

1. At work I love to work when people are around. I automatically work much faster and have no problem or any ailment whatsoever. The moment coworkers dissapear out of the kitchen and I am alone I feel depressed and slow down.

2. I like to show how I am doing all the correct things always. How my thinking is the right way. ie. the thing 3 paragraphs above where I mentioned having an ego to put others down is bad. But a high ego for performance or such stuff is good. This is all approval/praise seeking from me. ANd not to be superior. I clearly can tell that.

I am not NPD. More like HPD - the emotional vampire. Narcissim isnt shown from me at work, around family. It stay inside. At the expense of others I dont show egoisem ever in real life. I work overtime for others often and would feel very uncomfortable if someone worked over time for me ever, or even helped me at something. I am narcisstic to put attention on me maybe that is the most it gets with me

I am pretty sure palladium is a remedy I need to stay away from at all cost. I was in such fight state and got symptom that everything looked smaller and distanced more when I came home from a walk on the 10th day or so after taking palladium months ago. So I am not having most of the advanced platinum syptoms YET I am guessing this means.
[message edited by starface on Wed, 02 May 2012 05:14:06 BST]
 
starface last decade
I don't think you are dumb which is
why your ' homeopathy questions'
are so irritating bc you refuse to learn the basics and
so your questions are flawed based on too little
information bc you won't learn anything but
what you want to read and then create your own
crazy system out of it. which leads to endless
conversations explaining why you are wrong
and then you do it again. so the result has been
you get attention and conversation which I guess
is what it is all about in the end. ATTENTION.



And just bc you hide the narcissism in your head
and don't act it out- does not mean you are not
a narcissist. Anyone who has read your posts
would say you were totally self absorbed to an
extreme level.

David likes to teach and you sure got that wired
in to keep the conversation going about you you you
and more you and how you still will keep finding
articles that may or may not be you-ad infinitem.

Even if no one answers you for a long time-
you still keep writing about YOU. What would
you call that- I call it narcissism.
 
simone717 last decade
You are calling me being wrong? I am speechless. I know a lot more than I show here. One thing I know is that people dont like someone who is smart and knows everything. Just look at how david treats me lol just joking or maybe not

I know the kingdoms. I know what a mineral remedy is like even though I often just throw out half statements on here which make me look like I dont know anything.

You know why I know I am a mineral? because when I am anxious it is about CAPABILITY. I dont feel like I am capable. And the most important thing it is also the SENSATION. Which brings the heaviness and tensions. I dont feel like someone or something doing something to me not at all in such situations. So definately no animal kingdom. There also is that things are not working and functioning for me when I am feeling the disease.

Please no preconceived assumptions anylonger, ok. I know a lot more than I show.

What irritates me is that I am the one who found own remedy yet I have some ants here trying to be critical and negative?


And about the miasm it is easy as pie. My BDD 24/7 was an issue and going downhill. I was very destructive. Sycotic people can still function. Syphilitic people not. The disease to much. And what is not having friends, not working, no life for years and suffering in front of the mirror for more than half a day every day with destructive phases of picking on your face in an attempt to change the flaw when the stress just got to much at times, anything else but syphilitic miasm?

...I still remember the aggravation from the scorpio I got prescribed. Which brought on feelings of disgust to such a big degree. I felt so awful. No life in me. Going out just for a walk was so hard. Everything was so disgusting and hopeless feeling. I would like to see someone of you in such state and how you would deal with feeling like that and yet having the high goals and standards. Being so far away from the high standard and great person I should be while feeling disgusted and hopeless. You would all be lieing in bed and crieing or kill yourself most likely. Also the problem was of knowing that I cannot defend myself and feel in such danger around people. So horrible when I humiliate myself and yet so far away from ever getting better.

But what have I gotten from david when he treated me while I was aggravating on the scorpio. TOld that I am impatient and so on and so on. I should have gotten praise lol. I know he couldnt know and that is fine. But when I am told anything negative when I feel I should be praised because I am pretty sure I am doing better than most people would... then it just feel angry and unjust done to me. THis is the only reason why I havent left this forum I think. Because I cannot take the loss, the unjust of not getting what I should deserve. I am not blaming anyone. I know I am a difficult person. SO this is not an attempt. I think only jesus christ or the great buddhists would have the ability to treat me well despite how I am like.


... No, HPD (histrionic PD with a narcisistic sub would be correct classification for me). Or maybe you could turn it around and narcissistic being the main with histrionic on the side.



What my BDD and Social anxiety have in common is this. The common underlieing problem. In social situation I fear of being made worthless, revealed. Theres a small margin or 'sweet' spot, in that small window I need to be in to feel ok otherwise I will feel worthless and like nothing, everything lost.

With the BDD it is the same. By the way when you have a bdd non stop for some years or social anxiety you are just in a state of fear and cannot tell what the problem is. Only by getting relief from the problem and then once it comes back can you get insight into what the problem actually is.

So with BDD, a few weeks ago my teeth started bothering me again. I just was fixed on the bad things of my teeth, chipped a bit and misaligned. In the diseased state there is just this one small margin where life is ok and this is when all my teeth look perfect, whole, without any problem. ALL ELSE IS NOT GOOD, NOT AN OPTION, ALL ELSE IS EQUALLY AS BAD. it doesnt matter whether it is just a small flaw that noone can even see. In this state I am just feeling like I will never have that beautifull smile and so on if my teeth were looking as good as possible.

So when I took the platina on then, what happened on the next day I noticed is this nasty problem went away. And my view became this next day when I looked in the mirror. 'Oh my teeth are just SLIGHTLY away from looking as best as they could. THis is such a little thing. Can barely even tell that my teeth arent perfect. But the difference is that on that day I could feel good for having near perfect teeth. FEEL IT. It was perfectly fine and no problem. Close to perfect was fine.

On the days when the disease here. There is just this blacck and white thing. Everything being black except for the small margin - of my teeth looking as good as possible.


With the BDD as with the social anxiety for me having a too big of a nose is like being an emperor with rich fancy clothes being stripped of them immediately. Again the wothiness thing. Life not ok if my appearance not in that small perfect margin. Only there do I have worth. Since appearance says everything about you. A to big nose does not mean you classy, you worth something, you cannot be the main character of a movie. Since all the main characters of a movie look good or have this special something about them.

Appearance very important. It tells so much about you to people and this is why the BDD was such a BIG NASTY problem and could of kill me. Life was just not ok with not being in that small sweat spot of excellence.

This is the same thing of how I disregard as people around me as worthless so often. In the youtube video I posted on this thread for example. The young girl has a terrible voice, so she out of that sweat spot to me and I dont give her much worth. I definately would not befriend her ever. She is a pretender. It just looks so awful. Ruins everything. To me only what is worthy is the complete package. Where the voice, appearance, personality just everything about somone is great. And one flaw can ruin it and render it completely worthless to me. Its like a new car. A new car has this status of being new. But one small scratch on it makes it loose it.

And this is what I fear with my appearance and socially also. For example that I will be revealed and rendered worhtless with this loss that I get of position or status from the revelation. When my mother tells me for example to be quiet around people. I feel this anxiety and humiliation immediately for such a small thing. Then I fear everyone now saw this and I completely have been revealed and lost something. And feel small and low with that. It a terrbile feeling.



So I am not suprised that platina helped with my BDD magically and immediately the worst of the BDD has gotten better so quick. The destructive self picking stopped in a matter of days and not returned. THe bdd isnt 100$ cured yet, but the suffering part. The fixation. Where a small flaw on my face makes me stop life and be unable to let go of it until this problem is solved is gone. So 75% ok.


With my social anxiety since the platina I noticed that despite feeling anxious I am deciding to do the things I fear regardless. Like go to the computer store to exchange something. Even though I know in advance I will be anxious. THis knowing that I will be anxious was such a problem before. Noone must see me being anxious is how it was. If I am acting anxious around someone I used to get so fixated on it and feel horrible about myself. Like the end of the world. I could not tolerate it. I felt like the moar disgusting low, small guy who everyone dislikes. Noone wants to know, a complete failure


But the fixation is just one part. And the other is cabability. Before I always felt like I wont be able to do it and got the nasty to big for me anxiety. I dont feel that when I take platina to such degree. Anxiety still here but it feels normal kind of. Not limiting. Pushing myself to do something I fear seems possible now because of those 2 things I described being better.


Ok I will stop now rather haha
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One other problem where this loss and feeling being completely worhtless by the revelation or feeling as if I lost everything is when I am around people and joking a lot. All of a sudden I get the thought than that this is bad how I am behaving and being seen now as by people. If I act like this, being the jokster I will never be seen the way I want to be seen or must be seen. Never be taken seriously and be the main character like in a movie.

I cannot explain it correctly. you know people who joke a lot you can dismiss them quickly as being the jokster but nothing more and you walk away then fom them. And someone else who acts more seriously can be seen as more worthy. And people will come to him. A jokster will never count.

So it helps knowing what remedy you are in itself. Since a lot more awareness can come when disease comes and you know your enemy than at least.


See I did not even have the freedom to be telling jokes or being sarcastical lol (IN life -offline). Because a danger to my worth. I can be rendered as the sarcastical snake like idiot immediately. Those people just dont count. Noone ever going to admire or look up to them ever. They are not people of status, position. Such people of status act/behave differently.
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