Serious brain fog - Help Evocationer

The brain fog has been here since before taking Sabadilla though.

No, it has been since contracting Lyme. Lyme nosodes have not made a difference either, nore Ledum 30c but I have not tried Ledum in higher potencies.

No, she is a classical homeopath.

Simone, right now I am financially unable to see another homeopath so that is why I am posting here :(

1] Your Complaint: Brain Fog, inability to focus or think sharply

• What is your complaint?
Diagnosed with Lyme disease. Tick bite in fall of 2011, positive Igenex test 2013. Lived in very moldy house from 2010 – 2011 (black mold).
Primary complaint is brain fog...fuzzy thinking, unable to analyze information that is read. I have to read it several times and forget it very easily. Making mistakes while speaking – saying the wrong words...unable to put my thoughts into words. It is hard to follow words when reading.

• When did the complaint begin?
Brain fog began about 6 months after tick bite.
• Where is it located?
My entire head – brain area
• What sort of sensations (and emotions) do you associate with it?
Dull, dizzy, empty, cloudy, sad, confused
When does it tend to occur (time/day)
The brain fog is constant
• Does anything make it better or worse?
Coffee seems to make the brain fog better but I can't drink it right now because I am nursing. Dairy, gluten, eggs make it harder to focus.
• How does it bother you? How is it coming in way of your day-to-day life?
YES! I work with computers so the brain fog makes it extremely difficult to perform my job, it is also effecting my ability to balance bills, remember appointments, etc.
• How does it feel like to have this/these problem/s?
Frustrating and scary. I am the caregiver of my family as we all have Lyme disease and if I am unable to work or perform basic cognitive functions, I am scared that we won't have anyone to help us.
• What is the effect of this/these problem/s on you?
It is making taking care of my family difficult. I'm messing up on the finances (math errors), I'm forgetting appointments and day to day things.
• Did any event happen which caused the complaint? Describe the emotion associated with it.
Yes, a tick bite caused the brain fog Fear is associated with it. I have seen Lyme destroy my husband's brain and I'm scared that it is doing the same to me.
• What are the other symptoms started with it, esp. mental and physical symptoms, which are not directly related to the main complaint.
I used to be proud of my work and now I avoid it. I will start working and then stray to something personal and then force myself to get back to work. I feel like I am avoiding it because it is so difficult now.
• What are your reactions with it?
Not sure what this means …

2] Your Complaint: Pressure behind eye

• What is your complaint?
Pressure/fullness behind right eye, down right side of face and neck. MRI says small air-fluid level is present at right maxillary sinus. Mucosal thickening at spehoid chamber.
• When did the complaint begin?
Pressure in eye began in 2011.
• Where is it located?
Pressure in eye is directly behind eyeball as if something is pressing it forward. Pressure is also felt behind right jawbone and dull aching pain radiates down right side of my neck. Pain on bone under right eye as well when pressure applied.
• What sort of sensations (and emotions) do you associate with it?
Frustration...aggravation..just want to pull my eye out.
When does it tend to occur (time/day)
Eye pressure is more noticeable in the mornings between 8 and 11am.
• Does anything make it better or worse?
Dairy and eggs make the pressure behind my eye worse and pressing on my eye gives temporary relief.
• How does it bother you? How is it coming in way of your day-to-day life?
Eye pressure makes looking at the screen difficult..I have to squint. The pressure is very irritating and feels like it is effecting my vision.
• How does it feel like to have this/these problem/s?
Horrible, frustrating..just want to go home when I'm at work.
• What is the effect of this/these problem/s on you?
I am having trouble looking at the screen at work..my work is not getting done in a timely manner,
• Did any event happen which caused the complaint? Describe the emotion associated with it.
I believe that the exposure to the moldy house is causing sinus issues or drainage issues on my right side.
• What are the other symptoms started with it, esp. mental and physical symptoms, which are not directly related to the main complaint.
I used to be proud of my work and now I avoid it. I will start working and then stray to something personal and then force myself to get back to work. I feel like I am avoiding it because it is so difficult now. I do know that the birth of my daughter a few months ago triggered the more intense body aches, foot pain and joint pain.
• What are your reactions with it?

MENTAL AND EMOTIONAL DESCRIPTION

(Please spend the most time on this section and give DETAILED answers - the homoeopathic remedy is very often decided on the basis of the mental and emotional state of the patient !)


1. What are the issues in your life that bother you the most. Not physical issues but mental or emotional ones. List each one separately and describe why each one bothers you so much.
My family – we are all on edge all the time – arguing, stressed, major issues communicating. I feel like there is electricity short circuiting in everyone and we keep zapping each other. I just want some peace.

I am trying to release the negative energy surrounding losing our moldy house. We worked so hard for it and we lost everything. I feel lost and hopeless that we will never be able to have our own home again. It was all taken from us.

I am beginning to avoid interacting with my family because it is hostile and difficult to communicate. I feel like I'm alone. I'm avoiding difficult tasks too.

2. What emotions are the most troublesome for you? What situations provoke these emotions. How do these emotions make you act? Do you feel any ill effects from expressing or not expressing these emotions.
Anger – trying to co exist with my husband provokes anger...I miss who he used to be (before Lyme) and now he is just a ball of anxiety, OCD, and is in his own little world. I used to be a compassionate person and now I have no patience or understanding. I fly off the handle when things aren't the way I want them. I know I'm being unreasonable but can't stop the anger. I yell, throw things, become very nasty...calling names, very critical.

3. What incidents in your life have had a deep impact on you? Describe each incident in detail and how they made you feel? What did you do in those situations? What effect have they had on your life?
Divorce – betrayed, angry. I had to stay calm for my kids who were young...couldn't get angry in front of them, etc. It made me suspicious of cheating in other relationships.
bad relationship – verbal abuse, physical abuse (mild but still not ok), drug use on his part, I tried to help him but he was still going through a nasty divorce and turning to drugs. He was very manipulative and controlling. I gave him one final chance and then he kept using and I left with my kids abruptly (we had been living together). This relationship in a way taught me that words hurt...and now when I argue and get really mad, I say very, very hurtful things. I sank to new lows in this relationship that I never had before and some bad habits have stuck with me.
moldy house - Since my divorce, I had been working hard to improve my life to be able to purchase a house. I worked hard for 7 years and finally my new husband and I bought a house. We found black mold in the attic space next to my daughter's room which we remediated...then more mold in the walls, then my daughter became sick and later found to have severe PANDAS—system wide strep infection – hallucination, ocd, anorexia, suicide attempts etc. Our whole family felt sick in the house. We kept trying to repair it but kept finding more mold and we were getting sicker. We left pretty much everything and moved into a hotel and later to a small condo. We tried to sell it but the mortgage company refused our communications and foreclosed. We had to file bankruptcy. We lost everything. This house destroyed me, my family, our health and our finances. I was running on fumes for two years with the house and my sick daughter. I start to cry every time I think of that house and everything we lost. I'm trying to move past it and let it go but it's very hard.
lyme disease – while going through the chaos of the house, we found that my husband has chronic lyme disease and it started effecting his memory and cognitive ability. Then my son, myself and my 4 year old daughter got bit and contracted Lyme. Lyme is not effecting my cognitive ability and I'm so scared that I will not be able to take care of my family. I feel like it is a death sentence...

4. What are you afraid of? Especially important are phobias, but it might be objects, situations or events that just produce a high level of anxiety. How do you manage your fears? How do you react when confronted with these fears? What would be the worst situation for you to be put in that would provoke these fears? You may need to talk about each fear/anxiety separately.
-mold – I can smell it clearly and when I do, I leave where ever I am. It brings back horrible memories of the house. I just want to run away.
- I get scared walking up or down stairs in the dark. I feel like someone is following me so I go faster and I feel anxious.
- I have a bad fear that one of my kids will be abducted. I make sure that they are always in sight especially out in stores, etc and outside playing.
- My oldest daughter has Charcot-Marie-Tooth disease and I have a fear that if I don't do what I can to help her eat right and stay away from chemicals that she will be in a wheelchair. I feel like I can prevent her from progressing faster.

5. What hobbies do you have? Why do you like each of these activities?
- I don't really have any hobbies anymore but I do like visiting pottery stores and farmer's markets. I love reading about natural health remedies, reiki, nutritious cooking,etc. My hobby is keeping my family healthy.

6. Do you have any persistent thoughts, ideas or beliefs that are difficult to stop or cope with? What are they?
I don't think I have any persistent thoughts...nothing intrusive or anything. I try my best to keep myself positive.

7. Do you have any unusual gestures or movements of the body? Do you feel any unusual sensation or pain throughout your body? What exactly does it feel like is happening in your body?
- I feel weird pressure behind my right eye.
- I feel a burning pain in the left hand side of my right calf...about the size of a quarter. It feels like I'm being lightly zapped by electric.
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8. When you experience your fears, persistent thoughts, or difficult emotions, what kind of sensation or reactions do you get in your body? Hair stands on end, feel adrenaline rushing, thoughts of the house make me cry...not just the house..it was supposed to be our home.

9. When did you feel at your best in your life? What was that like for you? If you imagine the complete opposite of this feeling or moment, what would that be like?
I felt the best in my life when I was in my twenties after my first child. I was working out, had tons of energy, had a good outlook on life, I felt strong and able to do anything. The opposite of this would be feeling sluggish, slow, weak, in pain, mentally dull.

10. Do you feel like you are stuck in a pattern of behavior, especially when trying to deal with your problems? What is this pattern?
I feel like I am trying to place blame on people for my unhappiness – by criticizing my husband and kids. When I get overwhelmed, I get angry and start complaining that they are doing things wrong.

11. What difficulties or problems do you have in relationships? Talk about your family, your romantic relationships, your spouse or partner, your friends, and your work colleagues. You may need to talk about all of these separately.
- I don't feel like I can relate to my family. I feel like an outsider. I was adopted at three months and had an abusive, controlling mother but a wonderful father. I have a relationship with my birth mother but it is awkward...she, like me, likes to help with unwanted advice. She doesn't understand how we live (organic, chemical free, gluten free, etc, etc). She never had any other kids nor a good family growing up (she was sexually abused by her father) so she does not know what family really is. She puts her friends/partner before us and often sees our family chaos as an inconvenience/burden.
With my husband, I have been shutting down with him. Communication is so difficult because he forgets or becomes confused and it frustrates me. He asks me questions several times to 'double-check' and I get very annoyed. I feel disconnected because he seems like he is in his own world..everything revolves around his ocd and insecurities...conversations consist of questions to calm his racing mind.
At work, I feel like an idiot these days. I am socially awkward...I don't really talk to anyone but if I do, I ramble because I don't have anyone to talk to. I share too much information that is personal. For some reason, it is difficult for me to maintain eye contact with people..i have to look away when talking to them.

12. List 5 positive things about yourself. Are there any situations where this positive attribute becomes negative (is a problem)?
- I am aware, curious – this becomes a problem when I 'over research' things and not just accept that things are as they seem...I always think there is something more.
- I love to help people – this becomes a problem with I offer advice that is not asked for or try to tell people that their choices are bad for their health (in a nicer way than that though)
- I am caring so I end up getting hurt easily.
- I am sensitive yet I put walls up so I don't get hurt.
- I try to keep the peace but when it doesn't happen, I get mad which defeats the purpose.

13. List 5 negative things about yourself. Are there any situations where this negative attribute becomes positive (is useful)?
-I have a bad temper when I get mad- I don't think there is any situation where this would be positive.
- I am not (recently) compassionate and understanding with others
- I am critical – this can be positive when I'm cleaning or paying attention to details.
- I can be hypocritical...justifying things when I do them but pointing them out when someone else does.

14. Do you have any reoccurring dreams? Describe them in detail, including any feelings that come while dreaming.
I rarely dream and if I do, I don't remember them.
15. Did you have any reoccurring dreams as a child, or earlier in your life? Describe those in detail including any feelings that came with them.
a few years ago, I kept having a dream of a house falling apart and having to go in and find my family. This was before we moved to GA. I remember trying to go up stairs that turned to the left and a high ceiling. I also remember what it looked like going down those stairs and seeing the tall blank wall in front of me. Our current house has the same staircase now with the high ceiling curling around to the left. I would feel frantic like the house could collapse at any moment and I had to save my family.
16. What were you like as a child, your character, your personality, your fears, your dreams, your problems?
I was awkward, shy, tried to hard to make friends and had none. Socially inept. Just never fit in. I loved music and played the flute for many years. I just wanted friends.

17. What kind of environment did you grow up in? What problems where there at home, with your family, with your parents, with your siblings, with school?
I feel it was an abusive home. My mom has hep-C and I think it is making her go nuts...either that or she is just sadistic and controlling....permission to eat, permission to go to the bathroom, not allowed to sit on furniture, beat me with spoons, brushes, riding crop...pulled my hair so clumps came out...took stuff out of my room and lied about it. Locked us outside during the summer...fed us like dogs giving us a bowl from the kitchen door. Had to spend hours doing chores, etc. She is a hoarder and does not like anyone touching her stuff. My father was wonderful though...loving, caring but still under her thumb. My older sister moved out before she got too crazy but my younger brother had issues too and I took him in when he was 16 so he could finish high school and have a somewhat normal home.
From my mom taking my things all the time, it took me many, many years to not freak out when something would go missing. I automatically thought someone took it instead of looking for it better.

GENERAL SYMPTOMS

(Symptoms that don’t fit anywhere else, but are things that tend to affect all of you as a person, but are not emotions or thoughts)

1. Sleep - what position do you tend to sleep in? On my right side
- what position can you not sleep in? On my back
- do you do anything unusual in your sleep? No – I used to sleep walk and sleep talk but not recently.
- any problems with going to sleep, staying asleep, or waking up? Pain in my hips and back when sleeping...its hard to get comfortable.

2. Appetite - What foods do you crave/desire strongly? brownies, avocado, rice pasta with dairy free butter and salt
- What foods do you hate eating (have an aversion to)? Kale
- What foods have a negative effect on you or cause symptoms? Gluten, eggs, alcohol, milk/cheese
- What foods have a positive effect on you or seem to improve your health or symptoms in some way? None that I have noticed.

- What is the effect of hunger or fasting on you? Very negative. I tried a fast of just meat and veggies...no sugars and no additional fats and after two days, I began getting shooting pains in my head and dizziness. I had to stop.

3. Thirst - What drinks do you crave/desire strongly? Coffee, home made lemonade
- What drinks do you hate to take (are averse to)? None that im aware of.
- When are you most thirsty? I rarely get very thirsty and have to force myself to drink. I do get thirsty overnight.
- When are you least thirsty? During the day at work.

4. Stool - Do you have any problems with your bowels or passing stool? I used to be very constipated but since having my daughter and having to cut out a lot of foods (soy, milk, cheese, gluten, chocolate, etc) due to nursing, I have been pretty regular
- What is the shape, color, odor of the stool? Normal shape, brown, no strong odor.

5. Urine - Do you have any trouble passing or retaining urine? No
- What is the color, odor of the urine? Yellow – no odor
- Do you have any sediment or debris in the urine? No

6. Sweat - How do you feel about the amount of perspiration you have? Its normal.
- Where do you have the most sweat? underarms
- What is the odor?
- What color does it stain clothing? I haven't noticed that it stains.
- Does anything in particular cause you to sweat abnormally?

7. Sexuality - Any problems with your sexual desire? There isn't any.
- Any problems with your sexual ability or function? It works when I relax enough to enjoy it.
- Any history of sexually transmitted diseases? No

8. Menses (Women)
- How many days is your cycle? About 28
- How many days does the flow go for? 5-7
- What is the appearance of the flow? Heavy, clots
- What is the odor of the flow? Towards the end it has a bad odor...
- What kind of stain does the flow leave? Not sure what this means....
- Any discharge before, during or after? no
- Any pain before, during or after the flow? Minor ache before
- What symptoms come before the flow? irritability
- What symptoms come after the flow? no

9. Environment – How does the weather affect you? Thunderstorms make me happy...love the smell of the air right before a storm.
- How does the temperature affect you? The cold makes me cranky...can't tolerate it.
- How does the season affect you? Spring and Fall are my favorites...seeing the flowers bloom puts me in a good mood...seeing the color and smells of fall makes me happy. I can't seem to tolerate hot, hot heat.
- What physical activities affect you? All physical activity right now knocks me out..I get tired easily and take days to recover and get my energy back.
- Is there anything else in the environment you are sensitive to? no

10. Anything else you feel is important that hasn’t been covered by previous questions? Not that I can think of.

Thank you!!

I've used this remedy acutely before but not in a higher potency. I've taken the first dose last night.

I have taken the dose but have not noticed any change/improvement/worsening, etc.

I am sorry for the delay in replying. I have just been trying to keep my family afloat...very hectic.

The picture you posted about Anacardium feels like it is accurate in several areas especially
Anger from contradiction
Very easily offended
Very forgetful
Weakness of memory
Anxious when walking as if someone was pursuing him
Feeling of separation, from the world, from society, from family
Malicious in anger

I don't even recognize myself with all of the anger I have towards my family. I used to be a very compassionate, loving person and now I just go for the throat. I will try this and let you know how it goes. Thank you!