Please help

1. Age,sex,weight,body and face appearance, country, occupation.
ANS. Female, 63 years old, 141 lb, Canada, work with special need kids,oblong face, was born with a mole on the right cheek, dry-red flaking skin around nose-both sides (sometimes). Very fine skin. Have wrinkles. Have frown lines

2. Main complaints and other associated troubles.
a)Where is the trouble; The exact locality of the complaint like hands,legs etc; duration of trouble.
Get pressure in my stomach, like somebody is trying to push all my stomach through the small hole. This is very uncomfortable.It is happening now while I am typing.My lower legs feel week and cold. The fingernails get blue. Have some light pressure in my left temple.My head does not feel ok.Sensations around my lips, numbness.Hearth rate is slightly elevated..Sometimes get better if I lay down for a while.Most of time I need to get a pill to feel better. Some days this lasts for hours. Some other times goes in 5 minutes then comes back later.
b)What exactly do you feel, Sensation as pain, how pain feels or burn etc.
All I know that I am not being myself since first time took “carcinosin”remedy. I have never before had this kind of feelings.How pain feels?Fearful .Sometimes comes with numbness in the left temple.Only my left side of face gets affected.
c)What are the factors that causes this trouble acc. to you.
I wish I knew. I believe that the remedy I took caused some kind imbalance in my body, brought symptoms I don't know how to deal with.
d)Condition under which the complaint is reduced or you feel better like,cold or hot application,cold or hot weather,position as standing,walking,rest etc.
I feel little better resting in my bed, sometimes it helps to take deep, slow breaths
e)Condition under which the complaint is increased like,cold or hot application,cold or hot weather,position as standing,walking,rest etc.
I could not find the pattern
f)Any other complaint any where in the body.
Anal fistula
g)Onset time of troubles in detail, i.e which came first, after that what problem and so on.
Two years ago I got constipated due traveling( changed my eating and drinking habits)after few days felt pain in my anus. I thought that I am having hemorrhoids . Did not go to see a doctor because I get so silly embarrassed showing my private parts.Developed an abscess, in my left buttock. Finally a surgeon cut it to drain. Got some antibiotics, twice. The wound healed, but the pain remains. Afraid of going to see the doctor again I started applying plantain leaf poultice( use it in my home country for abscesses).Two fistulas opened, a lot of pus came out. Took me whole month of applying plantain for pus to get out.
h)Treatment method adopted and its result.
Two years later due the constipation and very hard stools the same thing happened. The same position.The doctor cut to drain. Got some antibiotics. After the procedure, I thought that I was going to die due the cold, shaking sensations.The bacteria got into the bloodstream. I have 3 fistulas. One is inside my rectum. That is the one get infected whenever I had constipation with hard stools. The second one is in my anus. This one is still producing a pus. Thick, yellow pus. I see this one in the mirror when stretch my anus gently. The position is 12 o'clock. The third one is above the anus. I think that the second, and the third fistulas are blind. This is my interpretation, have been reading about this for a long time. They were the main reason for me to seek homeopathic remedies.
2. 3. History of diseases in family.
Mother died of cervical c., age 78

4. Personal History.
a)About childhood.
Grew up with an alcoholic father, very abusive towards my mother , I looked after my father when he came home drunk because I was the only one who was not afraid of him. I protected my mother from his abuse. Love dearly my brothers, I believe that I was a mother and a father to them when we were growing up.What ever my brothers did wrong my mother would punish me, so they were my responsibility. Even though I looked after my mother, never was able to establish closeness.When she use to punish me, I can't ever remember crying.I found forgiveness in understanding how difficult her life was
b)Academic performance.
I have always loved learning, knowledge. Use to be a math teacher
c)Any major incidents in life and the effect of it on life.
War. Family got separated. Pain because of separation. Everything has changed since then
Divorce. Growing up believing that my duty is to be good daughter, good mother and wife.My believes changed but it was very painful transition

d)How you are satisfied with your sex life, friends, family members, company etc.
Don't have sex life. Still in contact with my life long friends. Missing them a lot.Have good relationship with my 3 kids.Well being of my kids is what keeps me going in life. Working with the same company for 11 years, great people at my school, people are important to me. Love my job


5. Habits/Addiction.
a)Smoking, Alcohol,Sleeping pills, Laxative etc.
Use to smoke, alcohol for special occasions, but not for a long
b)Masturbation and frequency.
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6. How is your Appetite and Thirst.
Normal, Drinking a lot water, not because I am thirsty, because is good for me

7. Likes and Dislikes.
a)Alcohol Bread Butter Bitter Salt Sweet Sour Fats Milk Mud Chalk Egg Spicy food Meat Fish Fruits Fried Food
Warm food-drink Cold food-drink Ice Ice cream Chocolates Tea Coffee.
Like meat, beef, lamb, chicken, white fish,pumpkin seed butter, bread (love the smell of baked bread). Like salt in my food. Like pickled cabbage, naturally-not with vinegar. Vinegar upset my stomach. Like eggs, from free range chicken and raised without soy in it. Love to eat veggies. Love all fruit, but don't eat apples-can't digest them, get pain in my stomach, right side. Don't eat oranges for the same reason.I love cakes with walnuts and chocolates. Have not had them for a long time.
I do not eat spicy food, stomach upset. Drink a lot room temperature water, don't like it cold.Love my hot, morning coffee. Like to drink a cup of dandelion root tea,yarrow tea, rose-hip tea, Chinese green tea.My teas are usually hot. Always enjoy home made lemonade. Love to drink beets+carrot juice. Love to drink warm beef and chicken soup.
b)Anything else about like and dislike of any activity with you or surrounding.
Do not like going outside when is too cold. Enjoy walking in the fields. Like to walk in the winter when its snowing outside, providing mild temperature. Love to sit by the sea, in the summer, to watch the sea, sunset, and to smell the ozone. Love the sound of gentle waves. Love to have my privacy. Like visiting my family and friends.
3. 8. Bowel movements.
a)Nature of stool, frequency, satisfactory or not.
Once a day, I have never learned what kind of food might make me constipated. I love honey, use to eat a lot, now even a teaspoon made me suffer.Yoghurt, chocolate, turmeric powder, baking soda, all do the same....make my stool too hard
b)Any discomforts associated with stool.
Sometimes they are hard. Third time this summer, they got hard which caused fissures. I am dealing with some fissures right now. All I had different were few wheat crackers and couple of cakes( which I don't eat regularly). This is a first time in my life to deal with anal fissures.Use to have hemorrhoids in the past

9. Urine.
a)Frequency, nature, volume.
All depends how much water I drink, light yellow color
b)Any discomfort before, during or after urination/odor
sometimes during urination feel burning just on the exit, not inside the urethra .No odor.Sometimes I see a discharge, yellowish, no smell.

10. For men.
a)Any difference in erection/want of erection/weak erection/Ejaculation early/late.
ANS.
b)Any other trouble in sex.
ANS.

11. For Females.
a)Menses, Regular, Irregular,Early, Late.
I got first menses when I was 12 years old.They were regular until I had my last baby. Had a surgery when a piece of my uterus was cut due the ingrown placenta. After 10 years started having regular menses again.It lasted for some time. It has been more than 10 years that I am off them.
b)Duration of menses.
The average 3-5 days when I use to have them
c)Nature of flow, Scanty, Blood colour, Consistency, Odour, Staining, itching/ when and what makes it worse/better.
When I was younger they were dark, scanty, thick. After having my last kid, less flow and brighter colour
4. 2. Sleep.
a)The quality of sleep, the quietness or restlessness of sleep,
position of sleep, times of waking and reasons for waking,
need for cover over various parts of the body,
whether the window must be open or closed etc.
common dreams, peculiar sounds or gestures during sleep, etc.
Have always had difficulties falling asleep.When I was younger, once in a bed I would plan events for the next day, what to cook, what clothes my kids will wear, went over my lesson plan for school..Must be really quiet in order for me to fall asleep.If stressed or worried can't sleep.Wake up hearing noises in the house( if somebody opens a door or a window,) slamming car doors outside, wind.Dreaming about dead people, especially my mother, would wake me up.I tend to believe that dreaming about dead people has a message or a meaning in it.. Sleep better in the higher level houses or apartments. Can't sleep in the room with a stale air. When I was a kid and a young adult I would sleep with my head almost covered to the top, felt safe that way. Now I cover up to my chin. Even in the summer time my kidneys have to be covered, feel cold to if they are not. Use to sleep on my tummy, then on my back..In my older age sleep on sides. Feel better on the left side.My hands are crossed in front of my chest.The hand I lay on supports or under the chin, the other hand crosses and holds to the other one or rests under the pillow.
Since this summer my legs are restless.I feel burning heat, waves of burning heat. This makes me sleepless even now when is not hot. It is interesting that on the touch, my “burning”legs feel cold.
13. Sweat
a)How much, what parts, staining, Odor.
I don't sweat easily even when is hot outside. Humid weather cam make me sweat, or wearing tight, synthetic clothes. Some sweat under my armpits, if I wear synthetic or tight clothes, not much but smell is not pleasant. I can not ever remember my feet being sweaty.

14. Weather
a)Tolerance to heat and cold, dryness, humidity, weather changes, sun,
foggy weather, wind drafts, closed rooms, etc.
Sensitive to cold wind, humidity. Love sunshine. When is hot have problems with varicose veins in my left leg. If its too cold my body does not function the best, low energy. Have always been sensitive to drafts. Feel great to have fresh air in my room, love the smell of the fresh air. Stale air is bothering me. I am very,very sensitive to go through old clothes that haven't been moved around for a long, or go through used book in bookstores. Sensitivity to mold
15. Mental Status
a)The quality of the patient's life in relationship to loved ones, family, friends and colleagues. Overall quality of energy available to function in daily life, and under various circumstances.
Very connected to my kids, if I don't hear from them tend to worry.....I am learning not to and getting better in that.Talking to my kids usually lifts my spirit. I use to be overprotective to my kids.I have great kids.They would say that I am the best mother and a friend. I still have a guilt of not knowing how to deal with my older daughter when she was a teen, 30 years ago.I believe that I could give more to all of them. I have good friends, missing being with them as I used to before the war. I have always being honest and reliable to my family and friends.Respect my colleagues and try not to mix my work and private life. I am a very private person.
b)Any mental/emotional shocks occurring in the patient's life-grief, major financial losses separation from loved ones, death, identity crisis and other stress in life.
Separation from my daughter when the war started, she went away with her husband.Leaving my mother knowing that it might be the last time seeing her before she dies...and it was.My mother's death. My father's death during the war.War,Leaving my hometown.Divorce.
c)Memory,ability to concentrate/comprehend.
Have a good memory and comprehension.My concentration is the best in quiet places, have difficulties to concentrate if its too loud around me, or have mess around me
d)Are you fearful of anything eg: Animals, people, being alone, darkness, death, disease, robbers, thunder, storm, high places.
Disease, height, deep water,never got a drivers license....when I drive have fear that I might kill somebody in the accident, being alone in the house....but not in the building apartment, being alone in the darkness, dreaming about dead people. When I was a kid was afraid of thunderstorms.I am afraid of spiders, fast driving
e)Are you anxious about anything: if yes, give details.
About what is happening to me right now.After using homeopathic remedy start having something like panic attacks. I don't have control of myself anymore
f)Are you impatient.
Sometimes
g)Are you doubtful or suspicious.
I usually doubt myself, questioning if I did the right thing. If something does not make sense to me I can get suspicious. If I get suspicious I do a lot research to find the truth
h)Are you hurt easily (emotionally)how do you react. Does it cause hatred/revenge.
People that I care deeply can hurt me but I usually forgive them. I always try to understand why they are doing that . I think:”They must be hurting too”. I don't hate. I even could not hate anybody when the war started in my home country
i)Does your pride get hurt easily.
No
j)Are you depressed, if so, reason/circumstances.
No
5. k)Do you like to share your problems.
No. I have always believed that I need to solve my problems, sharing them is admitting or showing your weakness. I am getting better in sharing them
l)Effect of consolation.
Feel better
m)Do you ever become suicidal when? How.
No
n)Memory- quality if poor, for what ( eg. Names, places, people, what you read).
Poor in remembering peoples names, better in remembering what I read than what I hear. Remember things easier that make sense to me, logical-math-science formulas
o)Do you weep easily, effect of weeping, ie, does it make you worse or better.
Do not weep easily.After weeping feel better.Do not feel comfortable when weep in front of people I don't know well
p)Are you easily irritated. What makes you angry, how do you express it.

q)Are you destructive.
No
r)How good are you in making decisions.
Making decisions is my weakness, have always been thinking how my decision might affect people involved, try to stay on safe side
s)Do you like company or like to remain alone.
Depends of who is my company
t)How seriously are you affected by disorder and uncleanness in your surroundings.
Can not function properly
u)How does failure appear to you?
Creates guilt in me
v)Are there any matters that you deeply dislike?
Fight, when somebody does not believe me
w)What activities you deeply like? How does it affect your mood?
6. Driving in the country; nature, fields, hills make me calm. Love listening to music.Music can lift my spirit, energetic, sentimental, or sad. .Depends what kind of music I am listening to.Sometimes working on math problems brings me comfort. Walking . Used to walk all by myself since I was a little kid. Even then, even so little I was able to find places and activities .to feel happy. Love reading, learning new things.
x)Are you affectionate? How does others sorrow affect you?
Very sensitive to pain of others, especially my kids, if my kids suffer always wish if I can take pain for them
y)Any present fears in your life or future.
Of sickness
z)Any present life or future life desires.
To be healthy, my family and myself

Thank you homeo.mzp!

Thank you very much, homeo.mzp for the advice.
My understanding is that I need to get a liquid form of this remedy.Right?
Is it safe to continue with my meds for the anxiety since I can't stop without tapering it slowly?

Regards to you !
Elizabeth51

Thank you homeo mzp!
Thank you simone717!
I am suffering a lot, hopefully, this is the right remedy for my troubles.

Regards,

elizabeth51