Help new mom feel "normal" please!!!

Thank you! It may take me a couple of days to get back to you with the holidays. I really appreciate it!

1. Age,sex,weight,body and face appearance, country, occupation.
29yr. old female. Weight is 130lbs 5’8’’ average muscle tone medium frame. Face is round and full cheeks with sometimes ruddy, red sensitive facial skin
Residing in Indiana, USA. Currently a stay at home mom.

2. Main complaints and other associated troubles.
a)Where is the trouble; The exact locality of the complaint like hands,legs etc; duration of trouble.
Main complaint is extreme anxiety/depression. I feel very fickle with my mood even hour to hour. I can be completely calm and content one minute and then full of anxiety or depression the next. I feel that I over think everything! I’m too aware of myself and my behavior; always thinking about how I am perceived by others and if I am acceptable or if they like me. I tend to think that I can feel people’s emotions for example if they are annoyed with me and don’t tell me. I do this a lot with my husband. He will say something or have a facial expression or not respond in the way I think he should and then I feel extreme anxiety towards him. Then my mind races through everything that I don’t like about him and builds up this heated angry emotion towards him that wants to boil over! I have bouts of depression like feelings that mix in with the anxiety. Feelings of inadequacy as a wife and that my husband doesn’t like to be around me or my daughter. Get feelings of being trapped. I feel like I’m not good at being a mother and its unnatural to me and others think that of me too. I’m constantly reviewing my behavior when around family wondering if they think I’m doing things right. I have a feeling of not knowing what is appropriate behavior when in a group of people. For example if we have dinner at my mother in law’s house, and I’m holding my daughter and my mother in law comes up to talk to her while she is in my arms, my mind wonders if I should hand her my daughter to hold or keep her.....I just feel awkward like I can’t figure out how to be natural in situations. I’ve known my husbands family for 10yrs but sometimes feel like I barely know them. Some days I feel so comfortable in conversation with people and other times the same people make me feel so uncomfortable. I feel so disconnected sometimes during conversation with people; like I’m outside of my body. I also feel obsessive compulsive about things. For example after I eat, I will feel the sides of my stomach to feel if I’m fat. I will do this many times throughout the day. I also have a dog that sheds hair and I sweep at least 2 times a day and constantly think about the hairs being on me and where else they are. I frequently look and stare at the hairs that are left behind after my dog sits on her chair and it gives me extreme anxiety. I usually relieve it by sweeping.
Another complaint is sweating when put on the spot by people or when I am the center of attention in a conversation. Any situation that makes me become self aware of myself causes sweating. Performing in front of people etc. The sweating is mainly my face and armpits but do get occasional groin sweating.
And lastly I have digestive trouble. Leaky gut and yeast issues. Frequently feel nauseated, and get bloating after eating but not at every meal. Seems to be worse as the day progresses. Bowel movements are sometimes regular and quick at the same time in the morning and other times I feel the urge to go but can sit on the toilet for 20+minutes. I’ve had an issue with anxiety and digestive trouble since I was a child. Now since being pregnant and nursing my symptoms are hard to deal with on a daily basis.
b)What exactly do you feel, Sensation as pain, how pain feels or burn etc.
Physically with anxiety: my heart will beat fast, tightness in chest, my face will flush, sweating from face and armpits, dry mouth and thirst, confused foggy thinking, can’t remember what I’m doing.
Physically with digestion: I feel like a brick is laying in my stomach and food is packing on top of it up to my neck. I have a desire to eat something dry to make the feeling go away. I also feel nausea and a dull pain intermittently on my left upper quadrant under my ribs.
c)What are the factors that causes this trouble according to you.
Anxiety: Any situation that causes me to become self aware of myself. It could be me telling a story in front of family or just singing in the car with my husband. Loud noises like kids screaming or crying...the sound of my baby crying gives me anxiety. Another factor is wanting things to be clean and hair free so when I think about the dog then it makes me think that I need to clean and that gives me tremendous instantaneous anxiety!
Digestion: Factors that cause this trouble are hard to pinpoint for me. I have a harder time eating foods that are heartier to digest (salads, meats) I’m sure the anxiety causes trouble in this area too.
d)Condition under which the complaint is reduced or you feel better like,cold or hot application,cold or hot weather,position as standing,walking,rest etc.
Anxiety: Getting away by myself usually stops some of the symptoms of the social anxiety. When I’m alone with anxiety, I pray and that helps. I try to breathe deeply. Eating something I enjoy like chocolate or potato chips gives short term relief. Talking to my mom about the way I feel and getting reassurance helps also. The anxiety about the dog hair is only truly relieved if I clean and sweep. This relief only lasts for a couple of hours though because I see the dog walking around and imagine the hair falling everywhere and that increases my anxiety again. Alcohol seems to help in all areas of the anxiety but I don’t make drinking a common practice even though it alleviates symptoms.
Digestion:Eating something dry like cereal or potato chips will help the pit in my stomach and the nausea. I have to do this several times a day and usually keep carb rich foods in the car for when I don’t feel good. I have tried the homeopathic Nat Phos 6x for the nausea and it did seem to help too.
e)Condition under which the complaint is increased like,cold or hot application,cold or hot weather,position as standing,walking,rest etc.
Anxiety:This is increased in hot weather and more if I’m standing. It’s very hard for me to define specifics because I can handle the same situation in completely different ways depending on my body’s behavior for that day. I can be completely comfortable with my mother in law one day and the very next feel like she’s a complete stranger. With the depression, being alone makes it more intense.
Digestion:Eating foods that are wet...harder to digest like meats and vegetables.
f)Any other complaint any where in the body.
My face skin will get itchy but no visible rash will appear. Just invisible itchiness
g)Onset time of troubles in detail, i.e which came first, after that what problem and so on.
At a young age(9yrs) I can remember being taken to the doctor for stomach trouble and being put on a bland diet to alleviate symptoms. At that age and beyond I also had trouble going to school because of anxiety. The digestive trouble as well as the anxiety followed me though high school but never seemed as intense. I really started noticing the anxiety causing a major issue when I was about 19yrs old. I developed a weird unknown skin condition at that time that made my face burn and itch like I had rosacea. I went to several dermatologists who prescribed everything but nothing brought relief. I spent the next 10yrs. in constant discomfort trying everything I could to get my face to quit itching and burning. The sun exacerbated it horribly. This condition has thankfully let up on me the last couple of years but I am still left with the anxiety and digestive trouble.
h)Treatment method adopted and its result.
Everything under the sun! Doctor after doctor, prescriptions like xanax which did help but left me feeling very tired, therapy(did help with coping) Acupuncture did not bring much relief.

3. History of diseases in family.
Father’s Mother: partial colon removal Father:Never diagnosed but anxiety
Father’s Father:Schitzophrenia

Mothers Mother:Peripheral Neuropathy. Also, she shares similar social anxiety feelings as I do but never diagnosed
Mothers Father: Multiple Sclerosis Mother: obesity

Brother: Brother: Undiagnosed Obsessive Compulsive



4. Personal History.
a)About childhood.
I am the youngest and only girl of a family of five. I have two older brothers. My parents worked the whole time I was young so we spent a lot of time with babysitters or with my aunt/grandma who watched us also. My brothers fought a lot growing up and that put a lot of stress on my parents. I went to a private small Catholic school from kindergarten thru 8th grade. I remember not wanting to go to school a lot. I started smoking in the 7th grade and didn’t quit until I was 20yrs old. I also began drinking at that same age on occasion with my brothers and friends. This lasted through my high school years where I also smoked marijuana.
b)Academic performance.
School work came pretty easy to me and I always had good grades.
c)Any major incidents in life and the effect of it on life.
I was sexually abused by my father around the age of 3 or 4. I have only a couple memories of this and it only happened twice. My memories are vague but are some of the earliest that I have. I told my mom about it when I was around 10yrs old. After discussing with family and a counselor I was basically told that I was mistaken. This has made a huge impact on my relationship with my father. I spent my whole life living with someone and pretending to be normal with him. I did ok pretending until I was about 18yrs old and then I became very angry about the situation. My dad still denies it to this day and I’m 29 now. He still tries to hug me despite my repeated requests for him to not touch me. No one knows about this incident except my mom, aunt, and grandma. I’ve never told my husband.
d)How you are satisfied with your sex life, friends, family members, company etc.
This varies day by day. I am content with my husband. I believe the emotions I have towards him are hormonal when I have them. I don’t care for the company of my dad much. I love my mom but sometimes feel awkward with her when thinking about my childhood and what happened with my dad. Decent relationships with brothers. I would like to have more friends though but feel its hard at the moment with the anxieties I have.

5. Habits/Addiction.
a)Smoking, Alcohol,Sleeping pills, Laxative etc.
I would say eating could be an addiction for me. I can mindlessly eat and use it for comfort and boredom.
b)Masturbation and frequency.
Currently I do not masturbate

6. How is your Appetite and Thirst.
Hungry all the time. Constantly thinking about next meal. Thirst varies day by day. Sometimes feels unquenchable and is usually during times of anxiety.

7. Likes and Dislikes.
a)Alcohol Bread Butter Bitter Salt Sweet Sour Fats Milk Mud Chalk Egg Spicy food Meat Fish Fruits Fried Food
Warm food-drink Cold food-drink Ice Ice cream Chocolates Tea Coffee.
Alcohol, bread, butter, salt, sweet, fried food, potato chips, popcorn, anything crunchy, chocolate, cookies,
b)Anything else about like and dislike of any activity with you or surrounding.
ANS.

8. Bowel movements.
a)Nature of stool, frequency, satisfactory or not.
Can go days very regular and satisfactory then will have a few days where I can feel my bowel is full but isn’t moving as quickly.
b)Any discomforts associated with stool.
No

9. Urine.
a)Frequency, nature, volume.
Usually quite often when I’m relaxed. Clear and a lot because I drink a lot of water. When I’m under stress, the frequency is less and it seems like I can drink a lot and my pee will be dark and a scant amount.
b)Any discomfort before, during or after urination/odour
It smells more when it’s dark and a scant amount.

10. For men.
a)Any difference in erection/want of erection/weak erection/Ejaculation early/late.
ANS.
b)Any other trouble in sex.
ANS.

11. For Females.
a)Menses, Regular, Irregular,Early, Late.
I have been breastfeeding for 4 months so my period has yet to return. Before pregnancy, my periods were erratic. Sometimes coming every 30days or up to 45day. I’ve actually been married 6 years and this is my first pregnancy without using any form of birth control. We were wondering if we would be able to have kids.
b)Duration of menses.
5-7days
c)Nature of flow, Scanty, Blood colour, Consistency, Odour, Staining, itching/ when and what makes it worse/better.
Heavy flow for first couple of days then tapered for duration. Bright red with dark in color. Smell would become somewhat fishy after flow slowed down. Heating pads and laying down would make it better.

12. Sleep.
a)The quality of sleep, the quietness or restlessness of sleep,
position of sleep, times of waking and reasons for waking,
need for cover over various parts of the body,
whether the window must be open or closed etc.
common dreams, peculiar sounds or gestures during sleep, etc.
I’ll try to answer this best I can with having a 4 month old baby! After I get her to sleep, sometimes I fall right to sleep. I sleep on my right side facing her baby bed. We have a humidifier that makes a constant white noise and sometimes I cant stand the sound of it. I’ll have to put an earplug in the ear thats closest to the sound. Sometimes I will toss and turn for an hour or more before going to sleep. My mind will race and replay the days events or worry about future things. I’ll sometimes get a song stuck in my head that will play over and over while I’m thinking. I wake up to the baby needing fed and then try to get her back to sleep. Sometimes she goes right back down and I cant go back to sleep. So I’ll toss around another couple of hours and think about stuff. I sometimes have to turn on a show I like on netflix and I’ll just listen to it thru headphones. This seems to distract my mind from thinking and help me fall asleep again. No dreams really stand out as common.

13. Sweat
a)How much, what parts, staining, Odour.
Face-a lot when i’m anxious or outside in hot weather. Armpits-a lot and offensive odor but no staining. Feet-moderate no odor no staining. Groin-minimal no odor or staining

14. Weather
a)Tolerance to heat and cold, dryness, humidity, weather changes, sun,
foggy weather, wind drafts, closed rooms, etc.
Low tolerance for direct sun and humidity. Low tolerance for cold and blowing wind.

15. Mental Status
a)The quality of the patient's life in relationship to loved ones, family, friends and colleagues. Overall quality of energy available to function in daily life, and under various circumstances.
Energy is low. I feel like my personality can’t keep up with other’s people’s. I feel drained after social events where I have to interact with lots of people and talk about myself etc.
b)Any mental/emotional shocks occurring in the patient's life-grief, major financial losses separation from loved ones, death, identity crisis and other stress in life.
Sexual abuse from father. Face itching/burning for 10yrs straight! Not being able to go in the sun comfortably or talk to people without wanting to rip my face off!
c)Memory,ability to concentrate/comprehend.
Horrible at times! I forget my train of thought all the time. I feel confused. I sometimes listen while people talk like I understand what they mean but really have no idea.
d)Are you fearful of anything eg: Animals, people, being alone, darkness, death, disease, robbers, thunder, storm, high places.
My husband leaving me. Meeting new people...and meeting people already know!
e)Are you anxious about anything: if yes, give details.
We live in a small house and I’m anxious about being home with my daughter all day and not having enough for her to do. I am anxious about stimulating her brain enough to develop, for her to be smart. I don’t want her to get sick or be around sick people. Basically everything makes me anxious lol! Trying to figure out what to make for dinner for the week...getting my house cleaned...thinking about that I need to make some friends with kids to hang out with....getting fat...dog hair!
f)Are you impatient.
Yes!
g)Are you doubtful or suspicious.
Yes and yes...
h)Are you hurt easily (emotionally)how do you react. Does it cause hatred/revenge.
Yes but I easily forgive. I usually try to retaliate with words back or cry.
i)Does your pride get hurt easily.
Yes
j)Are you depressed, if so, reason/circumstances.
I think on and off. I think I’m trying to adjust to this role as a mother and it’s a new experience. This little person relies on me completely and I can never get away from her. I sometimes feel alone because my husband works and I’m home with her by myself. I feel like I should be doing more for her some days.
k)Do you like to share your problems.
Yes
l)Effect of consolation.
Gives me tremendous relief!
m)Do you ever become suicidal when? How.
Never
n)Memory- quality if poor, for what ( eg. Names, places, people, what you read).
Can be poor at times depending on the day
o)Do you weep easily, effect of weeping, ie, does it make you worse or better.
Yes and weeping usually brings a release for me and makes me feel better.
p)Are you easily irritated. What makes you angry, how do you express it.
Yes...people talking about the same thing every time I see them. My husband critiquing my parenting...the dog makes me instantly angry. I usually try to internalize it and see if it’s valid to bring up.
q)Are you destructive.
No
r)How good are you in making decisions.
Very indecisive. I will stand in the produce at the grocery trying to find the best tomato. I don’t want to pick the wrong one.
s)Do you like company or like to remain alone.
This is mixed for me. Certain days when I feel not myself I like to be alone because company exacerbates my symptoms and other times I feel so comfortable with people.
t)How seriously are you affected by disorder and uncleanness in your surroundings.
Very seriously affected! Makes me not be able to relax and very irritable!
u)How does failure appear to you?
Embarrassment
v)Are there any matters that you deeply dislike?
ANS.
w)What activities you deeply like? How does it affect your mood?
I like shooting skeet with my husband....playing cards...shopping with my mom...going out to eat. It can flip my mood completely but it depends on the people that go and if I feel comfortable with them that day.
x)Are you affectionate? How does others sorrow affect you?
I’m affectionate towards my husband and my baby girl. Sometimes I feel like I have to force the affection with others. Others sorrows affect me differently...sometimes I feel like I dont care and it makes me feel mean and I think I should be crying with them but I just cant.
y)Any present fears in your life or future.
Fear that I will have to keep pretending to feel ok...
z)Any present life or future life desires.
To make friends that have kids and enjoy hanging out with them. To feel comfortable in my own skin when I’m alone and with other people.

Thank you so much for looking at my case!

Ok is this ok for me to take while breastfeeding?

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Hi I just wanted to let you know that I did the remedy you suggested last night and this morning. I'll keep you updated in 20 days like you said!

Thank you!

Would you consider helping me find a remedy to help my 5 month old sleep at night?

Hi, I just wanted to update you on my baby girl. I've been giving the remedy without much change. She has been congested and sneezing since birth but now she rubs her eyes and nose a lot. She seems to wake up rubbing her eyes every hour thru the night. Would that be a possible food or environmental allergy? She is teething too!

Thank you!!!

Molly

Yes I'm sorry I just made the connection with her rubbing eyes and staying awake. I was told her congestion was normal by her doctor but it seems excessive. She has an easy time falling asleep but does not stay asleep. She is very restless and moves her head and limbs while waking. She sleeps no longer than 1hr at night. She wakes up and will fall asleep again while nursing.

I am feeling better emotionally. I still have some symptoms but should I wait the full 20 days to report?

Thank you for your help!

Her tongue has a thin white coating and pale pink edges. The mucous is usually sticky and stays in the nose but gets wet and flows when she cries. It sounds like it's constantly in her throat and I hear it crackle when she uses her voice. Her voice is hoarse as well.
She seems to choke on the mucous throughout the day and snorts often. She breathes through her mouth often. She gets frustrated easily and cries heavily in a matter of minutes. She stiffens her body and cries violently but is comforted by nursing.
I can't determine if it is better or worse after feeding or morning/evening. It just always seems to be there. She sneezes on/off all day.
She is also teething and chews on her hands all day and drools excessively.

She rubs her nose through the day and has just recently started rubbing her eyes. Redness and tiny rash like bumps come and go across her eyebrows.

She has other symptoms as well like frequent bowel movements that sometimes cause an instant diaper rash. And she seems to cry when she is awaiting to pass a bowel movement. She gets frustrated easily and cries in general.

Thank you

When she was 6wks old she started crying a lot. I eliminated dairy, gluten, and soy from my diet and it helped with the crying tremendously. I just wanted to tell you in case this information affects your recommendation. Thank you

Hi I just wanted to give you an update on my progress.

I initially felt better with the remedy. I had less anxiety and depression for a couple weeks.
At the start of week three all symptoms had returned and are almost unbearable now.
Extreme anxiety, confusion, irritability
Rapid heartbeat, shallow breathing, adrenaline rushing thru body
Sweating from face, armpits.
Racing mind
Feel outside of myself and very confused
Constant need to be busy doing things
Feel very self aware


These symptoms are always worse when around others but are present by myself too.

When I awaken from sleep I feel "normal" and calm and then I switch to these symptoms and have a hard time falling back to sleep.

I notice that I feel less symptoms when I haven't ate for a while and am hungry. Eating seems to induce symptoms.

I'm very sensitive to fabric smells and touching them. They take my breath away. I don't know if this information is helpful to you.

Thank you for your help! Please let me know if you have any further suggestions!

My baby girl is sleeping better at night since taking the chamomilla. She still has trouble napping during the day. Congestion/sneezing is still present and bowel movements seem to cause pain and gas.