masturbation with no drive

hello,

Im a 28 year old male, I've been masturbating and watching porn since around 10 years old. Im addicted to masturbating. It has taken away my drive in life. I don't ever have energy to work and don't like to. I don't like to leave the house. IM an artist and I never feel like painting although I am very good and sell paintings for a lot when I finish them. I have been feeling guilty for a while now since I am a christian and committed fornication. I have lots of pent up emotions and I don't share how I feel with anyone. I have dry cracked skin on my index finger and thumbs with tiny blisters. I feel stunted as an adult and feel childish seeing everyone around me progress. heres a list of my symptoms and thank you for your time. Ask me anything and ill include it. I have been getting a sore throat and cold just about every month for a little over a year. I prescribed myself bufo rana 30c after doing some research but and today is my first day taking it. I ordered sulfur 30c and staphysagria 30c. please let me know if these sound right.

1. Age,sex,weight,country,occupation.
age- 28 sex-male weight-165 country- U.S.A occupation - artist

2. Main complaints and other associated troubles.
a)Where is the trouble- masturbation, poor concentration, low energy, tired, neck pain and tightness, dry skin on fingers and small blisters, weight gain, indiffernce and weepiness, cold feet.
b)What exactly do you feel, Sensation as pain, how pain feels or burn etc.
no pain
c)What are the factors that causes this trouble according to you.
high sex drive, masturbation
d)Condition under which the complaint is reduced or you feel better like,cold or hot application,cold or hot weather,position as standing,walking,rest etc.
cold maybe
e)Condition under which the complaint is increased like,cold or hot application,cold or hot weather,position as standing,walking,rest etc.
mornings and at nights, tired, bored
f)Any other complaint any where in the body.
stomach gets upset sometimes
g)Onset time of troubles in detail, i.e which came first, after that what problem and so on.
ANS.
h)Treatment method adopted and its result.
none

3. History of diseases in family.
none

4. Personal History.
a)About childhood.
repressed memories, father was a drug addict and alcoholic, abused mother. saw pornography at age 8 started masturbating at around 9 or 10
b)Academic performance.
in school poor, terrible at math, very good artist and liked history.
c)Any major incidents in life and the effect of it on life.
older brother died in a car accident
d)How you are satisfied with your sex life, friends, family members, company etc.
no sex life, will be married in hopefully a few months. my family life is good. I feel indifferent to them sometimes.

5. Habits/Addiction.
a)I like to drink sometimes but not addicted. I’ve been trying to switch from beer to wine.
b)Masturbation and frequency.
I masturbate usually 1-3 times a day. in the morning, afternoon and night. I have blocked all pornography on my computers and don’t expose myself to it. but every few weeks I will watch.

6. How is your Appetite and Thirst.
often I’m not hungry but when i eat I eat a lot of food and don’t feel full for a long time. I never feel thirsty.

7. Likes and Dislikes.
a)I like beer, wine, mixed drinks bread, butter, milk, spicy food now, meat, eggs, coffee. I eat very little vegetables and fruit

b)Anything else about like and dislike of any activity with you or surrounding.
I like to play board games with friends and watch movies and read. I dislike working and chores, lazy and procrastinate.

8. Bowel movements.
a)Nature of stool, frequency, satisfactory or not.
normal except for occasional diarrhea.
b)Any discomforts associated with stool.
none except burning after eating spicy food

9. Urine.
a)Frequency, nature, volume.
I pee often and a lot
b)Any discomfort before, during or after urination/odour
no

10. For men.
a)Any difference in erection/want of erection/weak erection/Ejaculation early/late.
erectons are usually forced and small, not full.
b)Any other trouble in sex.
no


ANS.

12. Sleep.
a) I sleep good, but I sleep in until close to 9 am and wake feeling sleepy. I sleep on both sides or on back or on chest. I need the a/c fan on to sleep. I don’t remember my dreams.

13. Sweat
a)How much, what parts, staining, Odour.
I do not sweat very much and don’t have much body odor .

14. Weather
a)weather is humid always and I hate the cold.

15. Mental Status
a)I don’t like people outside my family very much. I don’t like to be touched or have someone shake my hand very long. Little energy or drive. I want to work and be busy but I dread starting and procrastinate with anything else.

b)Any mental/emotional shocks occurring in the patient's life-grief, major financial losses separation from loved ones, death, identity crisis and other stress in life.
grief from brothers death, regressed emotions from childhood.
c)Memory,ability to concentrate/comprehend.
memory is poor, poor concentration.
d)Are you fearful of anything eg: high places and I think about death sometimes
e)Are you anxious about anything: if yes, give details.
not really, i feel a lack of emotion in me.
f)Are you impatient.
yes somewhat.
g)Are you doubtful or suspicious.
I am suspicious
h)Are you hurt easily (emotionally)how do you react. no, not hurt easily.
ANS.
i)Does your pride get hurt easily.
yes a little
j)Are you depressed, if so, reason/circumstances.
I don’t know, sometimes I feel sad but not very often.
k)Do you like to share your problems.
no never
l)Effect of consolation.
I don’t like being consoled, I have a fear of crying around people
m)Do you ever become suicidal when? How.
no
n)Memory- quality if poor, for what ( eg. Names, places, people, what you read). I remember places and people very well and facts from books but I don’t remember names and other things.
ANS.
o)Do you weep easily, effect of weeping, ie, does it make you worse or better. yes I weep easily, especially during movies.
p)Are you easily irritated. What makes you angry, how do you express it.
I get irritated from hearing people talk about their problems
q)Are you destructive.
self destructive yes.
r)How good are you in making decisions.
terrible
s)Do you like company or like to remain alone.
I like company with my little brother and I don’t like to leave the house.
t)How seriously are you affected by disorder and uncleanness in your surroundings.
I am a messy person and dont like to clean
u)How does failure appear to you?
I try not think about it.
v)Are there any matters that you deeply dislike?
yes work, dealing with guilt,
w)What activities you deeply like? How does it affect your mood?
eating, drinking, playing games and watching movies.
x)Are you affectionate? How does others sorrow affect you?
no I’m not affectionate and not sympathetic
y)Any present fears in your life or future.
no
z)Any present life or future life desires.
want to get rid of my emotional problems, stop masturbating, become productive and get married and start my life.

16.Describe your face and tongue by doing FACIAL AND TONGUE-
some acne occasionally, large pores on cheeks by nose, slow receding hairline, big lips. tongue has many cracks with white in the middle, sometimes geographic.
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