Depression, SP, negative thinking, EBV

Hello Dr. Vikas,

Thank you for answering to my e-mail.
I usually feel better in the morning then worse after lunch. I get overwhelming fatigue and my eyelids become heavy.
Yes, my feet sweat abnormally in winter too, but not my head (only when I exercise).

It's really difficult to say because my mood and agravations or ameliorations are unpredictable. If I feel really depressed (I don't feel like talking, seeing anyone, I weep, and, desire to be dead)I feel a lot better the day after.
Yesterday I felt better towards 7pm but then after dinner, sleepy again.

Hello Dr Vikas,

Thank you for looking up a remedy for me. I greatly appreciate Dr. Vermani's recommendations and not only his (I've posted many e-mails over the years). No one had suggested Lycopodium.
I've taken it because of some of the symptoms i.e. 'loss of confidence', feeling of inferiority', fear of people, commitment and responsibilties', and, 'submissive character' except with people who aren't equally submissive.
I took the 30CH for about 2 weeks but I became extremely hungry and started putting weight on so I stopped.

I also have trouble sleeping (falling asleep and waking up early). But I don't have one hand or foot warmer than the other.
Do you think I should take it again hoping this side effect will go away? If so, which dose?
Thanks for your help.

Hello,

Lycopodium seems a close choice but i have some doubts like WAKES AT NIGHT TO EAT. BULIMIA.
CRACKS ON HEEL.
ONE HAND OR FOOT MUCH COLDER THAN THE OTHER.FLARING OF THE ALAE NASI IN ASTHMA OR PNEUMONIA.for e.g.which are major symptoms.


Do Lycopodiums feel faint or even faint after cutting a finger and bleeding for e.g. with a knife by mistake? It happened the other day and also in the past.

Lately i feel very weak at noon and need to sit down. Today I was writing on the board (during a lesson)and i wasn't able to write what i wanted to (I kept on mistaking the words). It wasquite embarassing.

Please tell me if these are Lycopodium symptoms or not.
Thanks

Even though I'd love to be more sociable, feel optimistic about my life and future, a sleep aid would help me a lot because i think the benzodiazepine I'm taking makes me feel even worse. So even if Lycop. isn't my remedy, could you suggest one to help me sleep and stay asleep.

Thanks a lot.

Hello Dr Vikas, can i take 30ch seeing I took it in January last year and have taken other remedies after that? Furthermore the picture of my case isn't that clear.
Could you tell me the dosing for that potency? Thankyou

Hello Dr. Vikas,

As I was looking through 'procrastination' i found this e-mail written by Dr. Sameer for dosing 30Ch:

Please take 3 doses of Lycopodium 30c, equally spaced by 30 minutes on a single day.

Each dose = 1 teaspoon from 4 oz spring water where 2 pellets of Lyc 30 have been dissolved.

Report in 10 days after the 3 doses.

Sameer

Shall I do the same?
Thanks

Dr. Vikas, I 'm sorry but I have already taken the 30Ch dose. Homeopathic remedies have a great effect on me so I prefer to go up gradually in dosing.
Although I greatly appreciate your advice, a face-to-face situation would allow you to make a more reliable evaluation of my case. Furthermore as you can see from all my previous posts, I don't have strong indications for one particular remedy.

I'll let you know what happens in 10 days.
Thankyou

Hello Dr Vikas, I took Lycopodium 30ch 4 days ago. I noticed my stools are loose and frequent and I am always anxious. My fatigue hasn't lessened but it's early to say, i suppose but my mood is very changeable (from hysterical laughter to sadness in a few hours).
I wanted to ask you if you had any experience with Hydrogen? It seems to be a less known remedy; as a matter of fact it is not included on this web-site. Once a homeopath said it could have been a suitable remedy for me looking at my mental symptoms.
This is what I found about it: 'Hydrogen is centered on the theme of unity, the need to find the 'Oneness' between mind, body and spirit.'
I feel like I don't have a centre, a voice or natural instinct inside that tells me what is best for for me to do, what I want from life, why I am here?
'The focus of its action is clearly on the mental level. There is a strong sense of an altered reality and altered perceptions. 'Life doesn't fit.' 'I left myself behind.' This perception is characterized by feeling spacey, lighter or airy. Intellectually, there is difficult concentration, mental confusion and forgetfulness. There are mistakes in writing and the sense of time is distorted.'

'The remedy may suit those who have huge mood swings from high to low (it’s an up/down remedy).'

'Emotionally, there is much depression along with lethargy. They can feel detached and indifferent with a desire to be alone. This can lead to irritability and anger. They often feel hurried, suffer from nervous anxiety and feel fear in the stomach. Confidence is lacking and there is a general sense of vulnerability. They can become suspicious, feeling betrayed or that 'people don't like me.' '

Please let me know if I could have a reason to believe it could be a suitable remedy for me after the Lycop.

Thank you.

I have a few preoccupations i hope to overcome.
For e.g.

1) stop letting people know I don't have a high opinion about myself and talking about my ailments to those I feel close to.
2) get rid of this chronic acne which gets infected repeatedly
3) stop making every day tasks bigger than they are
4) need constant reassurance from my partner that he cares for me and being suspicious of him, not trusting him.
5) But most of all get rid of this extreme tiredness that comes and goes during the day. I often have to give up going out because I feel like closing my eyes and going to bed.

I am crossing my fingers because often I don't know if this life is worth living.

Thank you for your attention

Hello Dr. Vikas,

Thanks for getting back to me and thanks for your positive observation but I think this constant search i do on Internet for remedies is more an obsession than anything else,(i've been on and off this site for about 6 yrs) a desire to find a quick fix for my problems.

For Hydrogen 'time goes too fast'. I don't have this perception; a few days ago i thought it was Sun. but it was Sat. and i felt somewhat anxious (in the stomache) because it meant i had to prepare my lessons for Mon.

My mood swings are getting worse; one moment I'm excited,lively, and talkative; the next I'm irritable and morose. I think i'm becoming bipolar!!It happened a few evenings ago, giggling about something not really funny. My boyfriend was a little bewildered. And then last night and this morning I had quite a high feeling but after breakfast i was very tired and went back to bed. Now I'm back to my normal boring self!!!!I like myself when I'm a little crazy and bubbly!

Until yesterday I was very anxious and was smoking cigarettes (this habit comes and goes) to ease the anxiety. After breakfast I'd have one, then I get a pain in the low abdomen and have to rush to the toilet (stool very loose).
I think my major problem is feeling like I won't get better no matter what i do and don't accept the way things are and my personality (i want to be serene, sociable and easygoing).I'm angry with my fate (although i know we make our own fate) and with myself because I don't fight enough or do what i'm told by therapists, read from articles about changing lifestyle, because i'm too lazy or stubborn. But I am a little more determined to make a change.

I am very irritable when critisized or feel like i am not given importance.
I want to be consoled and feel better when talking to someone i'm close to, about my problems but i feel guilty because they get upset. I feel very lonely because of this.Last week i had a heavy feeling in my heart region and a lump in my throat (felt like crying) but after i talked about my feelings, i felt better. Thinking to myself only aggravates my mood.

My symptoms:
2nd day :felt relaxed for an hour, and had a mood swing
3rd day :some energy

Energy: no change eccept for half a day, have to take naps to recharge

Mood: more irritable and nervous, lashed out at flatmate for being told that she doesn't like what I do (nothing important). I'm less available to be understanding, forgiving, and available or changeable.

Sleep: insomnia still

Feet: no bad odour and no sweat

Flatulence: less frequent

Eruptions from mouth: sometimes like before

Bloating/ feeling full after food or drinks: no change

Acne: still recurrent with pus

Procrastination: little change

Suicide thoughts: same. I sometimes feel like disappearing or desire to get away, far away to a community/centre where they can help me and i can relax and not have to work.

Pain in stomache when upset and noises: no change. My stomache is very sensitive to emotions

Hair: still falling and breaking. I feel depressed when i look at myself in the mirror because i'd like to look better, prettier (and my hair healthier).

Hunger: the same. I sometimes don't feel hungry but once i start eating, my appetite increases.

Sometimes I feel angry,anxious, sad and tired all at the same time.

I forgot to tell you that I jump at sudden noises and am very sensitive to everything!!!Last year I had a little accident with the bike: i knocked over an old woman and i was very shocked. My breathing was very rapid (for 2 hours) and felt guilty that maybe i could have harmed her gravely or worse.
A few months ago i had a Panic attack after smoking hashish (first time i think) to relax. I had smoked marijuana years ago but had no effect. I don't know if it was the substance or the potency that procured the attack. It was the worst feeling i've ever had; my head felt light, then stomache ache, then i went into hyperventilation and couldn't breathe,i thought i was going to die, my body was hot and then i fainted.
Years ago i had a little panic attack, more like anxiety. After listening to my cousin complain and talk about negative things, i got a stomache ache, my head was light and had trouble breathing for a few minutes.

From the outside I look like a quite confident person, I like to dress well and walk with decision, almost in a hurry because I always leave the house in the nick of time to get to work.But inside I'm so vulnerable and scared; the presence of people makes me feel uneasy when I'm alone even if i know they're harmless.I talk to people if i need to ask for info but its an effort. I prefer going around unnoticed.

I don't know what to do. I always hope i'll find a homeopathic remedy that fits me because time flies and i'm not getting any younger and i want to get married and maybe have a family. Unfortunately i feel like i'm not a normal person and maybe i want what i cannot have; its as if I felt younger than people of my age, like a Peter Pan. I'm afraid of getting old, disease and suffering; thats why when i tried to commit suicide 5 years ago, i chose sleeping pills. I'm in therapy (the 13th time or so) again but who knows how long it'll take to change? If i don't see results in the short term, i give up.

I don't know if what i'm doing is my true call in life and i wouldn't know what it would be. Is it apathy or mystical crisis or both? I go from day to day without any plans and the only goal I have , which is to 'heal' seems to be an impossible one.All I think about is how to get my life back and a better one.

I'm tired of suffering but i know that for now i don't have the courage to put an end to my life.I have to fight but i need to find the energy, motivation, and, will power!!

Excuse me for my long long email!!!!!!! I think I was able to speak from my heart this time.

Thanks again for taking interest in my case.

I meant to say 'existential crisis' even though i would like to to have some kind of belief in something, to feel i'm not alone in this world.
I get a new symptom, a sore throat in the morning (some catarrh too) and evening for a few minutes and then it goes away by itself.The soft area behind the palate feels rough when i touch it with.
I took lachessis some years ago. It did give me some relief but not much. I believe i have to go through the 'layers of the onion' and i haven't done that properly to get to the core remedy.

Thank you.