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Thanks. Here my new patient intake form.....

Gender: Female
Age: 36
Body Type: Medium build
Height: 5ft 2inches
Weight: 58 kilos
General appearance: pale skin, large hazel eyes, long brown hair, pear shaped figure, freckles on face that emerge in sunshine.

Have you used homeopathic medicines before? If so what, and what homeopathic potencies did you use?

Phosphorous - 30c, 200c, 1m (ascending dose)
Thuja - 30c, 200c, 1m (ascending dose)
Arsenicum - 30c (to treat an acute)
Strammonium - 1lm, 2lm
Staphysagria - 1lm
Hepar Sulphur – 30c (for acne)

I also took Aurum Metallicum many years ago when I was in my mid 20’s but don’t remember the dosage.

Please answer the following questions in a descriptive manner after careful analysis and recollection of previous experiences and happenings.

1. Describe your main suffering? Deep trauma, fear and grief that feel as if they belong to me. They seem totally disproportionate with my life events and circumstances. It feels as I was sexually abused and beaten when I have never experienced this in my own lifetime. I have a real fear of men. Feels as if my body and spirit are somehow not properly connected and that I cannot breathe in to my own spirit.

2. What other physical sufferings do you have in your body? – Chronic fatigue syndrome, IBS, asthma, tension headaches, tight knot in stomach, heaviness on my chest, chilliness.

3. What mental sufferings / feelings do you have associated with your physical sufferings? –feel ill at ease, feeling threatened, free floating anxiety, grief, depression, mind feels sluggish and I forget things easily, angry, tearful.

4. What exactly do you feel when you are at your worst? Describe the sensation in your own words – when I’m in a conflictual situation (which I’m experiencing currently in my home situation) I shake and tremble with fear and the knot in my stomach becomes tighter. It feels as if I’m threatened by extreme violence/ abuse and fear that my housemate is going to hit me when I know he wouldn’t do that. Its almost as if the emotion doesn’t feel like my own but that it’s an inherited memory of ancestral abuse (there was sexual abuse on my Mum’s side of the family). The fear is paralysing and makes me feel giddy and weak at the knees. Its totally exhausting as I carry it around in me all the time but a trigger like this brings it to the surface.

5. When did it all start? Can you connect it to any past event or disease? – it doesn’t seem connected to a past event or disease. As a child of 3 years I remember having near out of body experiences as I remember having a feeling of terror and panic as if I was threatened by death. It had a spiritual element to it as if I was being haunted/ threatened by something in the spirit world.

6. Which time of the day you are worst? Mornings and around 3p.m.

7. What are the things which aggravate your suffering and which are those which ameliorate the same? Example- time, temperature, pressure, rubbing, washing, eating, tight clothing etc. – Aggravates = conflict, having no personal space, being over tired/ fatigued, caffeine, being too hot or too cold. Amelioration = talking about how I feel/ people listening with empathy, good sleep, warm bed, relaxation, crying, warm food, personal space.


8. Do your think your sufferings have relation to any external stimuli (like, change of place) or any internal biological changes in the body, like, menses (in females)? – it is made worse by environmental factors i.e. living in a conflictual situation with a dominant male who will not compromise.

9. When do you feel better, during hot weather or cold weather, humid or dry weather? – better in hot, dry, sunny weather.

10. Describe your general mental set up? Are you Moody, Arrogant, Mild, Agreeable Changeable, Nervous, Suspicious, Easily offended, Quiet, Arguing, Irritating, Lazy etc. – generally anxious, mild and agreeable by nature.

- How do you feel before or during a thunderstorm? – very often get tension headaches and feel apprehensive.

- Do you like being consoled during your tough times? – yes but I find it difficult to show my vulnerability to people and don’t feel like burdening them.

- Are you sensitive to external stimuli like smell, noise, light etc? – yes very sensitive.

- Do you have any typical habit or gesture like nail biting, causeless
Weeping, talking to one self etc? – nail biting.

- How do you feel about your friends, family, your children and especially your husband / wife? – I value my family and friends a great deal.

11. What are your fears and do you dream of any situation repeatedly? – fears of homelessness, poverty, of burglers breaking in to the house, fears of rejection, fear of being physically abused.


12. What do you crave for in food items and what are your aversions? – cravings – bread, cheese, sweet food, chocolate, caffeine. Aversion – bananas.

13. How is your thirst: Less, Normal or Excessive? – excessive thirst

14. How is your hunger: Less, Normal or Excessive? - normal

15. Is there any kind of food which your body can’t stand? – none.

16. Is your sweat normal or less or more? Where does it sweat more: Head, Trunk or Limbs? – normal.

17. How is your bowel movement and stool type? – Loose, sometimes suffer from IBS.

18. How well do you sleep? Do you have a particular posture of sleeping? – sleep tends not to be refreshing. Sometimes I sleep really badly or too deeply and wake feeling exhausted. Have very vivid dreams. I sleep in the foetal position on left and right side.

19. Do you think you are able to satisfy your sexual desires in general? – currently got very low sex drive but not in relationship.

20. Do you have any strange, peculiar or unusual symptom or feelings? How are you different from others? – feel as if I have past life memory of being sexually and physically abused when living in the Victorian era. These feelings don’t seem in any way connected to my life experiences or my direct family background.

21. What medications have been taken earlier by you to treat the diseases and do you have any particular symptom surfacing after the medication?
Citalopram - no symptoms after taking medication.

22. What major diseases are running in your family? – high blood pressure, heart attack, stroke.

23. Describe, how do you look like? Describe your overall appearance. – petite, pear shaped, pale skin, large hazel eyes, dark eyebrows and eyelashes, long brown hair, small hands and feet.

(For Females)
24. If your menstrual cycles are not normal, please describe the irregularities, like pains, moods, flow type, clots etc. – intense pain day before and first day. Flow seems to be getting lighter (used to be 7 days but now 3 or 4).

25. What major diseases have you had in your life and when. Please write them in a chronological manner.

Tonsilitus as a child leading to Quinsey 3 times in my mid twenties. I spent time in hospital with Quinsey on all three occasions and had to have my tonsils removed when I was 24 years old.

Kidney infection.

Bronchitis.

Here's my new intake form....

GUIDELINES FOR GIVING HOMOEOPATHIC CASE INFORMATION

It is important to describe all your problems in as much detail as you are able. One word answers and short sentences are not particularly helpful. Discuss each problem one at a time, providing (as a minimum level of detail) the following information.

1. What exactly happens? – I experience emotions including trauma, intense fear, deep grief but feel as if these emotions don’t belong to me. It feels as if they’re an inherited (ancestral) memory of sexual and physical abuse. My spirit and body don’t feel as if they properly connect…. Feels as if I had problems with incarnation. I always feel as if I’m just surviving but never truly living. Its almost as if I can’t breathe in to my own spirit and feels as if I was touched by death before my life began. These experiences seem to manifest on a spiritual plane; its not something occurring in my mind – its as if the veil between this world and the world of spirit is thin, it’s a felt experience in my body and spirit. I pick up other people’s energy and energy in buildings too easily and feel as if I absorb it. Feel as if I have no way of shielding myself from it. I also have a past life memory of belonging to the Victorian era that is extremely strong, as if I belong more to that time than this time.

2. Describe all sensations and pains. Each pain or sensation should be described in such a way that allows us to imagine having the same pain – I feel physically heavy, tired and sluggish; my chest feels tight and I often have the sensation that my lungs are full of water. My whole body has a sense of being weighted down by too much gravity and my spirit feels paralysed. My head often feels as if its stuffed with cotton wool and everything seems to move in slow motion. I struggle to get my words out sometimes because it feels like I can’t breathe properly (feels as if I’m not getting enough oxygen in to my body) and my mind feels dull. My spinal column feels tight and blocked as if the energy isn’t running down in properly. I feel extremely fatigued all the time. I suffer from chronic fatigue, asthma, IBS and haemorrhoids. I keep getting unwell and have had repeated infections (kidney infection, bronchitis and other viruses) since living in my current living situation with a bullying male. I’m due to move at beginning of march so expect my health to improve.

3. What causes the problem to get worse after it has started occurring? – not being able to talk about it; not feeling as if I’m being understood when I tell people; lack of sleep; feeling alone and no safe haven.

4. What creates some relief for the problem? – being able to talk about it; empathy; feeling valued by friends and family; refreshing sleep; reassurance.

5. What triggers the problem into occuring? – sometimes there is no obvious trigger, I can be having a nice time with people, enjoying the conversation and feeling relatively calm and feelings of grief and fear will emerge from nowhere and for no reason. A known trigger though is any conflictual situation, particularly with men. I seem to keep attracting living situations where I live with dominant men who bully me. They are tenants just like me and although I try and stand up to them (as part of me feels very strong and wants to stand up for myself) I find it very difficult as the fear I experience is such that I start shaking with fear when words are said and this totally irrational fear emerges that they are going to beat me black and blue when I know rationally this would not happen.

6. What time of the day or night does the problem occur? - Anytime.

7. When did the problem start? What was happening in your life at that time? Did some specific event or treatment take place just before the problem started? – My first memory is of having a terrible near out of body experience at night time. I was 3 years old and my Mum had gone in to hospital to have my baby brother and I was experiencing some sort of fever. It felt as if my spirit was splitting and that I was being threatened by death. It was extremely traumatising, I can only describe it as sheer terror (I don’t know of what).

Move from one problem to the next, doing the same thing.

As well as this, please describe any traumatic incidents that have taken place in your life. Discuss anything that has had a lasting impact on you mentally, emotionally or physically – I felt rejected by my father as a child. He didn’t know how to show affection and I felt ignored by him. He was an angry man when I was younger and I remember being fearful of him. However the fear I felt towards my father is a different fear and always felt separate to the experience of extreme trauma, terror that I’m describing. My father never abused me and I knew deep down he loved me.

Discuss the way that you manage or deal with your problems, or any problems that occur in your life – I try to always keep my focus positive and don’t tend to allow myself to feel sorry for myself because I would easily spiral down. I’m quite a spiritual person and always have been (as a child I used to see what I thought was angelic beings, I could also pick up energies from people and buildings). I have great faith in God (I don’t like that term as its patriarchal and has connotations of dominance), I pray and ask for strength and ask to see spiritually in to the root of a certain area that needs dealing with. I have been praying for many years for this particular problem and there has been significant improvement and I’m much stronger than I used to be but the initial memory is still there.

Discuss any patterns you have noticed in your behaviour – I tend to run away from situations that are conflictual when it involves men. Part of me wants to stand my ground and feels that I’m capable of doing this but fear gets in the way. I find myself becoming very irritable and lack patience when feeling under pressure or very tired. I can snap easily which doesn’t seem like me.

Discuss any part of your life where you feel stuck or unable to change and grow – I feel this fear and emotions hold me back and I feel stuck. I have done so much work to address it but it seems that the root of the problem is beyond my reach i.e. originates before my lifetime.

Describe your childhood and the kind of environment you grew up in, with reference to your relationships with your family, your school experiences, and any serious childhood diseases.
My family didn’t understand the fear and grief I was experiencing, I felt as if my parents dismissed it. My father is a minister in the Church of England and we moved many times when I was a child. He always decided to take us to socially deprived areas where there was a lot of poverty, high crime rates and unemployment. This got worse when we moved to a large industrial city in the West Midlands when I was aged 9, I felt completely overwhelmed and culturally felt as if I didn’t fit. Had real difficulty making friends and got bullied when I first went there. I suffered from repeated tonsillitis when I was younger.


If your earlier discussions have not mentioned these already, please describe:

1. The specific foods that you crave (not just like) or hate – Crave – bread, cheese, chocolate, (currently crave tomatoes); dislike bananas.

2. The specific drinks that you crave or hate – caffeinated drinks especially tea, fruit juice.

3. What your sleep is like – sleep tends to not be particularly restful, I have very vivid dreams and often wake feeling exhausted.

4. How the weather and the temperature affects you – dislike cold and rain, prefer dry sunny weather. I can overheat quickly. Like to have fresh air coming in to bedroom.

5. What kinds of things in the environment you are particularly sensitive to – noise and light (if artificial lights too bright can give me headache).

6. What your general level of energy is like – low

7. What your level of sexual energy or desire is like – currently low, used to be much higher but has diminished with stress and ill health. I cannot orgasm with penetrative sex, have never been able to

Many thanks. I have been doing a bit of my own research and have read case studies about inherited/ ancestral memories where Plutonium Nitricum or Metallicum was administered with good effect. I'm no expert of course so will be grateful to receive your guidance.

Kind regards,

Zoe

Dear Brisbane Homeopath,

I wondered if you had got any further with finding an appropriate remedy for my problem.

I look forward to hearing from you.

Many thanks,

Zoe

Hi there,

No one is taking my case at the moment so I'm feeling rather frustrated. Some guidance would be really helpful.

I've read about Lac Maternum and Lac Humanum but haven't tried them. Do you think they would help?

Thanks,

Zoe

Thanks for the advice. I had almost given up on the forum so I might read up on Lacs again and go from there.

Cheers,

Zoe

Thanks for recommending the website re. The Lacs, I will have a look at this.

Thanks also to Brisbane Homeopath for replying. I realise it must be very difficult keeping up with everyone on here, but thanks for taking time to email me.

I'm considering going on a higher potency of Staphysagria as I think a lot of my symptoms are fit the Staphysagria general picture.

When I first took a dose I was fine taking 30C but when I progressed to 200C I had a huge physical reaction and ended up with a kidney infection that lasted for over two weeks. I only took one dose but this aggravation might be proof that it is the right remedy for me. A couple of months later I started on an LM1 dose of Staphysagria just before Christmas and 2 days later came down with a virulent chest infection that lasted another 2 weeks. I managed to continue to take it for the whole month but did not see a great deal of improvement in my symptoms. I think the root of the memory of trauma is so deeply imbedded that I will need to work slowly up the LM's to get a result. Obviously after the last two times I've taken it have resulted in a huge aggravation I'm reticent to go any higher but feel that I have to try it to see if it works.

Kind regards,

Zoe

Thank you so much for looking in to this for me. This fits the picture really well. I will order the remedy today and let you know how I get on.

With kind regards,

Zoe

I have read some of the material around the proving of Rhus Glabra and it seems very well indicated. It fits many of the symptoms I have including disturbance in sense of time, feeling hurried all the time; mind going blank as if to suppress something; images of violence flashing in my mind mainly at night time and feeling threat of violence; not able to take a firm stand in life; feeling abused and betrayed; chronic fatigue; feeling as if my spirit left my body (as a child I had this sensation frequently) due to feeling of terror. Strangely these symptoms seem completely unrelated to my life circumstances and experiences, its almost as if its an inherited memory.

I can't see Nux V anywhere in the picture.

Thanks for this. I will keep it in mind if no joy with Rhus.

Kind regards,

Zoe

Dear Brisbane Homeopath,

I took the 1M dose of Rhus Glabra exactly 2 weeks ago and have seen some improvement in my symptoms. It seems to be working through old layers and has produced some old symptoms. I feel its gradually beginning to centre me and I feel less exhausted and more optimistic. Its also helping in the symptom of feeling I have a hole in my chest, this is slowly disappating but its so deep seated that it still is uncovering a lot of old stuff.

It doesn't seem to be cutting through the feelings of grief though; the feelings of grief seems to be surfacing with greater intensity as well as extreme anxiety. It comes in waves, intense at times and other times wears off. I'm just wondering if the remedy is just uncovering old layers or whether its not actually the right remedy for grief/ anxiety? I read around the proving of Rhus Glabra and it doesn't really feature grief/ anxiety in the picture of the symptoms. On another level though I am seeing a definite amelioration.

I'm wondering whether an LM dose would help as I'm currently taking Citalopram daily or just to see where the 1M dose takes me?

Kind regards,

Zoe

Many thanks for this advice I really appreciate it.

The 1M potency dose that I bought is in pill form, not liquid so I'm not able to succuss it. I have tried LM's in the past and found that they work well.

Would you recommend I take another 1M dose as its been 2 weeks or try an LM dose. Or should I just wait? The action from the first dose still seems to be working but just slowing down a bit.

Many thanks,

Zoe