Please help Female Issues- UPDATE at end. Help again please.

I also forgot...

Sometimes I get hip joint pain.

I often get 'tonsil stones' or dried up mucous in the crevices of my tonsils.

I crave cigarettes and always think that will help everything.

And recently every great once in awhile for abouta day, I will get a node or something on a random knuckle that seems like arthritis. I've applied clove oil to it though and that make it go away. Though it will return on another area a few days or so later.

I also crave swimming at a calm beach alone without anyone else there.
[message edited by Dawnnoelle1045 on Wed, 15 Feb 2012 14:29:07 GMT]

1. ID dawnnoelle1045
2. Age 34
3. female
4. Married
5. weight 142-147
6. Height 5 foot 3 and a half
7. country USA
8. climate: Four Seasons, lots of moisture (great lakes)
9. List of your complaints (See Above)

10. Since how long are you suffering from each complaint About two years since my daughter was born and I had my tubes tied.

11. non-Diabetic
12. Desire sweets/sour/salt Sweets/ Salts/ Veggies
13. Thirst Not very thirsty. I force myself to drink.
14. Tongue and Taste Tounge is often whitish when I wake up. Taste is normal.
15. Current BP (without medicine and with medicine) Normal- No medication

16. What exactly is happening? My biggest concern is the prolapsed bladder and urinary retention it causes.

17. How do you feel? I feel overwhelmed by it.

18. How does this affect you? I have to plan my day around when/where bathrooms are.

19. How does it feel like? It feels like sudden pressure and urge followed by the feeling like there's still urine remaining.

20. What comes to your mind? Often, my stillborn daughter and the feelings of failure. Also the feelings of not being good enough for my husband, though I know it's not true.

21. One situation that had a big effect on you? Recently, having to close my natural living store because of financial issues that stemmed from being in the hospital due to a doctor's incompetence.

22. How did that feel like? I was told I was going to die in the hospital. I'm still angry enough that it makes me want to cry. And so angry that I had to stop breastfeeding because of it and it ruined me financially until I filed for bankruptcy. Another factor that went into closing the store was that I couldn't work enough to make up for it because my step son is handicapped and I am his primary caregiver.

23. What sensation do you experience in that situation? in all of them, repressed anger.

24. What are you showing by that gesture of your hand (Habits or Actions)? I get frustrated easily and irritated easily.

25. Current and previous remedies/medicines you are taking or took in the past? I take sepia 30C for PMS. I have taken pulsatilla30c for postpartum depression. I have tried cantharis 30C to help with urinary tract issues, but only a couple of times. A couple years ago, I took dulcamara thinking it would help with herpes. I've also take a combo remedy called boil X for a skin infection. That was two years ago too.

26. Family Background: Parents are catholic, happily married. I have two brothers.

27. Educational Qualifications of the patient: Some college for mass media.

28. Nature of work, what do you do for living? Freelance blogger & I wait tables two days a week too.

29. Desires, likes and dislikes for food: Lately I haven't been wanting meat. I've been wanting mostly salads. Cold veggies. And potato chips.

30. Name of foods which increase your problem: I haven't noticed any.

31. Mind-behavior, anger, irritability, hurry, impatient…and so on.. How are you different from other persons, public speaking or not , you can describe all of the details about your behavior, love and affections. I often feel like I'm not appreciated. I feel like I'm undervalued, so I try harder to make people see my worth. I am often stressed and frequently irritated, but outwardly, people think I am 'the nicest woman' they know. I've got a good overall attitude, but urgent situations overwhelm me. When people whine, it drives me crazy.

32. Aggravation (increases-time, season,)& Amelioration (Decreases) My worst time is while making dinner if the kids are around. My best time is when alone. When people complain, I feel the need to pee and get frustrated.


34. Location of the disease: bladder/vagina

35. Side of the problem (Right or Left), (Upper or Lower part of body) Left side of kidneys often ache in the morning until I urinate. I sleep on my left. I also have tonsil stones on the left side.

36. Color of the secretions/discharges e.g urine, stool, sputum, Saliva etc. Urine is yellow. Stool is normal brown. Saliva is kind of yellowish.

For Females Only
37. When is the period during the month approx date? Any monthly cycle issues? Regular, early, late, before problems, after problems, pain, any other discharges? It's much worse right before my period and after ovulating, especially if I do not get sex.


38. Are you pregnant? If yes, please give pregnancy start date? Any current issues? No, my tubes are tied.

My period is exactly every 28 days, so the date changes. This month it will be due on the 22nd.
[message edited by Dawnnoelle1045 on Wed, 15 Feb 2012 14:31:49 GMT]

My time zone is eastern standard. I live in rural Michigan.

I have the hyland's mega kit, so I have a lot. I also have assorted others. Dozens and dozens. I have access to almost any remedy there is though if it can wait til tomorrow.

in 30X, I have:
arnica
allium cepa
antimonium tart
Ledum Pal
carbo veg
bryonia alba
calcarea phos
gelesium semp
ferrum phos
arsenicum album
apis mell
Chamomilla
Mercurius vivus
ipecacuanha
ignatia amara
hepar sulp calc
hypericum perf
spongia tosta
phosphorus
pullsatilla
magnesia phos
nux vomica
sulphur
ruta grav
rhus tox


in 30C:
graphites
podolph pelt
dulcamara
ledum pal

in 6X:
veratrum album

in 200CK:
Anas barabariae hep...



Combo Remedies:
Hyland's PMS
Hyland's cold sores and fever blisters
humphrey's arthritis relief
Hylan'd Flu
Hyland's Arthritis
Hyland's Sinus
Hyland's colic
Hyland's c-plus cold

I use sepia 30X. but that isn't for this... it's for my horrible mood swings that I'd otherwise get.

I can use sepia any time I have jealousy or unfavorable moods and it seems to calm me.

I haven't noticed much else, but I wouldn't know what other improvements to look fro regarding sepia. It's mostly moods and cramps.

I have just started using Pulsatilla 30x for this, and it seems to have a 'calming' sensation on my urinary issues. And settles in a calm feeling in my abdomen in general. It's still not all better though.

I also have used aconite by suggestion and that will help, but only for a few hours and it helps almost right away. It doesn't seem to get to a deep enough layer of healing though... I don't think it's my correct remedy.

I feel very strongly pulled toward staphysagria but I hesitate to use it because I don't want to use it incorrectly. I have access to it in the 200 potency, but I haven't used it yet. I don't want to mess this up.

Sepia actually does cover other aspects in this case, and it wouldn't help so well if it weren't indicated on a slightly deeper level at least.

Can you explain how you are not interested in sex at all, but crave sexual affection from your husband?
It hard to explain. I will try my best. I used to be interested in sex in general. Like, my thoughts would go to it. My body would respond to a hug or flirting. Now it doesn't respond anymore. Not to anything. Not even when I try to think of intimate thoughts. It doesn't respond until I am a few moments into foreplay. I realize this is common with women, but this has never been common for me. That said, I get a great deal of satisfaction from it once it starts, mostly emotionally. It's as though it's one of the few ways I can feel like I am sincerely loved and desired. I fear that if too long goes by without it, that I am no longer attractive. I worry that before long, my husband will bore of me and leave me again like when we were kids. Though it should be noted, we were not sexually involved as teenagers, just very emotionally involved. Intellectually, I am aware that my husband is not the type to cheat. He very much reveres the institute of marriage.... but not in a 'Christian' way. In a sincere intimacy sort of way. But I cannot get past it. All of these thought and problems occur right after I ovulate and until I menstruate. The first two weeks prior to ovulation, I have almost none of these problems. It's as though my body feels worthless for not being pregnant. Though I sincerely have no interest in being pregnant. I will say though that the thought of possibly GETTING pregnant and making a child with my husband prior to my tubal was always terribly exciting to me, even though I had no actual intellectual interest in having any more children.

How do you experience rejection from your husband?
He never rejects me. It's all perceived. I assume he will reject me. So, I get crabby and pull away from him and do not attempt relations or intimacy of even an emotional kind during this two week phase. Then, in my 'premenstrual mind' I feel as though his not initiating sex with his horrible crabby wife is some kind of rejection.

What kind of suspciousness do you have after ovulation?
I worry that he has fantasies about his tattoo clients because he is a tattoo artist. I don't worry that he IS having relations with them, just that he wants to. It's as if during these two weeks, I want to control his mind. When I think about him having a fantasy about one of his clients, I feel horribly betrayed and I cannot even imagine being intimate with him. But if he initiates, even during this time, my symptoms will go away for about a day. I have no reason to think that he fantasizes about his clients, it's something that I made up a long time ago and can't get out of my head during these two weeks each month.

Why would your husband not want to be with you?
He seems to want to be with me. I worry though that because he sees attractive women in his job that are much more 'liberal' than I am, that he wouldn't want to be with me. I feel boring. I am a writer. I write about motherhood. I am a mother... and a really good one. I am a devoted wife... all that seems very boring. I feel like there is a sensual, liberal side within me that I am too tired or maybe even too scared to express, and that he doesn't see it. Even though, in truth, I think he does see it, and does see me for the WHOLE woman that I am. I mostly just make things up.

What is the fear of operations and infections about? What are you afraid of in such situations?
I have always been afraid of operations. My mother was. I don't know why I am. Then, when I had my first one, it got infected. Then, he improper use of antibiotics on the part of my doctors led to a bad skin infection that lasted months until I finally fixed it on my own with oil of oregano, raw honey and the Boil X.

What is the issue you have with being attractive?
I don't understand it. I know I am pretty. Actually, I am prettier and healthier than I ever have been. I get a great deal of attention from other men in my job as a waitress, but that means nothing to me. I feel that my husband doesn't think I am pretty because he rarely compliments me.

What is the issue with others being happy?
Again, I don't know. My mother used to go to great lengths to try to please everyone. I guess I learned it from her. I will go to great lengths for a little praise. The odd thing is, I myself, am not actually insecure. I think I'm a wonderful woman. I think I'm a great friend. I think I have a lot to offer. I know that I am smart. I know that I am sensitive and I even see my sensitivity as a blessing. It's just that I don't think anyone else sees me the way I do, and I want them to. I just want people to see me the way I see me. I don't think I'm boring. It's just that I'm a hard worker and so, I don't have a lot of time to be exciting and great. While I work, I focus on my work and it often doesn't get noticed because I don't brag about myself like others do. At the same time, it's also not just about me. I sincerely want people to be very happy. I hate when people have trials. I want to fix them. I hate when people are afraid. I want to comfort them. I hate when people are angry. I guess in part, because I am SO sensitive to others that I feel a lot of what they feel. So, if someone is angry, I feel sick in my own stomach. If someone is sad, I mourn with them.

What is this feeling of failure you have?
I guess it's because all of my mundane jobs don't allow me to be the person I know I can be. For example, I'm about to write the best blog article ever, and then my daughter needs a diaper change. Then my son needs food. Then my daughter gets dirty and needs a bath... And the blog never happens. That makes me feel like a failure.

What happens to you when you repress your anger? Where does it go, how does that feel?
Besides for the urination issue, it mostly goes to my left arm and it hurts. It feels like nerve pain. Often it comes out in trivial things that don't matter, I blame it on a stranger. I displace it basically and if I don't, then it comes out as physical pain.

How do you express your anger when it does come?
Never physically. Mostly with little burst of cursing. Then when I'm alone, I will cry if I get the chance.

What happens when 'urgent situations overwhelm you'? I get highly frustrate. I feel like I have to pee. I seek out a bathroom. Often the alone time that it takes to urinate for three-four minutes is enough to regain stability. Otherwise, if I can't do that, I never pee my pants or anything... I just carry on, highly agitated and complain to anyone who is around. If the person is close to me, it's a genuine complaining and asking for help. If I am at the restaurant though, I make a joke of it and vent about being overwhelmed. Often delegating even one thing to someone else, will make me feel comforted. I can handle many many tasks at once, and probably can handle even more and don't need to delegate, but in doing so, I feel like I don't have to handle everything alone at least.

It should be noted that when I am frustrate or feeling any of these things, a genuine hug from a close friend, my mother or my husband can soothe me almost instantly.

In fact, I often fantasize about being hugged and held. I don't think I get enough of that. My husband and I work opposite shifts so that my step son who is handicapped doesn't have to have a sitter. Together, we tend to the house, so there isn't much relaxing that happens for us at all.

And talking about this makes me feel comforted too oddly. I didn't know it. Perhaps that has meaning too, so I thought I'd mention it. The kind, gentle questioning brings tears of calm to my eyes and cheeks. Not sure if that's relevant in anyway.

After pulsatilla, I was finally able to weep. It was a mild weeping that felt healthy.

I haven't had a healthy feeling cry in a long time. I used to cry nicely daily. You know at touching commercials. But until a few days ago and for a couple years, the only tears I had were angry tears. I don't know if pulsatilla will help with the prolapsed bladder, but it has had an effect on me, very calming and peaceful. My urinary problem seems much less, especially given that I am in my pms time. However, it's not all better... not sure if it will take a while?

I have never seen a rabid dog in real life no. A rabid raccoon once, yes. I watched a movie about a rabid god around that same time in my childhood and it was on my mind for a good couple of years daily after that. Incidentally, when I was aged 8-11, I wanted more than anything to cure rabies. I would think about it all the time. It was a daily concern. Why do you ask?

Lastly, I do not believe with almost complete certainty that I have ever taken lyssin. I went and looked it up out of curiousity. A few things stick out. 'Does not see nor hear persons around him.' This happens often at home and frustrates my husband that it's as though I don't see or hear him or a child when I'm concentrating on something else.

'Could not get rid of the indescribable tormenting feeling that something terrible was going to happen to him. ' This is true also. I feel like I will spend all this time not seeing my husband and as soon as the children are grown he will die. I also will drive as a passenger and assume with almost complete certainty that a bus will hit us or we will fly over the guard rail. Things like that.

'says wrong words which have but a remote similarity of sound.' This happens all the time verbally. But it's not like I'm uneducated, written, I know the word, it just comes out wrong.

'It seems to her as if two entirely different trains of thought influenced her at the same time.' Yes. I have the emotional feelings, and the intellect and they do not mesh. It's not two voices or anything, just two ideas and I try hard to respond with my intellect at the expense of my own feelings.

'Insane ideas enter his head ; for instance, to throw a glass of water, which he is carrying in his hand, into some one's face, or to stab his flesh with the knife he is holding, and the like.' Well, this doesn't happen, but I will be standing there talking to someone and if THEY themselves have a sharp instrument, I fear that THEY will have a compulsion to stab me with it. I will not stand by someone if they have a knife or sharp object.

I don't know if this is enough, it's just that they are bizarre traits about me that I've never given much thought, and in understanding how important the bigger picture is, I want to have those things forth coming.


Also, it mentioned right sided hip pain, and that is the side of my hip pain. The rest of my pain is all left sided, but the hip pain is right sided.

One thing though about the water thing is, while I do seem to pass on taking showers as much as I used to, I still imagine swimming at a peaceful beach and I think that would be wonderful. But rarely do it.


And another strange thing about me, when my children play with bubbles, like the kind that you blow in the air and float around, I don't like it. I don't want them to touch me. I allow them to do it, but I refuse to blow the bubbles for them.

Thank you so much for your time. Many blessings to you.

My mother reminded my that when I was a very young adult, my first apartment ended up being infested with bats. Thousands and thousands of bats live in the ceiling above my room. Not sure if that play s factor, but she asked me to mention it because it is the same timing as when my irrational fears and my irrational thoughts started.

Thank you again for your time.

:) Take as much time as you need. I'm in no rush. I greatly appreciate the time you are taking and the thought that you are giving to this. I'm in no hurry at all. I feel very honored and blessed because of your effort.

Can you explain the Origanum Majorana 200C. You don't have to. But I'm just confused about it. I went to go get some, and the store didn't have it, so I will have to order it online.

At any rate, from what ABC says about it, I have none of the symptoms. So I'm just confused.

As for the sepia... I'm just wondering, I've been taking sepia regularly for two + years and it helps, but then after the great feeling, it just comes back worse. I feel like I'm starting to MIRROR sepia, in that I have almost every single trait of it and didn't before I started taking it. I originally took it by recommendation of a homeopathic doctor for Postpartum Depression. At the time I felt more like I needed Pulsatilla, but went with his suggestion because I'm not a homeopath. Then just this week, I restarted JUST pulsatilla after a break from Sepia and have been seeing improvements. I was wondering, since Pulsatilla counters Sepia, if perhaps that's why. ANd perhaps I should go with the Puls. 200? Any ideas on that? Am I way off base here?

I guess what I'm saying is...
I think my regular monthly use of sepia resulted in me 'proving' sepia more than it helped me.

For readers who come across this: Hahnemann administered remedies to healthy volunteers, and the resulting symptoms were compiled by observers into a drug picture. This was what he called a proving. It was how he figured out what symptoms to list.