inquiry help

Dear doc
Please help.
In 2005 there was pain in my right pelvic near iliac region out of nowhere. I was 19 years old weighted around 60 kg and 5 foot 8 inch height and was studying in class 12. I showed it to an orthopedic and he prescribed medicine for certain duration (probably 3 weeks). It got better and I continued with my usual routine. Approximately after 6 month the pain restarted in the exact same position , again showed it to the orthopedic , he prescribed medicine but this time the pain was not gone . He continued to add oral medicine(antibiotic,nsaid or steroid…I am not sure but there were couple of medicine) up to the level that I got overdose and fainted while going to the bathroom (there was no trauma to brain ). The doctor couldn’t identify what was wrong thought insisted on continuing medicine. I continued the medicine with no relief and the excessive dose and duration of medicine made my body and brain weak to the point I could hardly stand and think straight. my parents took me to a hospital where doctor told that surgery has to be done and some portion of bone will be cut and send for biopsy to determine what the cause is. My parents objected but later agreed after doctor consulted them. Surgery was done under general anesthesia where the numbness was only below the abdomen. They took 3 cm of the iliac bone and send it to biopsy in another centre and suspect of bone tuberculosis and told me to start medicine. After discharge within few days , as I came home, I felt terrible. The surrounding or the environment didn’t seems as it used to be, thought the vision was normal the environment didn’t seem friendly. I told it to my parents and when consulted to doctor they said it will be fine but my condition degraded on a progressive manner. There was no pain or problem in the pelvic region where the surgery was conducted and still today there isn’t any pain or discomfort but I couldn’t feel the society and environment where I lived my life up to this stage. Intrusive thought of committing suicide by various ways started to revolve around my mind, intrusive thoughts like other people see things /surrounding differently than me popped on my mind on regular basis, act of looking into the mirror and concentrating on pupil of self and others for long duration and on frequent basis increased , intrusive thought that fat people sees thing differently than thin people or by me played on my mind and other useless intrusive thoughts. I was still on tuberculosis medicine ..as report came after 1 month it was confirmed it was bone tuberculosis and I continued to take medicine for a complete duration of 8 month.(at that time and still now I feel the diagnosis of bone tuberculosis was false as I didn’t had any sign and symptoms of bone tuberculosis expect the pain in right pelvic region…as the doctor told me I had to take the medicine ). The intrusive thoughts started after discharge from the hospital before starting the tuberculosis medicine.After the completion of tuberculosis medicine the intrusive thoughts were still there.
Again I consulted the doctor but they said it was nothing. With no hope my parent took me to a psychiatrist he prescribed me medicine diagonising major depression. To inform you , no one in my family history has mental disorder, nor I did had a minimal sign of disorder before this condition. I opposed but had to take medicine. After consuming the medicine for certain duration there was change in whole body physiology .i was 19 at that time and weighted only 60 kg. but after psychiatric medicine I weighted 90 kg.i continued my studies while on psychiatric medicine. When I checked my case to different psychiatrist ..all of them gave different diagonosis …depression, anxiety, major depression , pure ocd, ocd etc and different medicine .I consumed huge amount of medicine be it form the initial antibiotics at the time of pelvic pain in 2005 to tuberculosis medicine in 2006 to psychiatrist medicine after 2006 on a continuous manner and now it has been 11 yrs I am on psychiatric medicine . before the age of 19 I hadnot taken a single table for fever and was healthy as a horse. since 3 years I have kept a minimal dose of only 10 mg fluoxetine. I can say from these years my body has tolerated continuous avalanche of chemical.
I still belive that the problem started after the antibiotic/medicine consumption in 2005 where I was on excessive dose and for excessive duration of time.
I am desperate in search of finding a real reason and cure, as I don’t want to take psychiatric medicine as it has altered my body physiology and hasn’t give satisfactory result though helped me to some extend . when ever I tried to withdraw the medicine , the condition relapsed.i strongly belive I don’t have any psychiatric condition rather other underlying root cause. Well, if it psychiatric condition 100%, I too would like to opt for alternative medicine rather than these chemical pills.
I somewhere read the importance of gut flora and the damage done by antibiotics and steroids leading to such problems.I want to list my major sign and symptoms at present
INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS
Lipoma (multiple around the abdominal region , thighs , hands)- all these condition started after the consumption of initial antibiotic,steroid, tb and psychiatric medicine
Nail fungus(index finger right hand)
Stretch marks around groin areas
Abdominal pain
Bruxism
Extreme fatigue
Insomnia
Teeth indentation marks on tongue edge
( minor sign and symptoms -thinning of frontal hair, mild white coated tongue and edges of the tongue , Tooth decay and weak enamel, floaters around the eye, extreme weakness below the knee etc)
BUT THE REAL PROBLEM I AM FACING IS INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS THAT HAS RUINED MY LIFE.
I would like to further inform that I am not depressive even 0.1% .i completed my class 12, bachelor , post graduate diploma and master along having the problem. Nor I do have classical sign and symptoms of obsessive compulsive disorder like washing , counting , hoarding , doubting etc . but rather unnecessary intrusive thoughts not dangerous/fatal but useless and carries no value.
Doctor please guide me in this ..what could be the possible cause behind such intrusive thoughts …??
What lab test should I run inorder to know the root cause .
And lastly if it is a mental condition ..i would like to opt for homeopathy in a long run because these chemical pills are causing avalanche of body problems. What homeopathy remedy should I start since practioner in my place are limited.
Pc