Please help find consittutional remedy for chronic symptoms _{Page 4 of 7}

My 3 day update is no major changes. I have seen some improvement on a few symptoms, such as certain digestive ones, but other doses that have affected these even more in the past did not last all that long. Certain other symptoms are worse. I have gradually been getting more and more of a sensation of ears being clogged, sometimes affecting my hearing especially in the morning. I have had this recurring for several years, but it had not bothered me for six months or so before the Natrum mur, and after this dose I have had two days where it has affected both ears in the morning. It might just be the summer weather too as it affects me more at this time of year.

No major differences in any mental symptoms.

Another thing I should note is that I have lost over 5 pounds since the first natrum mur dose, not too good a thing for me how skinny I am, my weight does fluctuate so it might not have to do with the remedy, but the weird part is I've been hungrier than ever and eating even more than before, yet this happened despite that.

I have some of the symptoms of both, I'll try to list them as best as I can.

As far as general temperament, to most people I do have more of a mild temperament, however that is mostly because of a lack of self confidence, when I know someone well I'm more likely to show my irritability to them, also if issues are brought up that I believe are important I'm more likely to get the nerve to argue with someone. It also depends on who it is, I try to avoid certain people with aggressive personalities who won't listen to what I have to say anyway.

If I get hot, my desire is almost always to uncover as fast as I can.

I do think I have oversensitiveness to pain as a constitutional characteristic, it's really hard to compare it to anything else though, I'm less sensitive to pain than I used to be but still think I'm more than many people.

As far as weather, generally recently I've been warmer than before, more sensitive to heat, still chilly sometimes but not as much as before, extremeties still chilly however, of course summer is beginning and where I live it's a lot of heat and humidity so that's what I'm noticing most too. Recently I've noticed definate improvement on cooler and more cloudy (but not rainy) days. It hasn't been very cold here for a while, but what I was noticing when it was is that the wind is a significant aggravator when it's cold, however that's not so when it's warm.

One thing I wanted to mention, in my reading I did see that calcarea was averse to changes, I'm kind of peculiar in that way s I wanted to mention, in that I have made several major changes in my life in the last few years, I have a more grass is greener on the other side mentality, so I'm often looking for something different, I can deal with major changes pretty well if I can prepare for them. However it's all the small things that stress me out, I like my routines for those sorts of things so my life is not overwhelming, I'm definately better with dealing with a few major things than lots and lots of minor things.

P.S. The metallic taste in the mouth I've mentioned before has been happening more and more, especially in the morning. Do either of those remedies have that as an indication?

I guess I'd like to elaborate on the points you made above, it's not difficulty in breathing after exertion, it's just right when the exertion is happening, a soon as I stop exerting my breathing is fine almost immediately. I think it's just because our bodies need extra air during the exertion so my breathing capacity is just not there to handle the extra amount needed.

As for aggravation from consolation, I guess I just don't feel it helps, most of the time I keep health problems to myself unless it's something someone else has to know, for instance my food and environmental sensitivities are something I'm much more likely to bring up because I need to to explain why I'm acting the way i do, and sometimes other situations necessitate bringing things up, however there's a lot of people who I know who don't really know me at all even if I interact with them frequently. I guess the expeptions, when I do talk about it, is in one of two situations, if it's someone who I think might be able to help in any way, or if I think the information might be able to help someone else, sometimes I see someone who has similar issues or especially if they're in a similar state as I was a few years ago when I had no idea of what's going on, then I'm willing to talk about these issues. Other than that, I feel like bringing up any more health issues than I have to with most people is just being a downer, not what they want to hear, and consolation alone doesn't make me feel any better, I'd rater have them not know about it as I want to be treated as an equal.

Another thing I thought I might mention, I've seen indications having to do with tongue such as calcarea having a white coating. My tongue tends more reddish on the sides and tips, and slightly lighter on the top but still not any real coating. I have noticed that the red on the sides and tip is less now than it was the last time I noticed, which was quite a while ago so I can't say if the recent remedies changed that.

That's a definite yes, and a significant source of anxiety for me. I'm paranoid about things like that. In fact, it's often worse if I can't see the person involved, an exaple would be that I love (when my energy levels are high enough) to hike in the woods, I can't stand walking in towns and cities because I get delusions that people in their cars and even people in buildings are looking out their windows and judging me, it's not that I'm worried that I'll be attacked or mugged or anything like that, it is just people's judgement that's my anxiety. It affects my physical symptoms too, I lose my energy significantly quicker on a walk through a town than on a secluded trail. If I'm driving I get real paranoid every time I see a cop car despite not speeding or having anything they would care about, all other official figures the same way too.

Something else I haven't mentioned before, I still have scars from stretch marks on my back that I got about ten years ago when I was a teenager and had a growth spurt. They are a number of horizontal lines most prominent on my lower back but also on the middle part, none of them on the upper back. People who see them always think they must be scars from some injury, but I have to tell them no, they're just stretch marks I got as a teenager. I don't know if this means anything to the remedy selection since I got them so long ago, but I thought I should mention it.

Well, it's been a week since I took the remedy and my results have not been very good, I feel significantly worse, it's somewhat similar to the reaction I got to Causticum. I've been very intolerant of heat, my digestive symptoms have been much worse, my mental state worse too although mostly having to do with those increased physical symptoms. The aggravation does seem to be slowly lessening, if it's like the Causitcum it will get better over the course of the next week. There hasn't been any significant improvements in any symptoms, a few were better at the very beginning such as breathing and palpitations but quickly got worse.

Anyway, there it a lot of Calcarea symptoms that I don't fit at all, both physical and mental essence. For instance, I'm ameliorated by fresh air to a huge extent (it's my fault I didn't list this on my list) so I wonder if any remedy that's listed as aggravated by fresh air could be correct.

What I'm actually curious about is the remedy Argentum Nitricum, I read about that one recently and it includes so many peculiar characteristics that I have that I need to mention it. Here's some of them,

-strange impulses (I didn;t mention them before because I'm in control enough not to act on any of the major ones, but I do have the peculiar one listed of having an impulse in my head to jump form a height, which is one of the reasons I don't like heights. I do have lots of strange nervous superstitions of the kind listed under argentum nitricum, I keep them under control for the most part now, when I was a child however I actually remember being sent to a psychiatrist because of things like that, I would not be comfortable somewhere unless I did some strange thing like touched a place on a wall.

-strong amelioration from open air
-extreme aggravation from sweets, even small amounts of sugar (although I'm not bothered the same way by natural sweeteners such as honey)
-anxiety, anticipatory and otherwise, the particular descriptions I read for argenticum fit me very well.
-very mental, in my head a lot
-hate to be kept waiting, time passes slowly
-hurried feeling (even when I'm fatigues I often have a hurried feeling inside)
-I found the description of walking faster and faster to deal with anxiety, that was my exact pattern a few years ago, I would do that many evenings. Now I still do like walking but my physical situation won't normally allow me to be at such a speed. Actually although I've always been anxious, I first got really troubled by my mental issues when my physical symptoms got to the point where I couldn't freely use intense physical activity to relieve stress
-loss of voice, never complete but I can't speak loudly at all
-anxiety causing diarrhea, I don't typically have diarrhea but can get it if I'm particularly anxious in anticipating
-Fear to be late, since I can't stand waiting I really don't want to keep anyone else waiting for anything
-thin, wiry
-red tipped tongue

Anyway, thanks for your consideration.

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I took the remedy doses one week ago and have seen some significant improvement in certain areas. Mentally, I feel more relaxed and less tense, significantly less social anxiety and a better ability to communicate (less stammering, even when tired). There has been no negatives or aggravations on the mental level. My environmental sensitivity level is also generally down.

On the physical level, my circulation has also been an area of significant improvement. I did see some aggravation of certain symptoms, namely the digestive, respiratory, and heart palpitations, although they seem to be getting a bit better now, particularly the digestive. I have been sweating a lot, the good thing is it's pretty even, I used to sweat unevenly in bursts on various parts of the body but now it seemd to be relatively even. I also have been quite tired on the physical level certain days and times, although still with more mental energy than I usually have if I'm that physically tired. Some of the aggravations might be partially from the heatwave that's been happening where I live this whole time also, since so many other things seem to be better.

Also, I noticed several lifelong issues that I've had that the remedy has helped that aren't major but still I was surprised to see such a difference in things I never even thought could be changed. For instance, I've always had an extreme sensitivity to cold water and although if I could get myself in I'd often feel better afterward, getting in involved such a shock that I rarely did and only could slowly. A few days after taking the remedy I was at our local creek and realized the water didn't seem nearly as cold to the touch as it normally did. I got in without much shock at all, and have twice more since that. The water tempereature isn't that much different as it's spring fed, it's just my response to it. That's just one example of things this reemdy seems to be affecting that I didn't even think about.

This update is a bit hard to explain but the important part is I am feeling better overall. I had an aggravation for a few days starting soon after my last update, just in the last 2 or 3 days I've been feeling better ever day, but still with a different odd symptom bothering me each day, all things I've had in the past but they're different now because I have more energy at the same time as having some of these symptoms which usually come with feeling bad. I've had chills off and on but superficial, not the intense type I used to get, I'm not cold at all or have any desire to cover up when they happen. My ears have been bugging me, they've been clogged up much of the week but just today it wasn't quite as bad. I'm digesting food much faster now, if I get discomfort it's lasting less than half as long, other remedies did help the discomfort be not as bad but this is the only one that's actually shortened the time, it used to be if I went to bed feeling at all full I'd wake up the same way, but now it's not nearly as much. I did however have a brief spell of pretty intense nausea with feeling like I was about to vomit last night, I didn't vomit although I kind of wished I had, it might have gotten the nausea to go away. I haven't vomited in years and years however so if I had it would have been quite unusual.

I'm continuing to feel better mentally too, mostly the same on that front as the last update, I did get some mental symptoms aggravate with the aggravation I mentioned earlier but that's passed now.

Well it hasn't been quite a full week but I thought I neede to update now because of one thing in particular but also in general not feeling that good anytime since the last update.

The one thing is my ears, they have been very clogged so that my hearing has most of the time been bad. Some days they have unclogged themselves late in the day but other days they remain so all day. This has been going on for about two weeks. It is a recurring symptom that I've had off and on for many years, but never this bad, before it was always only for a time in the mornings when it happened.

In general, the symptoms that dis improve have now gotten worse again but the ones that hadn't haven't gotten any better. I know I fall into the pattern of at first being excited about every improved symptom and brushing off those unchanged or even aggravated as just a temporary aggravation, which is what I did this time, but now when the improvements have pretty much gone away and the other symptoms haven't changed I realize it hadn't helped as much as I thought, in fact the first dose of natrum mur had helped significantly more than this and it still didn't turn out to be the right remedy.

In general, the things that did improve were certain mental symptoms, circulatory symptoms, chilliness, and certain environmental sensitivities (although others actually got worse). The digestive improvement I mentioned last week was an anomaly that lasted two or three days, then got worse again, since it was so delayed form the other effects I have to wonder if the remedy had much to do with that, and I did have higher energy levels for just those few days.

However some symptoms were worse much or the whole time such as the respiratory and sensitivity to heat, some of the heart symptoms, and also certain mental symptoms like forgetfulness, I brushed that aside as a coincidence for a while but now I can't deny that I have forgotten more things than normal since the remedy was taken, things like misplacing things, accidentally leaving the oven on and such.

Those worsenings as well as the improvements have lessened too now, but that leaves me in a fairly similar state to before I took the remedy. This leaves me confused because I do fit so many aspects on it and it definately acted on symptoms that nothing else had, but looking overall once I realized the effects were wearing off and the worsenings were not just prolonged aggravations before everything improved, I realize I'm back where I started. I don't know enough about the potencies to know if the higher potency (i do have the 200c) would do any better with this situation, but with the other remedies that I had similar situations as this too it wasn't.

I do however want to ask about another remedy, and this one I have more than mere speculation as to why I'm mentioning it. It's Magnesia Muriatica (possibly magnesia carb, I didn't look into it as much but the muriatica seemed a good fit)

Why I'm saying it's more than speculation is that Magnesium has been in my life before. Over four years ago right when many of these symptoms had started to get bad, I got a recommendation to take magnesium as a supplement, that it might help. I started taking one magnesium pill a day and it did help signifacantly with my physical symptoms and relaxed me too. However, within a few months they were worse again and I had to take more magnesium for it to make a difference. Eventually it was to the point where it only had a very short term effect and I stopped taking it altogher, I had stopped taking other pill supplements before that as none of them helped and some made me worse, the magnesium was the only one that did. I also now realize I dind't have any significant ear clogging problems during that time either. After I stopped, certain symptoms got worse again but I had to stop because the amount that it took to ameliorate symptoms was so much I felt out of balance, as well as it being too costly in that amount.

A few of the specific symptoms of magnesia mur that I also have are the hurried feeling even when tired (argentum didn't help this as I had hoped, natrum mur did but it didn't hold), dreams of water (I have these only occasionally but they tend to be more memorable than other dreams), the headache (I don't get as many headaches as I used to but when I do they're better for lying down as opposed to many of my other symptoms), amelioration by motion (For example I've never gotten carsick and feel that as well as other types of motion as calming, if I'm not driving, driving increases my stress load a lot), and a bunch of other I can't remember right this moment but could respond to if asked.

As far as general mental symptoms, I couldn't find as much info out there about magnesia mur mental essence, but what I did find seemed right, I read it described as averse to conflict, although I do sometimes get irritable with people who I'm familiar with, if it's a situation where I think it might result in a major conflict I'll often be afraid to speak out. If somebody does get really upset at me I'll be increased out of balance for days if it was bad.

Oh I also forgot to mention before, certain muscle soreness has also been worse, especially in the lower extremities, in the undersides of the muscles (calves and thighs)

Yes, I do have anxiety about health, mostly just because I'm anxious to feel better. I have little fear of infectious diseases, probably because I hardly ever even catch colds. I am obsessive in thinking about my health, mostly it's just as in, what could I be doing right now if I was feeling better, I could be doing a lot more than I am now. Since I've mentioned before my favorite things to do are pretty much all active things and feel restless often even when tired, that's where my anxiety about health mostly comes from. If I feel like things are (or even might be) going in the right direction, I get much less health obsession and anxiety, which is why after most remedies I reported an initial significant improvement, except ones that obvious weren't like calcarea, then when the hope dies away the obsession comes back.

P.S. thinking about dreams I mentioned the ones I sometimes have about water but a more frequently occuring phenomenon in my dreams is tornadoes, sometimes it can be scary as in they're coming after me, other times it's just that I'll see one in the dream and even be excited. I have never seen a tornado in real life although I do live in an area where there's several tornado warnings a year.

And about the previous post about the family, you're right, my family has little to do with these issues, I grew up in a stable family situation, and have had far fewer family issues than most other people I know, and I don't worry about my family to a great extent. My social issues are almost exclusively people outside the family.

I guess I do have a number of aspects of Arsenicum, why I dismissed it earlier is that I'm not very tidy, but now I think it's worth a try considering how many of the physical symptoms I do match, and certain mental ones too, such as the anxiety and restlessness, and I so have a desire to control certain aspects of my life, such as I'm obsessed with the weather forecast and planning things around it, I'm not proud of these obsessions as well as my obsession about health, so other people really don't know about them much.

However, in the realm of physical symptoms I fit almost all of them, the only excpetions really are the symptom 'can almost never be too warm' as I am chilly but also aggravated by the sun and heat (Interestingly though hot showers as well as hot foods feel good at the same time). Another thing I noticed is conditions from rotting meat, one of my food sensitivities is to meat that's even the least bit old, that won't affect anyone else around but will upset my digestion, even to the point where it tastes fine but's just a bit old. Fresher meat generally agrees.

Do you think it it might be possible going with the idea of layers that arsenicum is the right remedy now, but there's still another layer underneath that explains the certain mental discrepancies.

Really, pretty few effects from natrum mur are still holding, I do think I still have a bit higher energy levels than before any of the natrum mur dose, the congestion sensation in the liver is a bit less severe, but dugestive issues overall are mostly back to what they were before the natrum doses. Many of the good effects of natrum mur didn't even hold through the last natrum mur doses, then the calcarea dose put an end to a good deal of the rest of them.