Social anxiety disorder

Gender: female
Age: 26
Body Type: slim
Height: 5'6'
Weight: 56kg
General appearance:
Have you used homeopathic medicines before? If so what, and what homeopathic potencies did you use?

kalium bromatum 15ch and silicea 15ch were prescribed for my skin problems, although I didn't see much improvement.

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Please answer the following questions in a descriptive manner after careful analysis and recollection of previous experiences and happenings.

1. Describe your main suffering?

Social anxiety disorder:
- Fear of walking amongst people. When I'm walking down a street or in a building, especially if there are people walking towards me or that I have to pass by, I get terrified that my walk is funny, too mechanical and just not normal. I'm convinced that everyone sees this and is laughing at me so my heart starts racing, I clench my teeth and flex my stomach muscles and feel the need to run away.
-Fear of socializing and being judged. In most social situations I'm constantly thinking that there's something wrong with the way
I look, my clothes and even my smallest gestures. I never know what to say and when I say something I spend the next few hours blaming myself because I think it was stupid or inappropriate. If I am not anxious, I feel like an alien because I don't understand and have no interest in what people are talking about. I am desperate for people to like me but I believe they
don't and think I'm weird. I am very afraid of calling strangers or people I don't know well on the phone. I find it very difficult to start a conversation and be introduced to people, and I dread making presentations, or even saying anything
when in a group of people who are not my friends.
-Difficulties with the opposite sex. If I find someone attractive I am too scared to even make
eye contact. Even if the guy shows interest I will push him away because if I don't he'll realize I'm not good/perfect enough. However, if I'm indifferent to the man and he treats me well I become very self-confident and bossy. Most of my friends are such men who probably want to sleep with me and I go out with them to feel better for myself. I've only ever dated men who I don't like. With women I'm usually very awkward and insecure and generally find it easier to get along with men, as long as I'm not attracted to them or they are not too good looking or well dressed. I often look for imperfections in other women and feel better when I find them. I am always very self-concious and upset about my defects.

2. What other physical sufferings do you have in your body?

-Seborrheic dermatitis on my scalp - I used to get white flakes but now only dandruff
and red irritated patches. This also causes some hair loss.
-Acne - until recently it was severe but now my skin is almost back to normal.
-Myopia (-6,50)
-I sometimes faint after sprinting, in crowded places or at very low temperatures (it used to happen more often, now very rarely). I also have needle phobia and
have fainted from that too.


3. What mental sufferings / feelings do you have associated with your physical sufferings?

Depression, isolation.

4. What exactly do you feel when you are at your worst? Describe the sensation in your own words.

I feel trapped and obsess about looking and sounding wrong. I blush, stutter and have little control over what I'm saying.

5. When did it all start? Can you connect it to any past event or disease?

I believe that the reason for my SAD is that I had virtually no contacts with other children until I was almost 8 - I never
went to kindergarten and never had friends other than my sister and coisin. When I started going to school I was a straight A student so I didn't become good friends with my classmates. I also couldn't understand and relate to them and prefered to be alone. When I was 12 I started to believe that I was so ugly that people were disgusted when they saw me.
I became very depressed and contemplated suicide all the time, although never attempted anything.


6. Which time of the day you are worst?

N/A

7. What are the things which aggravate your suffering and which are those which ameliorate the same? Example- time, temperature, pressure, rubbing, washing, eating, tight clothing etc.

ameliorate - alcohol; when something positive happens to me; when people show they like me.
aggravate - isolation, stress.


8. Do your think your sufferings have relation to any external stimuli (like, change of place) or any internal biological changes in the body, like, menses (in females)?

I think not.

9. When do you feel better, during hot weather or cold weather, humid or dry weather?

I prefer hot weather, and maybe humid.

10. Describe your general mental set up? Are you Moody, Arrogant, Mild, Agreeable Changeable, Nervous, Suspicious, Easily offended, Quiet, Arguing, Irritating, Lazy etc.

I am moody, changeable, nervous, quiet, impractical, disorganised, very curious, with short attention span. I'm quite suspicious and sometimes even paranoid. Also easily offended - I'm always convinced that people do things to hurt me because they dislike me. I am a loyal friend and a good listener; honest and feel upset when people lie.

- How do you feel before or during a thunderstorm?

I feel excited and enjoy it.

- Do you like being consoled during your tough times?

I dream of this but in reality I always suffer alone and hide my feelings from others.

- Are you sensitive to external stimuli like smell, noise, light etc?

Sudden noise startles me. I find strong light, especially artificial, irritating. Gasoline smell makes me sick.

- Do you have any typical habit or gesture like nail biting, causeless
Weeping, talking to one self etc?
I bite my lips, fidget a lot, twist my fingers.

- How do you feel about your friends, family, your children and especially your husband / wife?

I feel misunderstood by my friends and family. I used to be very angry at my parents and blamed them for a lot of things.

11. What are your fears and do you dream of any situation repeatedly?

I fear that I'm a failure and a burden, that I will never be normal. I often dream that I'm falling and wake up just before I hit the ground, also that someone is after
me and I have to run but can't move.


12. What do you crave for in food items and what are your aversions?

I like salty foods, also sweets. Milk makes me feel bloated and I don't like meat much.

13. How is your thirst: Less, Normal or Excessive?

Excessive.

14. How is your hunger: Less, Normal or Excessive?

Normal.

15. Is there any kind of food which your body can’t stand?

No.

16. Is your sweat normal or less or more? Where does it sweat more: Head, Trunk or Limbs?

I think it's normal, more on my feet but not so on my palms.

17. How is your bowel movement and stool type?

It's regular and if I don't get it every day I feel very irritated.

18. How well do you sleep? Do you have a particular posture of sleeping?

I sleep on one side, usually the left. I'm not a light sleeper and I don't wake up too much during the night, but I don't feel refreshed in the morning.

19. Do you think you are able to satisfy your sexual desires in general?

No.

20. Do you have any strange, peculiar or unusual symptom or feelings? How are you different from others?

I find it hard to remember words and names, but easy for numbers and pictures. I spend a lot of time imagining situations where I act differently. I always want to be somewhere else - if I live in an appartment I want to move out, if I'm in a city I want to move to a different one, if I have a job I want to quit. I complain a lot about minor things.

21. What medications have been taken earlier by you to treat the diseases and do you have any particular symptom surfacing after the medication?

I haven't taken anything for the social anxiety.

22. What major diseases are running in your family?

Diabetes

23. Describe, how do you look like? Describe your overall appearance.
(For Females)

I look somewhat tall and thin. My face is quite pale, even yellowish. My hair is very thin and straight. I have dark hair and eyes. I've also always had dark circles under my eyes. I rarely smile and have been told that I have a sad and worried expression.

24. If your menstrual cycles are not normal, please describe the irregularities, like pains, moods, flow type, clots etc.

I wouldn't describe it as not normal, but it lasts long (7 days) and with bad cramps.

25. What major diseases have you had in your life and when. Please write them in a chronological manner.

No major diseases.