My problems in details (For Dr, Evocationer)

Complaints:
-- A. My first problem is anal fissure. It happened 8-9 months ago due to constipation. There was a tear at the end of the anus and a thin flesh (like the tip of a bird's lip) appeared. At first it was hurting very much during the bowel movement (BM), during walking, sitting, etc. But as the time goes, constipation happened a few time along the last 9 months. Now it does not hurt during BM but I cannot sit longer, or cannot sit straight. I have to put pressure on left hip and sit like that. Have a burning sensation in the rectum during BM and sometime during urination. If the stool is even a little hard, the area around the thin flesh and the wound become sore. Most of the time the thin flesh hides somewhere at the end of the anus but it comes out if I have constipation or big stool.
If the stool is a bit hard, the whole anus becomes a bit sore.

-- BM is not normal. I always have to go to toilet twice in the morning. Otherwise it’s not cleared.
--I have sebaceous cyst in my scrotum for 7-8 years. They are 15-16 in numbers and pea size. Sometime whitish substance comes out from them along with blood. I can send you pictures if you need.
--- Have premature ejaculation. Penis size seems to be smaller. Its around 5inch when erected. Sometime the middle area of the penis is thinner than the top and the bottom. Sometime while urinating, I feel a little burning sensation.
Location:
-- Anal fissure location is at the top of the anus. Mostly in the right side. It affects the whole anus too. Sometime both the hips hurt if I sit straight or a bit longer. I always put pressure on the left hip while sitting.
-- Cyst location is in the scrotum.

Sensation:
--- For anal fissure, it simply the pain. Cannot sit or even sleep straight. Another issue is my anal hair. My anal hair is quite long. As a result it makes itching sensation with the anal fissure wound and even with the anus. Sometime, I feel a tweaking sensation with a bit pain in the anus. When I get an erection, I can feel the pressure in the anal fissure area too.
--- for the cyst, its mostly the itching sensation. When the whitish substance comes out, it feels like burning while coming in touch with water.

WHAT MAKES YOU WORSE OR BETTER
--- anal fissure gets worse during the constipation. It also gets worse if I sit on too soft chair or too hard chair. It also seems to get worse after MASTERBATION. Depression also makes it worse. Normal stool usually keep the fissure normal.
--- Cyst usually gets worse and increase in size if it burst out. It also increases in number for the same reason. Don’t know if masturbation has any effect on that.

MIND
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1] What are the issues which are bothering you the most? How does it feel to have these issues? What about these issues bothering you the most and why?
--- Anal fissure and the cyst is bothering me much. Anal fissure is affecting my daily life and cyst is affecting my confidence for a married life.
I am very depressed all the time about this anal fissure. it feels like a never ending problem. The depression got worse when other homeopathy doctors could not cure me. I dont want to go for the surgery.

2] What are the emotions that you are going through? What are the factors to which you are sensitive? What about these factors bother you the most? How does it feel to have these factors and how you react during such time?
--- I am going through lots of disappointments. Sometime I am so disappointed about the fissure and cyst problem that I even think to break up with my fiancé. My temper gets hot and I feel angry all the time. Sometime I feel hope and feel relaxed when the problem is not aggravated.
There are two kinds of depression that happens to me. One is for the anal fissure and cyst in scrotum. Other is for my personal issues like business and relations. I will elaborate one by one.
As for the fissure and cyst, I become depressed when the problem increases or not curing. Fissure is affecting my work life since i cannot sit properly or for a long time. I cannot exercise or even run. Also I am not sure if it's curable with homeopathy. And I really don’t want to go for surgery. I cannot plan for marriage because I have lost the confidence because of fissure and cyst. When I think about these issues, I become depressed. Also try to imagine someone who is standing for the most part of the day. Even when sleeping, i can not lie down straight.

And for the business and personal matters, depression does not come easily as it comes for the fissure and cyst. Usually I am a patient person but when the business goes down and for example,i have fight with my fiance, all the issues combine together and depression comes on.

When I am depressed, people can easily understand it by looking at my face. My face becomes pale and I loose weight when it goes for a long time. I also feel like giving up everything when depression happens, I lose my temper easily and shout sometime though I regret it later.

3] Any incident which had a deep impact on you? Describe in detail. What are the thoughts/feelings/sensations associated with it? At that moment of time what were your feelings/thoughts, sensations and reactions associated with it?
(Note: Incidents might have happened long ago and now it has no impact on you but at that moment of time if it had any impact on you, describe.)
--- I have some family issues. At my early age, my parents did not match with each other and decided to separate. However, they did not but my father married another woman too. I have 3 sisters from that family and 2 sisters of my own. This situation always keeps me in a dilemma since I am the only son. My father expects me to take care of that family too, including my own family. But my own mother and sisters don’t want that. So I have grown up struggling with some emotional issues. Besides this, I had a relation with a girl for about 5 years but she broke up. Now I have another relation but this one has issues too.

4] What are your anxieties/fears/phobias real or imaginary? Describe them in detail. What about them is bothering you the most? What are the feelings associated with it? What could be the worst form of fear/phobia/anxiety according to you?
--- I have fear of heights. Sometime afraid to ride on lifts. I am afraid of snakes and spiders and cockroaches. I fear of losing my credibility to people, losing my honor. I also fear of losing my fiancé.

5] What are your interests and hobbies? What about it you like the most and why?
--- I was a book worm for most of my life. I like to read books and it takes me to another world making me free from all the troubles. I also like poetry and songs. I like to watch movies. I am also attached to porn. I have controlled it to some extents but I still have the hunger for porn.

6] What are the thoughts which are coming in your mind again and again? What about them bothers you the most?
--- Most of the time I am thinking about the anal fissure. I cannot keep my mind away from it. Along with it, I am always thinking about my fiancé and also my business. Sometime I become suspicious about my fiancé when she does not pick the phone for a long time or when I she does not want to share something with me. I feel bad about it and sometime feel guilty.
7] Any unusual sensation/vibration or movements have you experienced? If yes, describe them in detail. Describe the whole process of that sensation without adding or subtracting a word from it.
--- I feel really nervous before calling my fiance, or feel tensed. The same thing happens when attend a really important meeting.

8] What is/are the bodily sensation/s you experience with all your fears/ feelings and thoughts? Please describe the complete picture of it.
--- My palpitation increases. I cannot keep a cool head. For an example, if I decide to call my fiancé and if she does not pick up the phone for some reason, I really get tensed up. It seems my blood pressure rises and I can feel my heart beat.

9] Please close your eyes and bring that incident, feelings, fears, thoughts which had/having a deep impact on you/bothering you the most and see what is happening deep within your body right now. If you perceive any bodily sensation, vibration or movements please feel it completely and then right the whole experience as it is without adding or subtracting a word from it.
--- I don’t perceive any bodily sensation.

10] What according to you will be best moment of your life? How does it feel to be in that moment? What will be opposite feeling of this moment or feeling?
--- I think my best moment in life will be marrying the woman I love. It feels really relaxing and accomplished to imagine that moment. Besides that, I think getting a good project for my business will also be a great moment for me. The opposite feeling is mixed feelings. Sometime I think I will be able to accept whatever happens or comes in the way. Because I am used to handle tough situations in my life. And sometime I think, I will become depressed and lose my confidence if that happens.

11] How do/did you react in situations which have/had a deep impact on you? What is your first reaction when you face your worst fear/situations? Describe your reaction as it is? How do you react when you are faced with stressful situations?
--- Sometime I lose my temper and gets angry. Sometime I feel disgusted. Sometime I just hate it.

12] What you feel/feel like doing when you are alone and free of all your work?
--- I keep thinking about my fiancé. If I am depressed I listen to songs or I pray. And sometime if I am too depressed or angry, I watch porn and masturbate occasionally.

13] How is your relation with your near and dear ones, at your work place? Anything in the relationship that is bothering you the most? If yes, describe that in detail? How does that feel like? How do you experience that?
--- I usually keep a cordial and warm relationship with my dear ones, with my family and with my employees. But sometime I have fight with my family members and with my fiancé. I really hate to have a fight with anyone. Right now, I have been going through a bit unsure situation with my fiancé. Her emotion fluctuates time to time and her family wants a more established boy for their daughter which I am not yet. So this uncertainty is bothering me to a great extent too.

14] Describe five negative and positive points in you? Which out of it you would put first and why? How does it feel to have that?
--- I am usually calm, kind hearted. I am patient. I like to listen to other people’s problem and give advices. I can keep secrets and I don’t usually act upon hate or vengeance.
I can easily get hurt, I am very emotional, can cry easily in solitude. Sometime I just hate to see happy people when I am going through rough times. I judge people too early sometime.

DREAMS
1] Tell about the dreams that had a deep impact on you.
--- Actually I didn’t have such dream which made a deep impact on me. But I can tell you what kind of dream I usually see. Sometime I see the dreams related to my religion, seeing myself praying. Sometime I see myself being with my loving one. Sometime I see erotic dreams. And sometime, there are just some random dreams.

2] Tell about the dreams that are repetitive, strange and weird that are not related to you at all.
--- don’t remember. But I see my friends and relatives with those I am closest repeatedly.
3] Any dreams from childhood till today that you remember the most?
--- no I dont
4] Any dream from childhood till today that had a deep impact on you?
--- I don’t think so
5] Any dreams, just before your problem started?
--- No
6] Any particular part of your life where you had some recurrent dreams? If yes, describe in detail.
--- I cannot remember.



A] Which part of this/these dream/s is most important according to you? Describe that part in detail?
--- Sometime I really want to have erotic dreams, with the women/girls I fantasize with. I want to enjoy these kinds of dreams for a long time before the wet dreams happen. Other times, I love to see my loving one or the people I care about in my dream.

CHILDHOOD HISTORY

1] Any incidents from your childhood which had a deep impact on you, which touched you the most. Describe in detail about that incident/s and the feelings/thoughts/perception and sensations associated with it. What was your reaction to these incidents?
--- incident about my father’s marriage which I have described above. There were few incidents in my childhood, but I am not sure if those had any impact. In my childhood, one of cousine(male) tried to abuse me but I was saved somehow. I had some intimate moment with another cousine but it was just some touching.

2] Describe your fears during childhood in detail.
--- Exam result was my greatest fear in the childhood.

3] Any imagination/fantasies/imaginary fears which you remember the most?
--- I don’t

4] What you wanted to become as a child and why?
--- I wanted to become lots of things in my childhood. I wanted to become a pilot, I wanted to become an engineer in later life (which I have become). I guess I wanted to become like this because of my family.
5] During acute conditions like fever/diarrhoea/cough/vomiting etc., did you use to have nightmares/dreams during or just before the acute illnesses? If yes, describe them in detail about it. _______NO_________________________________

S L E E P

1] Describe your posture in sleep. (On the back, side, abdomen etc.) Are you able to sleep in any position? In which position you can’t sleep?
--- I sleep usually on side (left or right). Also sleep straight. But can not sleep on my abdomen.

2] During sleep do you:
a) Snore? -- sometime, when I have cold
b) grind teeth? --- no
c) Dribble saliva?--- rarely
d) Sweat?--- if its too hot
e) Keep eyes or mouth open? --- no
f) Walk? Talk? --- no
g) Moan? Weep? --- no
h) Become restless? Wake up with a jerk?--- sometime

3] Describe if anything else is unusual about your sleep: (sleepy, sleeplessness, etc. if so when?)
--- my sleep is extremely light. Any small noise like miscall or light noise can wake me up.

APPETITE AND THIRST

1] How is your appetite?
--- its normal. Which means if I don’t have mean in time, I get hungry
2] When are you hungry?
--- when I don’t have food around 2-3 hours
3] What happens if you have to remain hungry for long?
--- I feel a slight pain at the left lower side of my stomach.
4] How fast do you eat?
--- I eat quite fast
5] How much thirst do you have?
--- normal
6] Any particular time are you especially thirsty?
--- I don’t think so
7] Do you feel any change in your taste and feeling in your mouth?_________NO_______________________________

Food/Drink likes and dislikes, and how strongly
--- I really like beef but I have restrained myself after the anal fissure. I like biriani. I also like fish and vegetables. I don’t like bitter vegetables and some other like ladies finger.
I really like juices, mango juice, orange juice, etc. I don’t usually drink soda or other beverages.

STOOL
1] Do you have any problem regarding your stools?
--- Yes I have. If I don’t drink much water, I am easily constipated. Sometime my stool is hard in the first phase, rest is ok. Occasionally it becomes too soft too. After each bowel movement, it feels like not being cleared.
2] When and how many times a day do you pass stools?
--- two times in the morning
3] When is it urgent?
--- in the morning
4] Do you have any problem about bowel movements?
--- I have burning sensation during BM. Sometime its too much
5] Do you have to strain for stool? Even if soft?
--- sometime.
6] Do you have belching or passing gas? Describe its character.
--- I have passing gas problem. If my BM is not cleared, gas keeps coming on regular basis. Its usually smelly
7] How do you feel after passing gas up or down?
--- I feel relieved.

URINATION & URINE
1] Any problem about urine?
--- During urination, a little burning sensation. Sometime urination does not complete and remaining drops comes out after few minutes.
2] Any strong smell? Like what?
--- usual smell
3] Do you have any trouble before, during and after passing urine?
--- no
4] Any difficulty about the flow? Slow to start, interrupted, feeble dribbling etc.?
--- sometime urine comes in two or three lines
5] Any involuntary urination? When?
--- no

SWEAT/PERSPIRATION-FEVER-CHILL
1] How much do you sweat?
--- I sweat excessively, specially in summer.
2] Where and on what part do you sweat the most?
--- face, head, back
3] Do you perspire on the palms or soles?
--- no
4] Is the sweat warm, cold, clammy, sticky, musty, greasy, stiffens the linen etc.?
--- cold
5] What is the smell like? E.g. foul, pungent, sour, and urinous.
--- a bit smelly
6] What color does it stain the clothing?
--- blackish
7] Is the stain easy to wash off or difficult?
--- easy
8] Any symptoms after sweating?
--- no
9] When do you get fever or chill?
--- not sure
10] What brings it on?
11] Do you experience any sense of heat or cold in any part of your body at any particular time?
--- no

CHEST-HEART – COLD – COUGH

1] Do you catch cold often? If so, how often?
--- not often, sometime. Usually in the summer when I sweat most or in the winter
2] Describe the symptoms, nature of discharge etc.
--- I get runny nose and ache in the throat
3] Is there any trouble with your CHEST or HEART?
--- heart beat seems to be faster than normal. And my body temperature is higher than normal people.
4] Is there any trouble with your voice or speech?
-- - no
5] Is there any difficulty in breathing?
--- no
6] Do you have cough?
--- no
7] Is it more at any particular time?
--- n/a
SEXUAL SPHERE (GENERAL)
1] Any excessive indulgence in sex in past and present ? Any effect on your health?
--- I have been masturbating from the age of 14 I think. As a result my penis has become weaker and has shrink smaller. I have premature ejaculation now.
2] How do you feel after sexual intercourse?
--- Did not have any
3] Any particular feeling or symptoms appear before, during and after sexual intercourse?
--- I feel really guilty after masturbation. If I think of any sexual content or watch any sexual content, lubricant comes out very easily.
4] Do you suffer from any sexual disturbance?
(Homosexual inclination etc.?)
--- no
5] Any habit like (masturbation etc.) in past as well as present? How often?
--- yes. At present, it has become occasional because of my premature ejaculation and religious obligation. But i am easily aroused sexually.
6] Did you suffer from any venereal disease?
Syphilis? Gonorrhoea?
---- no
7] Do you have increased desire or decreased desire for sex?
--- increased
8] What is the method you use for family planning
---- Not married

FOR MEN
1] Any difficulty in erection?
--- No difficulty but the middle of the penis sometimes becomes thinner than the top and the bottom during an erection. Sometime I feel a blunt pain in the left area of the scrotum, close to the balls.
2] Wanted erection? Unwanted erection?
--- not clear
3] Weak erection? Failing erection? Describe.
--- Erection is ok
4] Any other trouble in sex? Describe in detail.
--- Did not have any sex so far.

Aggravated or Ameliorated by various Factors


Affected by the Environment in any way, and how does it affect you?
--- I get tired in dusty environment. Don’t like crowd. I can’t stand nasty environment or trashes.

Affected by position in any way?
--- question not clear

Affected by some physical activity?
--- question not clear

Affected by some mental activity?
--- question not clear

Anything else you are sensitive to?
--- bad smell, bad sweat, bad mouth, bad socks, etc
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