Message for Rajiv or Sajjad

Hi my name is Jill and I'm new to the forum, but not to homeopathy. I've worked with several practitioners and intuitive healers over the years, and have reached the point where I've needed to take my healing into my own hands. I am having success by trusting my own inner voice and going with what feels right for me. However, I feel a little stuck at this time and could use some help. I'm not sure if anyone is "in charge" of this forum so to speak, but any input would be helpful from individuals who have had some experience in the field. I'll try not to write a book and get to the point...the thing is we are multifaceted and complex human beings, which makes this process a bit more challenging in terms of finding the right remedy. Here goes:

Last remedy taken- Lac caninum for childhood sexual abuse.
Remedy prior to that- Lycopodium clavatum to assist with lingering effects of Epstein Barr Virus triggered in October 2005.
***Two most prominent symptoms I am feeling at this time- 1. Difficulty taking a deep breath, which leads to feeling more fatigued. It's as if I forget to breathe, and then I catch myself and get frustrated that I can't take in a really deep breath or fully yawn.
2. DREAMS- I do much of my work through my dreams. The current theme has to do with feeling ignored, unnoticed, rejected, etc. (which comes from my mother having favored my brother over me when we were children).
Genitals- LONG history and struggle with Candida as a result of taking the birth control pill at age 18 (and I'm now 36). I'm about 90%- I take probiotics, eat right, do yoga, and take a product called "Candex" which is designed to destroy the cell wall of the yeast without any die-off reactions. I have very little vaginal yeast and slight odor left.
Sensitive to cold weather (cold hands and feet) and noise, especially dogs barking (high-pitched sounds) and loud machinery (i.e wood-cutting saw, lawn mowers, etc.)
***State of mind- Anxiety, mind racing, difficulty quieting the mind- but working on it through yoga.
Stool- trying to heal anal fissure. Had a dream last night that I needed to go to bathroom- I held it in and ran to the bathroom- but there was a line. Stool- soft, unformed, difficult to go in beginning for fear of pain or bleeding, then it shoots out. Sorry to be so graphic- but hey- why hold back at this point? HAVE A LONG HISTORY OF HOLDING IN AND DIFFICULTY LETTING GO- BUT CURRENTLY I'M RELEASING A GREAT DEAL ON SO MANY LEVELS! :-)
Sleep- go to bed early 10:30 am and usually awake by 6 am.
Back- chronic tightness in left shoulder (was told by a healer this was to protect my heart).
Hearing- ringing in ears (tuning into higher vibrations?)
Abdomen- obsessed with stomach and weight, extra body fat, cellulite, butt, etc. Working hard to get to a place of self-love and acceptance. ALWAYS HAVE A KNOT IN ABDOMEN BETWEEN BELLY BUTTON AND END OF RIB CAGE- MY CORE.
Throat- voice doesn't feel powerful- HAVE A DESIRE TO SPEAK MY TRUTH FROM DEEP INSIDE MY BELLY.
Period- at 19 days- no pain during period- some emotional lows prior to that. LONG HISTORY OF FEELING DEPRESSED.
CURRENTLY FEEL BORED AND RESTLESS WITH JOB AND ENVIRONMENT.
ANGER- I have a long history of anger issues from taking in my mother's anger at my father when I was a small child (he was unfaithful). Although I have let go of SO much of that, there is some that still lingers or gets triggered. I have always been highly sensitive to taking in other people's toxic energy like a sponge, not having clear boundaries, etc.

I've always tended to be a loner and have isolated myself to protect myself. I am currently in the process of opening my heart and letting go. As I do so my intuitive abilities are deepening. I have a desire for an intimate relationship, coupled with the fear that my vagina won't be healthy enough to have one.

I'm sure there is more, but that seems to be enough for now. And it appears I ended up writing a novel. If there is anyone who can help me (and who has the time to do so), I would be very grateful.

Peace,
Jill

P.S. I currently have the Lac Lupinum remedy (Wolf's milk) in my possession, but feel I need something else first to address the 2 symptoms that I'm struggling with the most right now (i.e. difficulty taking a deep breath and feeling ignored, unnoticed, second best, etc.)