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My name is Afshan. My age is 34 yrs. I am having few problems and coz of them I am not able to move in my life like in career or you can say I dont have any goal left.

Actually I did bachelors in Fashion Design. And when I was in 5th Semester my mom passed away in 2009. I was very closed to her. When she was alive I didnt realize that she meant the world to me but after her death I am still stuck there at that phase. After her death I somehow completed my bachelors but lost my passion to become a successful fashion designer or want to achieve something big in life. Now it seems like I dont have any goal in my life. I even dont bother to work on my health. Whenever I think about my health or looks I start thinking why I need to work on me? One day I will die too. Recently I faced another tragic incident. My nephew (Brother's son) passed away 3 months ago when he was just 9 days old. After my mom he was the biggest happiness to me but I faced that. Now I have this problem that I will lose my loved ones like my brother, if he doesnt reply me in few min when he is away from me or not at home I immediately start thinking the worst situations that God-forbid he will die or something like that. I think like this for every single person who is closed to me if they dont get back to me in few minutes.

One thing more I dream a lot. I have nightmares and in most of the dreams I saw my mom and the people who were closed to me but are not anymore like my grandmother and other. I do have other normal and good dreams too like I enjoy with my family or any of my wish has come true in dream.

Now I badly need help coz Once I start thinking about something I cant stop myself to pause or leave such thoughts. I am badly stuck in past when my mom was with me and I had whatever I desired to have. I really want to do something in my life career wise and health wise too but I am unable to do anything. and coz of all this I am just wasting my time a lot just to watch different movies, dramas, and using cell phone. I dont' have any consistency in my life at all. Please read my this case very carefully and suggest me something that will improve the quality of my life. That will give me life.