10 years in a dark room, I want out.

Had migraines all my life, always had PMS. No event started this. Fear of rats, the dark. Anxious about decisions. Recurrent bad thought about certain people. Love cherries and oysters. Allergies to most protein foods, dairy, soy, gluten, eggs, tomatoes, and brewers yeast and baking yeast. I like most all food except exotic things. I now have hives from stopping Effexor the anti-depressant, which I took for migraines.

I am always in pain. Either my temples hurt, or my eye. Sometimes it is my molars. My neck and shoulders area hurts. The light is bothering my eyes. Very tires. I take 12 Zomigs per month to stop the pain, they make me tired as weak. I never know when a migraine will start up so I can't work. My thinking is fuzzy, i forget things all the time. I am not unhappy or depressed. Just sick somehow.

I love to be home in the house decorating and cleaning. I garden in the year. I love my profession I am a graph designer. I oil paint and exhibit paintings. I have lots of friends and am very social and talkative. When I feel well I take 5 mile walks or ride my bike. I love yoga when I can do it. I am never anger or irritable. I can be frustrated with people who are needlessly mean or angry. I love motherhood even thought my kids are in their 20's. My husband is angry and irritable as a personality type this does cause me anxiety , but he is loving and supportive mostly. I love beautiful thing and to shop and decorate and design. Most of my life is on hold because of all this pain. I did go through 3 family deaths in the last 5 years but I have moved through most of the grief by now.

I am very sympathetic to others, my mother says i should have been a nurse. I am in the dark because I light bothers my eyes. I close the shudders and sleep them off. I am afraid of the dark when i need to go into the cellar at night, or walk home alone at night.

I am not excitable. My emotions are even keel, I tend to conceptualize my feelings. I do have a strong desire for company and affection, but I can spend a lot of time alone, and can be independent. I do not like to walk alone however, I find that I ruminate then, painting my past in the negative. But I do not really believe I have a negative past, my mind wants to see it that way. I see my health as changing who I am and who I believe I am. I see myself a healthy with a bright future, but my health makes me sad with no future. I never even get colds. You are so kind to help me unravel this riddle. My sciatica is through my left butt. It prevents me from rotating my hip out lotus style. At times it jerks and feels squirrelly. I have leg cramps at night too. Yes fibroids I bleed and clot heavily for 4 day. Can hardly leave the house on one of the days. No amount of pads will hold back brake through bleeding. Small cramping. PMS you name it I got it.

Can you tell me why you chose Phosphorus over Calcarea Carbonica. Is there a subtleness in reported symptoms between the two.

Thank you. I will follow your instructions. You are very kind.

I am an intuitive person and I was also drawn to the Calcarea Carbonica from having looked carefully at your online tests. Well. we'll know soon enough.
Good night. E

ha. lol.