Help needed please :-) Im an emotional wreck

Hi, my physical being is in a very bad way. I have numerous symptoms and would appreciate any help. Over the years I have seen homeopaths, herbalists, naturopaths, massage therapists etc without much success.

I have suffered extreme insomnia which started in my teens and is present today. I have a hard time falling asleep and i wake frequently.

My symptoms began 6 years ago when I was 19 and started as chronic fatigue, chemical intolerance and weaken immune system. I had chronic colds, flus, chest, lung, throat infections, eczema, bladder infections (I had a wound in my bladder which gave me chronic infections), ear infections, thrush and cold sores. All this lead to antibiotic overuse.

I have a history of substance abuse. I have had glandular fever, dengue fever and Hep A.

I had a very traumatic childhood (including being put in foster care alone at the age of 3). I was homeless at 15 and estranged from my family through most of my teen and early years. I had huge commitment issues and for years I moved around constantly to avoid forming deep relationships with people. Yet at the same time I am attracted to abusers and to those who will hurt me. I lack the belief that I deserve better.

For a while I tried to work on my commitment issues and forced myself to settle in a long term relationship with a house and a mortgage. The relationship ended up very abuse and controlling and my ex attempted suicide. I was living in a small community and he stalked me relentlessly for 3 months until I moved away. Most of my friends turned on me. All this resulted in me having a breakdown at the age of 24.

During the last 2 years I have suffered crippling anxiety (As a teen I had panic attacks but I havent had one for years). Small things can be a huge challenge to me and I fear getting close to people. Although by nature i am sociable and caring and outgoing.

My immune system is still very bad and I have developed asthma. I have intense fatigue with insomnia, lack of concentration, mental sluggishness, headaches, appealing memory. I am irritable and lash out unexpectedly when I'm tired (I'm normally a caring person) I think i have damage to my nervous system. I have severe body aches and chills. I eat very well, avoid chemicals, look after myself apart from a caffeine habit - its the only way i can get energy together.

I have a 5 month old son who is the blessing of my life. My pregnancy wasn't too bad but i was fatigued, and suffered terrible heart burn and sciatica pain. I am normally slim but i put on a lot of weight (which dropped off without effort after labor). My sons head wouldn't engage and after a 36 hour horrific labor he was born with forceps (after fetal distress). I put my neck out in labor and couldn't sit or stand without intense pain for 3 weeks. Mt stitches also became infected.

I have been diagnosed with gallstones which im currently treating with natural remedies. My symptoms are severe pain under ribs and abdomen, gassy, loose stools.

I get particularly tired after about 6 pm. I feel the cold and have a hard time keeping warm. I feel better after exercise but if I overdo it I will get worse. Im allergic to penicillin and erythromycin.

I am currently breastfeeding my son. He has an amazing spirit, very alert and focused, intelligent and stubborn. He is happy and secure and smiles and giggles a lot. He had terrible indigestion when he was born. I treated that with homeopathic s and had good success. My son will not sleep during the day, no matter what until about 5pm. I will think hes asleep but as soon as i stop bouncing him he cries and this often goes on for 2 hours! I wander if my stress/anxiety is affecting him?

Any suggestions would be gratefully received. Thanks very much!