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Hello people,

I really need your help now for I am almost about to fall off the cliff into the abyss. My story is very long and very intense. I am very thankful to God for the nasty position I am in because I know once I pull through my soul and character will be stronger than ever before.

Basically, I am losing my mind. I am losing myself because of thoughts that are coming into my mind that I wish would not. I believe that the best thing to give you all to help me is just a list of my symptoms and share with you some stories to paint you a picture of what's up.

I am extremely obsessive. Extremely, obsessive. I feel that if I don't do something right or if i make a mistake, I go crazy and I cannot rest until everything is it's place. For example... this past summer, I went to Europe on a trip and then I got hung up on this dude in Austria because I thought he did something really nasty to me. We were in a Sauna and he was saying some nasty stuff to me and I got really scared and I left there in a hurry because I didn't want to be around him anymore. Before we split up, last thing he asked was for my name and I gave it to him and he told me his name, but after I left him, I got so caught up on his name and wanting to know it that it literally drove me crazy!!! I ended up in the hospital because all I would talk about and think about was this guy and the fact that I could not remember his name! That drove me crazy for 6 months until I decided to go back to Europe and find him! So I went back to Salzburg, Austria to look for him. The funny thing is that, eventually, I found him and I asked him what I wanted to know...his name. And also, during the 6 months that I was in the US, where I live now, a voice told me his name and it kept telling it to me, but I could not trust this voice! It turns out that, that the name that the voice was telling me was his name WAS actually the guys name!!! I have to learn to trust my inner guide! But here is the catch, before I met this guy again that I was after, there was a chick on the road that pointed a camera at me and I think she might have taken a picture of me, but I am not sure... and once again, this thought that I don't know whether or not she took a picture of me IS KILLING ME!!! It is not so bad now, but the night after the incident with the random girl happened, I was literally banging my head against the walls cursing at myself for making such a stupid mistake as to not ask her if she took a picture of me or not when the time was right. Anyway now, things are not looking very good. I look in the mirror and I don't see myself. The girl was wearing a blue jacket and white hat and had a black camera, and now everytime I see anything blue or white or a black camera I get this nasty feeling inside of me, the same feeling I got when the actual incident happened. and I assimilate such weird things to it, like the sky and clouds make me thing about that stuff, not always but sometime....just other really really absurd things. My mind and imagination are super powerful and my imagination is so rich that I can make connections with things that are completely unrelated in other peoples eyes.

Ok, but enough about that, here are some more things about me. If you have anymore questions on the above story, just ask, I am more than happy to share with you anything because I need a cure. I know what I am doing/feeling is not ok.

I add up the time on clocks and I search for it to give me 13 or 33. I add numbers obsessively. A lot of the time when I add up numbers on clocks it gives me 13. I am kind of afraid of the number 13 and 33 because of the meanings I have attached to those numbers. If something isn't the way I want it to be, I go back and change it. If I can't change it to the way I want it, I go crazy for a few days and then I slowly calm down. For example: at the airport a few days ago I threw a piece of paper in the trash and it landed in a place that I felt wasn't right and then I left. I was thinking to myself, don't go back and feed the obsession, just leave it be, but I couldn't have that so I went back and I found the piece of paper that I threw in the trash can and I put it in another place that felt right. I am afraid that I will completely lose myself, my sanity. I am afraid that I am most likely going to end up in hell, or my soul will be lost for eternity. I am afraid that devils are playing around in my etheric field. I am highly impressionable. Right now I am seriously spacy and this was after I took a dose of Cannabis Indica 10M, I don't know if this caused the problem or what I am experiencing right now are some aggravations. Last night I was feeling pretty good and this morning too a few minutes after I took the remedy, but now I feel spacy as every. My head feels very light and it literally seems that it's going to just take off into space and the my mind is not connected to my body.... does anyone have an antidote for this!?!

Any other questions, please just ask... I can't think of anymore things to say right now. Usually I am very detailed and descriptive in my stories but, right now, I am, as one would say, 'stoned'.

Help help help!

ES
 
  BlueOcean on 2011-01-09
This is just a forum. Assume posts are not from medical professionals.
Please use the homeopathic patient intake form and give us the appropriate information about your case. Hopefully someone here will help you begin real homeoapthic treatment.

http://abchomeopathy.com/forum2.php/255920/
 
Homeopathy International 1 last decade
Gender:
Age: 22
Body Type: Skinny/fit
Height: 6 foot 1 inch
Weight: roughly 170 lbs/ 74kg
General appearance: good looking, long hair, brown eyes, brown hair, darker skinned, ovalish face, squarish jaw.
Have you used homeopathic medicines before? If so what, and what homeopathic potencies did you use? Yes. I have taken Mercurius Solubilis 12c, Cannabis Indica 10M, Anacardium LM4, LM5, 1M, 10M?, Nux Vomica 30c, Belladona 30c, Ledum Palustre 12c, Arnica Montana 12c.

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Please answer the following questions in a descriptive manner after careful analysis and recollection of previous experiences and happenings.

1. Describe your main suffering? Obsessive, intrusive thoughts.

2. What other physical sufferings do you have in your body? None. Because of my thoughts, my chest will hurt really bad because of my thoughts, and I also get bad headaches that put pressure on my temples.

3. What mental sufferings / feelings do you have associated with your physical sufferings? My physical complaints are due to my mental sufferings, which are the obsessive thoughts.

4. What exactly do you feel when you are at your worst? Describe the sensation in your own words. Like God has forsaken me and that I will loose control and become insane. Pacing frantically, cannot rest, sleep comes on hard, my mind cannot stop thinking, thoughts come rushing in, my imagination is broken because I don't see things clearly, yet through the veil of the intrusive thoughts.

5. When did it all start? Can you connect it to any past event or disease? Most likely due to years of Cannabis Use. I had gone to the hospital with probably a Cannabis induced Psychosis.

6. Which time of the day you are worst? Night. When I am tired.

7. What are the things which aggravate your suffering and which are those which ameliorate the same? Example- time, temperature, pressure, rubbing, washing, eating, tight clothing etc.

When I get in arguments, things get worse. Cold makes me feel uncomfortable,


8. Do your think your sufferings have relation to any external stimuli (like, change of place) or any internal biological changes in the body, like, menses (in females)? Possibly due to poor relationship with my family. My sufferings are most likely due to the years of marijuana use.

9. When do you feel better, during hot weather or cold weather, humid or dry weather? Hot, dry weather.

10. Describe your general mental set up? Are you Moody, Arrogant, Mild, Agreeable Changeable, Nervous, Suspicious, Easily offended, Quiet, Arguing, Irritating, Lazy etc. I am very chill, except when I get the bad vibes from people, then I react violently towards them if I am very upset with them and they have pushed me over the limit of being nice with them. I am very friendly, I trust everyone, I am lively, happy, I love music, I love dancing, I love to be free, I enjoy being outside, I like to climb trees, I love to talk to people and give them advice, get advice from the. I love to be social although I do have some anxiety in relation to it. I am very much a Phosphorus personality.

- How do you feel before or during a thunderstorm? I feel pretty good during a good thunderstorm.

- Do you like being consoled during your tough times? I like to talk to people, yes, when I am going through hard times and I am usually very sensitive.
- Are you sensitive to external stimuli like smell, noise, light etc? Not more than average I believe, but there are some things that annoy me such as the TV being on and all the stimulus from it constantly penetrating your mind.

- Do you have any typical habit or gesture like nail biting, causeless
Weeping, talking to one self etc?
Yea, I talk to myself a lot, have conversations with myself... well actually I have conversations with people in my head that I know. I do bite my nails from time to time. I also cry and get very excited about little things, my emotions are very powerful. I also cry when I hear nice things, beautiful things.
- How do you feel about your friends, family, your children and especially your husband / wife? My friends are great but at the same time I feel disconnected from a lot of them. From my parents right now I feel very unaccepted by them and this is causing me pain.

11. What are your fears and do you dream of any situation repeatedly? Um, not so much. When I had the experience with the girl that took a picture of me I dreamt about her that night because my mind needed resolution to the matter if she took a picture of me or not, but this is just an obsession I have in regards to that.


12. What do you crave for in food items and what are your aversions? I like cheese, starcy foods.. bread, pasta, couscous, I like vegetables, fruits. I don't eat meat and I don't eat processed foods. I try to eat as pure as possible.

13. How is your thirst: Less, Normal or Excessive? EXCESSIVE! I drink a lot of water. Especially with meals, when I am eating I will drink far more than people around me.

14. How is your hunger: Less, Normal or Excessive? Normal.

15. Is there any kind of food which your body can’t stand? Fat, like pig fat, or fat on a steak when I used to eat meat. I do not like coconuts. Not so much really.

16. Is your sweat normal or less or more? Where does it sweat more: Head, Trunk or Limbs? It is normal. I usually sweat in my underarms.

17. How is your bowel movement and stool type? Normal most of the time. Brown.

18. How well do you sleep? Do you have a particular posture of sleeping? I do sleep well, but I have a hard time falling asleep because my mind is constantly on the move. I sleep either on my sides, and I believe most of the time I fall asleep on my stomach.

19. Do you think you are able to satisfy your sexual desires in general? yea, I do have some sort of premature ejaculation. I get it up and then I immediately ejaculate. The last woman I was with when we were having sex, as soon as I penetrated her I ejaculated... this is strange because before her, this didn't happen.

20. Do you have any strange, peculiar or unusual symptom or feelings? How are you different from others? Yea, I feel like a lot of people are evil, or part of the Masons, or Devils out to get me and I get paranoid of people when they are weary of my questions and I immediately get a red flag telling me that they may be evil or part of some sort of secret society that is plotting to doom humanity. This is no joke. I get anxiety from strangers...like weird vibes from them sometime and when i talk to them after a while, my head starts to really hurt because it seems that I always try to say what they would like to hear or say something that would make me look smart or on par with them.

21. What medications have been taken earlier by you to treat the diseases and do you have any particular symptom surfacing after the medication? I took some anti-psychotics for 8 months without my knowledge and those made me feel horrible.

22. What major diseases are running in your family? Cancer, High blood pressure, High cholesterol, Diabetes.

23. Describe, how do you look like? Describe your overall appearance. I look good, long hair, attractive, skinny, skin does have craters from teen acne years, eyes are piercing, I walk with a slouch somtime, especially when I am with shorter people...probably to get down to their level.
(For Females)
24. If your menstrual cycles are not normal, please describe the irregularities, like pains, moods, flow type, clots etc.

25. What major diseases have you had in your life and when. Please write them in a chronological manner. No major diseases really, just a psychotic break in 2009.
 
BlueOcean last decade
Your case actually stretches over several posts. I have looked over all of them. As a fairly serious mental health case treatment on a forum like this is not appropriate at all. Homoeopathy, when used inappropriately, can have side-effects, and for someone with mental health issues this can be devastating. Not only that, but such cases as yours need a lot of support, contact with the practitioner, empathy and understanding. The focus in such situations should not be on the medicines, but on the establishment of a relationship with the practitioner. This cannot be done here.

During these kinds of cases, it is often necessary to change remedies as old repressed or suppressed states reappear. The reappearance of these repressed states can put a lot of pressure on your family and friends, as well as yourself, and can even put you at risk of being hospitalized. No-one here can be available to the degree that you would need it. Homoeopathy, when used for mental health cases, is very much like counselling or therapy. It is a process that must be started, maintained, and finished correctly or the patient can suffer.

I treat a number of mental health cases sucessfully, but they are quite challenging and require a great deal of my attention.

David Kempson
Professional Homoeopath
 
brisbanehomoeopath last decade
BlueOcean...the symptoms you are describing here along with the past hospitalizations for psychotic breaks cues to a serios mental disease (could be schizofrenia, or bipolar disorder, or such). I agree with brisbanehomepath that this is not the place for you to get serios treatment. As a matter of fact, I think homepathy cannot help you anymore at this point and you should seek medical therapy as soon as possible. As homepathy cannot help in other diseases such as cancer, it cannot help in acute psychotic episodes. Only a sham or a fool could tell you otherwise...

Majestic
Resident in holistic psychiatry
 
majestic25 last decade
Actually this is not true. There are many examples of cured mental diseases in our literature. There are also examples of cancer cures in our literature as well. I myself have cured a variety of 'incurable' illnesses in patients who received their simillimum (perfect remedy).

However, to get such a cure, is HARD WORK and requires an experienced and well trained practitioner dedicated to your case. Anything less than this probably will not really help you in anything but the short term.

So I do not want to discourage your from seeking help from homoeopathy - remember our homoeopathic asylums in the past had a very high cure rate compared to orthodox facilities, but how you seek such help is just as important.
 
brisbanehomoeopath last decade
Hello and welcome
 
BlueOcean last decade
Do you know majestic25?
 
nawazkhan last decade
Lol, I believe it is my parents who made that posting, specifically my father. They really want me to get alopathic treatment asap and have little faith in homeopathy because their previous profession was doctors. I understand their concern, but I wish to give homeopathy a serious try before putting mind altering toxins in my body. Plus, I really want to get to the root of my suffering instead of covering it up with meds. Marijuana use is most likely one of the major causes for my ills. Im going to contact a good homeopath here in the next few days.
 
BlueOcean last decade
for brisbanehomeopath - David, what do you mean by 'how you seek such help is just important'? Could you be more specific? Othewise, this seems to me like another way of saying that if the remedy didn't work on you it's because 'you didn't seek the right help'. Is there any particular advice you could share? And how many people with shizophrenia or bipolar disorder have you actually 'cured'?
 
majestic25 last decade
I mean that seeking help in health food stores, on internet forums, from unqualified or inexperienced practitioners and so on will not likely be very sucessful.

Every case is indiviual and different so there is no real advice I can offer except to say that only by fully exploring the problem with someone who is committed to homoeopathic principles and to the patient would anyone stand a chance to heal.

It is mostly bipolar, severe depression, obsessive and compulsive conditions, and phobic disorders that I have seen cured in terms of mental health issues. I remember one case of Schizophrenia that did not stay after the first consulation so my experience with that condition is very poor.

Dr. Andre Saine gives some good examples of treating pyschiatric conditions in his book 'Pyschiatric Patients'.

Here are a few links to other homoeopaths' experiences with schizophrenia:

http://www.healthy.net/scr/article.aspx?Id=648

http://www.similima.com/case1.html

http://www.encognitive.com/node/6351

http://hpathy.com/homeopathy-clinical-cases/a-case-of-childh....

These are just examples from modern homoeopaths. There are other such cases found in the older texts.

I have permission to publish one of my Bipolar cures. This is the link to that case.

http://forums.hpathy.com/forum_posts.asp?TID=10859&KW=&a...

David Kempson
Professional Homoeopath
 
brisbanehomoeopath last decade

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