high/low swings again. David Please read

I am having my high/low swings again.

Yesterday or was it the day before yesterday I felt this scattered ego that I mentioned in a post which was a problem in the past and something I talked about often before ever taking platina if you remember. This is such danger to me when I am in such state. I felt so low. I never want to feel this way again because of the danger. TOday I did not feel that way at all up until I left my house. And with brief moments of egoizem alternatively. I hate egoizem. I noticed the egoizem at work aswell the past week.

I cannot believe I was able to live like this for so many years.

It going to take some adjustment to get used to this sh*t again. Even when I am egoistic the low side is very close in the background to which I can swing to quickly

Previous week was so hard just because of the physichal symptoms. Numbness, twitching the controlling of it, paralyzing weakness. And this week most likely also I could feel in this state where I feel in such danger psychologically. This is what platina helped me so greatly. That I felt I can be around people just fine. Feel totally normal.


Help??

Is this enough to say platina right depsite what happened when I took 10M.

It helped with BDD, physichal issues, and the high/low stuff. And I did not feel that i cannot handle things for many months unlike I am starting again.


Help?? Has mercury those symptoms of high/low?

most likely wont reply to me again.

This is so strange that all of a sudden I am feeling this way again. Hard to comprehend how this is possible, such change to the old bad state. How? Why? out of nowhere? Such change - how is it possible I wonder how something can change like that for no apparent reason.