Fear of deeprelax / meditation and twilight or hypnagogic state

The topic say everythink, anyway i try to explain.

Many years ago i tryed and succesfully obtained an OOBE but in the wrong period of my life because i was wathing many horror movie, and so i see a monster on my OOBE experiences.

I screamed so much.
Heart start to beat so fast that it stopped to beat fast just after 3 day really without stopping (i was young and sportiv so it resisted)

and from that moment i really cannot approach a meditation or a deep relaxation or the hypnagogic state that i have fear of monster or ghost or any bad figure that can approach me on my hypnagogic or meditation state.
when happen that i enter a deep meditation or the twilight or hypnagogic state my heart beat fast , my stomach ache and i start to swallow a lot of air, and obviously i go wake up in fear.

I have to say one think.

i do not have nightmare, my dream is quite normal and i remember them if related to my daily life.
when i am a lot tired i do have fear of darkness.
but not when i am wake and well rested.

anyone can suggest me a good remedy for this issue.
i am open to any question to help the case.

5. weight>>> 68kg
6. Height ….>>>175cm
7. country >>> Italy
8. climate >>> sunny(naples)
9. List of your complaints >>> fear of hypnagogic state , fear of meditation , fear of deep relaxation , fear of darkness only when tired, heart beat very fast when go in this fear, fear of vision of monster on twilight or while falling asleep.

10. Since how long are you suffering from each complaint >>> 14years

11. non-Diabetic
12. Desire salt
13. normal Thirst
14. Tongue a bit swallen with teeth mark on side and Taste neutral
15. Current BP (without medicine and with medicine)

16. What exactly is happening? described above

17. How do you feel? >>> exausted from the need to run away from relaxation or monstervision on twilight or hypnagogic state
18. How does this affect you? >>> my heart have some complain because of the many many time hypnagogic state or this fear happen, and i am very bored and exausted that this after 14 years bother me.

19. How does it feel like? >>> it feel like i cannot be my self, i cannot expand my self and spirituality on a deeper level.

20. What comes to your mind?
i remember at age of maybe 5 - 6 years seeing my grandfather while falling asleep want to stab me.(it is a hypnagogic dream)

21. One situation that had a
big effect on you?


22. How did that feel like?
23. What sensation do you experience in that situation?

24. What are you showing by that gesture of your hand (Habits or Actions)?

25. Current and previous remedies/medicines you are taking or took in the past?
arnica, lachesis, mercurius and many other (from a complexist)

26. Family Background
normal education , middle family

27. Educational Qualifications of the patient
Herbal therapist

28. Nature of work, what do you do for living?
actually studing

29. Desires, likes and dislikes for food
desire(salty food, olive oil, popcorn, chocolate)
like(hot sauce , hot pepper, apple, almond, nuts)
dislike(meat, too much coocked pasta, watery food)

30. Name of foods which increase your problem
nothing

31. Mind-behavior, anger, irritability, hurry, impatient…and so on.. How are you different from other persons, public speaking or not , you can describe all of the details about your behavior, love and affections.
I do not love to speak, i have trouble remember think that i read if i do not apply that in someday.
i have many problem on concentration on study or on reading
i have problem on be steady or calm doing one think.
i have like somethink that need to move i think my heart it is.

32. Aggravation (increases-time, season,)& Amelioration (Decreases)
aggravate if i try consciously to deep relax or meditate
ameliorate if someone guide just me on meditation or relaxation but need a personal guide and help, i feel a little protected.

33. Attached here your photographs of the affected area. (if required/optional)

34. Location of the disease >>> mind , heart
35. Side of the problem (Right or Left), (Upper or Lower part of body) >>> LEFT upper
36. Color of the secretions/discharges e.g urine, stool, sputum, Saliva etc. everythink normal
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