Attn Kadwa: Answers to questionnaire

Patient ID: Sex: Female Age:24

Please answer the following questions in a descriptive manner after careful analysis and recollection of previous experiences and happenings.

1. Describe your main suffering?

Sadness which doesn’t just go, pain in the heart, gets easily hurt, have very difficulty in getting along with people, Short tempered, I want to run away but I do not know where; When I can't get along with people I simply quit job without thinking about consequences; I am currently looking for a job; my mental state is affecting my job search.

2. What other physical sufferings do you have in your body?

Tiredness, lucid dreaming, occasionally I suffer from sleep paralysis, dry lips which would bleed quite sometimes, extremely dry skin except on scalp, prone to bruise by accidently hitting somewhere

3. What mental sufferings / feelings do you have associated with your physical sufferings?
Tiredness makes me want to sleep often, which also is a way to escape from the reality.

4. What exactly do you feel when you are at your worst?
I want to kill myself - but I never did that; hurt me physically, want to break plates or throw things, it would only go away when I talk to a therapist over the phone and cry my heart out.


5. When did it all start? Can you connect it to any past event or disease?

I was an extremely happy child and everybody wanted to be around me all the time; things changed when I was molested from age 4; I didn’t know what was going on, it went on for a few years, from 11 years I felt so bad about myself as the molester used to bully me and would tell me I am a dirt; it ruined my self-esteem and pain in my heart started to grow. As a child I would pray to god don’t let me see another day and let that be my last day on earth.
My parents had a very difficult marriage with father away for work for months. Only father used to support me; mother and brother found great joy in bullying and tormenting me a lot; I had a rebellious teenage. I went to see a psychiatrist in my teenage who gave me anti-depressants which helped me a lot, though I didn’t tell him what was causing it as I was afraid. I took it for 3 years, my life was so much better during that.


6. Which time of the day you are worst?
Immediately after I wake up is the worst as I want to cry, I also feel betrayed; it reduces and continues till 4 in the evening and gets better around 8 p.m ; I am not like this 365 days a year, only when something so painful happens. Recent occurrence was on dec 11 2012 when I was harassed and bullied by a senior manager as he could not manipulate me; after this incident I would shake in my sleep and cry as told by my partner. After deep examination with talking therapy I realised it triggered childhood scars of bullying and harassment.


7. What are the things which aggravate your suffering and which are those which ameliorate the same?
I am not happy at work; for some weird reason women get so jealous around me and it hurts me a lot; men are cocky around me which hurts as well! As a result I find it difficult to get along with people. I am not working at the moment and looking for job that suits my personality. I come across as loving confident woman, but inside I am bleeding.
I get so hurt when my partner is very jealous of me as I only have him to support me.
I get so much peace in reading spiritual books or when I meditate; write, paint ; or when I am creative. I also feel so good after I exercise since I feel tired from sadness I don’t feel like doing exercise.


8. Do your think your sufferings have relation to any external stimuli (like, change of place) or any internal biological changes in the body, like, menses (in females)?
Yes when I have to out-perform and prove myself, which causes stress, which stirs up patterns from childhood. Symptoms worse during full moon and during periods. Or when someone harasses me and I couldn’t stand up for myself; Past 12 months I have been working so hard to heal my inner child; It might take another few years or so.

9. When do you feel better, during hot weather or cold weather, humid or dry weather?
During winter I feel so much safe as the day is less and night is long.

10. Describe your general mental set up? Are you Moody, Arrogant, Mild, Agreeable Changeable, Nervous, Suspicious, Easily offended, Quiet, Arguing, Irritating, Lazy etc.

Even though I am bleeding inside, I always have a smile on my face; I feel so hopeful despite all things that happened and I try so hard to help me in every possible way; Though I get hurt, easily offended, arguing, and get tired. I have very high expectations of myself.
- How do you feel before or during a thunderstorm?
I like thunderstorms and I feel some kind of a God has come


- Do you like being consoled during your tough times?
Yes in a very kind and loving way else I will get so annoyed and short tempered


- Are you sensitive to external stimuli like smell, noise, light etc?
Very sensitive to noise and smell


- Do you have any typical habit or gesture like nail biting, cause less
weeping, talking to one self etc?
No


- How do you feel about your friends, family, your children and especially your husband / wife?
I feel they do not understand me; are superficial; everything in their life is conditional; I have been in a long term relationship and he often feels that I am too good for him and he gets very insecure and jealous when I am successful; so to make him happy I gave up nice jobs, as he encourages me to quit but I regret doing so very much. My mother and brother were also very jealous and insecure.


11. What are your fears and do you dream of any situation repeatedly?
I am afraid of snakes and I dream about it; I also dream about war, being a prisoner in a castle etc like in 2000 years ago sort of;
12. What do you crave for in food items and what are your aversions?
I have to eat fruits and fish every day; very picky about food, if I don’t get what I like I starve myself; I do not like to eat bread, rice, milk and very salty things; though I do eat those once in a while;


13. How is your thirst: Less, Normal or Excessive?
Well I drink at least 1 litre of water or herbal tea and I think it is normal


14. How if your hunger: Less, Normal or Excessive?
Between less and normal; I eat to get energy and not for fun, it takes me a lot of time to eat than usual people.


15. Is there any kind of food which your body can’t stand?
Very hot and spicy food


16. Is your sweat normal or less or more? Where does it sweat more: Head, Trunk or Limbs?
Less and odourless; on forehead and scalp


17. How is your bowel movement and stool type?
Normal


18. How well do you sleep? Do you have a particular posture of sleeping?
I like to sleep in a foetus position on my right side; I sleep much better during day than night.



19. Do you think you are able to satisfy your sexual desires in general?
Yes


20. How do you think you are different from others, if at all?
For some weird reason I connect with people to their heart and not on their outer appearance or what they do, I was like that from the day I can remember; I tend to think with my heart so much, which makes me so different from other;


21. What medications have been taken earlier by you to treat the diseases and do you have any particular symptom surfacing after the medication?
I was given Veniz XR 37.5, it was 5 years ago; for 3 years in my teenage after trying so many medications. Doctor would add something else for sleeping occasionally. Prozac and citalopram did no good to me it gave tremors; Mirtazapine was terrible and it made me put on so much weight and I had hallucinations. I was told that my depression is not clinical.



22. What major diseases are running in your family?
Well I am so different from everyone in my family; I could be adopted


23. Describe, how do you look like? Describe your overall appearance
Very attractive, pretty, Petite, shiny hair, beautiful smile, slim not thin


24. (ONLY FOR FEMALES)

Please answer the following questions:
(Please give details of your past menstruation if you have attained menopause.)
- Are the periods early, regular or late in general? How long do they last?
Regular; lasts 5-7 days


- Do you suffer from any kind of physical or mental discomfort before, during or after the periods?
Sometimes not always though


- Is the flow scanty, normal or excessive?
Between normal to excessive


- Is the blood thick bright red or pale watery?
Thick bright red

- Do you notice any clots in the flow?
Yes
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