chronic epididymitis/orchitis/spermatocele/varicocele pain - potency/remedy

I am 25 years old. I have right/left testicle pain. The pain began in my right testy and made its way to the left. I believe that the problem may be due to epididymitis because thats what seems to be most sensitive/sore. I have had testicle pain for about 2 years. The pain started from an STD/ball piercing. And possibly not cured from smoking too much marijuana and bad eating habits...whoops.

Basically I want to know the right homeopathic medicine WITH the right dosage. Knowing the right dosage is more important to me but any help would be awesome:)

Thanks guys,
Jeff

Questionnaire I took the liberty of doing before asked to do so.

1] Your Complaint:
I have pain in my testicles, it is dull but persistent. I cannot enjoy life as much.

• What is your complaint? testicle pain
• When did the complaint begin? 2 years ago
• What sort of sensations (and emotions) do you associate with it? regret and not being able to forget the past and move on. A reminder that I cant ignore. Confused why i cant fix it. Determined to fix it. Happy when I cant feel it, sad when other people tell me how good they feel when I have testicle pain.



• Does anything make it better or worse? Being asleep or laying down. Putting ice on it. It is worse when I sit down for a long time. Seems to flare up after a period of high stress.
• How does it bother you? How is it coming in way of your day-to-day life? It bothers me because I have no desire or motivation to do things like clean, cook, interact or be social and it distracts me in every way.
• How does it feel like to have this/these problem/s? It feels like I want to blow up my groin so that its not there anymore. I cannot escape these awful feelings.
• What is the effect of this/these problem/s on you? They make me not want to attempt anything that requires a commitment, because from one day to the next I can't tell if I will feel awful or feel halfway decent. At the same time I have more determination because I dont want this to control me.
• Did any event happen which caused the complaint? Describe the emotion associated with it. an STD caused it...as well as I had a ball piercing at the time. I felt like a foolish puny human. Like it was the perfect storm of stupid mistakes on my part. I felt numb to my judgment and mad more at myself than anyone.
• What are the other symptoms started with it, esp. mental and physical not symptoms, which are not directly related to the main complaint. The stress of just thinking about it, I couldn't look at myself the same way.
What are your reactions with it? I got constant migraines (which went away after taking amitriptyline), less sleep from thinking about it too much. Confusion and stress from all of this.



MIND
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1] What are the issues which are bothering you the most? How does it feel to have these issues? What about these issues bothering you the most and why?
The pain itself, it feels like I am not here like to block out the pain I have to feel distant from myself. What bothers me the most is nothing is working as well as I want it to.
2] What are the emotions that you are going through? What are the factors to which you are sensitive? What about these factors bother you the most? How does it feel to have these factors and how you react during such time? I think I have described the emotions pretty well.
The things that bother me the most are feeling helpless. I hate feeling helpless and vulnerable. If I can think up a solution or something to try, I feel better, but when I can't think of what to do I feel helpless and then I just give up and feel awful.
3] Any incident which had a deep impact on you? Describe in detail. What are the thoughts/feelings/sensations associated with it? At that moment of time what were your feelings/thoughts, sensations and reactions associated with it?
The moment I got my STD and started feeling testicle pain accompanied my a fever.
4] What are your anxieties/fears/phobias real or imaginary?
I feel anxious about everything. I worry about my college classes, stress from my tutoring job and knowing that I may never fully heal.
I worry about my pain having a lasting negative impact on the people I love. I fear I will transfer this pain to my girlfriend.

Describe them in detail. What about them is bothering you the most? What are the feelings associated with it? What could be the worst form of fear/phobia/anxiety according to you?
My worst fear would be to have my girlfriend breakup with me or something long term happen to me thats bad.

5] What are your interests and hobbies? What about it you like the most and why?
I still have the same hobbies with this pain however I quit smoking weed (although just 2 weeks ago). I like to exercise, workout, play guitar/sing, reading sometimes, writing music, socializing, electrical engineering, herbs/health things etc. I like to do creative things because it makes me feel proud of myself, feel alive, feel the zest of life, the creative juices flowing and it helps me feel like I am someone worth while, that I am special, that I have something that people would admire me for. Same for singing, I have an ok voice and it pleases me to put it to use. I like to harmonize and make the song sound pretty. I like to know I am above average when it comes to being smart with my classes and life. Sometimes I dont think I am when I think about how i got my pain.
6] What are the thoughts which are coming in your mind again and again? What about them bothers you the most? The thoughts that bother me most are the ones where I imagine a bad situation and entertain that all the way to the end and play it over and over in my head, trying to figure out how I would cope with it. For example, My pain transfers to my girl somehow or sometimes seeing the worst case scenario. I also fear that my anger from my pain will dictate my life.
7] Any unusual sensation/vibration or movements have you experienced? If yes, describe them in detail. Describe the whole process of that sensation without adding or subtracting a word from it.
Regularly though out the day I feel like short fast bursts of my testicle(s) twitching (similar to muscle spasms after you workout alot)

I'm not sure where to describe the migraines, they are gone and hopfully wont return.

8] What is/are the bodily sensation/s you experience with all your fears/ feelings and thoughts. Please describe the complete picture of it.
Tension in my muscles, clenching of the jaw, feeling as if I'm on hyper-alert or aware as if waiting for something bad to happen so I can act on it. Feeling overwhelmed. Feeling tired all the time. A lot of tension in my neck especially and shoulders--trapezius area. A feeling to always keep moving to not sit still so I can realize the pain.
9] Please close your eyes and bring that incident, feelings, fears, thoughts which had/having a deep impact on you/bothering you the most and see what is happening deep within your body right now. If you perceive any bodily sensation, vibration or movements please feel it completely and then right the whole experience as it is without adding or subtracting a word from it.
I have PTSD from a BB gun shot to the eye and I had to get cataract surgery. I feel like I can tell the vision is different and my head feels weird so I wear glasses to equal things out. When I think of the pain it seems to manifest itself even more. I feel like I am bad luck and a crap magnet. If you are around me bad things might happen which are my fault.



10] What according to you will be best moment of your life? How does it feel to be in that moment? What will be opposite feeling of this moment or feeling?
starting a life with my girl in a home. and getting my job when I graduate. I feel that I will not have any pain in this moment, it feels like I finally found a solution in every way. In contrast, i could be in more pain and have to chop off my balls and not be able to have kids. That scares me and makes me think deeper into this.

11] How do/did you react in situations which have/had a deep impact on you? What is your first reaction when you face your worst fear/situations? Describe your reaction as it is? How do you react when you are faced with stressful situations?
I feel like my first reaction is to address the crisis but so that I shrug it off and everything is nonchalant...I just want to withdraw, remove myself from the world, sleep, rest, reflect on the crisis and what it meant to me, try to process it and feel how it made me feel. I never feel like I get the luxury of doing that so I'm always stuck with shoving my feelings so I can get through my day.
12] What you feel/feel like doing when you are alone and free of all your work? I want time where nobody needs me, where no one will interrupt me or bother me, where I know I will be alone for a long stretch of time. I love to feel at one with nature, see the sun shining and imagine myself blowing on a breeze, or growing in a field like a tree, or listening to what the trees are whispering when they talk. Daydream about running away to someplace beautiful and quiet, where the trees and grass and flowers are all around me, and make my home there where no one and nothing bad can visit me. Just me my girl and loving parents.
13] How is your relation with your near and dear ones, at your work place? Anything in the relationship that is bothering you the most? If yes, describe that in detail? How does that feel like? How do you experience that? My relationship with my parents is like a 7-8 out of 10. I feel like we are hitting a rough patch, because the communication issues. I feel that the only way for me to make the relationship better is to talk more and spend more time with them and make up for all the time and missed chores I never did. That aside, I feel like we work together well, we both love and respect each other and are faithful, and that I make a good son and they make amazing parents. My sisters and I's relationship is horrible. Both of them hate me because I never say sorry for all the names and things I do to make them mad. Its my fault, I feel so guilt about how that turned out. I feel that in 5 years they could forget about all the bad things I have done/said and forgive me as a brother/sister would hope to do. My girl and I have an awesome relationship but the pain does get in the way (aka my anger) sometimes takes the best of me.

14] Describe five negative and positive points in you? Which out of it you would put first and why? How does it feel to have that?
Negative:
Self-centered
Antisocial
Lazy
pessimistic
Spiteful and hurtful when angered

Positive:
social ------yes i am both
Creative
overall happy person:)
Compassionate
determined
optimistic ----i am both too

I think I would put the happy person first, because I thats all I really want in life. just happiness thats all, its priceless.
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DREAMS

Please answer the following:

1] Tell about the dreams that had a deep impact on you.
I dont remember my dreams but I will try to do this. I just remember slightly negative dreams. Dreams that have negative words as they're themes

2] Tell about the dreams that are repetitive, strange and weird that are not related to you at all. Sometimes I will dreams about friends from highschool that I havnt seen or thought about for 10 years

3] Any dreams from childhood till today that you remember the most? nightmares mostly, nothing specific
4] Any dream from childhood till today that had a deep impact on you? Not any really that impact me today, that I am aware of.
5] Any dreams, just before your problem started? Can't remember.
6] Any particular part of your life where you had some recurrent dreams? If yes, describe in detail. NONE


CHILDHOOD HISTORY
1] Any incidents from your childhood which had a deep impact on you, which touched you the most.
I was a bad kid. I would just misbehave in everyway possible. However I never really messed up bad the same way twice I just found lots of different ways to make me look like a fool. I had ADD and could not sit still, I was on meds but I went off them because of the feeling they made me feel.
2] Describe your fears during childhood in detail.
I had nightmares all the time. Sometimes I would imagine that in the window of our bedroom (shared with older sis), in the dark kitchen there was a giant shadowed man looking in. When I would close my eyes at night, I would see him and purple swirls (I still do pretty often), and I thought there was something wrong with me.
I would lay awake in bed at night and imagine things to be afraid of.
3] Any imagination/fantasies/imaginary fears which you remember the most? cant remember....yet

4] What you wanted to become as a child and why? I wanted to be an interior designer (haha yea right)
5] During acute conditions like fever/diarrhoea/cough/vomiting etc., did you use to have nightmares/dreams during or just before the acute illnesses? If yes, describe them in detail about it. I can't recall, sorry!
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S L E E P

1] Describe your posture in sleep. (On the back, side, abdomen etc.) Are you able to sleep in any position? In which position you can’t sleep? I can't sleep well on my stomach, because the back of the pressure feels like i cant breathe. I sleep on my back (mostly) or my side.

2] During sleep do you:
a) Snore? Not usually.
b) grind teeth? Yes I frequently find when I wake that I have been clenching my teeth.
c) Dribble saliva? Not really but I have before.
d) Sweat? Yes!!!!!! it drives me nuts! I have night sweats almost every night. I wake up and I let the fan cool me down then fall back to sleep or take a shower.
e) Keep eyes or mouth open? None
f) Walk? Talk? Not walk, no. Talk in my sleep rarely.
g) Moan? Weep? No
h) Become restless? Wake up with a jerk? Occasionally wake up with a jerk.

3] Describe if anything else is unusual about your sleep: (sleepy, sleeplessness, etc. if so when?)
Just that it is always fragmented so I always wake up tired. ________________________________________

APPETITE AND THIRST

1] How is your appetite? Fair, not as good as it should be due to the pain. Many times I feel hunger pangs but then nothing sounds good and I don't know what to make, so I don't eat anything. Then the hungry feeling goes away for awhile. Sometimes I don't feel hungry even though I should be.
2] When are you hungry? I don't get hungry in the morning until about 2 hours after I wake up. Sometimes I feel a little hungry
3] What happens if you have to remain hungry for long? Seems like I feel hungry a little at first, and then it goes away and I don't feel hungry anymore. That happens for an hour or so and then I feel STARVING and feel that I must eat right away. I eventually get shaky feeling and feel tired and like I must sit down. Sometimes I get a headache from the low blood sugar.
4] How fast do you eat? I am usually a pretty slow eater. I hate the feeling of being disrupted during my meal (biggest meal is dinner -----lunch and breakfast are just fruits and nuts)
5] How much thirst do you have? I drink a gallon a day or at least i try
6] Any particular time are you especially thirsty? In the afternoons at school. In the morning I seem to not be thirsty so much even though I still drink 2 glasses. I don't drink much water till the afternoons and evenings when I feel more thirsty.
7] Do you feel any change in your taste and feeling in your mouth? I get dry mouth a lot for some reason (not stoned btw)
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Food/Drink likes and dislikes, and how strongly
Likes: I like everything really. some veges I have hated my whole life. Now I love things that taste good and are RAW or part of the paleo diet. Fruit is amazing!
Dislikes: Dislike lima beans, colliflower. Dislike some seafood. I don't like the fishy smell to it, and even non-fishy, fresh stuff, I fear it might smell fishy, and eat it on the ready to dislike it if something is gross. I HATE anything wheat lol

STOOL
1] Do you have any problem regarding your stools? poop is more soft than usual
2] When and how many times a day do you pass stools? once if Im lucky lol
3] When is it urgent? Usually about an hour after I wake up.
4] Do you have any problem about bowel movements? when I eat horrible (fastfood)
5] Do you have to strain for stool? Even if soft? no
6] Do you have belching or passing gas? Describe its character. Usually pass gas in the mornings on awakening, some at night. Burping a bit after eating or drinking water, but neither seem to be a problem.
7] How do you feel after passing gas up or down? Better/relieved. I feel I half to pull apart my checks in order to fart successfully
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URINATION & URINE
1] Any problem about urine? Not really.
2] Any strong smell? Like what? YES! the herbs I am taking ....turmeric and vinegar and my herb cleanse detoxes
3] Do you have any trouble before, during and after passing urine? Sometimes I feel a slight pain in the right lower abdomen when I try to completely empty myself. Then it goes away quick
4] Any difficulty about the flow? Slow to start, interrupted, feeble dribbling etc.? No
5] Any involuntary urination? When? No.



SWEAT/PERSPIRATION-FEVER-CHILL
1] How much do you sweat? More than normal for me, I seem to run hot on my body's internal temperature. I feel overheated after a short, hot shower and sweat after that. I sweat at night if I am wrapped tight as well.
2] Where and on what part do you sweat the most? back and head
3] Do you perspire on the palms or soles? the palms, but that kind of sweat is usually more cold and clammy.
4] Is the sweat warm, cold, clammy, sticky, musty, greasy, stiffens the linen etc.? Warm and wet
5] What is the smell like? E.g. foul, pungent, sour, and urinous. As the day goes on, my armpits smell kind of stinky, and by night I feel I must have a shower or I can smell myself, especially in the groin area. It's especially off-smelling down there.
6] What color does it stain the clothing? a dirty color or yellowish color
7] Is the stain easy to wash off or difficult? medium to hard
8] Any symptoms after sweating? At night I wake up in a sweat. it sucks and i am confused exactly why it happens
9] When do you get fever or chill? Only when I seem to be coming down with an illness. I haven't had a real fever in a long time, it seems. I get chilled when I am tired, my body seems to slow down and have a hard time keeping me warm.
10] What brings it on? Being overtired, or in a cold room for a long time.
11] Do you experience any sense of heat or cold in any part of your body at any particular time? My feet usually feel coldest when I am cold, or my hands or nose. Usually I notice my feet first though. When I feel overheated, my groin feels hot, and my upper body, too, I think in my upper chest area by my neck. ________________________________________

CHEST-HEART – COLD – COUGH
1] Do you catch cold often? If so, how often? No, I don't seem to, maybe once or twice a year.
2] Describe the symptoms, nature of discharge etc. Clear mucus over a few days, cough, discharge gets yellowish in color, cough gets throatier, lungs sometimes seem to get worse from asthma I have noticed, when the cold is healing.
3] Is there any trouble with your CHEST or HEART? My heart every once in awhile, maybe a few times a week, will race for no apparent reason.
4] Is there any trouble with your voice or speech? it i feel like crap, i look like crap and sound like crap.
5] Is there any difficulty in breathing? asthma has not gotten worse with my symptoms
6] Do you have cough? now i do but i am just getting over a cold
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SEXUAL SPHERE (GENERAL)
1] Any excessive indulgence in sex in past and present ? Any effect on your health? yes
2] How do you feel after sexual intercourse? warm glow, content, happy, loved.
3] Any particular feeling or symptoms appear before, during and after sexual intercourse? I tend to get nervous about sex, afraid how I may look or sound, afraid I will disappoint my lover, afraid I will orgasm too early
because of the pain I do feel a slight pain slowly come back afer i orgasm like within 5-10min after.
4] Do you suffer from any sexual disturbance? No, don't seem to.
(Homosexual inclination etc.?)
5] Any habit like (masturbation etc.) in past as well as present? How often? Occasionally, maybe 1-4 times every month or two.
6] Did you suffer from any venereal disease? My doctor said I may have herpes but It never came back but I still think I do
Syphilis? Gonorrhoea? No discharge but I could have had this when I got my initial STD with the pain.
7] Do you have increased desire or decreased desire for sex? decreased greatly due to pain. Normally have a healthy desire
8] What is the method you use for family planning? huh



Aggravated or Ameliorated by various Factors


Affected by the Environment in any way, and how does it affect you? We live in a big city now, and the city life makes me feel a little sad, like I have lost my connection to nature, like everyone is too much in a hurry to appreciate it, that the trees might be sad by being boxed in by so much concrete. That I can't just go out on a jog without worrying about my safety. I feel I would much prefer to be near a big city but not in the middle. I love my parents and will be with them where they are

Affected by position in any way? Right now with having some problems with stress, I am feeling off balance, Sudden movements of the head make me feel disoriented a bit.

Affected by some physical activity? Too much exertion seems to make my heart pound but i can seem to get my breath as I should.

Affected by some mental activity? High amounts of stress, like reacting to a very stressful situation, makes me 'crash' afterward in the form of minor depression and more pain.

Anything else you are sensitive to? The feelings of others more increasingly with the cleanse Im on all i wanna do is be positive and more caring and have the ability to shrug it off. The more I heal the more i feel sensitive like I used to be so I heal and more pain is noticed so its kinda like it evens out and the only way I know I am healing is the amount of time through out the day that i cant feel it.