Suppressed Gonorrhea and urethral Stricture

Hi All I am 24 year old non married.I am very worried about my health.I have gonorrhea for last 9 years.By taking antibiotic and herbal medicine it is suppressed.Due to wounds in ureter when they heal it shrink my ureter a little bit.
SYMPTOMS:
1).Urgency to urinate
2).4 or 5 drops of urine 3).after urinating
4).No Pus or blood in urine
5).No pain while urinating

Ultrasound Report:::
SPLEEN: Measures normal in size.
KIDNEYS: Right kidney measures normal. No calculus or hydronephrosis seen. The cortical echogenecity is normal with normal CMD. No solid or cystic mass.
Left kidney measures normal. No calculus or hydronephrosis seen. The cortical echogenecity is normal with normal CMD. No solid or cystic mass.
URINARY BLADDER: Normally filled. No stone. Mucosa is slightly thickened and irregular. No focal wall thickening noted. Post-void residual urine = 40 ml. OTHERS: There is no free or loculated peritoneal fluid. No paraaortic or paracaval nodes seen. No abnormally distended gut loop nor any mass.
COMMENTS: Features of urinary bladder suggest cystitis, requiring clinical correlation.



Allopathic doctor suggest me surgery.If i chose surgery then i have to go for surgery every 3 or 4 month.I am very afraid of surgery.I wish to kill my self.I will be very thankful to you for you suggestion.