Stiff neck und upper back every morning

Dear sirs,

every morning i wake up with stiffness in the upper part of my back, recently in the neck as well. I can't find a position in bed to sleep for my body to feel relaxed, there is too much tension stored up inside. I exercise daily as it is part of my job, although i seldom have any work these 18 months now and on sunny days, i exercise outdours as well, so during the day, the stiffness goes away immediately but every night it comes back. My sleep is uninterrupted and without nightmares but i clench my teeth and i feel the tension in my body while i sleep. My shoulders are raised and stiff due to the way i feel in my life and although i have been going to a physiotherapist, the relief is only temporary, as it comes back every night. Several physiotherapists told me that the whole left half of my back is mildly swollen in a way they had never seen before.
It started occurring in 2019 during a bad phase in my life and the homeopath i had been consulting tried several remedies but none worked except Thuja a bit; it went away ca.2 months after i went away from the bad environment and started having more work, a lot of appreciation from the professionals around me and many plans for the future, so i didn't look for a new homeopath. But these 18 months now i am very unhappy, as i have none of that, very lonely and very restricted in all areas of expression that are vital for me. I came back to my homeland because it was impossible for me to go on living abroad with such little work+income, so all the reasons i had when i left it 15 years ago, are again present every day, only 100 times worse due to the measures+the distancing. I feel like a foreigner here and very lonely, actually much less than all those years i was abroad.
I am a woman, 35, non-smoker, non-alcohol+non-coffee drinker. I love beauty, music, dance, the sun and the sea.
I discovered homeopathy 15 years ago and i find it great; finding a wise homeopath though is difficult. Massage had helped in the past but it took long to find a good masseuse.
In my city here the options are worse but anyway, i went to several physiotherapists. None was good. Except one who was very good and, technically the best so far and brought immediate improvement even in areas i hadn't expected any change and a fresh flow of energy as if i became 10 years younger but as a man, he was full of perversions which after some weeks he tried persistently to introduce to the massage session with me. He insisted he had to have his personal reward beyond money for all the hard work he was doing for me, so i stopped going and whenever i remember it, i get angry.
Generally, these months i feel very sad but some things make me very angry, although i try not to care.
Thank you in advance.
[Edited by Domenica S1 on 2021-10-01 10:08:25]