Cellulite! Please please help!

Hi everyone, I would be so grateful for some advice. I have had cellulite since I was in my late teens but it has now become so bad that it’s just consuming my thoughts and affecting my wellbeing. I’m nearly 50 and I feel like I’ve been dealing with cellulite for most of my adult life, I can’t wear bathers, I just feel low and consumed by the appearance of my legs and now upper arms and calves showing cellulite also. I am a small framed blonde woman, fine boned, 50kg 5 foot 2, petite but fit physically. I go for long walks, I have always been fairly active, particularly in my teens and twenties, less in my 30s and 40’s and after having my 2 kids at 37 and 41 I was quite inactive only going for gentle walks, nothing strenuous as I was so fatigued and burnt out, suffering post natal I think. It’s not diagnosed but looking back on things I think I was very withdrawn and low, distant and lost feeling in those days. Absent and exhausted with nothing to give, nothing left in me. I am a very empathetic person, helping people whenever I can, in whatever way I can, which I know I need to balance better as I burn out easily and have low stamina generally. I suffered from very bad Glandular Fever at 19, dropping to 36kg, very unwell. Since then I have never been the same energy wise compared to other people. I cry easily, at anything, I feel others pain easily. I feel very serious a lot of the time, quite stern towards my kids almost distant and cold at times. Sometimes I feel like I need to laugh more as I’m too serious and have trouble playing and being silly. Other times I’m cracking up with girlfriends. I am reserved as a person, definitely not an extrovert, shy, introverted, soft hearted and easily hurt. I have had many men cheat on me, so have been badly hurt,I am very trusting and loyal. My husband cheated on me while we were engaged 15 years ago with several women, but I have only just discovered this recently a couple of years ago so I’ve had a very rough few years working through it all. Very low, felt like a fool, angry and sad and humiliated. I had a miscarriage at 43, which took me nearly 2 years to bounce back from emotionally. I feel flat a lot, withdrawing or wanting to be on my own. But music helps! I am better for exercise, music, warm baths, cool weather. Hot weather aggravates me, I don’t like the sun. Much happier in cool/mild weather. Tend to crave sugar and salt. I don’t drink alcohol. Healthy eating mostly. I drink black tea daily too much, have increased water a lot. I have g had a period in 3 months now so starting menopause I guess. My cellulite is visible without pinching my skin, my athletic body is starting to lose muscle tone so I am working hard to build that with gentle exercise and toning workouts. My legs are beginning to look flabby, arms look weak and untoned and my abdomen now shows cellulite too as I’ve gained a little weight around my tummy. I feel like it’s running my life, I don’t participate in any water sports or swim because of it. I can’t just join in, it’s such a big deal for me, it’s so consuming and I wish I wasn’t so preoccupied with it, but I am very self conscious and very determined to find some help. I’ve tried creams, suction cups, massage, I’d like to try homoeopathic to see if I can heal. Please help!