Not manly enough to the eye of women , not enough, not wanted

Hello everybody,

I need your help, please..
I need my power and virility back! Help!
Here are my symptoms:

- Fear of heights and falling from heights.
- Fear of not being accepted.
- Abandonment trauma
- cold legs and feet
- I feel the need to constantly produce and be successful, so I can be loved.

-left side from chest to penis tip, tension/ irritation, lef lung feels constricted too. I feel angered there and frustration,blike revenge too, pelvi Is Linked to virility, it feels week and contracted, like Have no sexualy energy, no testosterone, difficult to explain. Taken away from me.


I get triggered when someone pats me on the back or tells me what to do.


I want to be accepted by my students. I try to be lenient and cool so that they look up to me. However, I constantly check to see if they look bored; if they do, I feel rejected. When they don’t listen, I feel disrespected and humiliated, which leads to anger. I tend to internalize this anger instead of expressing it, and I sometimes feel a desire for revenge.

I have a fear of rejection.

I also have a fear of snakes and spiders, finding them disgusting. When someone tells me what to do, I feel dominated, which makes me angry, especially when I see students bullying more sensitive students.

I have no desire to drink water, and I feel that if I express myself, I will get hurt.

When I hear people laughing, I often think they are laughing at me, which makes me feel humiliated and fuels my desire for revenge.

I have an obsession with my career, believing that achieving success will earn me the love and acceptance.

I often dream about girls I like romantically, but in my dreams, they do not want me. I feel weak, not strong or manly enough, and I am haunted by the belief that I am not up to the mark

When I see a woman showing attraction to another man, I immediately get triggered and feel inadequate, like a beta, weak and meek boy, and feel sensations in left side of upper chest. Think that no one will ever want me. I feel that I am not up to par and lack the qualities that make someone desirable.

When I encounter a woman I like who seems interested in a confident, alpha-looking man, I feel triggered and jealous, leading to feelings of rejection. I was emotionally dominated and bullied by a man in the past for over a decade in front of girls, especially in front of women I liked. This has created a sense of perceived rejection from women I am attracted to, even before approaching them. I feel inadequate for them, believing I am not what they want, and deep inside, I hear a verdict that says, I don’t want you; you’re not man/strong enough for me. This feeling is particularly intense when I genuinely like a woman, as it feels like a life sentence, stemming from the unfair bullying I experienced as a child.

I am seeking a homeopathic remedy that can help me feel powerful and enough and self assured I can get any any woman i want. I Want my power back. The right to take space in the world.
I hope you can help me, my homeopath doesnt understand my anger/ frustration from having been violated.

Can I ever feel strong to the eye if a woman again?