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I want to fight it
HelloI am 33 years old and fighting depression and anxiety. I always considered myself being a very strong person that can endure anything but I was wrong as in 2002 I stopped sleeping and after a week of insomnia I started getting sensation of burning on my back. Looking back a year before that I started being sensitive to cleanliness. I went to see a doctor who prescribed me Setraline. I did not come off for 4.5 years and only because I knew that it's just not right to take it for such a long time. I came off the drug in march 2007. It was very hard as I went through every emotion possible and strange thoughts popping into my head. The big struggle started - anxiety about cleanliness of things around me and hands being clean all the time preoccupied my mind all the time - I thought I'm going to loose my mind. I wept every day and night in despair because I did not want to feel that way. I could not understand why for 26 years I never even thought about it and now all I could think about was germs. I was exhausted. I thought that I must get better and I will fight. But it only was getting worse. The burning sensation on my back returned but it was much worse and was on my arms and head as well. I went to see a psychiatrist who prescribed me Effexor and Clonazepam. I did not take them as I could not see myself taking the sedatives and live my life in a daze. I bought books on how to fight depression and started to drink Melissa which helped with the burning sensation tremendously. I thought there is hope. After 6 months I started to notice an almost monthly cycle - 1 week of feeling more hopeful and positive, then a week of anxiety and after that sleeping into a dark hole with suicidal thoughts and weeping because I could not take the emotional pain. Than I force myself to get out of that hole telling that its all in my head and I can change it but the cycle continued and now Im here.
I tried St John's Wort before but I cannot say that it helped me or maybe I did not take it long enough (only 10 days). I did some research and order Arnica, Arsen, Aconite, Sepia and Lycopodium. Today I started taking Arnica 30c.
I have difficulty falling asleep sometimes awake until 3-4 and occasionally 6 in the morning. Thoughts racing through my mind. If I do fall asleep the sleep is not deep and I wake up about 4/5 times. I get tired very quickly. I try to jog twice a week for 40 mins.
My hands and feet cold most of the time. I am irritable, get angry quick over little things and sometimes just can't let go. I do not eat that well more often I force myself to eat with a thought if I do not eat it's going to be worse. Some days the smell of food makes me ill/nauseous.
Last year in desperation I took 1 tablet of 100mg of setraline prior to that 10 days of St Johns Wort and I had a very bad reaction vomiting, diarrhea, great anxiety, disorientation.
anna2008 on 2008-06-13
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pl take nux vom 30c twice daily for five days but no dose at night pl report after
♡ akshaymohl last decade
Thank you very much for your quick reply. I am new to homeopathy and therefore wanted to ask you how long should I wait before taking Nax Vomica as I took Arnica 30c 4 times today throughout the day. I did feel that burning sensation on the back and arms diminished greatly almost disappeared. But I noticed that after I took 3rd dose and 5 hours later the sensation came back and my mood got very very low. I took another dose and 10 mins later I was ok. I also did not mention that my hair tends to fall out due to stress and I lost quite a bit since all my problems started.
anna2008 last decade
I would say your symtoms of cleanliness match Arsenicum, may be after the days on Nux V. you could start with it.
Albert
Albert
♡ Albert last decade
Hello Albert
Thanks for your reply I really appreciate it. I ordered Nat Vom. At the moment I am still taking Arnica just to see its effect on me. Last night I took 2 30C tablets and for the first time in 10 years I slept deep. Although I was still sleepy 1 hour after I got up (could be a lack of sleep after such a long time). I did however feel that I am still bothered by thoughts of cleanliness. I never mentioned how it all started - at least I think that's how it started. I came to England when I was 21 to study and work. I felt homesick and alone. One day drug addicts moved in to the house that I shared and I saw syringes and all sorts of stuff in the bathroom and kitchen. They were very unhyginic, meaning never washed. Very strange individuals coming into the house - all sorts of things were going on. I was freightened. I could not move at that time and ended up staying 8 months there until I finished school and found a better paid job. I think that experience and me unable to move stuck with me. I was stressed at my job as I was so scared to loose it and was unlucky with the boss he would fly off his head for every little thing he did not like. I stayed there for 3 years and that was a big mistake as nothing worth sacrificing your health. At that time my hair started falling out but I did not panic and had other things to worry about. But it was getting worse and worse and in 2001 I've noticed big difference. At that time this 'tipped' me into anxiety and I started getting burning sensation on my back and insomnia. Although my hair stabilised when I started taking setraline it did not grow back like it used to be. Since I came off setraline last year it was a very tough year and hair was shedding a lot. It does bother me great deal. I am concentrating on getting my psychological health thinking that hair will stabilise but it's in vain now.
After doing some reaserch I found that it's important to match personality type in order to find the homeopathic medicine.
Here are some details of me:
perfectionist
organized
do not like change
sensitive to smell
do not like sleeping alone in the house and if I am have to have the light on
fear of failure
no fear of death
preference to sweet food rather than savoury
like fruit and vegetables a lot (preference fruit)
I used to love coffee but had to quit it completely as it made my symptoms worse
I find that my character changed a lot I became a worrier, pessimist, anxious but try to snap out of this cycle and sometimes it works but most of the time I am back to worrying. The symptoms are worst in the evening, at night. Thoughts race through my mind and it's difficult to stop. I think a lot about the future and cannot enjoy present there is often a feeling that there is something missing I am not sure what. I live in England now, my divorced parents live in Poland. My father is a perfectionist and likes things 'just so' he's very tidy but nothing of obsessive nature.
I really want to get better because some days I just want to end it all but often think of my parents and know how it will hurt them and can't do it to them.
Thanks for your reply I really appreciate it. I ordered Nat Vom. At the moment I am still taking Arnica just to see its effect on me. Last night I took 2 30C tablets and for the first time in 10 years I slept deep. Although I was still sleepy 1 hour after I got up (could be a lack of sleep after such a long time). I did however feel that I am still bothered by thoughts of cleanliness. I never mentioned how it all started - at least I think that's how it started. I came to England when I was 21 to study and work. I felt homesick and alone. One day drug addicts moved in to the house that I shared and I saw syringes and all sorts of stuff in the bathroom and kitchen. They were very unhyginic, meaning never washed. Very strange individuals coming into the house - all sorts of things were going on. I was freightened. I could not move at that time and ended up staying 8 months there until I finished school and found a better paid job. I think that experience and me unable to move stuck with me. I was stressed at my job as I was so scared to loose it and was unlucky with the boss he would fly off his head for every little thing he did not like. I stayed there for 3 years and that was a big mistake as nothing worth sacrificing your health. At that time my hair started falling out but I did not panic and had other things to worry about. But it was getting worse and worse and in 2001 I've noticed big difference. At that time this 'tipped' me into anxiety and I started getting burning sensation on my back and insomnia. Although my hair stabilised when I started taking setraline it did not grow back like it used to be. Since I came off setraline last year it was a very tough year and hair was shedding a lot. It does bother me great deal. I am concentrating on getting my psychological health thinking that hair will stabilise but it's in vain now.
After doing some reaserch I found that it's important to match personality type in order to find the homeopathic medicine.
Here are some details of me:
perfectionist
organized
do not like change
sensitive to smell
do not like sleeping alone in the house and if I am have to have the light on
fear of failure
no fear of death
preference to sweet food rather than savoury
like fruit and vegetables a lot (preference fruit)
I used to love coffee but had to quit it completely as it made my symptoms worse
I find that my character changed a lot I became a worrier, pessimist, anxious but try to snap out of this cycle and sometimes it works but most of the time I am back to worrying. The symptoms are worst in the evening, at night. Thoughts race through my mind and it's difficult to stop. I think a lot about the future and cannot enjoy present there is often a feeling that there is something missing I am not sure what. I live in England now, my divorced parents live in Poland. My father is a perfectionist and likes things 'just so' he's very tidy but nothing of obsessive nature.
I really want to get better because some days I just want to end it all but often think of my parents and know how it will hurt them and can't do it to them.
anna2008 last decade
anna2008 last decade
Perfectionist, dont like change, cleanliness: Arsenicum Album 200c/10 drops 30-45 min away from food/drink, everyday until you feel worst or better, either way you stop and wait.-In time and if is the correct remedy you may use 1000c (1M) once a week.
good luck
Albert
good luck
Albert
♡ Albert last decade
Hi Albert
Thank you very much for your quick response. I've got Arsenicum Album in 30c tablets. Is it 7 tablets in one go once a day dissolved under the tongue?
Also I've ordered Nux Vom shall I just leave it?
Just wanted to let you know that I have noticed that my mood and anxiety stabilizes with Arnica although I feel very cold almost shiver and when go to bed my cheeks feel warm/hot althought the rest of the body cold. Just in case if it's any help to identify the right remedy.
Many thanks again I really appreciate your response.
Thank you very much for your quick response. I've got Arsenicum Album in 30c tablets. Is it 7 tablets in one go once a day dissolved under the tongue?
Also I've ordered Nux Vom shall I just leave it?
Just wanted to let you know that I have noticed that my mood and anxiety stabilizes with Arnica although I feel very cold almost shiver and when go to bed my cheeks feel warm/hot althought the rest of the body cold. Just in case if it's any help to identify the right remedy.
Many thanks again I really appreciate your response.
anna2008 last decade
Anna,
usually Arnica is not seen as a constitutional remedy, but it could be posible that in some way affects your mood.
Have in mind that in general 6-30ch are potencies intended to affect the body, 200c is psychosomathic and 1000c and above are for mentals and emotional issues, no matter this, 30c can have an impact in your condition.-If you have tablets, you can get hold a 500cc bottle of water, dispose half of it, disolve some tables in it, and using disposable cups take a litlle shaking it ev, time-If it is 30c -3-2 times a day/200c once a day/1000c once a week.
take care,
Albert
usually Arnica is not seen as a constitutional remedy, but it could be posible that in some way affects your mood.
Have in mind that in general 6-30ch are potencies intended to affect the body, 200c is psychosomathic and 1000c and above are for mentals and emotional issues, no matter this, 30c can have an impact in your condition.-If you have tablets, you can get hold a 500cc bottle of water, dispose half of it, disolve some tables in it, and using disposable cups take a litlle shaking it ev, time-If it is 30c -3-2 times a day/200c once a day/1000c once a week.
take care,
Albert
♡ Albert last decade
and yes, is under the tongue.And the idea of Nux Vomica to clean the picture and 'star fresh' is up to you and is not a bad one.
♡ Albert last decade
Hi Albert
Thanks again for your quick reply - it means a lot to me.
I've had another good night sleep with Arnica. I took 2x 30c before going to bed. I have also noticed that although I am still sensitive to cleanliness I found that it is not constantly on my mind and I'm slightly easy about it but slightly.
It is such a big change for me after I started Arnica I am almost reluctant to stop as I started feeling better. I still feel when it starts wearing off I start feeling very low/crying and once I take it I'm much better in 15 mins.
I wanted to ask is it possible to continue taking Arnica 200c a day and also start what you suggested? (Probably not as I will not see the effect of other medicine). And if I am benefiting from Arnica is it possible to take 1000c to see the effect on emotional/mental issues. Also I wanted to add that my skin burning almost gone just feel some warm areas on the lower arms once in a while.
Thank you very much.
Anna
Thanks again for your quick reply - it means a lot to me.
I've had another good night sleep with Arnica. I took 2x 30c before going to bed. I have also noticed that although I am still sensitive to cleanliness I found that it is not constantly on my mind and I'm slightly easy about it but slightly.
It is such a big change for me after I started Arnica I am almost reluctant to stop as I started feeling better. I still feel when it starts wearing off I start feeling very low/crying and once I take it I'm much better in 15 mins.
I wanted to ask is it possible to continue taking Arnica 200c a day and also start what you suggested? (Probably not as I will not see the effect of other medicine). And if I am benefiting from Arnica is it possible to take 1000c to see the effect on emotional/mental issues. Also I wanted to add that my skin burning almost gone just feel some warm areas on the lower arms once in a while.
Thank you very much.
Anna
anna2008 last decade
Hi Anna,
Its not advisable to use 2 remedies at a time.-May be your need for a deep sleep was so important that could be interesting to keep the arnica at nights.Besides arnica is not usually indicated as constitutional, but you could try some 200c doses and see what happens.-
Albert
Its not advisable to use 2 remedies at a time.-May be your need for a deep sleep was so important that could be interesting to keep the arnica at nights.Besides arnica is not usually indicated as constitutional, but you could try some 200c doses and see what happens.-
Albert
♡ Albert last decade
I had a big setback I received bad news and had a very stressful day yesterday. My condition worsened did not sleep last night at all, can't eat and drink, feel nauseous. Arnica does not seem to work. I cried all evening and most of the night just could not stop. I feel suicidal again I just can't take the emotional pain anymore.
anna2008 last decade
I could just suggest what i did before but higher potency, Arsenicum Album 1000c (1M).
♡ Albert last decade
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