Linda _{Page 2 of 5}

The remedy is 4gp Syphilinum 1M pillules.

I may have to purchase a small bottle with a dropper.

I wonder if I could have gotten the remedy in liquid. I should have inquired.
Thanks,
Linda

Will I need anything else to add to the remedy to make it a liquid?
Thanks,
Linda

I just remembered today, that on Monday, I have a dental appointment scheduled for X-Rays and a cleaning.

Should I hold off on starting the remedy until after the dental cleaning and X-rays?

How long should I wait after the dental cleaning and X-Rays to begin the remedy?

Thanks,
Linda

I procured a 1 oz brown glass bottle and a dropper from the health food store and a small bottle of cognac.

How do I go about making up the remedy?
Thank you.
Linda

Two questions:

1) How long will it take for 2 pillules to dissolve?

I don't understand milli-liters.

2) How much is 250 ml in ouces?

Is it 8 ounces?

Thanks.
Linda

Hi,
It has been a week since I tried the remedy.

Miraculously, my eczema has disappeared.

I have notices a slight improvement to the OCD symptoms, I was able to hold off washing my hands perhaps 1 percent of the time that I would have washed them.
I did notice an increase in anger, but I was able to speak calmly and rationally to a family member who was directing their anger at me. He was furious at me because I could not eat the food served at a restaurant that he wanted to eat at. He refuses to believe that my food allergies prevent me from eating certain things or I will get diarrhea.

I think I may be sleeping a little better at night.

I still have a hard time getting up in the morning, as I wake up to insurmountable problems that continue to go on and on without being able to be resolved. They are wearing me down.

I don't feel well due to arthritis in my knees that causes swelling in my right knee and have caused a cyst behind my left knee. I wake up to that depressing reality every day.

I have been unemployed since last September. I have had a few interviews. Last Friday I had an interview, but I have such a problem with having an angry look on my face when I speak to people, that I can't get through an interview without looking angry, no matter how hard I try.

This is such a problem, that I isolate in my home, unless I am required to go out and buy food or other products that I need. I also go to mass because of fear of mortal sin. I have had priests drive me out of their churches, because I assume the look on my face. This has happened at four churches. My grandson and daughter have even noticed how the priest has acted towards me, and commented to me on it, so it is not in my imagination.

Right now, at the church I am attending, I sit towards the back and hide myself behind the person in front of me, so that priest doesn't see if I am scowling. So far, so good.

This is my biggest problem with people disliking and hating me. That I cannot prevent myself from looking angry when I am speaking. At this rate, I will never get a job.

I had taken an antibiotic a couple of weeks ago, and thought I still needed it, because I have pressure on the right side of my head and in my right eye. I think I may look angry all the time because I have pressure and pain in my head all the time.

If the hair from my bangs gets long and comes down on the right side of my face and near my right eye, it bothers me so, that it makes my anger worse. It makes me feel like I have a headache.

If I pin it back it helps, or if I keep it shorter it helps, I don't understand why this is the case.

How should I proceed with the remedy?
Thanks.
Linda

Should I try the remedy on Sunday or Monday?

Do it take the same amount as the first time.

Thank you.
Linda

I forgot to also mention that the unbearable rectal itching seems to have subsided. It was usually intolerable.

I am feeling extremely depressed today.
My OCD today is controlling me, as in the past.

I feel like I need to change the top I am wearing, because it is dirty because of clothes I just put in the washer.

My mind is also extremely confused. I can't begin to plan out or execute things needing to be done that day.

I feel the future is hopeless. When I think of all the different projects I need to get done, the overwhelm I feel paralyzes me, I cannot begin to think of what steps to take, and so I am not even able to try.

I didn't want to get up yesterday morning or this morning. I just kept going back to bed, even though I knew I would feel worse when I got up late in the morning, because I would have wasted half the day.

I would like to just stay in bed and sleep. It is the only time I feel I can escape my problems and suffering.

I want to isolate all the time. I am afraid of stepping outside into an unpredictable and threatening world.

I am severely afraid of people. I believe that I am unlikeable.

I will tell you that two therapists told me these exact words, 'You're not lovable.' The worst part of them saying that is that I was always trying my hardest to be as nice and likeable as I could be in my therapy sessions.

I can't stop thinking about them saying that, it kills me, and whenever I think about it, I believe that there is no hope for me.

I want to be nice, but it is like I hear another voice in my head saying cruel things about other people. I feel like I am fighting myself, or could I be posessed?

Does eveybody hear these other thoughts in their head that are contrary to the way they want to behave?

Linda

I took the remedy last Sunday.
I struggled this past week with my OCD and doing what needed to be done all week.

Then on Thursday, my grandson visited me, and because he always tells me the terrible way his stepfather and his Mother treats him, I always become depressed.

There was also an incident with my grandson's father that drained any joy we had together Thursday and caused me great anxiety and depression.

In addition, a telephone call with an elderly Aunt always puts me into deep depression. I know she may not live too long, and so when I am feeling good I return her phone calls. However, she can be exceedingly cruel, and I don't think she even realizes it. I was in great depression after talking to her Friday night, and I kick myself for always feeling sorry for her and calling her, and taking the chance she will make me feel terrible when I talk to her.


I have an appointment on Monday, tomorrow, that I am dreading, and that may also be causing me a great deal of depression.

I am wondering if the product I use to clean my teeth may have interfered with the remedy. It has peppermint oil, menthol, anethole, and myrrh -Commiphora Myrrha resin extract, along with several other ingredients. Can the peppermint oil, and menthol and other ingredients cause the remedy to stop working?

I have been very confused this week, and today I am really in a mental fog after an incident at the grocery store and cemetary today. I have been pushing myself to do things, especially since my grandson was over Thursday night.

I went to the grocery store and there was a young man with his underpants showing, because he wasn't wearing a belt. The same thing happened today when I visited the cemetary to water plants for my loved ones. I had to change my clothes when I got home, because I felt contaminated from these men shamelessly letting their underpants show.

Unfortunately, it seems to be a vulgar fashion for some time now, for young people and every age person, to let their pants hang so low, that sometimes their 'crack' even shows. If they would wear a belt, I don't think this would happen. Seeing this makes my OCD escalate, and ruins everything that has happened in my day before that time.

I was born in 1950, and we had manners and were taught to dress and behave politely. I don't know how I am going to manage living in this new era where this problem of 'no modesty' just seems to be getting worse and worse. It is not just men, it is also women who do this.

It causes me to not want to go out of the house, because of the unpredictability of running into somebody with their underpants showing.

Also, I read the remedy should be kept where it is cool. I had been keeping it in my bedroom closet, because up until about a week ago, it has been a cold closet. Then I last Sunday when I went to get the remedy from the closet, I noticed that the closet was quite warm.

I put the remedy in a dresser drawer in my bedroom. Do you think the remedy could have ruined?

I tried to be very accurate when I made the remedy, and I hope I did it correctly.

Thank you for responding to what I have written.
Sincerely,
Linda

I do believe that the remedy did have a great effect the first time. It got rid of the eczema miraculously that I have been plagued with since the fall of 2008 after a naturopath gave me a remedy.

I also got rid of the purvitis and constant burning itching of the rectum that I have also had since 2008, after taking a remedy from that naturopath.

I also have not been staying up for hours at night scratching because of the itching all over my body.

Those were substantial sufferings I have had for almost three years that seem to be gone.

Nothing else has had that effect before.

I also think that the OCD has been slightly helped, but I have lived with this severe OCD since I was around 29 years old, and I am 60 years old now. It is bound to not go away in an instant after 30 years of control over my life.

That is why I think perhaps this may be the correct remedy, although I cannot be certain.

After reading about misms, I do think that much of the description for the remedy does fit me.

In 2008 became involved in legal proceedings against a son-in-law in order to protect one of my grandson's that was being abused by this son-in-law, my grandson's stepfather. My other daughter and my grandson's father were also attempting to convince the Court that my grandson was being physically abused as well as psychologically abused.

When the trial ended in around June of 2009, and the Judge sided against us and with my son-in-law and my grandson's mother, my other daughter, it did something to me. It is as though something in my head snapped. I have never been the same since. I have such severe guilt at having failed my grandson, and I lost about $20,000.00 or more in legal fees I paid to an Attorney to represent me. Since then, I have practically no ability to truly be happy, and truly be able to laugh or enjoy life at all. I am always angry, no matter how hard I try not to be. Even when spending time with my grandchildren, whom I love more than anything in this world, I feel almost dead inside, and completely void of any feelings of happiness. Of late, I have laughed perhaps on three separate incidents. This shocked me, as nothing since the middle of 2009 has caused me to be able to feel any joy or to be able to feel any happiness inside of me.

I am only filled with dread, regret, fears of people, and anxieties about how I will survive from age 60 until I die in who knows, 10, 20 or more years.

This is the mind-set that I wake up to every day, making it misery to wake up in the morning.

I had not thought about this tragedy when you asked me to tell you about any traumatic event that had happened in my life.

The events I listed were traumatic enough, but everything I had been put through during that case, and how my OCD was dragged out and manifested for all the world to see, after all the years of working as hard as I could to try to convince people I am capable and competent, humiliated me more than I can ever covey. I also realized than that I can never live this OCD down with any of my relatives.

Whenever my little grandsons visit me, they tell me how my daughter and her husband tell them that I am crazy, and not to listen to anything I say.

This causes me such anguish, that I can't even convey the damage it does to me knowing that one day these little grandsons may think of me as crazy, no matter how hard I try to conquer my OCD. Having them feel that way fills my heart with terror and great anguish.

These are the thoughts I must live with every day. At least, unless by some miracle my OCD were to be cured.
Linda

So, would it be 4gp Syphilinum 10M dosage?

If they can mix it with alcohol, should I order it that way?
Thanks,
Linda

Thank you so much.

I have faith in you.