To Rajiv Prasad

Dear Rajiv,

I hope you don't mind my asking for you directly but I have spent some time on this forum and can see that there are many people you have helped.
I would be very very grateful if you could please take the time to read through my (apologies, rather long) post to see if you can offer any suggestions for me.

Firstly-My son was prescribed Tub recently and, it seems to me, that he has been under the weather since taking it. i.e. a cold and chesty cough since taking the remedy, tiredness etc.
Could this be an effect of the remedy and is there anything I can do to bring him back to full health.

Secondly-I had my son in May 2003, our only child so far, and we had a difficult labour (I didn't dilate and we were in labour for 52hrs, eventually had an emergency caesarean-my son was 10lb 8oz).
There were difficulties following the birth-my son wouldn't sleep for any longer than 20mins for the first 8months. He was born with a deep "dent" in his skull and still has osteopathic treatment to relieve the pressure, which is also partly why he couldn't sleep-but to cut a very long story short I think I developed some kind of postnatal depression.
I'm very surprised that whilst I'm typing the above I am still angry at the hospital and upset-to the point of holding back tears-at what I feel my son went through.

Following the birth I went through a period, for a bout a year, where I really couldn't cope, I wanted to scream at my child to sleep, I just wanted to get away and get some space. I resented my husband hugely as he really didn't help out much, if at all.

Things are a lot better now and I've used homeopaths, osteopaths and reflexology-all of which have been a help.

There are times however, usually before or after a period, when similar symptoms/feelings return and I am keen to try and make these as few as possible as it’s so terrible.
What happens is that I wake up one morning and I just feel like I don't want to be there. I want to be able to get up and get dressed and go out without having to deal with anybody other than me.
At these times I have little or no patience and it takes a herculean effort to not just scream my head off at people to go away and leave me alone. The strongest emotion I can describe from these times is the feeling of needing some space.
I also get extremely heavy and long periods and these times usually coincide (at most times, since reflexology and homeopathy, the periods have eased enormously).

I am currently at home with my son and we have a great time but at these times I have find it a real struggle to get involved in any play time with him-though I am much improved from going out in the air (not shopping, somewhere like the park or so, and also better if the weather is rainy or cold).

When I am feeling this way I am very cold towards my husband and the smallest things can make me very, disproportionately, angry at him-but I hold all these emotions inside.
I also have very little self confidence any more-I had much more before I fell pregnant, and at times I do not want to go out because I feel so frumpy (I am 2st heavier since having my child but I do intent to lose that-I seem to go through phases where I crave sweet things i.e. chocolate).
I also seem to dwell on things that happened many years ago-old family arguments and then get annoyed about these things again!

Then, and this is the incredible part, suddenly these feelings go!
I wake up and suddenly I don't feel as bad. The confidence issue never really goes away though, and my energy levels are pretty low generally but I would be really grateful for any advice on any remedies which you think may help.
I have taken Sepia and Pulsatilla, both recommended by Homeopaths.
The Sepia helped with my period and PMT for a time, the Pulsatilla I don't recall having much effect but I did try it again recently and I remember feeling better.

I'd really be grateful for any replies and will honestly answer any queries.
Please help is you can-I am so keen to rid myself of these depressing moods.