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Antivirus,

I think we've misunderstood each other. I didn't mean that my case had ended.

What I was doing was apologizing for not responding so far and thanking YOU for taking the time on my case.

I hope you will continue with it. I'm sorry it is so complicated. I only want to get well. I know homeopathy is a process.

I await your advisement on what is next.

Sincerely,
Mel

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Dear Antivirus:

Please tell me what I might try next.

Sincerely,

Mel

Antivirus,
Please let me know what you are prescribing next.
Mel

Thank you!

Dear Antivirus:

I mean you no disrespect but are you sure of this?

Perhaps I'm not understanding this remedy.

It seems that it would help with the constipation and possibly MS pain, and feelings of exhaustion, also cloudy mind.

But, I am not experiencing violent thoughts towards myself or others in any form.
No rage. Sadness and exhaustion but no rage.

I don't crave strange substances. The only cravings I have are for salt and chocolate. And water...I remain very thirsty with very dry skin.

I know you are busy. I will wait a day or two before getting this remedy. I understand that you donate your time here willingly. I mean you no trouble. If you have a minute to spare, I'd like to understand this.

Thank you.

I am sick so haven't taken remedy yet.

Please give me more time.

Dear Antivirus:

I have not taken the Alumina. I ask that you look at my case again with additional information.

I am having severe hot flashes and night sweats. Also, period is gone.

Depression still the same. Black as night.

Mouth is dry no matter how much I drink.

Not craving anything really but forcing myself to eat as healthy as possible.

Anxiety is high.

I am wondering if this could be hormonally related? And if that would change the remedy selection at all?

Dear Antivirus:

You know the remedies, I don't. Is there one for someone who is so weary and despairs of life. I don't want to feel this way but I feel stuck in the darkness like a pig in the mud and I can't get out. My mind never stops it recalls every wrong thing that I have ever done no matter how small, all of the losses from my sister on. Day after day I just exist. Which is another loss. I do almost nothing. So much brain fog. I lose track of the date and the time. It all runs together and although I DESIRE to feel joy, I feel dead.
And I feel so afraid that this is where I will forever be. Stuck in my own mind. Exhausted. Drowning in a never ending raging storm.
I have no anger, except at this depression. I have no confidence. My self-esteem has taken such a beating. Not that I had much. I never feel relaxed. Not even for one moment. I'm so afraid that this will kill me. Devastated at what it does to my husband who I adore and who is so very kind and good to me.
I'm trying to tell you something that will help choose a remedy I have no desire to do anything which is so unlike me. I feel afraid of everything. I don't go out of the house. I only continue to TRY because I love my family so much. My husband and I had many dreams. I feel like depression has taken me hostage and will not allow me to be free. Not for a moment.
I have already tried many allopathic drugs to no avail. I do not want to have ECT. I'm so afraid. I have had counseling for almost two years. While it is true, that this started from too many stressors and losses I've been told that it won't go away. Can't be healed. Just managed.
And also, that going through "the change" is very hard on some women.
Is there a remedy for someone who has constant hopeless thoughts (even though they don't want to), who has lost all joy. I was once very joyful and it took so very little to bring joy. I have never wanted possessions, have always cared about people, and have only wanted to love well and be loved.
How many remedies are there to choose from when someone feels hopeless of recovery, like their brain will be broken forever, and so sad about it? Does that narrow down the selection?
I am ashamed to feel this way as I am blessed. My mother is aging quickly and I can't hardly function enough to have a conversation with her. I can't get out of my head. I want to but I can't. I spend every day looking to find a way out of this horrible darkness.
I know you work hard on my case. I just wanted to ask these questions. I also know that a forum is a terrible place for chronic issues such as these. I haven't found anyone to work with in person. I had started with someone (long distance) but they fell ill before we could get any place.
Sir, is there a remedy that will bring comfort to someone who has felt tremendous pain for several years? I am not bitter about it. I just hurt. And I am so very weary. Also, afraid. Imprisoned in my mind which is the last place I want to be. I can't get out. I have tried. I try every single day.
I have not had severe emotional issues all through my life. I have been able to take the bumps and bruises. They sometimes made me afraid but I pushed through. Now, I'm always afraid. In want of self-confidence. In want of an attention span. In want of the ability to feel joy. In want of the desire to be with people and engage in meaningful conversation. I don't do that right now. I try to do it, especially with my husband, but it is very hard. The world is passing me by while I remain stuck in a suffocating darkness.
I was never like this before. I did have post-partum depression many years ago. But, I have not been a depressive person.
I need a remedy that will give me security, courage, get my mind to shut up, help me get unstuck, help my self-esteem, help me feel worthy of the love that I receive. My husband loves me well. I love him, too. Also, my son. But right now I feel like there is a huge block in front of me. Such despair that I can only go by faith...I feel dead. An empty shell.
You are a professional. You know all the remedies. There are many. I want to be reborn, sir. I don't want to feel like a frightened child. I want to feel like an adult. I thought I did, but now I just feel like a scared little girl who would give anything to feel comfortable in my skin and feel hope, peace, joy and love.
And most of all, to be unstuck. Out of this dark muddy, dingy place that I am in. My fear of being stuck here forever is torture.
Are there remedies for people who want to feel hope but just don't?
I am still eating healthy and try to get light activity in but everything is a struggle. Everything.
I'd be grateful for a partial improvement. I'm so tired but I can't stop trying. I really don't want to hurt myself or my family. I want the hopeless thoughts to go away.
I just want to feel alive again.
What would you ask me if I came to be treated by you at a clinic? Sir, I will answer any questions that you have.
I have lost myself and I can't find me anywhere.
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