dr. mahfooz rahman pls help

Respected dr. Mahfooz rahman.
Sir im arsh. 36 yr old. 5.4 hight. 50 kg weight unmarried slim guy.i have many symptoms mantly n phisicly.i did many masterbat n watched porn n reading sex stories frm childhood.from age around 12.im having problems from last 15 years.i have great sexual desire without erection.i want alot of love. When i try to sex then i feels great excitement from mind bt i don't get erection.n if i try to enter vagina then i got ejected out side of vagina. Bt if i read sex stories or if i think about sex with my gf or talk to her on the phone then i got erection always bt in real nothing happens.i did try many homyo medicins bt no relief.if any remedy does effect bt after 2 or 3 days all gone.n same position comes back.on my first post dr. Murthy suggest me. He suggest me gels 30 one dose in every two days around two weeks. After that.he suggest me caladium 30 twice a day with avena sat q. I taken them 20 days bt i didn't feel any relief so he leaved my case. I take calc carb.lyco n sulph all 30 around 10 days. N leaved. Bt after 10 days arond 12th January i got chance to meet to my gf n got good erection at time to forplay. Bt when i ready to intercourse then penis became soft and when I tried to enter then I ejeculated out side. Its incident many times after that. Got erection bt penis became soft and ejeculat out side when i tried to entry by force.im very emotional guy. I got cheated from my gf.bt i still love her. N i thinks she ill come back she is married now though. I always feels alone n talks to myself about her. Feeling hert always.ill tell u everything if u want to know more. Pls help me. Pls pls pls