For Dr. Rishimba

Hello,
I'm new here in this forum. I have read with interest many post of yours and I'd be grateful if you could give some advice. I'm asking you because I liked your posts. I do not suffer from serious problems but there's something that's goin' on throughout all my life and It becomes better or worse but don't stop.
I'm a 26 student in Philosphy, I've stayed away from my studies for a year and now I'm
beginning again, I have only one exam left. I have lost most interest in what i do and i'm goin' to finish only for the degree, the piece of paper and of course for the wasted time which is a lot of time. So, when i write (i have had always a great difficulty to write down in school, and also on my own, because i'm very critic about it, and it's a very painful experience; every time i have to write something is a tragedy, and now i have to complete a paper and next i have to do my thesis degree...) or i'm beginning to study something near always i get carried away and i have the sense of not comprehending what i read, although i can remember
a lot of things i get the difficulty in thinking about it: is as if i'm always thinking about something else when i try to concentrate on a topic. Years ago, when i was 14 i got what i call obsessions, i couldn't stop to think about something that worried me for example; now is over (years i got a treatment from a psychologist, it helped only in some ways) but i can't concentrate as I would like on things. This is my major issue that is very difficult to handle with, because every thing i do gets delayed. Other things that accompany this are sometimes apathy, a sense of distance from people ( painful), a sense of wasting time and not knowing what to do etc. I'm a kind of loner, I appreciate much solitude, but when i want to get mixed with people near always I feel very bad, in a sort of physical way ( i feel as a heaviness in the stomach). My relationship with women have always been very troubled, i tend to construct long relationship and in general i feel not at ease when talking with women (and it's sorrowful for me). Now it's as my sexuality is asleep, and I feel that is wrong.
Phisically I have always suffered of backache (now only a little sometimes) and some postural problems ( winged scapula). Now I don't practice sports; i have a very sedentarian life. I have a lightly greasy skin, chronic comedons on nose and often acne ( a little) also behind ears. I have also dandruff periodically and thin hair.
I smoke not regularly, but periodically i tend to cough
after every cigarette, with white mucus, sometimes with brown particles.
Often i wake up in the morning kind of distressed, with annoyances in the stomach, in the chest or in the back; also with a feeling of depression, many times i've stayed in bed in the morning with a gloomy feeling and not sleeping but not wanting to get up. Nowadays i'm more active, bach flowers have helped me a lot. Last thing to tell is that lately i get some kind of annoyance in moving my eyes; my sight is good, but even with eyes closed i get the sensation that they continue moving.
So i think i've said enough, i'm very happy if Dr. you could help me; i'm hearing from you.
Many thanks.