cardiac issues

Patient id: Blacksher
Sex:F
Age: 63

took sepia 1m, for the last couple of years on and off. ones every 25 days. it was given to me by my homeopathy practitioner before she passed away. saw her maybe two or three visits before she passed away. Has stopped the homeopathy remedy Sepia 1m since.
About myself:
I was adopted at two years,don't know my real parents. Feel anger towars my real mother for that. In teen years heard my adopted father was drunk and said to me that he was sorry that he adopted me.
happy childhood, troubled adolescence. I have grown three kids, and 5 grandchildren.
Married 1971 to my husband, I was 25 years old when I married. marriage was good and happy. About 2000 or 2002 we went through something that it it felt like we were started on the emotional level. I felt abandoned by my husband because of it. heart broken, absolutely, debastated by it.
Since then, my husband has saught reconciliation, but I have not been able to do that. Can't get pass the hurt, this experience, keeps running in my head.
Having the Grandchildren has been the saving factor for me. Spend time with them, they are my geatest source of joy.

Hobbie: i like to crochet and gardening but I'm not all that good at it.

1.Main suffering- High BP, high cholesterol,heart burn,tinnities (both ears), toe fungus (left big toe, and second biggest),Rt big toe dropped a safe on at least 6 years ago. slow healing, it looks deformed. moody feels anger. sometimes weepy.

2. physcial suffering- had triple bypass on 3/24/10. (took Arnica 200c and after operation.

3.Mental suffering- Anger,sorrow,lost,unloved and insecure. sake my right foot, nervous gesture.

In my place of worship, there was a song we sang. In the chorus, it said ..fear them not oh, my beloved.. and I went to pieces and cried. memories of the old times, early marriage bringing me to tears.

4. at my worst- suicidal, to end it all.

5.it started-as teenager, I was insecure,lost and unhappy. I noticed from 25 years to my 50 years, these feelings diminished due to happy marriage.
feelings returned with greater than ever, with intensity when marriage fell aprt.

6.night, because at night I'm not as busy. during the day, i'm busy with work, or baby sitting my grandkids..etc.

7. Aggravate feelings:- disagreements with husband,children.
improve with affection from grandchildren and children.

8. External-from adoption, and disintegration of marriage.

9. Weather- like cool, dry weather.

10. mental set-up:
I think I appear frideful(covering sinsecurity) cheerful, energetic. I'v heard people compare me to another person that I know. ' oh, you remind me oh so and so.' and my feelings get hurt so much, as she is very difficult ,and opinionated person. (these things are said to me by persons who do not know me well)

-thundrstorms: excited

-consoled: no, do not like it.

sensitive to external stimuli: no

habbit: nail bitter,talk to one self,lip bitting,nervous twitching of right foot.

Feelings re: family, friends etc: love children, and grandchildren. friends. I tend to keep friends 'at a distance'
Husband- He is a nice person but there is no longer an emotional attachment.

11. fears, and dreams: fear death.
I don't often remember my dreams but when i do, I dream about missing the school bus, being lost at high school, fleeing from something, just gerenally stressful situations.

12. food Craving; beef, and sweets. aversions-sweet potatos, I hate them, they choke me.

13. thirst: less then normal, temp of water I like to drink is room temp to cool temp. shower temp: hot in winter, cool is summer.

14. hunger: Normal
I eat when i'm eationally upset, it brings comfort.

15. food my body can't stand: sweet potatoes.

16. sweat: normal, when i sweat, I sweat all over. Still get hot flashes.

17. Bowel movement: Normal, have them everyday, firm shaps. get loose stool when I eat a lot of fruit.

18. sleep: I sleep well but wake up 1-2 times during the night, sleep in the recliner in the living room.

19.Sexual desire:
have no desire now.

20. Had in the pit of my stomach the feeling of 'who am I' it went away or felt less when I was taking Sepia 1m, but it is coming back now.

21. medications: currently on

Pravastatin 80 mg, 1 dayily.
Amiodarone 200mg dayily.
hydrocodone 500mg (prn or as needed)

lost of taste of anything since these meds.

22. parents:unknown
husband: asnmatic,heart murmur
children: two of them have heart murmur from Dad.
Grandchildrens: unknown, too little still.

23: descrbe one self: short and overweight. height 5'2' weight: 175, wear eye glasses, far sighted. right handed.

24: post menapausal, no period.