Unusual arthritis, with angerMy current symptoms are (in order of importance to me)
1. An easy rage. I get mad easily, generally when something unexpected happens. I can handle anything but my first response to the unexpected is anger. I yell loudly and I think my face is scary to others. I am not physically violent, I just yell. I wonder if I am like Kent says, 'cannot bear to be told no' but I don't know. Sometimes yes, sometimes no.
The rage passes quickly, although it can take longer if I feel someone is in danger or if I am personally offended. Then I am apt to relive it in my mind at night in bed, thinking of what happened. In other ways, in general, I feel calm and serene.
3. Insomnia- lying awake until 1:00 or 2:00 am. Sometimes I am too tired to read or anything, I just lie there. Also, I will try to sleep for an hour or so and this rests me enough that I can read during the insomnia.
This started about 15 or 20 years ago. I thought it was because I worked for a time at a job with different shifts, and in fact I could not get used to working at night, so I quit the job. My sleep never seemed to recover.
I take Lunesta to help me sleep, and it generally works, slower than it does in others, and sometimes it has no effect at all. I either lie there replaying experiences in my head or else just in a daze. Usually I sleep well once asleep, but sometimes wake up at 2:30 or so. Other times, I am wide awake until 5 a.m. then I sleep for four or five hours. Sometimes my hands and wrists hurt so bad that I cannot fall asleep. I am fatigued all the time, even though I often do get 9 or 10 hours of sleep.
3. Arthritis (?). Originally the dis-ease was just pure exhaustion, although with severe pain that would put me in the ER (at night) in fear I was dying. I think that pain was mostly chest pain along with muscle pain.
Over a matter of months I was given Methotrexate which made me hysterical, crying all the time (I do not cry easily if at all) and depressed and mean. The MDs did not believe the drug did that, but when I quit it, all those symptoms went away. I was also on prednisone, which helped me actually function enough to go to a doctor visit or whatever. However, it made me sick. More a feeling of dis-ease rather than specific symptoms.
I do not like to be drugged or dependent. (Although I smoke cigarettes.) It took me five months to wean off of the prednisone. Also I took Plaquenil. The drugs created constant, severe nausea and occasional projectile vomiting. After I got off them, and after I quit eating wheat, the nausea has finally gone. It took a couple of years, and I am still vulnerable to nausea.
The symptoms now are: swollen wrist joints, pain and arthritis in hands and feet. All the small joints are affected and painful. Swelling varies, cool helps. By the end of the day, my feet often will hurt so bad I cannot walk. That pain is pervasive. My symptoms are low in the morning, but increase throughout the day. I also have a pervasive muscle pain (fibromyalgia) which is helped by massage. Massage, even deep massage, does not hurt my joints (even though it is painful). The muscle pain does not change much whether day or night. I have not identified any foods or weather effects, although often wet weather will worsen, many times it has no effect.
This illness occurred semi-suddenly a few years ago. I had various symptoms over the years that I successfully ignored until I was basically in my bed unable to move. (Most obvious was burning in my feet. I would say my feet were 'dipped in pain'. Also I have (and some family members have) very red hands on the palms and fingers.) I also have a red face, in the center, like lupus. There was extreme pain involved, generally peaking in the middle of the night, or else I just could not ignore it at night.
At this time we did not have any children, (we took a few years off) and somehow the appearance of one of our kids, who came to live with us after he couldn't live at home any more, is correlated with my recovery. After that we started getting more kids and my recovery continued but has stalled.
I am a 50 year old woman who raises very troubled and abused kids. I am intuitive, intelligent, experienced, and assertive, and I use these traits to identify and then get them what they need. I am not an intellectual; most things that interest intellectuals seem unimportant to me.
The children stay in our family long after they are grown and gone. My husband is a classic Calc Carb and while he does not like the drama that sometimes comes with the territory, he is happy and a good father.
My other homeopathic experience was 20 years ago, I was given Nux 200C and quit drinking within a couple of years. I had some homeopathic treatment ongoing, but nothing I can recall specifically. I had some severe pain then, also. I would happily return to this homeopath but he has moved away.
Thank you very much for your time and attention.
jkblmt on 2010-06-13
♡ kadwa 9 years ago
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