Efects after taking rhus tox

Thank you very much for your response. I try to cope with this a few more days then.

I assume there is nothing else I can do at this point and the next possible step will have to wait until I see if this is wearing off or not.

Is there any way I can ease the pain in the meanwhile?

Sounds good, as this is the case at the moment, no pain when resting and movements make it worse. Touching/pressing also causes pain.

But I will wait if Brisbanehomeopath has some input to this before doing anything.

I took 4 granules D30 twice on the following days.

I have to add that I very much would like to take something which would make me feel better as I am constantly in so much pain, mostly now from knees to toes and from shouders to fingers, worse towards the extremeties.

I have never experienced anything like this before. I have never before experienced swelling, not even during pregnancies, I am a mom of six.

I have no pain when totally still or sleeping. When I lie down I can even imagine I have no pain, but if I move, everything hurts. I can't lift my children up, I walk very slowly because of the pain, everything I use my hands, hurt and I can't use any force.

I am wondering if really such a small dose can do this.

An addition to administering the dose. I let the granules dissolve in my mouth.

The pain has been getting worse towards evening but tonight legs and feet are not so bad, but hands are worse. I can walk a bit better but more joints in my hands are hurting.

I think I forgot to mention that I also have a sore spot in my spine which is hurting now as well.

But however, I think that overall I'm hurting a bit less now.
[message edited by Riana on Sun, 31 Jul 2011 20:21:28 BST]

Day 5 update:

I slept very badly, aching all over. Now my feet are still better, but my hands are again worse, I can hardly move my fingers. I can't straighten my fingers even if I wanted to. My back and neck are stiff. My back hurts on the right side. I am feeling dizzy as well.

A funny thing is that none of my originally problematic body parts are sore. The only finger which is not aching is the operated finger, it is the same as before, now better than the others. Also my hips are fine even though I normally have occasional pain in hips, more on the left hip, actually more in the groin. But not now. My shoulders are sore, but not the usual pain in my right shoulder, but more on the joints and now the left one is more sore.

The uncomfortable thing is that all of this is much worse than my normal stage.

Still nothing I should do?

Could this be something else and then treated separately?

I just can't think what else it could be, it came so suddenly. I assume it could be some atypical virus, but I don't have any other symptoms.
[message edited by Riana on Mon, 01 Aug 2011 09:19:19 BST]

Thank you.

Brisbainehomeopath, would you perhaps be willing to take my case for evaluation?

If so, I can try my best answering your set of questions to start with.

Riana

Thank you very much, I will be waiting.

I am feeling better over all, but sleeping very badly, seeming not to find a good position, changing positions hurt.

Now the pain is mostly in the hips, in the shoulders and the back. I have had similar pain earlier in life during the worst times. Wondering if this is a good sign. Still thinking myself that Rhus Toxicodendron can't be far from right.

I have to tell you that homeopathy is a thing that really interests me greatly. That is why I have been doing a lot of self studying and even considered a route to become a professional homeopath. I would very much myself be interested in my case in good detail, for a learning experience as well.

Ok. My English vocabulary is not quite comprehensive, I might not find the right words, but hope you get the picture.

I first describe the situation before trying Rhus Tox.

JOINT PROBLEMS

I have been diagnosed tendovaginitis (is this the word?) in both wrists as young teenager. It started when I had been playing tennis for a couple of years. The pain has always been on and off. The pain is in either one or both wrists, when moving the wrist or the thumb. It was worst during my teens, there were times I could not write with my right hand, had to learn left hand writing. It has been treated with supports and braces and physio therapy (the right hand and all that in my teens). Not with any medication, only occasional pain killers. It helped temporarily and it has become less disturbing over the years. It bothered more occasionally in early adulthood and needed support or pain killers sometimes, but later on I haven't treated it any more as it doesn't bother very often, but I have to choose what to do not to irritate it. It gets irritated when doing something which requires both force and bending. Not always. It is very irrational.

It might also have something to do with weather or climate. I live in northern Europe, Scandinavia. Some twenty years ago in my very late teens when it was bothering me more often, I spent a year in Australia where, as you know, the climate is very different. My wrists nor any other joint problems didn't bother me at all during that time, and I did a lot of sports as well. After that time I continued active sports for a few years when I still had the time and during that active stage I had less problems. Also cold and windy weather is bad, even in the summer I have to wear something on my hands when riding a bike.

I have always been very flexible especially in my hips and from early on had hip pains as well. I was in my early adulthood diagnosed with snapping hip, feels like my hips easily dislocated or snapped in different positions. The only way that has been treated are occasional pain killers. That continues to bother me, but occasionally. Makes difficult walking, I try to walk very careful and small steps to avoid hip movement when it is on. Also hurts when changing position in bed or even when lying on a side. Then it hurts in the hip which is on the upper side. That is also occasional, but even these days I have been using occasional pain killers for it. The pain in the hips is like shooting pain.

Some time in my early 30's my knees started bothering me as well. It started when I had been downhill skiing for more days in a row. I used then some kind of support around my knees but it didn't help much. I wasn't anymore as active in sports as earlier and one Dr suggested me that the knee pain was due to weak collagen tissue and that would be helped if I kept my muscles in good condition. My knees haven't been bothering me in everyday living, only if I do for example downhill skiing more than one long day at a time.

Some ten years ago I hut my right shoulder somehow and moving it was painful. I didn't do anything to it, just waited it to pass away. But it didn't totally. I have had restricted movement in my right shoulder since that. It has been really annoying not to get the right arm up on the back side any more. The pain is on the outer side of upper arm near the shoulder. It has been bothering me more in the past year or so. It starts hurting as soon as I move my right arm backwards over my sideline. I went to doctor, had some physio therapy, it didn't help. Dr suggested tendovaginitis again, I don't know. This is nowadays a problem which really bothers me, as well as the hip problem.

I have a fear that as I age, these problems would become more frequent or chronic and more limiting.
That is one reason why I some years ago started taking different vitamin supplements to help my condition. It has helped some over all and it has really eased my hip pains. I try to avoid any pain killers as they help only partially and I wouldn't want to overdo.

RIGHT INDEX FINGER

My right index finger had been sore for many years. I long thought it some kind or arthiritic pain as my other fingers were also occasionally stiff in the mornings. It went to a point where my finger was really hurting all the time and had a lump on a side as well. I couldn't use any force with the finger. About a year ago I went to Dr to get it checked. Had a shot of cortisone, didn't help. Had an MRI on it. It was a tumor, but not bad. I had it removed in operation in the end of May, two and half months ago. Before and after the operation I have used a lot of pain killers. The doctors told me to use them even if I didn't have pain. I didn't use them that much though. The operation should have been an easy one as it was, but the finger didn't recover from it. The swelling hasn't gone away, I am able to bend the finger only slightly, I can't get it completely straight, using it hurts. I was told it would soon return normal after the operation. It is worse than before the operation. The wound itself has healed well but there is something hard underneath it. The tumor was not in the joint but between the two joints in the finger.

I can recall a thing that happened about ten years ago. It was very cold winter night, a lot below zero, lots of snow. I was out and had to light a candle so I had to take the glove off my right hand. I remember the cold really hurting my right index finger that time and somehow the hurting hasn't stopped since, only chanced somehow. First it felt like arthiritis in the finger, but as that went away the tumor started to grow on it. The arthiritic pain is gone.

This finger thing is really bothering me, I fear it will stay permanently this way. It is limiting me very much, my whole right hand is much useless because of it. It is hurting less as time goes but not returning to normal. It is also causing pain elsewhere in my right hand as I have to avoid force on that finger all the time. And I can't bend it much so can't use it in many things. Like lifting or twisting.

I have six kids ages between 1 and 11. I have difficulties with picking up and holding them and even changing nappies and such. I do manage, but it is really bothering me.

OTHER PHYSICAL PROBLEMS

I also get problems I think due to over straining or stress. Sometimes I have back pain in my lower back and it feels as breaking if I stress it in any way and I have to be very carefully. It lasts maybe a few days at max.

I easily suffer from stiff neck, shoulders and upper back, sometimes also resulting in headaches . I just can't cope even with a minor headache and sure take painkillers then and they usually help, also relaxing the muscles some. I think these result from not doing regular sports, working in bad positions, for example o the computer, wrong sitting positions and so on, carrying the kids, earlier bad breastfeeding positions and so on. Or just that I can't relax my shoulders when doing something. Massaging help a bit.

In last two years I have also suffered from positional vertigo (is this the right word?) First I didn't know what it was and really freaked out. I have had it four or five times, it starts suddenly and lasts a day at a time. I can't stay up at all and not change position when lying down. It is really frightening as when it hits me I can't do anything and it very well could result as a catastrophe in our household. Luckily it has happened only when my husband has been home as well. I fear that it will happen again and in worse situation. I have found in the web some directions to overcome the condition when it attacks, but it affects me so totally badly that I can't even imagine doing some exercises at that time. A few times it has started so that when I wake up in the morning, I realize I can't get out of bed because of it. One time it started later on the day when I was up, just suddenly.

I also suffer from irregular heart beat. It started a few years ago. I can go long times without it bothering but then again it can bother me almost constantly for long periods of times, like months. I have been told it is not dangerous but anyhow it bothers me. I don't exactly know what triggers it, stress, I guess. I am not overweight and my blood pressure is fine, rather low. Even so that it makes me feel dizzy sometimes.

My eyes, especially my left eye is watering a lot and irritating the skin around it. I have to wipe it all the time and it hurts. Again, this is not constant, stays away for long times, but lately more frequently. As a side note; I wear glasses all the time, I've had them since I was twelve. There was a time I wore only contact lenses, but my eyes became sensitive to them, so now I wear only glasses. Lately the watering of the eyes has become worse and that is a thing I would like to change.

My ears are very cold sensitive, even in the summer I get pain in them when it is windy. It might originate from my teens when it was considered cool not wear anything on ones head even in the winter. Nowadays I cover my ears outside from spring to autumn, and that's it. The bothering thing with it is that my ears hurt even in a weather they should not. Otherwise I have no problems in my ears, my hearing is fine. I have had ear infections in childhood and some later on as well, treated with antibiotics, but not for many many years.

I have had sinusitis many times, more frequently in my teens when I played the clarinet and if I got a flu, it almost always resulted in sinusitis. Treated with antibiotics. Later times I know more ways to prevent it so it doesn't really bother me anymore. I've had one time antibiotics for it in the last maybe ten years.

These days, every time I get a flu, I lose my voice completely. It has been this way now for years, but I remember that after it happened first time, it has been happening almost every time since. I might not other wise get strong symptoms, but my voice is gone and I have a lot of mucus in my upper air ways. Even if I don't have a flu I might occasionally have lot of mucus. Sometimes it results in a clot somewhere between nose and throat. It disturbs a lot and very hard to get rid of and feels like I was choking. I get eventually rid of it, but it is disturbing and uncomfortable as I have to cough it out right away, it can't wait and it can take half an hour sometimes.

Now I don't get flus very often, maybe because of the vitamins, maybe because I stay home so much, I don't know. However, lately the flus have generally been more aggressive, but I assume it is the tendency over all as immunology in humans is more and more manipulated.

I have always had urinary problems, if they are problems. I have to go to the toilet very often and that results me restricting my drinking. If I drink anything I have to go to the toilet many times, even in every half an hour. If we are driving a car somewhere, it is me, not the kids, who needs the toilet first. I also can't hold it very long, if I have to, it becomes very painful and then it is hard to get anything out when I finally get to the toilet. I have always been like this. I have been examined for it, but nothing was found. Now after six pregnancies, I occasionally realize signs of incontinence. Very little. I don't want to suffer from incontinence, that would be embarrasing and would make me feel old. I am only 40.

Coffee affects me physically. I have to go the toilet more often and I also get loose watery stool from it. I have in my early adulthood been diagnosed with irritable bowel syndrome. I don't know if that is correct because my symptoms haven't been getting worse and I can control them quite well. I am not allergic to anything and the mainly things I don't tolerate that well are processed foods and coffee and black tea. Earlier I reacted when eating ice cream, youghurt or very creamy foods. These days I tolerate those usually well. I consume all of those to some extent, less processed food these days, but coffee daily. Then I just live with the watery stool. And my stomach getting upset and the need to rush to the toilet. That is why I don't drink too much coffee when I am not at home. And again, it is not always that bad, but I don't know what triggers it. My metabolism has always been rather fast.

Even if I drink coffee almost every day, 0-4 cups, I don't feel addicted to it. I am fine without it as well. Coffee doesn't keep me awake either. It is just a habit of drinking it and a good way to get occupied.

MENTAL PROBLEMS

It hasn't always been this bad, but has come to this gradually over the years. I feel easily over exhausted, stressed over littlest things. I am short tempered, easily angry and irritated, some way have lost the joy in life. I don't like mornings, I would just stay in bed if it was for me only. It is like I didn't see any light in the next day. I just go a day at a time and wait it to pass. Of course I love what I do, being with my children, seeing them grow and learn. But I feel too tired to do really much with them, I barely manage the day to day routines. All other thing or projects feel too much. I feel extremely unorganized, though in a way I am a perfectionist. I would like things to be perfect and done perfect but see that impossible so I don't do them at all. But I forget things, I don't see chaos around me. I can't take responsibilities as I would forget about them an din general that feels too much. Taking care of things feel really hard. On the other hand I can concentrate really well. So well that I don't see or hear what is happening around me, if I am interested in something, I seek knowledge on it, learn easily. And if I have a change to do something I really like, I do it very well. But if I am not motivated I just don't get anything done. That is why I never finished my university studies. I hate the idea of studying something I'm not really interested in. I generally feel that there is always too little time to anything, everything would need to be done in a hurry. So I rather leave things undone.

All together, I think my problem is some ADD/ADHD like behavior ( that is a wild guess as I see that in one of our kids as well). Also I feel that I somehow have lost the touch of life somehow.



I can not recall any traumatic incidents. Some which might fit to this category are; my mother becoming mentally disabled at her fifties when I was about 20 years old. She had pick's disease. After that I haven't really had a mother in my life. As before that my mother had been a good example in my life. Another was when we found out during my last pregnancy two years ago that our then unborn child had down syndrome. At that time it was nearly the end of my life but I got over it and accepted it and now our daughter is the star of our life and I would do anything for her.
But during my hard time I was very very upset, I even thought about things like killing myself or killing the baby somehow. I knew I wouldn't do something like that because it is really against my principles and my faith, but thought of them anyway.

One thing which is not traumatic, but which I think has a lasting impact is that I am just not fully satisfied in the city living style and have always very strongly longed for a more quiet and peaceful way of life. I get glimpses of that when we travel somewhere outside the city for a while and those moments refresh me some, but then again coming back to the city feels even worse after that.

I am very reactive person, so when I encounter problems, my first reactions are usually quite strong, but after some time I think rationally and usually find a way to deal with them. My physical problems annoy me as I feel I am not able to do anything to them or prevent them getting even worse. But I also get used to them and then they don't seem to bother that much. I don't like to go to the doctor to try to solve them out, I rather do self diagnosing and try to find ways to get better myself. I don't like the idea of using any medication for anything.

I don't know how to deal with mental instability, as I tend to think all metal problems are a sign of weakness and I don't like being weak that way. So I just brush them under the carpet and don't think about them. That doesn't really help to solve them though.

All my problems disturb me also because I really want to be able to take care of my family and be able to do anything I want. I fear becoming so disabled that I couldn't fully participate or even worse that I couldn't take fully care of myself and others. I would hate to be taken care of by others.

I had what can be called, a normal childhood, a safe family, loving but strict parents. Somehow I however felt that I didn't fully meet their expectations. I was clever enough, but I had a too strong personality and my interests were not always same as they would have wanted. That has left me somehow uncertain of myself, but that has improved some during the years. I never really liked school, I had few friends, I hated crowds, I hated being in front of people and I hated all kinds of attention. My grades were always ok . All that has improved during the years as well.

My mother passed away some years ago around age 65, when she had been ill for over 15 years. Heart attack was the final trigger. My father has had cerebral haemorrhage twice, but they were treated and left no permanent damage. On my mothers side there has been some serious diseases in the family. Two incidents of ALS (Lou Gehring's disease) and many incidents of mental diseases of some kind. Also some heart problems.

I have had normal childhood diseases, chicken pox measles, mumps. We had an epidemic of tonsillitis and my tonsils were removed to stop it. I also had some ear infections and sinusitises and those were treated with antibiotics. I have been vaccinated in a usual way.

My relationship with food is quite neutral, but one thing I grave for is blue cheese and strong cheeses in general. I hate raisins and dried banana. I like sweet taste ok but I hate the aftertaste and have to get something salty afterwards.

I hate drinks that are sweet and hot at the same time.

I have no difficulties falling to sleep, actually if I am tired, I have difficulties to stay awake. But my sleep is very light especially after 3 or 4 am and I usually wake up feeling tired and as I had slept too little and my eyes feel tired. But I have no difficulties waking up, but I don't feel well rested.

I like all kinds of weather, but enjoy dark and stormy. I love thunderstorms and feel energetic during them. For my joint problems the worst is cold and wind.

At these days I feel my general energy level is quite low. Hasn't always been.

Sexual energy or desire is moderate. My menstrual cycle has been very regular 28 days always before pregnancies after them it has now returned to around 22-25 days, but also dripping blood in between. As a teenager I suffered very bad PMS but not anymore at all.


I have not taken much homeopathic remedies. Before this Rhus-tox experience I have taken some Arnica 12D a few times for acute needs, also Rhus-tox 30D if I have accidentally stuck my foot into a nettle bush. It has helped in that. Also I have used that with the kids with great help, no side effects. But all those were for acute needs, only one dose.

In those times I never had a reaction of any kind, that is why I think it strange to have gotten this reaction from two does of Rhus-tox.

Now it has been 7 days and I still have pains. Little pain in knees, more pain in wrists at the moment, bending fingers or wrists hurt the wrist. Still slight swelling in the fingers which goes on and off. My jaws have been hurting for two days, but getting better. Generally the effect seems to be wearing off slowly but I can't see any improvement yet, my condition is still worse than normal.


Ok, this was very long. I will be leaving away for a week tomorrow and won't have internet connection. I can't get the remedies right away, but can order today, if you get the time to respond. But no hurry, I can just as well wait until I get back.

Riana

It took me some time and effort to write as well. Hope it is not too much.

I'm back now.

I have recovered almost to normal, my left hip is worse than for a long time, but it has earlier been like this.

Also I have very slight pain in knees, my left knee is aching at night for no particular reason.

All together my joints feel some how weak and I hurt them easily if I'm not careful.

I got some new information regarding my operated finger. It was not a tumor but osteoid osteoma. Anyhow, it was already operated. The doctor gave me some pain killer for ten days, Voltaren 50mg, it says diclofenac.natr. I haven't started it, but he insisted I should. He said it is supposed to slow down the excess bone growth.

Also, the watering of my eyes, more the left eye, continues and is almost constant, the skin around my left eye is already quite irritated.

I have been reading descriptions of the remedies, not yet finding something to match, not sure about rhus-tox.

One other peculiar symptom came to my mind. My hands, fingers or hands, go numb during the night. I wake up to it and change position, but sometimes it is hard to find a position where this would go away or not happen. This has been going on for about a week or ten days. Occasionally earlier some part of my body has gone numb when sleeping but it hasn't been anything like this. This is every night.

I also have haemorrhoids due to my pregnancies, they have been worse and bleeding, but now they just are there but don't bother very much. I would like to get rid of them though.

Oh, this is gonna be hard for me... but I try. I'm sorry I can't find exact answers for a lot of questions.

JOINTS

Tendovaginitis in the wrists

Something like inflammatory pain, if it can be described like that. Using my wrists at all makes it worse, being still makes it better. Not hurting if not moving. Passes over by itself. The trigger might be cold , damp, windy and any exertion in those conditions. These days only bothers a few times a year.

Hips

For a few years I have been taking a supplement for this and I have had only slight pain very occasionally. Now I took a few weeks break in the supplement and my hip pains have returned. It is like shooting pain in both hips, more in the left one. I don't know what is the trigger for it as it is almost constant, milder or stronger. It hurts also when lying on either side, even when lying on the back some. It doesn't hurt when sitting or standing still. Keeping legs wider apart makes it hurt less. Some rather normal movements make it worse, like if I am sitting on the floor and getting up. I am very flexible also in my hips, so my movements are not very restricted so I automatically move in a way that sresses my hips. Then pain is very restrictive, I can't manage my every day duties or take care of the kids with it. Is like the hips can't take any weight on them. I started the supplement again and the pain is gone. It is ok this way, but I assume the supplement is only suppressing it, and I fear it getting worse and the supplement not helping.

Knees

Knees hurt only when I have been doing something that stresses them like downhill skiing. They recover easily, but I have to have a longer break in stressing them if they get to the hurting point.

The shoulder

Like inflammatory pain in the upper arm near right shoulder. Hurts when I move my arm back and up behind my back. Also can't hold my right arm up very long before it starts aching. It originates from me hurting it in some sport activity, but now I don't know why it sometimes is aching more and sometimes less. Like at the moment it is only hurting in those movements I described but during the last year it was very bad for several months and disturbed me in many ways like carrying anything , picking up anything, dressing and undressing, even changing positions when lying down. I think it has been getting better again so that I just have been so extra careful with it for a while and now it is manageable. I have been under a lot more stress during the winter than now in the summer, so it might have something to do with the stress as well.

Index finger

The problem with this seems now to be excessive bone growth around the bone between the two outermost joints in the finger. And some constant swelling around it. Can't much use the finger, can type with it but even hand writing hurts. The movement of the finger is restricted and hurts. The finger was bad before the operation on it, but is now worse.

BACK

Normally not bothering, but there is one vertebra in the lower back which is hurting for long periods of time once in a while. I can feel the spot when pressing and it is slightly swollen. I can't find it when it not actively hurting. But that doesn't make all the back hurt.

Sometimes, first time after some of my pregnancies, I have more over all pain in my lower back like the back breaking down and can not take weight. It has been after pregnancies for longest periods of time and otherwise occasionally lasting max few days at a time. I don't again now what makes it better or worse, it doesn't hurt when lying down, like when it is relaxed. It hurts more when I start moving, like get up after sitting. But it hurts while sitting some as well. I don't know why it comes and goes.

HEART

Is not tachycardia, but extrasystoles. Those are considered unharmful and normal for even a heatlhy heart. The problem with them for me is that when I have them, they last for days at a time, approx every third beat is extra. And although it should not be harmful, it is eating up my energy. And with the extrasystoles on, it is hard to relax and get a restful sleep. The feeling is like I am over exhausted and restless. Hard to concentrate. Sometimes they go rather unnoticed though. Excercise don't make it worse, rest doesn't make it better. Easing off makes it better, so that I all together slow down and take easy. Not right away, but that helps them go away. I think (not sure this is always the case) that it is some kind of reaction to stress. My husband always says that I am the kind of person to react physically to stress. That might be true. I have a hectic life, first I have got all kinds of physical symptoms and mental only after that. Or not so, but I myself have noticed the physical symptoms before the mental ones.

EYES

Now I have been getting better sleep for a week and the constant watering is gone. It is clearly related to the quality of sleep. Only resting and closing eyes won't help. Normally, cold and wind and sunshine makes it water, but then it is not constant. Sleeping poorly for longer time seems to make it very bad, watering all the time and irritating the eye and the ski around it. Feels like I have sand in my eyes and the tears are burning as well. When I started sleeping better it just reduced gradually and then stopped. But this is one of the reactions I get from sleeping poorly.

FLUS

Nowadays the sinusitis is not a problem, but the mucus and losing my voice are more. When there is a flu in the family, the symptoms I get are first I lose my voice then I realize I have mucus in my upper air ways, but my nose is not blocked. I get clots somewhere between my nose and throat and it feels like choking before I get rid of it. Usually I don't feel sick at all. The voice losing is complete, I can't get even a whisper out. It might last a couple of days at it worst. The mucus problem is now getting more disturbing as it is not limited only to the flu times but is more constant.


One thing which makes a lot of things worse is wind, and air conditioning. Warm and calm makes better. The most instant reactions which I get is stiff neck and shoulders.

IBS

My stomach gets upset and I get diarrhea. It get gets over with one bm usually, but I need the toilet asap. Coffee makes it worse, ice cream makes it worse, all fast food makes it worse, if I keep eating very healthy, that makes it better. Usually very creamy foods make it worse, but necessarily fatty foods don't make it worse. Overeating makes it worse. It is more related to what I eat than to other circumstances. Although I don't always react to wrong foods at all. And sometimes it happens even without any wrong foods.


I have also noticed that when I encounter problems or stressful situations, my joint problems get worse. Or not only joint problems but also stiffness in neck and shoulders and sometimes headache from that. With problems I mean something that I encounter that I would have to do something to, but feel incompetent for it or feel I don't have time or energy or just not being capable of taking care of. And I feel I would have to. When I say something doesn't hurt at the moment, it doesn't mean nothing is hurting at the moment, the pain is present every day, coming and going, not very strong but nagging.


I hope I'm not just repeating myself but that you can get something out of this as well. Thank you very much already.