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Eating Issues - Second Opinion

I am looking for another opinion for my case. Thanks in advance. Here is my information from my first post.

Please let me know if you need other information.

The only other thing I would like to add to the info below is that it is not like any kind of reflux. I would have known that a long time ago and done something about it.

It is almost like food is not being digested at proper speed and cannot handle more than a certain amount. Like if food pilesup and then it reaches the throat and sometimes I feel it in my chest.

Also, I have to wait a certain amount of time (like 5 mins) before I can continue eating some more. Almost like it has made room for some more.

I don't feel anything going on in my stomach, no strange feeling or pain.

Hi,

I am going to try and describe my history and symptoms as
best that I can and follow the guide. I will start with a
summary history and then go into details with the symptoms.

Sorry in advance for such a long post, but I have tried so
many things to completely fix my problems and I think that
including all these details would be good.

It all started about 7 years ago at the age of 21. I had
just started a new job doing IT work, which was the career
I was starting back then, while going to college at the
same time. I would say that it was definitely a stressful
time for me.

I was an intern, so I was definitely worried about whether I
was doing well or not. I was depressed from the job and my life
in general. I am not sure exactly when the symptoms started,
but I do believe that it was a few months after starting this job.

I remember that I had lost my appetite considerably. I remember
eating half of everything, so half of what I would normally eat
for lunch. I usually do lose my appetite when I am depressed or
upset, but this was happening everyday for a while (at least months).
I lost a good amount of weight. My pants would barely fit.

I got over this and was determined to do the best work that I could
and not worry about it. I ended up doing great and was acknowledged
for it. I think my next symptom (phlegm) started after this. I really
cannot remember if the phlegm started around the time I lost my appetite,
or after conquering that issue.

Anyway, I still continued to have stress at work though. I think I
even struggled socially and that affected me at work and life in general.
The symptom was phlegm and/or mucous in my throat. I had to hack this up because regular coughing would not bring it out. I had to carry around
a napkin to cough the phlegm into. It was really embarrassing and I also
had to talk on the phone for my work. I had to clear my throat a lot too.

I worked there for 3 yrs, had some good times and bad. Ended up being
very confident in my work, felt very positive at one point, and even
gained weight to a size I never was before. I have always been thin, around
120 lbs. at a height of 5'6 or 5'7. I think I gained to around 125 lbs,
which was the most I had ever been.

Then I had problems again at work and was let go. I was unemployed for a
about a year after that before finding IT work again. I didn't really
enjoy the IT work and felt it wasn't my purpose in life. That I should
be doing something creative and artistic, such as music.

Anyway, the phlegm continued on and it was a daily thing. I suspected
allergies, but it seems to happen every where I work and at home. Nothing
like this (phlegm/mucous) had ever happened to me before. So, the first
time I was chronically sick or had chronic symptoms was around age 21
at that first job. I went to different doctors, GP, ENT. They all said
things that didn't make sense or I didn't think applied to me.

Things like drink more water. I had been drinking water all day at work
and home. Only some soda at lunch and dinner. Black tea in the mornings.
One ENT recommended nasal surgery for deviated septum. Did not do it as
I don't think that has anything to do with this. My nose has always been
like that and I never had issues my whole life.

I just ended up dealing with it and hoped to find a doctor to fix it
eventually one day. I got used to it. I did not have steady work in the
following years. I ended up quitting or getting fired from work for
various reasons. This put more pressure, stress, and anxiety on me and
my parents.

Around the age of 25 or 26, I noticed that my phlegm was worse, there
was more. I even had one incident where I though I was going to choke
on the phlegm while I was driving. I had to pull over, stop the car
in the middle of the street, get out of the car and continuously hack
up for a few minutes. I was barely able to breathe. I would get a few
seconds of breath and it just kept coming up. I was really scared and
luckily there was a woman standing outside her house who saw all this.

She asked me if I needed help, if I needed emergency and if I was choking.
I said no, but I asked if I could use her restroom. The phlegm was so
thick that I had to pull it out with both hands and use a mirror too to
see far back in the throat. Horrible experience. Then it was all out after
a few minutes of hacking it all up.

Went to doctors again and they didn't know what it was. I am trying to
remember the events in the correct order. I believe after this, I noticed having difficulty swallowing. It was weird when I first noticed it. Like
my swallowing wasn't smooth. I have always been a fast eater, but when I
get depressed, I end up eating a lot slower and less. I was depressed again
around this time, having no job or school, the phlegm issues, and nothing
else really going on.

So, I noticed that the food was not going down smoothly. It's hard to
describe. It's usually a process that you don't notice or think about
and the food just slides down. But now it wasn't going smoothly and was
causing me to notice the food. So, I started worrying about it going down
the wrong tube. The swallowing would get progressively worse, whether I
though about fear of choking or not.

This became the most serious symptom which I still have. I ended up eating
a lot less and this started around 2 yrs ago, I am 28 now. I have lost about
20 lbs from my normal weight and I am around 100 lbs now.

My diet has also been good I would say for the most part. Eating a lot
of home made foods, rice and lighter meat like chicken, sometimes beef,
sometimes stews, etc. Anyway, I had no reason to suspect food or diet
could have anything to do with this and neither did any doctor. There is
more about my life that I can include, but I think that these are the most
important things to include and just a lot of stress, anxiety, depression.

Now, the closest diagnosis that I have gotten is LPR Reflux. It seems to
match my symptoms and when I follow the diet recommended for it, it does
seem to help. The phlegm is pretty much gone, there's a little bit here
and there, but the swallowing issue remains. But even the swallowing gets
better the more I follow the diet, which is a very restrictive diet.

But the LPR diagnosis for me doesn't make sense, because I do not feel
anything coming up to my throat or esophagus. Unless, the phlegm has
weakened that area all these years, but how can it if it is not acid? If
it was acid, I definitely would have felt the burning. No burning in my
throat ever or heartburn.

My dad has acid reflux for the past 20 yrs or so and he's controlling
it with pills and not eating as much. He started having this in his early
20s, but he said it might have started even earlier in his teens. My mom
and sister have no health issues at all. My mom can pretty much eat whatever
she wants and whenever. I always felt that I was like her before all this
started, before the age of 21.

The most recent symptom, started about 6 months ago or more. It is like
a vomit burp. Only while I am eating. I start to eat, after a few bites,
I feel a burp coming up. But it is more like a vomit burp into my mouth.
It slowly comes up, then I burp, then its like the food or liquid vomit
that comes up stays in my throat for 5-10 seconds, then I swallow it back down. During this time I cannot talk either. Then I stop eating for a few
minutes, usually 5 min, then I am able to eat again, take a few bites and
the same process. Takes me an hour to eat and not even a normal sized
meal.


This happens with any food. Even the healthiest veggies. So does the
swallowing issue.

The diet I referred to earlier, which kind of helps is a low-acid, low fat diet. It will alkalize the body and it does seem to help. The more I follow it, it does seem to progress, but a very slow progression and I don't think
its the answer. The longest I did it was a few months I believe and while
it helped reduce the symptoms and help me eat more, it never completely
made it go away and I don't think its a permanent solution. I can provide
more details about the diet if needed.

I don't even get how it could be reflux, as I have never felt any kind of
reflux all these years. Even if it is something else that is refluxing,
not acid, I should still feel it come up. Like feeling a liquid or something
come up, but all these years I never felt anything, just phlegm. Clear, or
white phlegm most of the time. Rarely other colors. There was nothing to
ever suspect it to be reflux or related to food, or else I would have noticed.

I ended up finding about LPR reflux on my own after searching online about
a year ago. An ENT confirmed it after scoping my throat, gave me PPI and
diet. The PPI did not help, barely if anything. I think they made things
worse. But I stopped it after a month or so, not taking any medication now.

Before the swallowing issue started about 2 yrs ago, I had one incident of
a lump in throat. It was like a golf ball or tennis ball was stuck in my throat. Was worried about eating and swallowing. Went to doctor and he said
its anxiety/stress. Deal with it and it will go away. As I did whatever I
could to relax, it went away a few days later. So, when the swallowing thing
happened later, I thought it was the same thing, caused by mental stress or
anxiety, etc.

That is why I did not go to the doctor for a yr after the swallowing problem
started, because I thought they would say the same thing. So, I just tried
to deal with it on my own. It still happened everyday. Then I diagnosed myself with LPR. So, I am not sure how chronic stress could cause this as I
don't think that I have been stressed every day since the age of 21. I know that I have gone through moments of positivity and negativity. Even with the
swallowing thing, I was really positive at times and it made no difference.
Same thing with those early years with the phlegm only as symptom, there was
a lot of ups and downs. It wasn't all down everyday.

I'm extremely sorry again for this long post.

I don't know. Hopefully you can help me with all this info.

I have tried so many things, different diets, supplements, herbs. Some
things that seem to help is chamomile tea, DGL, marshmallow root. I just
started Slippery elm today. All of these seem to help a little but even
if I take them consistently, doesn't get rid of the problem along with the
diet.


Thank you so much for any response.
 
  tonybaloni33 on 2015-01-19
This is just a forum. Assume posts are not from medical professionals.
Some more information from my first post.

1. Age,sex,weight,body and face appearance, country, occupation.

I am 28 years old. Male. Current weight: About 105-110 lbs, Normal weight: 120 lbs,
Weight has usually been in the 115-120 lbs, even before health problems started, so from teenage yrs and on.

Always struggled to gain weight and sometimes to maintain weight.

If I am happy or content, I tend to eat more. Opposite moods I eat less.

Thin body (currently underweight, about 15-20lbs less than normal), steadily lost weight over the past 2 yrs due to swallowing issue, I guess oval face, light skin, look a lot younger than I am.

Live in the United States. I am an I.T. Professional, doing Help Desk and System Administration. Involves a lot of analytical work, problem solving, talking on
the phone or sometimes in person with computer users.


2. Main complaints and other associated troubles.
a)Where is the trouble; The exact locality of the complaint like hands,legs etc; duration of trouble.

It seems to be mainly in the throat and esophagus area. For the swallowing issue, I would think that it is at the top of the esophagus, when you first swallow. At the time of the gulp.
It feels weird, doesn't feel smooth, food will usually stick, have to re-swallow a few times or drink water to make it go down.

I end up chewing a lot more than usual and there are times when there is hesitation to swallow.
I have always been a fast eater my whole life before the swallowing issue. Even when I had the symptom
of phlegm only and no swallowing issue, I was able to eat fast. But now I eat very slowly.
I take small bites too.

Swallowing issue has been going on for the past 2 yrs.

The other symptom, vomit burps, occur in the mouth. Feel it rising up through the throat and feel
the liquid vomit fill the mouth after I burp. Never actually vomit, but it will come up to the mouth,
pools there for 5-10 seconds and then I swallow it down.

Vomit burp or regurgitated burps has been going on for the past year.

Phlegm in throat started about 7 years ago. First symptom of a chronic illness for me in my life.
Also, there was a lot of clearing the throat. I did notice that it would occur more right after
lunch and after breakfast. Would wake up in the morning and have to hack it up. Clear white phlegm.

It is one of the first things I would do when I went to the bathroom in the morning. It would happen
throughout the day randomly, but maybe that is because this was the time that I am digesting my food
after eating my meals and the result was phlegm? So, I guess I'm saying it would happen in between
meals too. It didn't happen as much in the evening, didn't happen after dinner or at night from what
I remember.

Phlegm has decreased in the past year, due to changes in diet. I still have some throughout the day,
but it is a lot less than before. Usually have some in the mornings but now it is yellow. Has been
that way for the past couple of months I think.


For the past 2 years, since the swallowing issue and vomit burps, I have had to eat a lot less than I
would normally eat for my whole life or for any adult man. About half of what I should be able to eat.

Initially, it was for fear of choking and not knowing what was going on. So, I ate less and tried to
calm myself down and deal with any mental problems that could be causing it. This caused me to
gradually lose weight to what I am now, underweight. This and the vomit burps have made it worse.
All these symptoms get in the way of me eating a normal amount for an adult or getting enough calories.

I never suspected reflux. There was one suggestion I read about a yr ago saying that it could be related
to reflux. I thought I could try taking Tums since I was so desperate, even though it didn't make sense.
Around this time, I even started to have difficulty breathing. I took one Tums and felt a million times
better within a minute or two. The breathing issue went away. But it lost its effect after a few weeks or so. Same thing with the PPI pills, helped initially, even improved the swallowing somewhat, but then
lost its effect and I had side effects too. Went off the pills since then.


b)What exactly do you feel, Sensation as pain, how pain feels or burn etc.

Reflux still doesn't make
sense to me as I have never felt anything, no pain or burning on the insides anywhere.

c)What are the factors that causes this trouble according to you.

It seems to be related to diet. Not sure if it's the root cause though, because I eat a very
healthy diet now, even a vegetarian diet and I still have symptoms and cannot eat as much as I
should like a normal person or adult.

The root cause may be the result of chronic stress, anxiety, depression. Not sure at this point.

Diet changes: No caffeine (no soda, no caffenated teas, no chocolate), no juices, no tomatos and nothing
related to tomatos (used to eat a lot of home made food with tomato paste, sometimes spicy tomato paste),
No red meat or beef. Would eat chicken and fish or turkey as main animal meat for the past year or so.
Currently eating vegetarian foods. No acidic fruit (blueberries or any berries, citrus fruits, etc),
no high fat foods (easier to eat foods boiled in water only or baked, cooking oils are harder to digest
and I get more of the vomit burps), no more nuts and seeds.

I have been pretty much following the Koufman diet for LPR Reflux. Here is the link for more info.

It is a low-fat, low-acid diet with eating high pH foods, so avoiding the things I listed above and eating
more alkaline foods (avocados, melons, bannanas). Avocados don't really agree with me too well. I eat
very small ones and sometimes can't finish that. Hard to digest for me.

Lifestyle changes: Not eating after 9 pm or not eating 3 hours before bed. Laying down at any time of
the day will make things worse, especially after a meal. Eat every 2 hours, smaller meals. Used to eat
large meals most of my life and usually 3 large meals a day and not much snacking in between.

All of these changes seem to help but they have never cured me. Maybe I haven't done it long enough.
Seems to be taking way longer than it should and meanwhile I am very underweight and it doesn't seem
right.

d)Condition under which the complaint is reduced or you feel better like,cold or hot application,cold or hot weather,position as standing,walking,rest etc.

Just the diet choices that I mentioned in the previous question. Walking or moving around can help. Feels
like I'm digesting more.

e)Condition under which the complaint is increased like,cold or hot application,cold or hot weather,position as standing,walking,rest etc.

Also, laying down makes it worse. Will have more of the symptoms or symptoms get worse after laying down.
I sit as straight as possible all day as even slouching can make it worse, especially at night around 8 or 9 pm and after.

Cannot exercise now. Feel too weak, like I won't be able to keep up. Sometimes even walking will do that to me.

f)Any other complaint any where in the body.

Sometimes breathing issue. Like I'm not getting full breaths from the stomach/abdomen.
Will happen if I eat a lot or if I eat late at night, laying down can make it worse.
This happens rarely now after dietary changes and lifestyle changes as mentioned before.

g)Onset time of troubles in detail, i.e which came first, after that what problem and so on.

I believe that I covered this in question 2a and did not want to post a duplicate.

h)Treatment method adopted and its result.

Covered in question 2c.

3. History of diseases in family.

My grandmother had leukemia. Father has acid reflux, used to have high cholesterol but that is gone
after dietary changes and eating less. Cousin from mom's side has diabetes.

That is all I know.

4. Personal History.
a)About childhood.

Very good childhood. Some of my happiest times in life. Liked to play a lot of games
mainly video games, watch t.v. and also really affected and enjoyed music a lot.

In general, a very happy kid with a lot of energy. Talked a lot too. I could be
very emotional at times. Appetite seemed to be effected when upset. Ate less.

Also, very thin as a child. Probably underweight. Always told that I was too skinny
by many people. Started to eat more as I got older, pre-teens and teenage years.

Didn't like to sit down as a child. Always liked to move around. Liked to talk a lot
and make noise. Didn't like being told not to talk in school.

b)Academic performance.

Good student and good grades for the most part. Always payed attention in classes
as a child to later on, high school, etc.

Father was strict and told to do well in school and how it's important.

c)Any major incidents in life and the effect of it on life.

First time I played piano. Really liked it. Bought my first keyboard at age of 21 or
22, when I felt that I shouldn't be doing IT work the rest of my life and that I
was meant to create music.

Also always wanted to be a singer and have written songs/lyrics, music, and want to
do it professionally. Feel like I was meant to do this.

d)How you are satisfied with your sex life, friends, family members, company etc.

It is fine. Friends - Not too many friends or much of a social life in the past couple
of years or so. Have one friend who is close to me since childhood and now. Have two
other friends who I see occasionally.

No longer see friends from high school. Used to be close with them but friendships
ended around the age of 19 or 20. Felt very alone around this time. Hard to trust people
and hard to make new friends.

Family members - feel like I have a great family, good relationship with parents and
sister. Feel that I am lucky to have them. Not always supportive, but they are helpful
and there for me for the most part.

Enjoy meeting new people for the most part.


5. Habits/Addiction.
a)Smoking, Alcohol,Sleeping pills, Laxative etc.

Do not use any of that. Do not like smoking or even being around it. Same thing with
alcohol. Never used sleeping pills, no need for laxatives or anything else as a habit.

b)Masturbation and frequency.

A lot less than I used to do. Has been this way for the past 2 yrs since having the
swallowing issue and eating less and illness has become even more serious.

I do it once in a while, maybe once a month or so. Its not consistent. THere is
low libido in general now. Before the swallowing issue, before 2 years ago, used to
do it much more often. Sometimes almost everyday. Or a few times a week.

6. How is your Appetite and Thirst.

Used to drink water more throughout the day, back in my early 20s and before, such as
my teenage years. Used to always want to sip water throughout the day and after eating
anything, even small snacks, such as a few cashews or nuts, some fruit, grapes, or
anything sugary. Wanted water to rinse mouth or wash it down, especially if something
was too sugary.

Now, my thirst is a lot less. I don't like the idea of drinking 8 glasses of water or
more everyday. It would be really forcing myself. Never liked drinking water with my
meals, always drank soda before. For the past year or two, water is all I drink all
day including with meals and I enjoy it now, but can't drink a lot like around 7 or 8
cups a day. Only other thing I drink is chamomile tea, usually at night.

Appetite - barely any appetite now or past 2 yrs. If I do have appetite, I want to eat
quickly but can't because I have to eat slowly now. In the past, I have always had
appetite, very good and strong appetite since teenage years I would say. Always felt
hungry, even shortly after a meal. Appetite was good for the most part during the
time I started having phlegm issues and years that followed, but greatly reduced
around the time the phlegm increased a lot and swallowing issue started 2 yrs ago.

Used to eat very quickly before to satisfy hunger. Used to force myself to eat as much
as I could during meals, lunch and dinner, in order to gain weight, even after I was
full. Would eat until I felt I could explode and was very bloated.

Didn't snack much during the day as a result of this. Forced myself to change lately,
by eating smaller meals and eating every 2 hrs. Actually, kind of started to do that
before the swallowing issue, when I was starting to workout and wanted to eat more by
spacing things out. Gained weight and muscle, but stopped working out months later
after depression. Ended up eating less, having more phlegm, and swallowing issue started
after that.


7. Likes and Dislikes.
a)Alcohol Bread Butter Bitter Salt Sweet Sour Fats Milk Mud Chalk Egg Spicy food Meat Fish Fruits Fried Food
Warm food-drink Cold food-drink Ice Ice cream Chocolates Tea Coffee.

Never really liked alcohol. Would drink only rarely with friends when they wanted to. Didn't
drink much and doesn't take much to effect me.

Ate rice most of my life with meals, white rice. Could not eat bread if having rice, would
feel too full. Usually one or the other. Always liked sandwiches, especially when going out
to eat, so softer sandwich bread.

Do not like the oiliness of butter or some other oily foods. Mom used to make oily macaroni that
I did not like. Hated the feeling of oil on my lips and hate the feeling of oil on my hands.

Used to drink tea every morning. Really needed warm drinks in the morning. Helped my voice
which was usually rough or hoarse in the mornings. Could not drink black tea by itself, too bitter
for me. Used to put 3 or 4 teaspoons of sugar. Drink chamomile now only and forced myself
to drink bitter. Got used to it. Still like to put a little sugar once in a while.

I like some salt. Not too much, lightly salted nuts. Can also eat nuts unsalted. Hated salted butter.

Don’t like sweets in general. Always kind of been like that. Don’t like too much sugar. Would
make my head spin, must have a full meal before eating any sweets, or else head would spin,
or slight headache or feeling light headed. Only liked certain sweets such as chocolate chip
cookies or oatmeal cookies. Do not like raisins with oatmeal cookies, too sweet for me.

Never liked sour foods. Liked some fatty foods, fatty meat (beef, beef stews using fat from
steak or beef and some vegetables, including potatoes to make stew broth).

Did not like milk for most of my life. Always gave me stomach issues, diarrhea. Did not
like cereal, especially in the morning. Only occasionally as a snack around night time. But
it would cause me to immediately go to the bathroom. I think my body might have gotten
used to milk and it does not happen like that as much anymore. Like milk with cookies.
More recently, crave milk and cereal and dairy in general.

Really like other forms of dairy, such as cheese. Melted cheeses, grilled cheese, etc. All kinds
of cheese.
Not sour yogurt though and only plain yogurt. Love heavy cream with bread. Preferred bread
to have more dough.

Always preferred hot or warm meals to cold. Hated cold food, desire to eat would be reduced.
Don’t like cold sandwiches for most part, always hot sandwiches. Loved spicy food, not too
spicy though such as spicy peppers.

Always liked eggs for breakfast. Especially scrambled eggs (2 eggs). Prefer the yellow yolk
to the white part. Eggs would always make me run to the bathroom too, sometimes while I was eating it and have not finished yet. Seem to cause diarrhea stools immediately after.
Would cause discomfort, gas for hours following the meal.

Always liked meat (beef and chicken), ate those two most of my life. Do not like dry chicken though or meat. Felt that I would not have energy if I did not eat meat with meals.
Like I did not have a full meal, headaches, lack of energy and light headed.
Do not eat as much meat now due to diet changes and do not feel that way now.
Liked ground beef or burgers the most, more than steak or any other part. Do like shredded meat too, beef, pork, or chicken. Something juicy, not dry, and like it more with sauces such as bbq sauce.

Never liked fish most of my life. Hated the smell. Forced to eat rarely. Like some fish now,
especially Salmon, Black cod, sometimes halibut.

Do not like fried foods too much. Did not like fries too much, especially if they were too oily
and I could never finish. Always ate the burger and then a little bit of fries. Could never really
finish both, it would be forced. Do not like oily pizza. Liked mayo a lot on burgers or sandwiches.

Disliked fruit for most part of my life. Would cause me stomach issues, such as diarrhea or
gas, or stomach upset.

Love nuts as a snack. All kinds (cashews, pistachio, peanuts, almonds, macadamia, etc).
Prefer roasted. Like some seeds too. Roasted sunflower seeds. Sesame seeds on a burger bun.
Walnuts have never agreed with me. Always given me heartburn, even after one or two walnuts.

Avocados are the only other food that I noticed would give me heartburn, especially if I ate
a medium to large one. If I ate too much of pizza, more than usual, then it can also give me heartburn.

Like room temperature water the most. Do not like ice or icy drinks.

Like chocolate once in a while. Not too much, too sugary. Feel the same about ice cream, the
sugar has kept me away from it. Do not like chips, never liked it even as a kid. Did not snack
much or like junk food too much.

Always hated coffee and still do. Never attracted to it.

Certain foods gave me gas and diarrhea like stools, such as milk.

b)Anything else about like and dislike of any activity with you or surrounding.

Like to play sports once in a while. Basketball and tennis. Do not like sitting around
all day, especially in front of a computer monitor.

Like to sing. Like to listen to music. Like all genres of music, rock the most. Usually
prefer to listen to music with head phones in a closed room by myself. Some music
on the speakers.

8. Bowel movements.
a)Nature of stool, frequency, satisfactory or not.

Two ways to answer this. The way it used to be and the way it is recently and now.

Used to be (most of my life): Very frequent, averaging two or three
times a day. Would compare my metabolism to a Ferrari. Not always satisfactory, but
not too much of an issue for the most part. Felt that I did go too much though, it was
exhausting. Not always smooth. Would occur a lot in the mornings most of my life.
Usually right after breakfast.

Recently (Last 2 years and more): Slowed down in my early to mid 20s, which was when the phlegm issues started. (once a day)

Really slowed down recently after swallowing issue, which started about 2 yrs ago. Probably because I’m eating less. (once every 2 or 3 days).
Eating more vegetarian diet recently, past month or so, more oatmeal and beans/lentils and I am more regular now (everyday, once or twice). Much smoother when eating foods with more fiber.

b)Any discomforts associated with stool.

Occasional diarrhea like stools once in a while. Usually depending on what I ate, eggs, milk, or
too much spicy foods.

Some straining and slow bowel movements. Common to take around 30 min for most part of my life.


9. Urine.
a)Frequency, nature, volume.

Normal for most part of my life. Usually light yellow. Go regularly since I sip water throughout
the day most of my life. Drink less water throughout the day more recently, past yr or two, probably because I’m eating less in general, so don’t go as much anymore and not as much volume as compared to the past.

b)Any discomfort before, during or after urination/odour

Not really. Been normal for most part of my life. Had some issues starting in the past
couple of years. But that passed also, it might have been related to stressful times. Odor is rare.

10. For men.
a)Any difference in erection/want of erection/weak erection/Ejaculation early/late.

Weaker erection when stressed or anxiety. Would occur in the past couple of years,
it would happen once in a while, come and go. Low libido, especially now.

b)Any other trouble in sex.

No, not really active recently.

11. For Females.
a)Menses, Regular, Irregular,Early, Late.
ANS.
b)Duration of menses.
ANS.
c)Nature of flow, Scanty, Blood colour, Consistency, Odour, Staining, itching/ when and what makes it worse/better.
ANS.

12. Sleep.
a)The quality of sleep, the quietness or restlessness of sleep,
position of sleep, times of waking and reasons for waking,
need for cover over various parts of the body,
whether the window must be open or closed etc.
common dreams, peculiar sounds or gestures during sleep, etc.

It is good for the most part now. It has not always been good in the past.

Now: Get 7 to 8 hours of sleep. Usually feel good and rested in the morning. A little
fatigued. Voice is hoarse in mornings. Spit out phlegm or mucous immediately upon
waking. About a few seconds after.

Past: Usually got 8 hours minimum. Sometimes more on weekends 8-10 hrs or sometimes
more. Did not feel like I got good rest and felt very fatigued after waking. Did not wake up
during sleep though. Very rarely would I wake to urinate. Sometimes phlegm would wake
me up. Had to hack it up, then drink some water. Doesn’t occur anymore after making sure
that I do not eat anything within 3 hours of bedtime.

Always been a side sleeper, still am. Prefer the right side. Sleeping with my arm under the pillow. Need to cover my feet for sure, they get cold but do take socks off except winter time.
Prefer windows to be closed most of the year, except for summer time. It gets too hot and
stuffy.

Never did any sleep walking. Do not know of any sounds or snoring.

Used to dream more, many years ago in the past. Do not dream at all anymore or past couple
of years.Would occasionally have trouble falling asleep in the past, due to too much energy,
wired, too many thoughts, or stress or anxiety. Not anymore.

13. Sweat
a)How much, what parts, staining, Odour.

Very little amount of sweating. Most would be the under-pits. Rarely staining.

Used to have my hands sweat a lot in the past, teenage years especially. Does not occur
anymore. Hands are dry now and in the recent years.

14. Weather
a)Tolerance to heat and cold, dryness, humidity, weather changes, sun,
foggy weather, wind drafts, closed rooms, etc.

Cannot tolerate cold weather. Prefer warm. Prefer hot to cold. Intolerance to heat as well,
since summer weather gets really hot in Los angeles. Do not like too much sun, when
it’s too strong. Do not like dry weather, prefer more on humid. Do not like foggy, cloudy,
or rain, or wind. Like the door to be open in rooms.

Get cold easily, especially the hands and feet. Hands are usually freezing, even when
weather is not too cold or when its neutral or more on the warm side.


15. Mental Status
a)The quality of the patient's life in relationship to loved ones, family, friends and colleagues. Overall quality of energy available to function in daily life, and under various circumstances.

My relationship with friends and family is ok. Glad that they are around. Cannot enjoy
meals with them anymore due to eating issues and diet restrictions.

Energy has decreased in general. Cannot exercise, play sports, cannot keep up. Get tired very
easily. Even when walking, feel like I can’t go on much. Probably becomes I’m forced to
eat less.

b)Any mental/emotional shocks occurring in the patient's life-grief, major financial losses separation from loved ones, death, identity crisis and other stress in life.

No. Just stress, sadness, and depression because of this illness/eating issues.

The only identity crisis I had was in the past, which I covered before in my first post about
my purpose in life. Felt that I should be involved in music vs. I.T. work. Know for sure
that I was meant to do something with music in my life and determined to do so. Feel that
I will eventually.

c)Memory,ability to concentrate/comprehend.

Harder to remember things recently. Memory used to be a lot sharper in the past, years ago.

Harder to focus now, especially because I focus on this health problem. Try not to think of
it too much though.

d)Are you fearful of anything eg: Animals, people, being alone, darkness, death, disease, robbers, thunder, storm, high places.

Used to fear death for a while and thought about it a lot. This was years ago, with the identity crisis and when I was not happy with my career and what I was doing for a living. Was unemployed, did not have stable career, worked on and off doing I.T. work. Felt that I was dead
inside I guess.

Felt that I should do something creative/artistic. Become a writer or do something else until I
achieved my goals as a song-writer, etc. Wanted change in my life.

Used to fear something happening to loved ones, such as death. Do not feel this way anymore
or as much. Realized it is a stupid thing to think about too much and not too rationale, although
it was an understandable fear.

Fear of planes and high places.

Fear disease recently when issues got more serious as time went on. Don’t fear anymore.
Feel that I will overcome the disease and naturally.

e)Are you anxious about anything: if yes, give details.

Not really. I feel that I have dealt with my anxiety and stress issues, even during the past year or so while having the swallowing issues and until now.

f)Are you impatient.

Some times I can be. I am impatient about this illness and getting it fixed.

I prefer a fast paced life and work compared to a slower, quiet one.
I can be very patient at times and I feel that I have been most of my life. Especially when
talking or dealing with others.

g)Are you doubtful or suspicious.

No, not really. I feel that I am open minded. I don’t doubt that I will get better and fix this
issue. I am not suspicious about any treatment, except pills or drugs and conventional
medicine.

h)Are you hurt easily (emotionally)how do you react. Does it cause hatred/revenge.

Sometimes. I guess more often than not. I am emotional, sometimes very emotional.

Sometimes it can cause feelings of hatred, anger, and thoughts of revenge. But I feel
that I deal with this and get over it in a healthy way. Usually by listening to music or
even writing songs.

i)Does your pride get hurt easily.

Not sure how to answer this. Don’t think so, but I can get sensitive at times.

j)Are you depressed, if so, reason/circumstances.

Yes. This illness. Health concern. Feel that I am struggling and suffering everyday at
every meal. Want to be able to eat like normal and eat a variety of foods like I used to
before.

Also, depressed about the fact that these issues have been going on for so long. That it
was undiagnosed or incorrectly diagnosed for the first couple of years during the phlegm
symptoms. And now, I am still not sure what it is or if it’s been diagnosed properly.

I have always looked after my health and gone to various doctors to get see what is going
on, and I cannot believe it got to the point that it did 2 years ago when the swallowing
issues began. Not sure if that is even related to the phlegm, but it seems like it is since the
phlegm occurred during this time and even increased right before.

Even went to a lot of naturopathic doctors in the past year or so. Holistic and one
homeopath as well. I am not sure what the homeopath gave me, she would not tell me but
it did not make the problems go away.

Hard to function with life in general because of this. Or even keep a job.

k)Do you like to share your problems.

No. I tend to deal with it myself. If it is serious and rarely I feel like I need to
talk to some, then I will. It can be a friend, family member, or a stranger. Health
issues I definitely like to share.

l)Effect of consolation.

Feels very good. Feel that I need to hear once in a while.

Sometimes, it doesn’t effect me as much. Feel that it will not help with my health
issues. Sometimes feel that it is not necessary. That I can manage without it.

m)Do you ever become suicidal when? How.

No. Never. Do not like to give up on anything. Do not like the idea of it at all.
Feel that there is always hope and a solution to everything.

n)Memory- quality if poor, for what ( eg. Names, places, people, what you read).

Memory can be poor occasionally and in general.

o)Do you weep easily, effect of weeping, ie, does it make you worse or better.

No. Do not like to weep. Sometimes it can make me feel better or worse.

Do not like to weep because I don’t like to get emotional. Doesn’t feel manly to me.
Doesn’t feel strong.

But sometimes, it feels really good. Feel relieved. Like it makes me feel alive.

p)Are you easily irritated. What makes you angry, how do you express it.

Can be. I guess anger is one of the emotions I felt a lot during most of my life.
Tend to listen to more aggressive rock because of it or hard rock. Express it
by listening to music or even creating it. Sometimes yelling.

Can be easily irritated at times.

q)Are you destructive.

I don’t think so. If anything, destructive to myself. Meaning mentally.

Not destructive to others.

It is rare for me to be destructive physically, such as breaking something, but I do
get very emotional at times.

r)How good are you in making decisions.

Not good. Struggled most of my life with this. Deciding what to do with my life.

Decisions in general. Should I go there or not. Deciding what to eat, especially when
going out to eat. Tended to be very picky with food most of my life.

s)Do you like company or like to remain alone.

Need company daily, such as family. Closeness. Occasionally like to be alone but not
as much.

t)How seriously are you affected by disorder and uncleanness in your surroundings.

Not so much. Tend to be disorderly in my room and not affected by uncleanliness as
much. Do not like to clean every day or regularly. Only once in a while when too much
mess has accumulated.

u)How does failure appear to you?

Do not want to accept it. But I can accept quitting if continuing is detrimental to me
whether mentally, physically, or health wise. This would occur in a situation such as a
job. The job itself or environment. But I do no like to give up, especially something with
a bigger picture.

v)Are there any matters that you deeply dislike?

Uncertainty. Loneliness. Doing something that I am not passionate about.

Fighting or arguments in general.

Thinking about death, purpose of life and death.

w)What activities you deeply like? How does it affect your mood?

Singing. Makes me come alive. Listening to music and singing along.
Sometimes just listening to music.

Sports and exercise regularly, once or twice a week and sometimes more. Or physical
activity in general such as moving around. Feel that I am using up the extra amount of
energy that I need to release or hyperness.

x)Are you affectionate? How does others sorrow affect you?

I think so. I care a lot about the people around me, family and friends. I think that it shows.

It affects me a lot. I do not like to see people sad in the world, even strangers.

y)Any present fears in your life or future.

Being stuck with this illness and symptoms or having to change my life a lot, such as a
restrictive diet. But I can live with that as long as it makes the symptoms and issue go
away and can eat at a normal pace and normal amount.

Fear of staying thin and underweight for a while until I get better.

z)Any present life or future life desires.

Present - Take care of this illness and gain weight back to normal.

Future - Have a more balanced life. A career, social life.

Meet the right person, get married, have kids.

Make more friends. Reach my goals with a career in music.
 
tonybaloni33 6 years ago
I can have a look at this if you like. There is a lot of information here so I can probably give you my take on your case.
 
Evocationer 6 years ago
Yes please.

I would really appreciate that.

Thank you so much for looking at my case.
 
tonybaloni33 6 years ago
I can see that Homoeo.mzp made a prescription for you. Did you get any reaction to that remedy?
 
Evocationer 6 years ago
No, no reaction.
 
tonybaloni33 6 years ago
Dear tonybaloni,

This could be caused from
the mucous /phlegm going on.

I have had relatives with this and they have been told by their ENT that the post nasal drip ( the clear mucous or yellow etc is dripping down into the stomach and this causes acidity and the reflux etc. They all had swallowing
issues too and had to eat in small bites.

It is difficult many times to notice what is going on
bc the mucous can drip down the back throat sinus passage
and you swallow it, especially at night and it can
be barely noticeable.

My guess is that you have allergies going on and if
me, I would go get skin tested to see what you are allergic
to.

In the meantime you can start with some cell salts to
rebalance your system. There are 12 cell salts and they
work on the cell level and are a sub branch of homeopathy.

You can find them at Whole Foods, or order thru Vitacost
online- put cell salt and then name and potency in the
search box.

Purchase: 5 phos cell salts - it has all the salts of
the phosphorus in them so you do not have to get 5 bottles.
DKO naturals has the 5 phos, Dr. Reckeweg brand- called
BC 24 ( this is a good brand and DKO is is canada but they
ship fast) you could get the Nat Mur from them at the same
time- don't know if Vitacost has 5 phos. If your tongue is white coated
get Kali Mur 6x too.

Ferrum Phos 6x
nat phos 6x
Calc Phos 6x
Mag Phos 6x
Kali Phos 6x
Nat mur 6x

I know Evocationer is looking at this also. So you can
try this if needed. My relatives found they were
allergic to dairy. The dairy caused the drip/mucous,
the dairy also inflames the esophagus and one serving
of dairy could mess them up for 2 weeks. They have had
homeopaths take their cases-it has not eliminated
the dairy allergy and also some pollen allergies.
They avoid the dairy,and use cell salts, vitamins, herbs
when they feel their energy is getting low from pollen/dust
etc. They have become super aware of any dripping mucous
and being able to stop that asap, has eliminated the reflux
swallowing issue.

Start with taking 3 tabs of each ( all together and dissolve
under your tongue)

This can start to resolve what is going on here and after you
get tested for allergies- then you would have more info to give
for a chronic homeopathic remedy with more specifics if there are
still problems.
[message edited by simone717 on Tue, 20 Jan 2015 02:04:16 GMT]
 
simone717 6 years ago
Hello Simone,

thanks so much for responding.

What your saying is very interesting.

I would like to see Evocationer's response as well and then I will decide what to do.

I want to give some more info from my other post, which is basically what has been happening recently in the last 2 months or so.

I have gotten better actually. The swallowing issue is not even an issue anymore. However, all my problems are not completely gone. I explain this below.

I would also like to respond to your diagnosis and opinion before you see more information.

It is interesting what you are saying about phlegm/mucous going down to my stomach and that has messed me up. However, ever since this has started, which was many years ago, it has always been way too thick to swallow so I spit it out. It would pull down from my nose and then it would get stuck and then I would hack it up (force air to push it out of my mouth) and into a tissue. Sometimes I would have to pull it out with my hands because it was so sticky and thick.

I think that if it was happening during my sleep, I would definitely wake up for air. I have woken up before but I was not gasping for air or anything. I would wake myself up, notice that there's something bothering me like mucous in between nose and mouth, and then spit it out again.

This is rare though and does not happen anymore because of the fact that I dont eat 3 hours before bedtime.

Now, about your theory that this is due to allergies. With all due respect, please dont take it in a bad way if I disagree or if it seems I am going against your theories. I am only trying to help us solve the problem and I am willing to try anything, even if I dont think that it could be the cause.

It is possible. I suspected it the first time it started about 7 yrs ago. But I want to tell you some reasons now why I dont think it is related to that.

First, I dont think that I can get food allergies all of a sudden at the age of 21 when I have been eating the same way my whole life. I think there would have been a noticeable indication or symptom, even if it was extremely mild. But I know that it is possible to develop allergies later in life, even if it is rare.

Second, mucous/phlegm is usually not an allergic reaction, but it still could be.

I have been to allergists and been tested in different ways with diff results and I can share that with you. I have to find the results but I remember some of it off the top of my head. These are from blood tests.

I do not think that they are accurate at all but I will still tell you because Im keeping an open mind. I remember Peanuts, corn, and I think egg white as the only things. There were other tests though, testing for more things, food allergies and food sensitivities.

Now, please read my latest updates posted below, because I am doing better as a vegetarian and following a low acid diet for the last two months, but I still eat those foods. I still have peanuts or other nuts and corn. Also, this whole time I have been eating dairy as well.


Update from My First Post:

Things are going better, but I think it is because of what I have been doing. I have been following a strict diet of low acidic food, now I am a vegetarian for the month, and I take Pepcid medication everyday along with occasional Tums, and some Alkaline water once in a while.

All of this seems to be helping. I no longer have the difficulty swallowing, and the burp vomits or coming up of food has decreased a lot.

The problems are not completely gone and I still cannot eat the quantity that I used to eat normally my whole life. And also I still have to eat slowly and take breaks in between bites, so I still cant eat at a normal pace.

Please let me know if you come up with any remedy for me. I do not want to continue taking meds and would like all the symptoms to go away and get back to normal.

Thanks. I appreciate you guys a lot.
 
tonybaloni33 6 years ago
I would just like to add a few things, my thoughts after all ive gone through.

I think two things are possible here. Either its related to food or some kind of mental issue that has affected me physically.

If it is food, then it would be my diet catching up to me, although this started at a very young age for me (21).

I think it is the second one. It could be my emotions or even suppression of emotions, or anxiety, and stress that has led to this. I have always been an emotional person but keep it on the inside.

Also, I have always been more of a negative thinker, and in my early twenties when this all started, things got more serious and I seemed to have more anxiety and stress than ever and didn't know how to deal with it.

There has always been a correlation between my mood and my appetite. Sadness, unhappiness would always lead to me eating less or losing appetite.

Chronic negativity or mental issues might have led to this chronic condition.
 
tonybaloni33 6 years ago
I suggest that you answer Evocationers questions
and see what he comes up with for you.
 
simone717 6 years ago
Hey Evocationer,

I know your really busy. Just wanted to check to make sure you haven't forgotten about my case.

Thanks.
 
tonybaloni33 6 years ago
Evocationer,

I was looking up my case in the Chronic Diseases book from Hahnemann and I came across something that was pretty close to me.

It is NATRUM MURIATICUM. I searched the text for swallowing issues and there are a lot that match.

But this one has certain things that really sound like me like the things listed below.

- Constant gathering of water in the mouth, he had to spit out continually.

- Much mucus in the throat.

- Constant hawking of mucus.

- Sensation of intense hunger, as from emptiness in the stomach, and yet no appetite.

- Eructations tasting of the ingesta, even after several hours.

- The breath smells.

- Stiffness of the nape and neck.

- Very cold feet


There's just a lot here that match. Let me know if this helps. I am just trying to narrow it down and give you more info.

Also, the personality of this remedy does seem to match mine. Although, there are others that do as well.

I will try to post others as well that I think could be close to what I have. I will do this later tonight when I go home.

Any response would be great.

Thank you sir.
 
tonybaloni33 6 years ago
I saw someone else had offered to treat you which is why I had not done any further work on your case.

Did you still want me to supervise? You won't be able to follow advice from two people here as it will almost always be different advice.
 
Evocationer 6 years ago
Hi,

Evocationer,

I told that person that I was waiting for your response.

I never said that I was going to try what he was suggesting.

If anyone volunteers with advice, I cannot stop them from doing so.

PLEASE work on my case no matter what anyone writes.

I am waiting for your answer only.

Thank you.
 
tonybaloni33 6 years ago
Ah I see. We try our best not to step on each other's toes here.

Alright, let me continue working on this.
 
Evocationer 6 years ago
Great. Thank you Evocationer.

Looking forward to your response and answer.
 
tonybaloni33 6 years ago
Could you also list all the homoeopathic medicines you have had, the potency (potencies) and if there was a positive reaction or not?
 
Evocationer 6 years ago
The only ones that I know for sure that were strong potencies are the following.

Causticum 200 C - 2 Doses

Kali Bichromicum - Dont know the strength or dosage. I'm assuming the strength was strong because it was one dose given by a homeopath.

With the Kali, I noticed a slight improvement at first. Like my swallowing was getting better and smoother. But that was just for a few days. I was not getting any better and then I was back to the way I was.

Many months later, I posted on this forum and it was suggested I take the Causticum 200 C.

I'm not sure if I got any positive reaction from this or not. Although, a week later, I took Arsenic Album 30 C. 3 doses a day for 2 days.

This did not give any immediate effects. This was the last remedy I took. 2 months later, I had gotten a lot better. No more swallowing issues and less vomit burps. However, I think this could have been due to medication and dietary changes and drinking alkaline water.

I had resorted to medication, which I absolutely hate, because I was feeling desperate. I am now feeling ok and getting by with the diet and no more medication. Alkaline water once in a while and tums once in a while.

In the past, I have taken some other homeopathic remedies, but I dont remember which ones. I bought a couple and they were low potencies. I might have tried them for a few days, like 30 C or 6 C of something. Belladonna 30C and I might have even take Belladonna 200C once. Bryonia 15C, Lachesis Mutus 30 C. Im sure Ive tried these ones that I am not sure about at least once. Like for a day or two, with the usual 3 doses a day probably.

Thats all I know. If you want me to find out about the Kali Bichromicum let me know. I can email the homeopath who gave it.

Thanks.
 
tonybaloni33 6 years ago
Hi,

I dont know if this helps or even relates, but there was one thing I think I should mention. I mention this because my physical nature could be important in narrowing down the remedy.

So, I have always had a wart on my right hand since I was like 14 years old. I am 28 now. It started with one on my right hand, which was a big, at 14. I got rid of it after many dry ice burnings. It eventually fell of and then one appeared on the bottom of my foot. This happened once in my life on my foot, very painful, and I got it removed by burning and it never came back.

However, the one on my hand came back. I mainly used topical wart removers and some duct tape. It always comes back on the hand though. Now, the one that came back on my right hand, is in a different spot from the first one. This one is also big.

I wish I knew about natural remedies back then and never went through the burning.

Anyway, thought I should mention this. Thanks.
 
tonybaloni33 6 years ago
One other thing that happens occasionally and it might help to know.

My ears - they sometimes feel like there filled with liquid and make a sound. The sound is hard to describe but its like the waves of the ocean. Sometimes it is more of an aggressive, pulsing sound.

This will happen at night, sometimes before I sleep.

Ok well, you have the main pieces of info. If there's any other little pieces of info I remember, I will let you know or you can ask.

Thanks again.
 
tonybaloni33 6 years ago
Oh and its worse when bending over or even moving forward when sitting.

More sounds when bending over. If I stand up straight, it usually does not happen. When it does happen, it only happens around night time.
 
tonybaloni33 6 years ago
There are too many physical symptoms in this case for me to determine a remedy via them. I need to understand the core state here - can you please describe in detail:

Suppression of emotions

Keeping things on the inside

Correlation between mood and appetite

Sadness

Chronic negativity

Any other mental issues

I feel that your statement that there is a connection between your internal self and these external symptoms is correct. However, I cannot get a feel for you in that long post about various physical symptoms.

These are a long list of questions that might help you to reveal the sort of information that can direct me more easily to this deeper remedy.

MENTAL AND EMOTIONAL DESCRIPTION



(Please spend the most time on this section and give DETAILED answers - the homoeopathic remedy is very often decided on the basis of the mental and emotional state of the patient !)


1. What are the issues in your life that bother you the most. Not physical issues but mental or emotional ones. List each one separately and describe why each one bothers you so much.

2. What emotions are the most troublesome for you? What situations provoke these emotions. How do these emotions make you act? Do you feel any ill effects from expressing or not expressing these emotions.

3. What incidents in your life have had a deep impact on you? Describe each incident in detail and how they made you feel? What did you do in those situations? What effect have they had on your life?

4. What are you afraid of? Especially important are phobias, but it might be objects, situations or events that just produce a high level of anxiety. How do you manage your fears? How do you react when confronted with these fears? What would be the worst situation for you to be put in that would provoke these fears? You may need to talk about each fear/anxiety separately.

5. What hobbies do you have? Why do you like each of these activities?

6. Do you have any persistent thoughts, ideas or beliefs that are difficult to stop or cope with? What are they?

7. Do you have any unusual gestures or movements of the body? Do you feel any unusual sensation or pain throughout your body? What exactly does it feel like is happening in your body?

8. When you experience your fears, persistent thoughts, or difficult emotions, what kind of sensation or reactions do you get in your body?

9. When did you feel at your best in your life? What was that like for you? If you imagine the complete opposite of this feeling or moment, what would that be like?

10. Do you feel like you are stuck in a pattern of behavior, especially when trying to deal with your problems? What is this pattern? THIS IS AN IMPORTANT QUESTION PLEASE CONSIDER CAREFULLY AND GIVE DETAILS.

11. What difficulties or problems do you have in relationships? Talk about your family, your romantic relationships, your spouse or partner, your friends, and your work colleagues. You may need to talk about all of these separately.

12. List 5 positive things about yourself. Are there any situations where this positive attribute becomes negative (is a problem)?

13. List 5 negative things about yourself. Are there any situations where this negative attribute becomes positive (is useful)?

14. Do you have any reoccurring dreams? Describe them in detail, including any feelings that come while dreaming. Dreams are very important in unlocking the deepest truth of a patient’s case, but it is not enough to simply describe them in a sentence. Give as much information as you feel comfortable doing.

15. Did you have any reoccurring dreams as a child, or earlier in your life? Describe those in detail including any feelings that came with them.

16. What were you like as a child, your character, your personality, your fears, your dreams, your problems?

17. What kind of environment did you grow up in? What problems where there at home, with your family, with your parents, with your siblings, with school?
 
Evocationer 6 years ago
Ok, I will answer all the questions and I'm sure it will
help a lot. Some of these might be hard for me to answer
because I am not that complicated of a person.

I'll try to put as much as I can.

Thanks.


Suppression of emotions - I guess anger. A lot of times I
have to hold it in because I might get out of control or
because I need to stay professional in a work environment.

Maybe even suppression of tears or sadness because tears
I feel are embarrassing.


Keeping things on the inside - I do this sometimes because
I don't want to talk about things. Whether it's too personal
and I don't want anyone to know. Or whether I am not in the
mood to talk. Or if I think it will not do me any good talking
about it and that I should deal with it myself.


Correlation between mood and appetite - There seems to be some
kind of correlation. I would say that normally or for the most
part, I will get hungry with time passing and eat a normal
amount. But sadness and depression does affect my appetite a lot.
I tend to eat way less when sad or depressed. And don't feel
hunger as much.

Sadness - Not sure what you want me to address here. I do have
sadness in my life occasionally but I think it's a normal amount
that every goes through in life.

Chronic negativity - Yes. I would say that since my pre-teens,
I changed a lot. Went from a very positive and happy kid to a
serious person. But I think that happens to most people. However,
since then, I have been more of a negative thinker. I guess as I
got older and life became more and more serious, I became even more
negative.

I've always been drawn to negative music. But from that music I
get a positivity and relief out of it. It tends to be negative rock
music, aggressive, hard rock I guess. Darker music in general as my
favorites.

I became even more negative and had more negative thoughts in my
early 20s up until a few years ago, like around age of 26 or 27.


Any other mental issues - Not really. Nothing major that comes to mind.


These are a long list of questions that might help you to reveal the sort of information that can direct me more easily to this deeper remedy.

MENTAL AND EMOTIONAL DESCRIPTION


(Please spend the most time on this section and give DETAILED answers - the homoeopathic remedy is very often decided on the basis of the mental and emotional state of the patient !)


1. What are the issues in your life that bother you the most. Not physical issues but mental or emotional ones. List each one separately and describe why each one bothers you so much.

Loneliness - I guess finding the right person in life. Finding love. Lack of Love.
Sad about the fact that I have not but still optimistic. That I am only getting
older and still have not found the right person to be with.

There were many years where I did not go out much at all. Felt very lonely.
Lack of friends or any relationships. Was losing closeness with some friends.

Anger and Disappointment - I guess I have also felt anger and disappointment
in what I am doing with my life. Also, felt frustrated that I am not doing
what I want to do which is make music for a living. However, I don't feel
as frustrated anymore and I have always been optimistic that I will achieve this
one day. I feel this way even more recently. I feel very patient about this
recently.

But for many years, I just wanted to stop doing what I was doing, which is
my day job and just focus on music. This had caused me a lot of anxiety,
stress, and depression. My career has not been steady because of this. So,
I guess I felt that I was not doing what I was meant to. My purpose in life
felt so pointless unless I was creating songs. I felt this everyday.

I also did not have a full education in music and it was impossible to
go to school and work because classes weren't offered at nights that I needed.
So, I was very frustrated and felt I wasn't going anywhere. I then saved up
money and got private lessons. So, now I feel much better and feel I am
progressing a lot. I have also been working steadily in the past couple of
months so things are going good now.

Anxiety and Stress - Worry in my life. About losing my job because of
my past. Past decisions where I quit or incidents where I was fired.
Mistakes I made in the past or wrong decisions that I regret like quitting
a job. Letting people around me down like my family because of this
inconsistency in work. Not much of this anymore now. But there was a lot
of this for years. Especially the years before the eating issues started.



2. What emotions are the most troublesome for you? What situations provoke these emotions. How do these emotions make you act? Do you feel any ill effects from expressing or not expressing these emotions.

I guess sadness. And anger. Maybe sadness affects me the most. Seems to be
one of the emotions I feel the most. Maybe sadness from disappointments or
loneliness. Anger is hard to deal with sometimes. Although, I feel like I
do usually do a good job of it. In different ways, talking to someone or
listening to music. But I guess I do feel it a lot. And mostly internalize
and don't let it out.


3. What incidents in your life have had a deep impact on you? Describe each incident in detail and how they made you feel? What did you do in those situations? What effect have they had on your life?

Losing friends. Especially close ones. The ruining of a friendship for
whatever reason it may have been. There really isn't any specific incident.

I felt betrayed but also really relieved because some of those friendships were
not good anymore. People around me changed and acted differently and I didn't like it. Didn't like how I was treated and what they were into. Like cigarettes which
I can't stand or even being around smoke.

Losing work. Whether it was because I quit because I felt I was going nowhere
in life, not fulfilling my purpose in life. Or got fired, whether unjustly
or because other things upset me in the work environment and I did not work
hard anymore and lost my passion. Working somewhere steadily. Seemed to get
less patient after the first job where I was let go, which lasted the longest
so far in 3 years. I would lose interest, get discouraged and not want to
work anymore.

I do not like the working life meaning the lifestyle of 9-5 set schedule,
working everyday, etc. I like freedom, not working in an office, prefer
to work alone, and work whenever and where ever I want. Work whenever I
am inspired like when making music. I want an artist's lifestyle, working
at home and complete freedom.


4. What are you afraid of? Especially important are phobias, but it might be objects, situations or events that just produce a high level of anxiety. How do you manage your fears? How do you react when confronted with these fears? What would be the worst situation for you to be put in that would provoke these fears? You may need to talk about each fear/anxiety separately.

Used to fear death a lot in the past couple of years. Over that now. Don't think
about it constantly anymore. This has not been something that I think too much
about for most of my life. It was only in the past couple of years, I guess when
I was depressed, not sure what I was doing with my life, didn't have much going
on in my life and started to think a lot about life, its purpose, and death.

Then I started thinking about the possibility of dying randomly at any moment.
It started to take a tole on me a lot. Like nothing else before. Fear and anxiety
all day and everyday. Even irrational fear but still affected me a lot. I don't
think I dealt with it in a good way. It wasn't anything specific. Although I
started fearing my environment and what I interact with. What I am eating, could
it be tainted? Filled with bacteria that can kill me. Buildings, earthquakes and
tall buildings crumbling. Didn't want to work anywhere above the lower floors.

I have always been kind of sensitive to height I guess. The fact that if you fall,
you pretty much cannot survive, especially if its high. So, I did not want to take
a plane anywhere. I had been on planes before when I was younger and in my teens.
But I never feared it or thought about it much. But grew very sensitive to that
fear in my 20s. Even looking down is a feeling I hate.

I don't have these fears anymore. I have a strong belief in the after life and
do not fear death anymore. Also, I don't have anxiety about death or dying
at any moment anymore. I have accepted it as a part of life and don't look at
it in a negative or fearful way anymore.


5. What hobbies do you have? Why do you like each of these activities?

Music. Music makes me feel alive. Makes me feel emotions. Gives me a good
feeling depending on the mood I am in and what I am listening to. Enjoyment.

Sports - Tennis and Basketball. It feels good to run and exercise. I like
moving a lot. I prefer moving to sitting. Makes all of my organs feel better
too.

6. Do you have any persistent thoughts, ideas or beliefs that are difficult to stop or cope with? What are they?

I used to have persistent thoughts just the ones I mentioned above about death
but do not anymore. They were difficult to stop and deal with at the time.
It was hard to calm down. I used to get panic attacks all the time back then,
which were very unusual and never happened before in my life prior to that time
period. I didn't know how to deal with the panic attacks. Not much would help.
But I would eventually calm down.


7. Do you have any unusual gestures or movements of the body? Do you feel any unusual sensation or pain throughout your body? What exactly does it feel like is happening in your body?

I used to feel something in my stomach a lot back when I was very stressed, had
anxiety, and had a lot of negative thoughts like all the things I mentioned above
from the past. The feeling in the stomach is hard to describe. Like pressure.
Trouble breathing before and while having a panic attack. Also, tightening of the
throat. Almost like a choking feeling.

Rarely, I will have a hot, burning feeling throughout my body when stressed
or having anxiety and then a sting feeling all over. It is like thousands of
pins or needles poking my body. A sharp, stinging feeling all over my body
lasting anywhere from 10 to 30 seconds to even a minute. Until I calm down and
then it goes away.

I do seem to have a lot of things effecting my throat also. Like emotions or
mental state. My voice can change due to strong emotions. Anger, sadness, etc.
Crying definitely affects my throat a lot. Harder to swallow. Even my own saliva.

I used to feel pain in my neck a lot. I am trying to get my neck straightened out
through a chiropractor. It has helped a lot and it is not hunched over like before.
It is almost straight. Also, I don't have as much back pains anymore. Like the
occasional back pain, especially lower back. But I will occasionally feel in my neck. Sometimes pain. Sometimes tension and stiffness, when I am tense I guess, nervous, emotional, stressed or anxious.

8. When you experience your fears, persistent thoughts, or difficult emotions, what kind of sensation or reactions do you get in your body?

I seemed to have answered this in question 7.


9. When did you feel at your best in your life? What was that like for you? If you imagine the complete opposite of this feeling or moment, what would that be like?

The best I guess would be as a child. I was happy everyday. Even if I was sad
or angry or any other negative feeling, I would bounce back quickly. I would
forget and move on and be happy again. I would recover from anything bad that
happened in a quick manner. Very careless about things. Enjoyed every moment
as much as I could. But I was an emotional kid too. I think emotions drive me.
Deep down it seems to be a big part of my life.

Those were some of my best years in life, growing up. A lot of fun everyday.

The opposite would be sadness. Depression. Like what I was feeling in my early
adulthood, early 20s and mid 20s. It was the worse then during this time.
Thinking a lot about things. Especially more serious matters.


10. Do you feel like you are stuck in a pattern of behavior, especially when trying to deal with your problems? What is this pattern? THIS IS AN IMPORTANT QUESTION PLEASE CONSIDER CAREFULLY AND GIVE DETAILS.

Maybe. Like, the fact that I have been more negative than anything else for the
most part of my life since my childhood. Kind of losing hope early on. Not always
but sometimes. Kind of like thinking that good things will end. When I am happy, there will be something to bring me down. To ruin everything. My joy will not last.

I guess because of past experiences. Like things will repeat again. If I was
enjoying something, a friendship or a happy day or moment, and then it will be
followed by sadness later and the good times will end.

Also, like when I get excited about something and then disappointed or lose it.
Like some things are hard to believe that they could come true or last. Like a
level of happiness and then worrying or thinking negatively that it will come
crashing down. That happiness will end. Used to think about the fact that if
I was at my happiest, then it will all eventually end through death and that
used to make me very sad. I did not want to die. But now, that fact does
not bother me anymore. I am trying to live as positively as I can, live life to
the fullest, and I think of death and the afterlife as a continuation and
a positive thing.


11. What difficulties or problems do you have in relationships? Talk about your family, your romantic relationships, your spouse or partner, your friends, and your work colleagues. You may need to talk about all of these separately.

Family - I guess talking to family sometimes can be a problem. Sometimes it
can be very helpful and rewarding. Sometimes not. Like they don't understand me.
They don't take certain things seriously, my problems. Sometimes I feel worse
telling them something or talking about something, and angrier. For the most part
though, they are supportive, sometimes not. But they are very close to me and
I talk to them about very personal things. They are always there for me. I have
a very good relationship with them overall.

Romantic - Sometimes I can be a person who just ends things because I don't
get what I want right away. Impatient. I don't take it well. Also, when things
don't work out, its hard for me to talk to someone, talk about feelings, talk
about the reason why its not working out. Its hard for me to even to keep in
touch and talk to the person who I used to have a relationship with. I have
never gotten close to anyone and had a long-term relationship. The longest
I knew and went out with someone was about 2 weeks, maybe even almost 2 weeks.
I guess it's hard for me to compromise. I can sometimes have like an
"all or nothing" personality.

Friends - Close to certain friends. Enjoy talking to them. Especially if we
have a lot in common. There are times when I do not like to do certain things
that they want to do. I give things a try at least once. Do not have a desire
or interest in certain things. Like alcohol or smoking. Especially smoking or
being around it, second hand. Good relationships with certain people. Long
lasting relationships to this day.

Co-Workers - Hard to trust and to get close to. Like worrying about a
co-worker with more power who can get me fired. Especially if they just
do not like me for whatever reason. Or especially a boss who does not
treat me well and can put you down. Can make things more stressful for you.
People who do not do their fair share of work and act as a team. Act more
like an enemy.

Some of my co-workers, I have had very good relationships with and enjoyed
their company. Including some bosses. Current situation, I enjoy working with
all of co-workers and bosses. It can also be hard for me to joke with them or
to joke with strangers in general or people I am not close with yet. Over time,
it becomes easier.


12. List 5 positive things about yourself. Are there any situations where this positive attribute becomes negative (is a problem)?

Helpful - I enjoy helping people a lot. My job revolves around helping people
with their computer problems and talking to them. I do enjoy the process and
getting acknowledged for helping. Helping people I know and strangers. Like to
help people around the world as much as I can. I take others problems seriously.

Good Individual - I think that I am a good person. That I have good intentions
in life and with people. I am a caring person, for family, friends, and fellow
man. I think that I am nice to people as much as I can be.

Ambitious - I set my mind to something and do not give up. Something that I am
really passionate about like music. Want to accomplish a lot in life. Always
setting goals for myself, short term and long term. Leaving legacies.

Focused - Have plans in my life. See the big picture in my life. Focused on
what I am doing, working on, what I want to accomplish. Stay on track.
Disciplined. Can learn quickly. Work hard. Not get distracted.

Creative - Can express myself well, whether it is in speaking, writing, or
music, etc. Easy for me to write or create songs.

I do not think that there are any situations I can think of where these can
be negative. Maybe with ambition. Like getting disappointed if I don't reach
a goal when I expected.


13. List 5 negative things about yourself. Are there any situations where this negative attribute becomes positive (is useful)?

Impatient - I can be impatient at times. I think I've always been like this
since I was a kid. I prefer things fast. Can get too excited at times and
cannot wait for something. Tired of waiting.

Perfectionist - I don't really believe in such a thing as perfect, but I seem
to try and reach it as close I can. In my work, in my music, in life, in almost
everything. That can be bad and exhausting because it can be unrealistic expectations at times. This is helpful in making others notice that I work hard
and can provide quality. Pushes me to do the best that I can and it shows.

Self-Abusive - Like being too hard on myself. Making myself feel bad when I have
not met an expectation, when things don't go my way, or make myself feel worse
after a bad event. Thinking about it too much. My mind gets bored or restless.
This affects a lot. Even my appetite I would say. Beating myself up mentally.

Negative thoughts - can at times feel prejudiced or negative about something
before it even happens. Lose hope easily. Assume things will go bad or something
bad will happen.

Anger - Do not manage it well at times. Can snap at people. Over-react.
Feel it all over my body. In my body, blood, and face.

14. Do you have any reoccurring dreams? Describe them in detail, including any feelings that come while dreaming. Dreams are very important in unlocking the deepest truth of a patient’s case, but it is not enough to simply describe them in a sentence. Give as much information as you feel comfortable doing.

No. I haven't dreamed in a long time. Like for many years. I don't remember
ever having consistent dreams. I forgot them.

15. Did you have any reoccurring dreams as a child, or earlier in your life? Describe those in detail including any feelings that came with them.

No.

16. What were you like as a child, your character, your personality, your fears, your dreams, your problems?

Very happy and positive. Smiling a lot. Even as I look back at pictures. Had a
lot of fun. Very talkative. Liked to make noise a lot. Could not sit still. It was
hard for me to do so in school and obey and not talk.

Very emotional too. Could go from crying to happiness and smiling quickly. Usually
affection or a talk from my parents would help cheer me up or others.

Didn't really have any fears. Very fearless and worry free. I remember being scared
of dogs after getting chased by one or two. But grew out of that fear.

Not too many problems. Sometimes I cared a lot about certain things. Like
friends or entertainment. Wanting whatever I wanted and not getting it. I would
get very upset and cry a lot. Got bored easily.


17. What kind of environment did you grow up in? What problems where there at home, with your family, with your parents, with your siblings, with school?

Very good, loving environment at home with my parents and sister. In Los Angeles.

Sometimes feared my father. He was very strict. Didn't understand my father
and his seriousness. Felt he was too serious all the time. Feel like I inherited
his anger and temper. Felt that he was a great father overall though. It was a
disciplined environment. Feared doing anything bad or wrong, which I think was
good for me and has made me a better person. Feel like he was too hard on me
sometimes. He does not have an easy going personality.

Didn't really have any problems with my mother. She could be scary at times too.
She would snap and scream and over-react rarely and I didn't know how to deal
with it. It's weird and scary when an adult loses control. She disciplined me
too but only when I deserved it. She was a very caring, warm, and loving person
overall. Great mother.

My sister was great company too. Sometimes we didn't get along like all siblings
but nothing out of the ordinary. Had a lot of fun times together and we are still
close today. Our family was close in general, even cousins, uncles, etc. We never
felt alone.

I did get occasionally rewarded for doing good in school or being good in general.
I liked playing video games more than anything else. They would reward me with
games or TV once in a while. Even with games, I always paid a lot of attention to
sounds and music. It affected me a lot. I guess I should have wrote this in one of
the previous questions but games are another big hobby of mine. Not as much as I
used to but still. It's the whole interaction I like. Physical interaction, the
story, the challenge, the graphics, music, etc.

Not really too many problems in school.

I hope all of this is good enough. Let me know. Thanks.
 
tonybaloni33 6 years ago
According to that mental/emotional description, I must suggest Ignatia to you.

Suppressed anger
Aversion to talking about their problems, taciturn
Pessimistic
Ameliorated by music
Loneliness
Ailments from disappointment
Ailments from loss, of friendships
Sadness and Anger coupled with disappointment
Anorexia from sadness
Lump in the throat

It would also explain why you feel you may be Nat-mur, as these two remedies are very close, often being needed by the same person.

If I look at the whole case, the way you express it, the sensitivity to loss and disappointment leans me to Ignatia. I can also see shades of Aurum here.

Ignatia 200c, one dose only, taken in diluted form. That is what I would suggest first.

Do you know how to make the dose in water?
 
Evocationer 6 years ago
Thank you so much.

No, I don't. How do you do it?

Also, it will say the dosage on it right?

I really appreciate this so much.
 
tonybaloni33 6 years ago
Hi,

I got the Ignatia 200 C.

Please let me know how to make the dose in water and I would
like to start as soon as possible.

Also, any other things I should know like don't eat anything within 30 minutes of taking dose?

Thank you.
 
tonybaloni33 6 years ago

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