Lasicviousness . _{Page 2 of 6}

It is less about sexuality more about the sensuality.
I feel and sense everything a little better and faster than others.
I sense of smell, Taste and sense of danger is very good. Even if i have a blocked nose i can still smell everything from far away.

Yes everything will be fine sir.
Thank you.
Hope to report you back with some good news. 👍🙏

Report three days after staphysagria.
I have got three large red pimples each on my arms above the elbow deep in the skin. Filled with a little pus and blood. Ears are ringing. Sometimes when i force air inside my nose my right ear closes deep inside.
Dreams are still the same.
Having pain in the stomach before stools. Sometimes at night i have pain in stomach relieved by stools.
Lot of rumbling of gas in stomach.
Gas passes out loud.w ith stools sometimes.
Im sleeping a lot these days.
Im only leaving the bed at 11 am in the morning. Somedays i sleep in the evening as well from 3 to 5.
If i dont sleep 3 to 5 i have great drowsiness. Great chilliness as well.
Have a desire to lie down all day.
During conversations with someone i am getting very forgetful. Like i can only remember the last line that person said.
Sometimes i dont understand what the other person is saying and lashing out at him in anger.
Like yesterday the property rates here in our area have increased . We are planning to sell two properties since a long time. It is kind of urgent. My uncle said that we will not sell the property ( the first one ) because the prices of the property will increase further on that site. Before that he said we will sell the second one. I had no memory he said that i just became furious inside and left the place in anger. I was brooding for an hour . Later i said to mom that he isnt planning to sell property in anger ,mom said he was talking about the other property. Then i realised everything. So my anger went away i was so much relieved. this lead to fear and pain above my right eye.
Then I went to a friend, there was a guy with him . The guy was looking at me and my friend my was saying something to him. I had a delusion that he was calling me bewakoof. I became scared and came back home.f elt that as real.
As i went to bed my mind was playing images of my friend calling me bewakoof. And i started brooding over it. Unable to sleep till 2 am. Woke up at 9 am with a sensual dream , left the bed was exhausted so slept again and woke up at 11 am . I had desire to do crazy things.
Im struggling with these two issues everyday. My anger always goes like this without understanding anything i react with anger. Im very forgetful when i am fearful/nervous. I am very hurried as well.i am very hurried when im leaving a place and going back home.
One more thing. With whomever i am angry if i talk to that person my anger grudges everything dissappear immediately. I feel very relieved after that.

One thing i forgot to mention i was talking to myself in sleep.

One more thing is i copy behaviour of others.
Like if im in a situation where i have seen my friend react i will always remember how he reacted and will react the same way.I wont think whether it is good or bad ibwill react the same way. I have great rememberance of that.

First day on medicine i was feeling very angry fuming inside. Felt like ridiculing everybody. When i was riding i was feeling very angry and impatient. Didnot want anybody to come in my way.
Second day i was in a weepy mood.i just went into my blanket and was depressed and tearful. I was feeling crazy. Like there were impulses to masturbate, to sing lewd songs.
Third day i was fearful. Was afraid of everybody. Stomach pain started. I was feeling fear , emotions in my abdomen.
The first day day i saw dreams of stools. My friends telling me why am i so fearful.
Second day i have no rememberance of what i saw.
Third day i dreamt of that women again and woke up frightened.

Ok. Will report in three days

Day 1.
Saw dreams of friends again today. Of travelling with them. Not scary dreams.
Woke up with great tremelousness throughout the body. It is still present. Having persistent thoughts of my symptoms. Before sleeping and after waking up. A kind of discussing my symptoms with you in my mind.
Writing today because later i will forget all this.

Yes i took it yesterday before sleeping.
Whenever i am starting to do any work fearful thoughts start. Like the women is gonna do something to trouble me. Even scared of cleaning my house. I feel like she is jealous of me. These thoughts scare me a lot.

Report 6 days after staphysagria.
No memory of the thing that happened 6 days back.
Apart from that Nothing has changed.
Drowsiness all day.
Constant anger.
Ears ringing .
Getting scared by loud noises. Loud noises pinching me in chest.When people around are talking loudly my ears are fluttering inside.
Needle like pain in right ear at night sometimes. Forehead pain after anger.
Cannot bear anyone around. Cannot bear to be looked at.
Depressed about my condition.
Spells of rage with swear words and cursing if aroused to anger.
Talking to myself all day when alone. Talking to myself in sleep continuously. Talking as if i am in a social situation. Imagining there are people around. Imagining myself in strange situations.
Spells of hallucinations when feared.
Hallcinations faces of people appearing followed with swear words at them. If angered by someone i will go to a silent place and recall every mistake they have done towards me and use swear words and curse them ( family members) . Mind has gone mad. Feel like family members have done nothing for me.
Aggravated by people singing songs( giving me hallucinations).Feel like they are directing that song towards me and ridiculing me. Delusions | hallucinations people ade reproaching me / scolding me | thinking that a i am mad . Impulse/ excitement to grab hold of the opposite sex if coming nearby.
Dreams of relatives , of dead bodies , of funerals.
Continuously Talking bad about people.
Fear specifically from the people i see as a potencial bully and from my old friends, relartives and Neighbours. Hallucinations they are talking bad about me, reproaching me.
Forgetfullness about recent things or things im just going to do.
If i enter a room to take my sweater after entering the room i will forget what was i here for.
After giving money to a shopkeeper i will take the change. No memory that the guy has given me change back. Will go to toilet after peeing i will be sitting there for 15 minutes doing nothing. Then will realise i am sitting here for 15 minutes doing nothing. People around are asking me questions i cannot realise that they have asked me something. Will not register. Indifferent to surroundings. Fear is felt in the abdomen. Sudden fear or hallucination or excitement is accompanied with a sudden pinch felt in the abdomen.

Desire to run away from all this.

Pain above right eye. Right nostril slightly closed. No discharge. Pimples oozing out dark red blood. Right side throat pain.three ulcers on right side at the base of the tongue. Right ear feels closed . Legs gets chilly on lying down. Whistling noise from throat at night sometimes.

I feel drowsy and intoxicated all the time.

Sometimes i feel very lonely. When i feel lonely i have desire to buy something from the market . That makes me feel good.

Yes sir. Ok.
Right row i am feeling absolutely fine.
But dont know what happens to me during that period. Talk to you after three days. Thank you.

Three days after lycopodium.


I was doing good initially, felt calm , the remedy definitely had an impact but some issues remained.
Dreams are still very bad.
I saw i was with a friend ( bf)in some other town( the guy lives in another town. ) He recently shifted to that town.
The dream changed i saw i was in a hospital my mother was getting prepared for an operation.
Again the dream changed i saw i was lying in a place. I opened my eyes in dream and realised that the place was where dead bodies are burnt.
Again the dream changed i saw me and that friend were at a riverside and the river started flooding with muddy water. But somehow we crossed it.
Again the dream changes to a temple i was in front of a deity statue. And i was taking blessing from his feet.
I always wonder why do i get these type of dreams.

I am feeling left out , unwanted with my friends. Like they dont like to see me, dont want me to be with me.
I went to a friends shop yesterday to spend some time with him. There was another friend over there.
I shook hands with both of them.
They were discussing something. I checked their expression . I felt they were talking about me that i have come there and i will stay there and will bother them for an hour. So i made an excuse of some work and left the place.
Yesterday only i called up a five years old friend . She didnot received my call. So i was feeling that i must have hurt
her off somehow and that she doesnt want to talk with me.I started thinking bad about both friends . Today evening i called her she didnot receive . I was angry . I called again she took the call . She was depressed i asked why didnt she receive the call she said her brother had an eye operation yesterday ( which is true) so i became normal with her. And then went to the other shop friend to buy something, both of them were there. This time i stayed at the place and they were like normal. So the doubt i had melt away. Otherwise i would have been in that delusion and anger for weeks.
I keep brooding over it and talk bad about those friends in front of everyone.
This state of mind is always there. My friends and mother always tell me that vaham bahut karta hai tu.
Similar reaction happens when my friends cracks jokes at me.
This happens with family members as well.
Then i will think people only want you when they need you. I should not help anyone. Everyone in the world is needy and fk them all.
This friend had dengue three months back i arranged medicines for him and gave it to him at 1 am in the morning. Im very helpful.
The second problem is again hypersexuality.
I told you about two women . I was working next to one today morning. I got so much aroused in her presence i touched her as i was working next to her. Then i started staring at her parts sneakily. This got me aroused i masturbated after that. I had to i tried to control so much but all in vain. Then i started keeping myself busy but then again after 15 mins the images i saw earlier came to my mind and i masturbated again without an erection . Again kept myself busy for around 20 minutes again images came and again i masturbated without an erection. During ejaculation i was feeling pain in my rectum. And some needle like sensation in both my feet.Again im getting attracted to her. Please help.
Yesterday night i was day dreaming in my bed about a bike i want to purchase later after a year. I was day dreaming and sleepless till about two am in morning.
Apart from all this i am getting very angry if i am catching someone looking at me. Neighbours , strangers etc. When im washing my vehicles, resting at the roof etc.Im using swear words at them in my mind like why the f you looking here. There is no party going here etc.
And last thing im feeling intense anger and hate towards my father. Two days back he scolded mother and im feeling very angry on him. Im being very sarcastic insulting towards him.
Im using swear words a lot these days with my friends .
Please help sir.

During the arousal i tend to rhyme songs with very inappropriate words.

I have hypochondriacal thoughts with anxiety in the morning too.

My throat is very painful. It is like something is pricking it from inside.
The same pain on the tip of the tongue , right eye and right ear.
The pain is worse on bending the head forward.
Both ears are constantly ringing. Pain from eye is sometimes extending to the forehead and upper part of the head.
Please suggest a remedy.

My throat is red and the down part of the tongue is very red