social anxiety : help needed from experienced homeopath

Thankyou so much sir..and really sorry i forgot to mention some important points..here they are..
1) suffered panick attacks 20 years ago..
2) as soon as i see group of people i feel my whole body becomes tense and rigid and legs feel very weak and in the pit of abdomen i feel constricted and shock..
3)suspicious of people talking about me and laughing..i hate when group of people look at me and frightened ..
4)consume a lot of tobacco and gutkha..
5) I dont want to talk to my parents and even dont want to listen them..when they try to talk i feel ireitated and frustrated..Although i feel frustrated and irritated when any one talks in group of people and at the same time i feel neglected ,small boring ,i just to run away from that place..
6)I am not connected to anyone means i have friends but i dont feel happy and enjoy..
7) In group of people i become very controlling , i dont want them to laugh ,to talk and want to be the leader of that group and if anybody break my rule i avoid the company and leave them..
8 )Highly jealous and envious of people with whom others talk and laugh..

Thankyou so much sir..

Hello sir ..
I have been taking your prescription its been 5 days..
I am feeling anxiety and ny head feels heavy..
I have written the paragraph earlier hope you look at it..
Thankyou

Hello sir..
Sir as soon as i think of going in groups i feel threatened ,scared and my whole body shivers to a degree i get panick attack..
I am afraid of people and feel very small in front of people who talk laugh and enjoy..
I dont trust people and avoid them at any cost..
I dont feel anything except fear..
I STARTED FEELING LONELY AND SAD AT A VERY YOUNG AGE OF 10..I DIDNT TALK TO ANYBODY AND would HATE the person with whom other talk..was jealous ,frustrated and irritated..
And i felt as IF NOBODY LOVES ME AND I HAVE NOT ENOUGH AND A LAUGHING STOCK..
I CANNOT MAKE EYE CONTACT WITH ANYONE AND VERY SHY..

MY FATHER WOULD BEAT ME A LOT AND MY MOTHER WANTED ME TO BE SOMEBODY ELSE
NOBODY CARED ABOUT ME..

I AM ASHAMED OF MY S3LF..LONRLY UNLOVED AND UNHAPPY AND ITS BEEN WITH ME FOR DECADES..

PLS HELP ME..

Yes sir..

Hello sir..
Sir my mother forgot to take my medicines with her..i havent taken my medicines for the last 3 days as we are out to somewhere..should i continue my meds..
Also i am taking anxiety tablets for last 2 years..
As soon as i leave it i suffer from withdrawal symptoms..
What should i do..
Thankyou..

Thankyou so much..
Yes I think i feel I lack strength to deal with some thing bad..means for eg if i someone says something which is bad i cant fight back or atleast defend myself..
I felt very bad in my teenage when somebody wont talk to me or ignore or say some harsh word at that time i wont defend mys3lf or would fight back..
I have this tendency and it got strong..
And i completely believe its because of my father who would beat me ,scold me got furious at me and would abuse me..

Hello sir..
I have been taking meds..
My body is still very very rigid and tense..
Terrified to face people..and specially group of people..very negative about people and very irritated if the person i dont like talks..
No interest in anything..
Love to be alone and hate company..
Severe boredom
Terrified of criticism ,being looked down,humiliation and laughed..
Suspicious of people talking about me and laughing at me..
Dont talk to my parents infact want to run away from them..feel irritated ,anger and avoid them..
Compare with othrr and then look down myself..
Dont trust people..
Either avoid the person who avoided,laughed ,humiliated or scolded me..
Or become highly frustraed and fight..
Its feels i am bad and not loved and i desrve humiliation and loneliness..
HATE TO SEE OTHERS HAVING FRIENDS AND TALKING WITH EACH OTHER AND BEING TOGETHER..

Sir should i continue my allopath also..i take it for anxiety and panick attacks..

Hello sir..
I took lachesis 200 , first dose on friday ,i dont know i felt that i used to fear the people reaction which was like they were saying that you dong belong here or something like nobody likes you "specially groups"..yesterday i took my second dose..
But i dont feel hungry for the last 6 days..
Also i take alot of tobacco due to which sometimes i feel i cannot take my meds..
I become restless when there are lot of people..
Why i dont feel empathy..and my libido is very low..

Hello sir i took lachesis a week ago..i dont know did it effect me..i cant tell you..
But i remenbered one thing that when i was about 12-13 years of age i was greatly affected by my friend he could easily talk with others i too wanted to be same each time itried i failed..i wanted to listen good about me as my father really physically hurt me a lot and my mother was critical and would always compare me..
This friend of mine ,i just wanted to be like him and i failed everytime i was very lonely ,nobody talked to me and i started feeling jealousy i didnt want to see him hear him ..but evryone would talk to him ..the other who used to be with him i cound not face them as if i was rejected and abondened ..i would hide myself..i stopped going outside thinking that they would make fun of me ..if simebody would say or do anything which hurt me i felt deep pain and i would not stand against him or would avoid him ..this kept on happening with me ..loneliness and boredom would always be qith me..
I was in exqruitiating pain ..but i was very attracted to girls ..but i knew i woild be a failure and i am bad and i desrve to be alone and unhappy..
The feeling of sadness ,worry,rejection ,abandonded ,unlove are with with me and even sfronger after 25 years ..
I cant face people thats why i lost my carrier coulndnt become successfull..
Yesterday people i know they were going outside but nit even a single one bothered to take take me with them as if they knew that i dont belong there ..
What i know believe is that the pain and sadness and helplessness that i suffered from my parents ..they made me feel bad ..and i became a bad person..
My physical symptoms as soon as i go outside i feel my stomach becomes extended and i feel it very hard and my whole body is so tense and rigid i cannot tell you..my face is very very tense and i feel my mind foggy and i feel i would fall down..
I have no dreams and happiness ..i am totally focussed on protecting me at any cost from getting hurt..
Thankyou..

Same as 15 drops sipping after 15 min mixed in an ounce of water..

Hello sir..i took carcinisin 200 ..i was bit calm..
Should i take another dose..

Hello sir..
Means i must not take any remedy not even carcinocin..
Or
Take carcinicin and no other remedy..