Social Anxiety Disorder : Please somebody take my case.

Please don't reply yet. I have to add more details.

Anon

I suffer from inferiority complex. I am 5 ft tall, 120 lb wt, I look good, but still i feel inferior. I am afraid to approach people, since i didn't know how to behave. I always think 'what other people think of me'.
Eventhough i make friendship, i cannot prolong conversation, which leaves our friendship wherever it is.That teans which never moves further. Everybody remains as aquaintance. No close friends.

Suppose for the first time i made a friend and talked to her about whatever i can talk about. whatever comes to my mind. When i meat next time the same person, i don't know what to talk about which leaves me in an awkward situation. I always think what to talk about. And i think what they think of me.

I feel inferior in every thing, Even in cooking food also. My kids don't love to eat what i make. I feel angry at them. I talk merciless to them like 'from tomorrow i won't cook anything for you. Eat garlic bread , chips whatever you like'. They won't eat any veges. I feel angry at them and at the same time i feel guilty, may be i am not making any variety food, but i know they don't want to try any new food i make.

I am always thirstless. I won't remember to drink water. When i remember i drink some water.

I like sweets very much.

I have joint stifness in the shoulders. I don't have any health problems . Not even headaches. I have two kids.

Menstrual cycle regular 25-28 days. Usual menstrual cramps . not severe. menses lasts for 4 days. bright red.

I feel comfortable sitting at home. but feel sad about it. I want to be more outgoing. I want to join some course , but can't because, i know i will be miserable, and boring without making any friends.

I love listening to good music. I feel happy while listening to good music. Sometime, i get tears in my eyes when i hear sad love songs.

Talking about God.
I have faith in God. But not much into spiritual things.
I pray god every day, I feel guilty when i don't find time to pray god.

I am forgetful.

I am more nice to outside people than my family.

I am afraid of people critisizing me.

I am afraid to go and talk to people who are popular.

I think i am done giving details now.

Can somebody reply now.
Ask me if you have any questions.

Anon

I keep postponing things since i don't have courage to do. like calling some people on the phone, and going to some shop i never went. I afraid to drive to new places. I affraid to judge things while driving , that's why i am afraid of going to places i never went before.

Eventhough i drive, I am afraid to get gas for the car. When one time i went i couldn't fill the gas properly, i had to ask somebody to help, which made me embarassed and from then i never went.

Sorry, i keep adding details,

In my childhood I was always like day dreaming if some new girl comes in my class, I have to become close friend with her etc etc but never did. Now also i do that. I never went to a shop to buy anything in my childhood. So when i was a teenager i was getting very tensed to go and buy anything, i was getting blushes and sweat.

Now also In India, If some person was selling something on the road in the cart i feel tensed to go and buy. I cannot neggotiate. I will take it whatever the price is.

And I am indecisive can't just make a decision.

I get worried for everything.

Regarding neatness:

I like my house to be very clean but lazy to do that.
I don't like doing house work.
But while cooking i am very nea,t i wash my hands even i touch the computer mouse in the middle of cooking. And i don't like it when my husband wipes his face with my towel or my kid's towel. I don't like when he licks his finger sometimes, i want him to wash his hand immediately.

I can't bear the sweat smell when my husband wanders around without wearing a shirt.

I don't get ideas. i.e if somebody gives me some art supplies and asks me to do some thing out of it, my mind goes blank. I could't get any ideas. i.e i am not creative.

I cannot even make up astory. my thinking capacity is less.

I gave lot of details. If somebody replies then i will proceed.

Anon

Thanks Pankaj, I know I could count on you.

You helped me in the depression case, I hope you remember.

http://abchomeopathy.com/forum2.php/6628/2
http://abchomeopathy.com/forum2.php/9777/3

I had some improvement with sepia and Aurum and then didn't take anything.

One week back I took Anacardium 200C , 3 doses.

Now As per your advice i started taking Gelsimium 200 C. For now i took 2 doses. You said i have to take for 4 days , 2 doses each day. I will do that.

Thanksyou very much. I hope that you guide me in this until I am free from my social phobia.

Anon