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ok. thanks.

I just finished another round of antibiotics today, I had not been able to complete the last one due to it causing an allergic reaction in the baby. Seemed like it was going to be OK but then ended up with another UTI. Feeling mostly all better now.
I just bought Calc Carb 200ck. Wanted to see if I could go ahead and give it a try. I've been having to dose about every 4 or 5 days with the 30c.

Also I've been concerned about my kidneys. They seem to be aching pretty frequently, sometimes just in the morning, sometimes all day, sometimes off and on and then I notice it most when I lay down. I also noticed that while I had the kidney infection a month ago, that during that time, I had some bulging varicose veins in my labia. The varicose veins have been there since after my first son was born 6 years ago, but they have been flat. Just a dark spot where veinous blood is near the surface. During the infection though, each one felt like a little round bead under the skin. Also I had a headache during the infection until it subsided. I do get headaches often, and I'm wondering if they're related to poor kid ey function. Also the varicose veins have been swollen often even though the infection is supposedly cleared up. Ultimately I'm worried about long-term kidney problems and wanting to make sure my kidneys don't fail on me. My docs don't seem to be concerned and I can't get in to my urologist until September.

I'm not sure how many doses total, I haven't been keeping track. Last dose was maybe 5 days ago. Really feeling like I need it today. Everything the kids do wrong makes me so angry with them, like I'm sorry I even had them in the first place. I don't like feeling that way, but they are driving me crazy.

Ok will do. Thank you!

I don't know if I'm getting an aggravation from the Calc Carb 200c, but I am feeling a lot worse the last few days. Very, very angry and irritable. Feeling hopeless. Tired but not wanting to go to bed because of hopelessness and despair. Teary a bit today. I feel like I could ki for a good night's sleep.
We had company over night before last, and just the cleaning, socializing and being up a little late completely ruinedy my day today. Exhausted, wanted to be left alone, I don't want to even be touched.
Sex is getting painful again, like an irritated feeling. It used to be like that always before I had a problem with my kidney surgically fixed 6 years ago. It seemed like the problem was coming back during this last pregnancy with my youngest, and I had to go and get it fixed again 7 months ago. Now it feels like it's worsening yet again, and noticeably more since taking the 200c. We had sex last night and it was hard to enjoy. Plus feeling so irritable and angry this morning, I feel like my time would have been better spent sleeping last night.
The first few days after taking the remedy, I felt almost a little too "on", like I had energy but in an overstimulated way. Now I have pretty much just crashed and feel like I am at the end of myself.
If I don't hear back from you soon, I'm just letting you know I'll be antidoting this remedy because I can't go on like this.

Also I'm noticing those varicose veins I have are bulging all the time now.

Thank you. After searching online earlier today, I did a dose of Calc Carb in 30c. I hope that was OK. So far I seem to be feeling a bit better.

Any thoughts on what I should do next? Continue taking 30c every few days, or try again on 200c? I'm starting to feel depressed again today, but had been feeling really great the last two days after antidoting.

I definitely won't be able to wait 15 days between doses. Needing a dose every 3-5 days tight now. Advice?

One question, I have the Calc Carb as pellets, how many do I use?

Thanks.

You know, I don't really know if this Calc Carb is the best fit for me. The 30c isnnot really helping much, if at all, and I believe I'm getting aggravations on it. For example I took it last night, and this morning I feel like crap (the baby did wake me a lot), my heart has been racing even more, I have a headache, I'm tired, my eyes don't want to focus, feels like I just want to close them because of the headache. For the past month my appetite has been so-so---feeling hungry but nothing sounds good. I still eat, but just because I don't like feeling hungry, not because I'm enjoying my food.

Sorry. Hit send too soon.
Anyway, the 200c was not an experience I'd like to repeat, yet the 30c seems to be losing its action on me and just aggravating. Honestly the best day I had recently was when I used the 30c to antidote the 200c. I had one really great day after that, and then back to mediocre/bad. I never feel rested, even when I get 10 hours of sleep. I feel like life is just awful most of the time and it's hard on my kids with me this way. It's just not helping enough.

Well, we have all been doing rather poorly to be honest. We're all sick except my oldest son. The middle one was hospitalized last month for GI problems they thought might have been appendicitis but as far as we know, was not (they never could see the appendix on the imaging). He still is having a lot of minor problems.
The baby had surgery and has been very fussy and hard to get to sleep ever since the first hospitalization prior to surgery.
The oldest is ok but still wets the bed and still somewhat passive-aggressive.
And I'm still struggling with depression. I had thought I would have to go on more antidepressants but so far have been putting it off.

Hi there. So I think I will just ramble a little about myself and see if it gives you any insights as to a particular remedy. The Calc Carb was helping but stopped, and a higher potency only aggravated.

As a little girl, I was a daydreamer, very imaginative. Kind of sloppy. Tended to cry easily (I was labelled a crybaby by my mom). My mom used to say of me, "You are on another plane of existence which only slightly intersects ours." She would say it, I think, meaning I was imaginative, but aa I grow older I wonder, was she right? Sometimes I feel I was not made for this world. It is too harsh, too demanding, too difficult. If I was made for somewhere else, then where is that place? How do I cross over without hurting everyone I love here? I would love nothing better than to escape far away, but responsibilities here keep me stuck in place. I could never leave. I have to fulfil my duty. If I leave, I'd hurt everyone. And yet I feel that i already hurt everyone by existing. I feel I am broken, that I can't fix myself, and that no one else can fix me, either. I am doomed to go on being a perpetual failure and failing to be what everyone so easily does (or so it feels).
I have a lot of repressed feelings. A lot of internal tension, keeping it all in check so I can go on functioning as best I can. If I were to acknowledge those feelings, they would probably be that I am weak, incompetent, and that I will fail. But if I ignore the feelings, I can at least go on. I think if I gave in that it would end with collapse for me, inability to continue functioning.
Growing up we had our place in the family. I had to please my mother by being strong and capable. But I was always a lazy slob. However I could please her by being smart, and I excelled at learning (though didn't always have a lot of interest in school. In fact I hated it). My dad wanted pleased by my sister and I remaining aa little girls, always fawning over him and making him feel like the best dad ever. When we grew older and wanted to be more independent, and started dating, he was very hurt and withdrew. He only knew how to relate on the level of a child, not an adult. To this day he still wants me to be the adoring daughter and relive the past with him. I try not to talk to him at all.
In my late teens I was ambitious (I thought) and saved up to go to Bible college. My plan was to become a worship leader (like my dad). I thought it was what I wanted. I still think I could have been one, if it had worked out. I thought maybe I'd meet my future husband there. I spent a year there, was too shy and was still the odd one out just like in grade school. I wasn't cool enough, wasn't social enough, wasn't modern enough. The church I was going to was a megachurch and didn't need me as a worship leader. I was in the choir, one of maybe 50 people. They wouldn't have noticed if I'd left.
I finished Bible college, barely, completely burnt out and discouraged. I tried to go after my dream and it failed. I love to sing but since then, have resisted being part of a worship team at churches I have attended.
I feel that college was my "defining moment" in life and, unfortunately, it showed me up for a failure. I regret ever going and wasting that year of my life.
Ever since then, life has gone poorly for me. I had been doing well financially beforehand, but have struggled ever since. After marriage, my husband moved us a lot, and in the process I have lost a lot of possessions. I'm the type that likes to collect little knickknacks and bits of lace or pretty fabric, and I have had to give up many of the little sentimental comforts I once had. Since our most recent move to Alaska our storage was broken into and I lost some more of my things. All my jewelry, which we can't afford to replace. As each year goes by I feel more and more like a shadow of myself. I have had to suppress and suppress my own desires for sake of family, or for lack or money, that I feel almost dead inside. I have almost nothing left to go on for, except I have to keep going because my kids depend on me. They take what little of me is left, and even what I didn't know I had, they take that too. Even something as simple as a hood night's sleep is now impossible. Used to be, I needed 10 hours of sleep a night to be optimal. I haven't hardly had one decent night's sleep since my oldest was born 6 years ago. Overall I just feel very unfortunate in life and like there is nothing I can do to change it. Life is inexorable, all I can do is adapt or die trying. Sometimes I wonder if it will kill me, the trying.

Physically I seem to be sluggish in every way. Slow digestion, constipation, dry skin, tired all day, no motivation or zest fpr life, I feel slow mentally. I feel I used to be smarter when I was younger. I have to search for words now...I often take longer to say what I want to say. I don't want to socialize, don't want to go outside. Just want to sit and read or play games on my phone, or be on social media. I dislike the housework but do it because I have to. I dont keep up on it very well.

Mentally I feel anxious and stressed all the time. It's like I'm slow externally but too fast internally. Every little demand makes me anxious. I have a lot of performance anxiety. Especially with sex. I've become averse to it. It's just one more expenditure of energy I don't have. It's last on my list. Once in awhile it's enjoyable, but sometimes it makes me more tired and irritable the next day.
I feel like my body is just shutting down all non-essential functions. Like I'm just doing the bare minimum to survive in life. Yet I wonder, how is it that i perceive my life has been so hard, when many have survived much worse and bounce back OK from it? In the same way my body is slow to heal from scrapes and bruises, my soul refuses to heal from past hurts. It just spins out, continually feeling the pain but shutting it off and numbing it up. Never healing. I get tired of having to work on myself, to work through things. I did a lot of that in my mid-20s and I got tired of being weak. I want to be strong. But I can't. My strength is gone. Or perhaps I can never be strong, because I am naturally weak.

I will try it. The Sepia stopped working after my baby was born, 10 months ago, but perhaps the Calc Carb cleared whatever was preventing it from working? At any rate, it's worth a try. Thanks!