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I will try it. The Sepia stopped working after my baby was born, 10 months ago, but perhaps the Calc Carb cleared whatever was preventing it from working? At any rate, it's worth a try. Thanks!

Okie dokie.

I think the Sepia is actually helping some. I got woken up all night by all 3 kids last night, and then the oldest woke me at 3 am saying he wet the bed because he forgot to put on his Pull-up. Well, it was the last straw when I realized it was his last Pull-up and I didn't think we could afford to buy any more. I laid awake in bed worrying and crying for awhile, and then wanted to go out for a walk in the middle of the night. Well, normally, I would talk myself out of it, because that was "crazy" and because I might be needed at home. I decided to go out anyway, went for a short drive and parked and looked at the stars. I was only gone for 45 minutes but I felt like it refreshed me. I saw 3 shooting stars and the night was beautiful.
Normally I would have just dismissed my own desires in favor of doing the "right" thing, but this time I did the "wrong" thing (did what I wanted) and it worked out well. I think the Sepia helped with that.

All right. Thanks

I think it's been about a week.
I feel the Sepia did well at first. I felt it gave me strength to start doing more of the things I want to do.
About 3 or 4 days ago, I called my dad who I haven't really spoken to since he cheated on my mom and they got divorced. I finally started to tell him how I felt about what he did. The conversation actually ended positively with him explaining what happened and it being a huge difference from what I thought happened. I feel once I can incorporate this information emotionally, it will help me a lot.

But now I feel like the Sepia has gone to excess and I am just irritated all day by my kids. I don't even want to be around them. When they cry about something I just feel aggravated, I don't feel sympathy. I just want everything and everyone to GO AWAY and stop needing me.
At first I felt a small uncrease in my desire for sex but now, it too, has gone. I feel I maybe have an interest in it somewhat, but not in being together with my husband. I really just want him to leave me alone, too.
I'm feeling a lot of anger overall--angry that now I have to re-write my memories about my dad, since they were in error for 10+ years. Angry that I can't just go away and be alone to process all this. Angry that my husband has to need me, too, on top of all the stupid things the kids need and want. They are clinging to me like crazy and crying about every little thing. The baby is grumpy all day and I have to constantly hold him, and then he needs me all night, too. I'm angry that my husband thinks I should be fine after 6 or 7 broken hours of sleep each night. I have always needed 10 hours to be optimal, and I never get it. So yeah, I'm flipping grumpy.

I also have had a worsening of some physical symptoms. I have had a sore throat the last 3 weeks, and it got a little worse at first with the remedy. It has died down a bit, but seems to get worse when I'm irritated. The dry skin on my right fingertips has gotten a lot worse. I have a crack in the tip of my right thumb that is hurting.
My left hip started hurting yesterday like it was out. Night before last was an awful night with the middle child waking up crying every hour. It ended up being because he pooped his diaper in the night and didn't tell us, and had an awful diaper rash. But just was saying his tummy hurt and not telling about the diaper. So yesterday I was exhausted and my hip hurt. I don't feel like I ever get enough sleep.

Seems like I start the day grumpy and tired, and i don't feel awake or want to do anything until about 1pm. Then I start to want to get some housework done. Then I want to stay up late because i feel more awake, but wake up tired in the morning.

Constipation is not a problem anymore.

Ok, thank you.

This is not working. How do you antidote Sepia.

Am I wrong asking to antidote it? Every day I'm getting so angry at my kids. Today I was screaming at them. I just can't see going on like this. I'm sure you could say it's that I'm going backwards through ailments, back to how things were for me a few months ago, but unless you can assure me its only going to be a few days or a week in this state, I dont think I can handle it.

I mean, what is the Sepia supposed to do? Is it supposed to help me just cope with existing circumstances, or is it supposed to make me so angry that I leave my husband and children? Because I feel like its just getting worse and worse until the only way to make it better will be to leave. I don't have a way that I can take little breaks away from the kids. I have no options to re-energize or escape to take time for me. It's either all or nothing, there's no in between. We don't have any money to hire babysitters, all our family is thousands of miles away, and I have no help other than when my husband is home. He works 10 hour days and is exhausted when he gets home. Then on the weekends he likes to help with the fire department, then Sunday is church, more time and energy I have to waste, and then it's Monday again and my husband is gone. I cant keep going on like this.

I feel like all Sepia did was stir up my anger. It seemed to be helpful the first few days but, after that, it all went downhill.
Now I feel so disappointed and disillusioned about homeopathy. I feel like so many times it gives me false hope. Too many times of that, and I will end up signing off of it forever. I can't handle getting my hopes crushed. I'm already very low to begin with, so it hurts a lot to be elevated falsely only to crash down to an even lower low than before. I really don't know what to do. Do I even try again for myself? Nothing is working anymore. I feel like I will just have to be miserable the rest of my life and I can't bear that. If it's to be this way, I will have to find a way to shorten the suffering. It's cruel to be forced to go on when all you want to do is stop.

I took 30c of Sepia tonight, I don't have 6c and would have to order it by mail as the local store only carries 30c.

I'm sorry for my outburst. I'm feeling more myself today. The 30c likely helped. I had a cup of coffee this morning, too, just in case. It was interesting, because all of a sudden, yesterday, coffee sounded good. Normally I never drink it, too bitter. I wonder if my body knew I needed to antidote the remedy.

I don't feel awesome, I still feel a little down. But much better than the last few days.

I wonder if I should order the LM potency. If I am able to, which LM would I get? Or should I try something like 6c?

Is it true that there are different LM's, like LM 5, LM 6, etc?

By the way, the dry patches on my right hand (fingertips/pads of fingers) is worsening. They are dry, reddened, peeling and cracking.

Nothing new, I mean I use cleaning chemicals now and then, but the same ones as always.
As a child, I always had cracks in my index finger and thumb on my right hand in the winter. I do now, as well, but the redness, dryness and peeling of the fingertips/pads of fingers is new. However, the same thing happened when my hormones went wacky a few months after the birth of the last baby. It got better, but has been worsening in the last month or two.

I use it, but it doesn't help much.

No, but I do have some olive oil. I'll give it a try. Thanks.