Anxiety, speaking in public

Hello,

I would like to kindly ask you for your advice and help. I have problem with anxiety and speaking in the public.

I am 34 years old woman
Single, no children
Height: 160 cm, weight 53 kg
Dark haired, blue eyes, pale face
In opinion of other people I am good-looking.
University education, I work in human resources.

I have problems with speaking in the public and anxiety at all. It is really torture for me, when i have to present something at work, speak in the public. Especially in front of my boss or some higher authority. I fear of embarassing and humiliation. It is even worse, when I have to stand up than to sit. Am very nervous, can not speak, my voice is shaky. I am very responsible, self- controlled person. If I feel safety I am talkative, making jokes, amusing other people, smiling a lot.
I suffer from low self-confidence. At school I did not have problems with speaking in public, but I was also very anxious, sensitive,introvert child – everything had to be done on time and correctly, for example my homeworks (my parents did not have to controll me), my marks had to be very good,. When teacher spoke louder I immediately started to be nervous and anxious.

(As 4 years old child I used to go to kindergarten. I did not want to speak with anybody there, I just sat in the corner, I played alone, I did not play or speak with other children. I wanted to stay with mother at home. One of teacher was very bad, unlikable, did not like children, looked like a witch, I was afraid of her very much.


Other – lower backache, right part of back is weak. Stiffness of joints, especially right hip joint. A little bit short-sided Keratosis pilaris on my arms. Cellulite on legs and buttocks. As small child chronic middle ear supporation.
Cold feet and hands.

Food aversion – cooked potatoes or starchy food (fried potatoes not problem). I do not like coffeine.
I like eating fruit, chicken, eggs, milk products,vegetable, hot drinks (tea),
Not thirsty, I almost do not drink.

If somebody can help me, I will appreciate this.

Thanks a lot

Jirina