Help for CFS and joint pain _{Page 3 of 14}

Dear Sameer,

It´s about 4 weeks since the M dose. The first two days I felt better, more energized and in a good mood. Then I had 10 days with severe irritation and frustration, very difficult! Then this released and I had very good 2 weeks. Feeling very happy and full of energy. I still do have times when I am tired and a little depressed...I also have cravings for sweet...Yesterday and today I am very tired and also a little down mentally...

To summarize the M dose has done a good job so far. I have much more energy now. The question is if it is still working...I am not sure, some days are good and some are a little down...How do I know?

Thanks Pia

Okej, I will do that. I also think it´s the best to wait at least some more weeks so I can see a pattern more clearly...right now I am confused with the symptoms...but if you talk generally I am better than ever...so I am very very thankful and optimistic...

pia

I will try to write down my symptoms but you need to consider that right now it´s very difficult for me to see them clearly...I feel that so much inside of me has changed and I have had so many different thoughts and feelings. Many fears have come up and disappeared...much old stuff is coming up...some goes away and some won´t let go...

First of all, every symptom I write here is better now than from the beginning:

fysical: have mild joint pain (probably because I am much stronger and do a lot of fysical work), still have moments and even full days of total lack of energy, I can do a lot of fysical work now but have more problem with mentally work, itching in anus for one week, craves sweet

Mental: pending between feeling very stressed (pulsating in forehead and feeling dizzy) and feeling calm, must lie down and relax and doing some sort of meditation to get in balance again frequently, irritated sometimes, mentally work tires me enourmously and therefor I have trouble to manage my work, I feel full of energy in the mornings but after a few hours of thinking, talking to people and writing and so on I feel totally exhausted and dizzy again, when stressed I have problems to remember words, names and keep apart my dutys at work, I feel fear inside of me, in the stomach there is a constrained feeling and also shivering feeling, if I think about it I fear of being left alone, not being good enough, making mistakes, not being loved...It´s like I always blame myself in every situation, everything in the world seems to be my responsibility and my fault, I hear many people they blame other and circumstances but I always feel guilty, always pushing myself down, even if it´s not my fault and I know logically that I do my very best...I demand too much of myself in every situation, cannot accept any less than perfect, must be a perfect mother, have perfect home, garden, give my family perfect food....I don´t do all of this and therefor I am always critical and angry with myself as I think that I am lazy and messy and so on...this is so stupid ;)

I have forgotten to tell you also that I always have BIG problem remembering people´s names.

Please ask me questions as I don´t remember everything...

Regards Pia

Well, I used to be more dominating but now I feel more of a yielding disposition. I am more relaxed and let things be the way they are...

I have still problem with PMS and last month I was very irritated but this time I am more sad and tired during PMS-time.

I think pulsatilla is likely to be the best choice but I can see some alikes in lycopodium too...

The following do match with me from pulsatilla:

* There is often a strong family figure in the patient's life. She needs support and reassurance. The patient is also deeply emotional, sentimental and sympathetic
* The patient blushes easily and feels embarrassed from slight causes.
*One of the main characteristics of the Pulsatilla patient is the ease with which she weeps. She frequently weeps in the office when telling about her problems.
*strong desire for tenderness and reassurance in the typical Pulsatilla patient.
*The patient is very emotional yet the moods are very changeable. She is soft and weepy one moment and irritable the next. Many prescribers early in their career are surprised to find how irritable the Pulsatilla patient can become. This occurs generally if the patient needs attention and feels she is deprived.

I also read that Pulsatilla is very changeable, the symptoms change all the time, maybe that´s why I have BIG trouble describing them for you, they are not the same...
Regards Pia

If those questions are pulsatilla then NO :)

Have trouble standing up to authority of stronger people in family ? NO

Very easily convinced ? NO

Posessive / Jealous ? NO

Fastidious/Cautious about small things like taking care of your skin or following doctor's advice very carefully ? NO

Stay happy as long as loved ? Maybe

Shyness ? NO
Are you more of a follower or a leader ? more of a leader

Well I guess this means lycopodium ;) ? So much for me studying homeopathy :) Well I do relate to the lack of selfconfidence at work, and also some stage fright (worse before) ...

Which are the questions for lycopodium?

Best regards Pia

This is what George vithoulkas writes about lycopodium:

'First of all, we will study the constitution, that is to say, the general character of the drug. We find Lycopodium indicated most frequently in emaciated persons who are muscularly weak; the mind, however, is well developed. Particularly is this noticeable in children. There is a predisposition to liver troubles, and also to affections of the lungs; the face is often pale and sallow; the eyes being sunken and surrounded with dark bluish circles. Often, too, the face is furrowed with creases and wrinkles, indicating deep-seated disease. The face readily flushes, the cheeks become red. This is often so in the evening and after eating. As to temperament, the Lycopodium patient is rather impatient and irritable, easily getting angry. At other times, sadness or tearfulness is well marked. When sick, such patients are apt to become domineering and rather imperious in manner; or to consider themselves of great importance and those about them of no importance, so they order others about with an angry vehement manner. As to the intellectual part of the mind, we find the memory always weak. Thus we find the drug often indicated when there are frequent mistakes in speech. The patient forgets words or syllables.'

And I recognize myself in this very much....but as you can see I am a beginner and recognize myself in many remedies....so it´s up to you to decide ;)

Best regards Pia

Well, in my words: When sick I feel that all responsibilities (especially household, children, familyduties) is ovewhelming for me. I feel like I am the only one taking care of all this and I guess I am ordering my husband with an angry manner :(

Short answer: YES

Yes, right! I also come into passive almost apathetic state because everything feels overwhelming...and this make the guilt even worse. I have problem getting things done, get started with things.

After some thinking I am unsure about this. I sometimes really dislike my obligations. The passive state may be a way to run away from them. I have had periods when I felt stuck in my familysituation almost like a prison. Mostly concerning my eldest boy´s condition which is always a big issue for me. And I frequently have had this thought of just wanting to get away, to be alone and just rest...

I have D30 but I guess this is to high. If so I will order the 6C together with the carcinosin for my son...

Thanks Pia

Dear Sameer,

-a slow positive reaction
-different thoughts about myself, more selfconfident especially at work
-nervousness and fear in stomach reduced
-inner strength is replacing
-some vivid dreams about fears the first 2 nights, not now
-better sleep
-lot of gas, flatulence
-constipation reduced
-first 2 days very tired now better

I´m becoming a different person Sameer. This is the way I am! I can feel that the layers that didn´t belong to me is peeling off...

I guess we will continue with 30c? Time to order?

I don´t have words...I send you all my love :)

Pia

I have the 30c lycopodium now.
Status:
-still inner strength
-stronger both mentally and fysically, more stable
-new good feelings about my capacity especially at work, the fear of making mistakes is much better
-generally good spirit and energylevel, not tired
-last 3 days some irritation though and less patience
-the last nights I have had some nightmares again, mild though...one common theme is me packing my stuff in a hurry and escaping from some male dangerous...
-constipation has coming back again...not feeling empty after stool...

What do you think? Is it time for the 30C?

I also want you to know Sameer that I´m now living an active life and I am able to do a lot of fun things, like riding horses and so on...I have my life back :)

Pia

I forgot to mention that I´ve had some spots/pimples in my face and neck this week. They are almost gone now...